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‘I asked you a question,’ Tayte took a bite from his sandwich and looked at you while he waited for your answer.
It took you several seconds to feel his stare on you and you looked up absentmindedly,’ Sorry, did you say something?’
You were sitting opposite each other in a booth at your local coffee shop. You’d been stirring in your latte, lost in thought. You couldn’t even remember him saying anything at all since you both sat down.
‘You invited me here and you’ve barely looked at me, have I done something?’ he asked.
‘I’m sorry, I wasn’t listening.’
‘Clearly.’
‘What was your question?’
‘I asked if you were okay? You seem very distracted today, even more than usual,’ he added with a little grin.
‘I’m fine,’ you waved away his concern and looked up into his blue eyes, giving him a smile,’ Why wouldn’t I be?’
Tayte rolled his eyes and shook his head,’ After 5 years you still think I can’t read you like a book. It’s fucking adorable.’
His tone was playful but his eyes were dead serious.
‘I-am-fine,’ you accentuated every word and took a sip from your coffee. You almost burned your mouth on the hot liquid but it was better than having to explain your mood to him.
‘If you say so,’ he took another bite from his sandwich and dropped the subject. You both sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes.
‘I don’t really want to talk about it,’ you then sighed deeply and put down your cup.
Tayte’s smile was smug, he knew all too well that when you said you didn’t want to talk about something you were usually right about to talk about it.
‘It’s just that…,’ you let out another sigh before you continued, confirming how well he knew you,’ Why won’t he notice me, Tay? What exactly is it that makes me invisible, huh? Am I not trying enough? Or is it that I’m trying too hard? Am I just not his type? Am I not pretty enough? Am I too quiet? Not skinny enough? What’s his problem?’
Tayte followed your eyes to the subject of your frustration, sitting in a booth by himself on the other end of the small coffee shop: Sebastian.
Beautiful Romanian Sebastian with his perfect fluffy hair and gorgeous smile, his killer eyes and killer thighs.
You weren’t sure when exactly you fell in love with him but you assumed it was the very first moment you were introduced to him. He had smiled so sweetly at you and grabbed your hand, and while you introduced yourself he had stared into your eyes just long enough to make you blush.
Nothing had been the same since, as if he had looked into your soul and settled himself there. You hadn’t been able to stop thinking about him since that day.
But it didn’t matter. All the times his smile made your heart leap or all the times just having him say hello to you made your entire day. It all meant absolutely nothing. You were still completely invisible to him.
Apart from a hello and goodbye and some meaningless chit chat at parties of mutual friends you had gotten nowhere with him in over two years.
‘It’s not you and you know it,’ Tayte tried to comfort you,’ Sometimes men are just clueless, trust me, I know all about that and it has zero fucks to do with you.’
You sighed and took another sip from your coffee.
‘Don’t get so worked up about it, it’s nothing personal,’ Tayte added.
‘It feels fucking personal.’
He stood up and walked over to your side of the booth.
‘What are you doing?’ you asked confused.
‘Move over.’
You did as he asked and Tayte took a seat next to you.
‘Put your arm around my neck,’ he then said.
‘What are you…’
‘Shut the fuck up and do as I tell you.’
You looked him right in the eyes and grinned,’ Why don’t you make me?’
He shook his head in a little smile,’ I’m trying to help you here, now put your arm around my neck.’
You gave him another daring stare,’ What’s the magic word?’
‘Right fucking now,’ his tone was dominant but he was unable to keep the smile off his face, making you laugh.
‘Please,’ he then added in a more friendly tone.
You smiled and followed his instructions, draping your arm across his shoulders and letting your fingers play with the hairs in the back of his neck.
He moved even closer to you, his body now pressed up against yours in the booth and he put a few locks of your hair behind your ear, caressing your cheek in the process.
You hugged him closer and smiled against his neck.
It wasn’t unusual for him to be this affectionate with you. The benefits of having a gay best friend is that you were never short of cuddles and Tayte was an excellent cuddle buddy.
You heard him chuckle into your ear.
‘What?’ you asked.
‘I knew it,’ he pulled back to look at you,’ So predictable…sometimes men need a little reminder of what they can’t have.’
You raised your eye brow in confusion and Tayte continued,’ Sebastian wasn’t looking at you before I sat down next to you. Right now though, the closer I get to you the more he seems interested.’
‘He’s watching us?’ you asked surprised.
Tayte leaned his face against your cheek, making it look like you two were caught up in a lover’s embrace,’ Go ahead, look at him. But don’t be too obvious.’
You used Tayte’s hug as a way to turn your head and let your eyes drift towards Sebastian.
