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Alexia open the door to her mansion, walking through the mansion dropping off armor as she went. Blood had caked her hair and her skin, making her feels disgusting and sticky. "Hawke! Where have you been and why are you soaking in blood?" Alexia sighed popping off her chest plate letting it hit the floor. "I was helping a friend," she said in reply. Bodand, rushed over picking up armor and taking it to the study for Sandal to clean and work on. "Messire, should I run a bath for you?" Bodand asked looking between the two women staring each other down. "Yes, please." She said turning from her mother. Her mother rushed over and made Alexia look her in the eye, "you mean you were out with that elf slave," her voice was full of poison.
Slave. Slave. Slave. Elf slave. Elf.
Finally Alexia snapped, "Fenris is not a fucking slave and he never will be again, he is kind and loving which you are not," Alexia turned toward the fire away from her mother. "Do not think for a second you bought this house back, I did, I have risked my life for your happiness." She heard her mother gasp, and a second later she heard the manison door slam shut. Her mother had left and Alexia didn't care where she ended up. "Messire, your bath is ready," Bodand said from behind Alexia. "Thank you," she turned to go to the bath. Soaking away all her problems.
After her bath, Alexia layed in bed with only her robe on giving Bodand the rest of the night off so she could have time alone. She flipped through pages of a book Merril had given her on Elven folk lore. She was fascinated by the story of the dread wolf, but the story of the elven couple made her happy and sad. She could never finish the end because she knew it was tragic.
"Messire, there is an elf man here to see you," Oriana said quietly from Alexia's door. "I thought I gave you the night off?" Oriana looked terrified of Alexia, but had relief when she handed her some coin. "Here go spend this on whatever you like," Alexia said and with that Oriana left the mansion. Leaving only Fenris and her here. "I've been thinking of today," Fenris started when he saw Alexia standing at the doorway. "I thought I had moved on, but when Haedriana came back I knew I was still chained," he hung his head in remorse. When Alexia place her hand on his, he slowly lifted his head. "Haedriana deserved what she got, but Fenris you are free, the only one chaining you is you." He slowly stood up turning away from Alexia, "I shouldn't have troubled you with this." Alexia thought it best for him to have some time but right now she didn't want to be alone. She wanted him. Alexia grabbed his shoulder, knowing he didn't liked being touch because of the pain but she couldn't let him go. "Fenris." He markings lit with lyrium spreading across his whole body and into hers. Alexia could feel its power pushing into her mind. Speaking of unmentionable power that should make her afraid. But Alexia wasn't afraid, she leaned in slowly to kiss Fenris. Giving him time to leave if he wanted to but he pushed back against her lips. He didn't leave, he rushed to meet Alexia's lips. Pushing his body into hers, his cold metal pushed against her warm skin. His marking flared brightly under her touch, his lips pushed harder and his hands roamed farther. Alexia jumped amd wrapped her legs around Fenris's waist, he carried her up to her bedroom throwing her onto her bed.
He pulled off her robe, revealing her scared body. A star shaped scar on her hip from an arrow, others from swords and daggers slicing across her stomach. Fenris kissed and lick along her thighs and across her folds. His tongue was placed perfectly on her clit, swirling around while his fingers twisted into her, slowly drawing out her moans and gasps for more. Alexia wrapped her hands in his hair pulling softly at each wave of pleasure. Fenris pulled back and slicked himself in salivia before slowly pushing into her. Alexia winced as he stretched her open with himself. Fenris stopped when he was halfway inside, afraid that Alexia would hurt too much with how tight she was. Nerves were always high with new partners. Fenris worked slow and methodical while pushing and pulling, aiming each time for her sweet spot. He kissed her neck and nibbled on her ears, making her moan more as she tighten around him. Her tightness was starting to become too much for him, he looked into her eyes for permission to cum. When Alexia's eyes locked with his, she pulled his face down and kissed him softly as he thrusted one last time pushing them before over the edge.
Alexia woke with her body feeling raw and cold. She moved to sit on the edge of the bed watching Fenris. He was fully dressed and stared into the fire, he looked sad. "Was it that bad?" Alexia asked, she meant to sound teasing but her anxiety pulled at the strings of her heart. "No it was fine," Fenris turned to her just in time to watch Alexia's face fall in horror. "No, that wouldn't sufice, it was the greatest experience I have ever had in my life." He was trying to be sweet but his voice was tight. "Was it your markings?" Alexia asked standing to reach out to him, but her lower region protested. He turned away again, his eyes blazed with emotions of the fire. "I started to remember my life before, before the markings." Alexia thought Fenris would be happy to remember his life before, but by his voice it must have not been want he wanted. "I'm sorry Alexandria, I can't do this," with that he turned to leave. Alexia bolted off the bed reaching out to him, but the pain inside was too much so she leaned against the bed. Tears felt down her face as she choked out her words. "Fenris please we can work through this," but he didn't stop as he continued to leave. Alexia was silent with her crying until she heard the door of the manision close.
She fell to the floor, feeling her knee push hard into the wood. She clawed at her carpet covering the floors, screaming until her throat felt raw. She beat her fist into the ground, cursing herself for being a damn fool into falling in love. She cried until she had no tears and was left on the floor long after the fire had died down. Alexia didn't want to move, she wanted to let the darkness consume her. She got up slowly, the pain was barely there but was a horrible reminder the what Fenris did. She wanted to drown away her sorrows, which she did with an old friend of booze. She sat in the empty mansion, her naked body exposed to the lonely home. Around her fourth bottle she felt perfectly happy to stop drinking for the day. The sunrise was soon coming and so was her hung over. Her mother wouldn't bother her after the arguement they had. Hawke laughed with bitterness. Her mother had been right, Fenris wasn't good enough to have as a partner. She dragged herself up to her bedroom, throwing off all her blankets into the fire and closing the curtains. Later she would bathe to get rid of Fenris's stench.
Alexia closed up on herself laying naked on her bed, cold and alone.