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You threw yourself into the bed and fell face flat on your pillow, you tried so hard to try and fall asleep but you couldn’t, it was as if the rose thorns have directed its way to your eyeballs gripping on it until it bleeds and fucking deflates somehow, the same despair hits on you; the realisation that nobody is going to acknowledge your existence at all when you die. You try to shake these thoughts off but you couldn’t, it was like the painful thoughts were stabbed by the thorns and is now stuck on it. You can’t get them out of your head, you try so hard to but you couldn’t, nothing could help you now.
“I’m trying I really am!” you shout to yourself while your face flat in the pillow, so it sounded smudged.
You just want this despair to end already but finally. It was as if rose thorns made their way into your heart, gripping it while it bleeds and melts and cuts into little pieces. You want the warm feeling of joy back when you see your discord kittens, it’s not the same anymore now, everything has gone to shit and nobody actually knows your exist.
You make a horrid scream when you make your second attempt at falling asleep, you took the pillow and slammed it directly on your face, you sigh; hoping this could just end already, that you could just meet Micheal Afton and go into his open arms and cuddle. But that obviously is never going to happen for you, your the worst failure you know at this point. You want to finally feel loved and cared by somebody instead of someone just using you for nitro.
You feel dull but yet determined to meet Micheal Afton. So you try practically anything to make you slither into your created own reality. You first drink milk, then lowered the temperature, Used the 4-7-8 breathing strategy. Meditated for a full 5 minutes and practiced yoga until you couldn’t feel your own legs.
You tried everything that could make you fall asleep, you close your eyes shut hoping you would fall asleep but bad luck hits you and it suddenly starts to rain, not so bad right? but it’s a nightmare for you since you have a tint roof. The constant banging of the rain splashing against the roof is making your head throb.
Suddenly in the corner of your eyes, you see Jinsoul standing and having furrowed eyebrows, she obviously looks like she feels bad but as you stare at her for a good 10 seconds you snap back into what was going on right now, you thought you were hallucinating right now, you rubbed your eyes frantically thinking you’ve completely gone insane.
Jinsoul steps closer and as she does Choerry and Kimlip stand behind her, opposite each other. Jinsoul softly says “We are real. We have teleported to this universe to help you. Y/n.”
Your eyes widen thinking your hallucinating but as you poke Choerry’s arm it feels completely real. What the fuck. You think to yourself
The whole of odd eye circle finally blurted all at once at the same time “Go to sleep. Now”
You didn’t utter a word. Not even a peep. You mindlessly hop into bed, getting comfy in the duvet, you close your eyes and the whole of odd eye circle surrounds you and puts their hands hovering above your face, you slowly feel like your about to fall asleep and before you knew it—
You were back into the same exact setting as the other dream you had with Micheal Afton.