He was already staring at you, a serious and somewhat annoyed look on his face and as soon as your eyes met his he looked away so abruptly he made it all the more obvious that he’d been staring the whole time.
‘See?’ Tayte’s whispered laugh filled your ear.
‘Oh my god,’ you laughed and broke the hug.
‘I told you, men love what they can’t have, and right now he thinks he can’t have you, and it just made you 100 percent more appealing to him.’
‘But he can have me, he can so have me,’ you grinned.
Tayte rolled his eyes.
‘Listen, there’s a party at Tim’s place tonight,’ you said,’ I happen to know Sebastian is going to be there.’
‘And?’
‘Go with me, help me. Help me make him notice me.’
Tayte pulled a face and shook his head firmly,’ Nope.’
‘Come on, you know I can’t go on like this, I need to know if there’s any chance, please,’ you insisted,’ After that I’ll give up and stop obsessing over him, for real this time.’
‘I’ve heard that before,’ Tayte sighed, remembering more than one night where you were on his doorstep crying your eyes out because Sebastian ignored you and he was left to pick up the pieces.
Every time that happened you swore you wouldn’t waste another tear on Sebastian but so far you’d broken that promise every single time.
‘I really promise this time, I just need closure,’ you repeated, seeing the doubt on his face,’ Seb has never looked at me like he did just now. That was jealousy, I know better than anyone what jealousy looks like and that was it, Tay.’
He sighed.
‘Please?’ you begged him and gave him your most pleading look,’ pretty please?’
‘You know I can’t say no to you when you give me that face,’ Tayte admitted in a defeated sigh.
You wrapped both your arms around his neck and pulled him close to you,’ You are the absolute fucking best.’
‘But I’m holding you to that promise,’ he quickly added while he hugged you back,’ After tonight, no matter the outcome, I don’t want you nagging to me about him ever again.’
You nodded your head.
‘Ever,’ he added firmly.
‘Deal.’
****
The party started out like so many had these past years. With you on the dance floor and Sebastian at the other side of the room surrounded by a couple of his friends.
You’d been dancing on your own for quite some time, trying to get your mind off him and trying to ignore just how hard he was ignoring you, when Tayte showed up.
He danced his way closer until he was right in front of you. He put his hand on your waist and slowly started to roll his hips, pressing his body up against yours.
‘Hey,’ he smiled that adorable smile of his and you almost forgot he was two hours late.
‘Took you long enough,’ you put your hands on his shoulders, ready to lecture him some more but then he pulled you into a hug and you had no other choice but to hug him back.
‘Sorry I’m late,’ he whispered in your ear.
You leaned into his hug, thankful that he was here now and you had someone to lean on, physically and emotionally.
You felt nervous. You’d been really keen on the idea earlier that day but now that it was time to actually go through with it you were anxious. What if your silly plan didn’t work at all? You suddenly realized what you had to lose.
‘You okay?’ Tayte sensed your mood and hugged you a little tighter,’ any second thoughts?’
‘No,’ you said quickly,’ we’re going through with this, you’d better not bail on me.’
‘I’m here, aren’t I?’ Tayte leaned closer and whispered in your ear,’ Is he watching?’
You turned your head towards Sebastian and much to your surprise his eyes were already on you, just like the last time you and Tayte shared a hug. You couldn’t help the little smile from appearing on your lips and you shook your head in disbelief,’ He’s watching.’
‘Good,’ Tayte’s thumb pushed your chin up and he looked into your eyes for a few second. Then he leaned in and captured your mouth with his in a soft kiss.
You were only startled for a moment, as soon as he kissed you your body reciprocated without any hesitation.
His kiss made you melt, it always did. It wasn’t the first time the two of you kissed but every time it happened it felt like the first time.
In those five years you’d been friends with Tayte he had saved you from a couple of douche bags by pretending to be your boyfriend for the night. It always proved the quickest way to get rid of them.
It was no secret you had a little crush on Tayte, but then again who didn’t? He was drop dead gorgeous and turned heads everywhere he went, male and female heads.
During the first year of your friendship you often cursed the universe for making him gay.
But he was, so it was never something you let yourself dwell on for too long.
You couldn’t have him, it was as simple as that.
‘Hey,’ Tayte broke the kiss to look at you and waved his hand in front of your eyes,’ Where did you go just now? It’s not that I’m insecure about my kissing skills but I like the recipient to actually be in the moment with me.’
‘I’m sorry,’ you muttered.
‘You’re imagining Seb already, huh?’ he grinned and raised his eyebrow,’ Damn, I’ve lost my touch.’
