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Hi everyone, I am sorry that I haven’t updated for a long time and have been off of here and my social media stuff. I didn’t want to make it a big deal, but I have been couch surfing/homeless for the last 2 years or so. I often have to walk with a cane now and I have a wonderful dog who is a medical alert dog who tells me if I am going to have a bad vertigo spell or if I am going to faint. I have a lot of health issues and although I have been looking for a job like crazy, I haven’t managed to get one, even with good references and job experience. Even Wendall, my service dog has glowing recommendations, but the second people see me in person, I get ghosted or suddenly places are deciding to go in ‘another direction’.
I have really been struggling. I guess now that I am no longer able to make them money/take care of them all, I haven’t been treated the best. I am honestly a bit lost right now. I will be homeless again starting mid-May as my best friend will be going back to her parent’s house in California until October, while her parents stay at her house, the house I am staying in, here, for the summer. She has helped me a lot and I don’t know what I would have done without her. We both expected I would get a job right away when I moved back in and we thought it would be no problem because I do have such a good resume and I do have great references. I just can’t get anyone to hire me.
We have figured out why my leg snapped and got messed up the way it did. I apparently have a hypermobility disorder and I am finally at the point that my body isn’t able to handle the strain as well as it did before, when I was younger. I’m kind of a dumbass and thought it was normal for everyone to have to tighten up their muscles constantly, so they didn’t dislocate things and sprain things as I have always had to do that or I have always had a very real chance of injuring myself and I have had bad sprains and things dislocating very regularly my entire life.
I am trying to get on disability, which my doctors have told me I should try to get on for the last few years, but I am stubborn. I was told with how backed up things are, even when being faced with full-on homelessness and with the health issues I have, it would likely take over a year before I even know if they will accept my application or not and if not then I will have to file an appeal until they accept it even though I literally have several major things that should have pinged me as a priority.
I am currently trying to get a car so I at least have something that, if need be, I can sleep in and that I can also get to appointments as needed and where I can doordash to try and pull myself out of this situation. It’s not really working out right now but I am at least trying to figure out a way to get things stable and me into something safer and more permanent.
I absolutely have not given up on my stories and I plan to continue on writing. I have to some degree, but I just am too busy trying to figure out what I can do before mid-May, and I have been working at this since last October.
I am so sorry that I haven’t updated, though and I appreciate all of the kind words, encouragement and support people have been giving me and my stories! You all help keep me going. If anyone has any ideas or would like to help me in anyway I would really appreciate it if you could share a post I have on facebook or even just chat with me. Please don’t feel pressured, this is my issue to deal! 🙂
I am currently on the next chapter of ‘His sunflower smiles,’ and I really am trying to get to my Harry story and Iruma stories again, too. I am just feeling pretty overwhelmed with everything right now!