‘Actually…’
‘Come on,’ he grabbed your hand and pulled you with him, off the dance floor and right up to where Sebastian was standing.
‘Tayte, no,’ you protested but he pulled you along with him anyway.
He put his hands on your waist and pushed you out in front of him while his lips attacked your neck.
‘Follow my lead,’ he whispered into your ear.
The closer you got to Sebastian the more handsy Tayte was becoming. It was clear what his plan was, to shove your affection in Sebastian’s face and hope it would get a reaction out of him.
You played along, leaning into Tayte’s neck kisses and making it look like you couldn’t wait to find a quiet spot where the two of you could be alone and take each other’s clothes off.
Tayte moved you into the hallway that lead to the bedrooms when you stopped him. But before you could say anything his hand was in your neck and his lips on yours again, slowly dipping his tongue in there. You moaned into the kiss and he pushed you against the wall.
For a moment all thoughts of Sebastian left your mind and you lost yourself in Tayte’s kiss. Your hands caressed his hair and you sighed heavily when he moved from your mouth to your neck.
‘Tayte,’ you breathed and your eyes closed in a heavy sigh.
His touch was intoxicating, it had been so long you had almost forgotten how good he could make you feel. And he didn’t seem to have any issues putting on this act tonight.
But the one guy you were performing for was no longer in the room with you.
You put your hands on Tayte’s chest and pushed him back,’ Wait, you can stop now, Seb’s not here, it didn’t work.’
Tayte just smiled at you and bit his lip,’ You have no faith, do you?’
‘It doesn’t matter anymore,’ you leaned back against the wall with a sigh,’ It was a stupid idea anyway, make him jealous. What was I even thinking?’
‘I’m sorry,’ Tayte put a lock of hair behind your ear and gave you a sympathetic smile,’ I really thought it would work.’
‘Oh, it’s working.’
Both you and Tayte turned your heads to see Sebastian standing at the end of the hall.
‘It’s working,’ Sebastian repeated, ‘I just don’t know if it’s working the way you guys had intended to…’
Tayte still had his hands on your waist. You were completely unable to move or speak at this point.
All you could manage was stare at Sebastian who slowly made his way closer to you both.
‘You’re jealous?’ Tayte asked carefully.
‘I am,’ Sebastian confessed and he looked up to meet Tayte’s eyes,’ I’m jealous of her.’
You looked up to find Sebastian staring at Tayte. He seemed completely enchanted by him, mesmerized by Tayte’s deep blue eyes. He was even biting his lip when Tayte gave him a sweet smile.
‘You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,’ you sighed defeated and pushed Tayte away from you so you could step out of his embrace, turning your back to both men.
‘Wait,’ Tayte grabbed hold of your hand and turned you around to face him,’Hold on.’
‘Forget it, it’s fine,’ you shook your head,’ You’re clearly into him, I’m not going to stand in the way of that.’
‘I’m walking away with you right now if you ask me to,’ Tayte spoke softly,’ You come first, okay?’
You shrugged your shoulders,’ Do you want him?’
Tayte just smiled at you and his eyes left yours, telling you all you needed to know.
‘Then go for it,’ you whispered.
He gave you a thankful smile and softly squeezed your hand.
As you moved away Sebastian moved closer, letting his eyes roam over you for several seconds while you passed each other. You actually felt your heart leap.
Tayte reached out his hand to Sebastian and pulled him in to take your spot against the wall.
Tayte didn’t give him any time to back out. He put his hand on Sebastian’s shoulder to push him back against the wall before crashing his lips onto his in a slow but firm kiss.
Seb only hesitated for a second, after that he kissed him back hard and put his hand in Tayte’s neck.
You knew you had to get out of there, but you were unable to pry yourself away.
Seeing these two men give into their lust for each other was one of the hottest things you had ever witnessed and the jealous little sting you had felt just seconds ago had completely vanished.
If you couldn’t have Sebastian for yourself you were only too happy to let Tayte have him.
Tayte slowly urged Sebastian’s mouth open with his tongue while Sebastian pulled him closer, letting his hands disappear under Tayte’s shirt.
A soft moan emerged from the back of Seb’s throat when Tayte took his bottom lip between his teeth and pulled slowly.
You still felt like an intruder, you wanted to walk away but your legs weren’t moving.
When you finally found the strength to take a step back Sebastian suddenly reached out to you and grabbed your hand.
Your heart nearly jumped out of your chest.
‘Stay,’ his husky voice and warm touch made your knees weak.
‘I don’t…I…,’ the words were stuck in the back of your throat, as if your voice was stolen by the intense stare of his eyes.
‘Stay,’ he repeated softly.