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1 year.
No kisses.
No hugs.
No hand holding.
Not a word exchanged.
That's been the relationship between you and Hoseok for the past year. It's what you needed in order to heal, to get over him. You made the decision to break up, he needed to focus on his dream. You were just going to get in the way. So you distanced yourself, blocking and unfollowing him. For the most part, it worked. You didn't think about him or speak his name. But it's been hard these days, you've been feeling extra lonely and needy for affection. You told your friends about how you've thought of him again, that you want to reach out. Thankfully they talked you out of it. However, those feelings of wanting to reach out nagged at the back of your mind still.
One day you decide that you've had enough, you need to get out of your apartment for something other than work. You leave for the park, chosing your favorite spot near the pond. Overlooking the water, the sun right above the sky. The weather was perfect today, not a cloud in sight, just the smallest breeze. You cross your arms, your mind blank as you look straight ahead. People walk around the park, kids are laughing as they play. Some dogs running around on their leash, or playing fetch with their owners. Everything looks straight out of a movie.
Except for you. The only person not smiling or laughing. You huff, if only you can clear your mind to relax.
"Y/n?"
You flinch, the voice familiar yet.. It feels like a strangers voice. It has been so long since you last heard it. Your arms drop when you turn your head, your eyes recognizing the person in front of you.
"H-hobi?" You stutter, you want to slap your hand over your mouth. How dare you call him that? Your heart tightens from saying your nickname for him, even tighter when you see the change in his eyes. Like he flinched internally.
Hoseok looks away, wiping his hands on his jeans. A gesture you recognize as him getting nervous. He looks at you again, struggling to find the words. "You, still come here?"
"Yeah. I uh, like to come here sometimes. You know..-"
"To think?" He finishes for you. You let a small smile form, he still knows you too well. You nod, crossing your arms again. He takes a small step in your direction. "What's been on your mind?" Hoseok goes to sit beside you, keeping a few feet distance apart.
'You..actually.' You think to yourself, sitting on the grass as well. "Just needed to clear my head."
Hoseok hums. For a moment it's quiet, neither of you speak, content in the silence. "How have you been?" He asks finally, genuinely curious about you. He wants to ask you so much more, like how your job is, if you've done anything special or fun. He even wants to ask the hard questions. Like if you are dating someone new..
You freeze, stuttering a bit before answering. "I'm-.. I'm doing good. Been working all the time, as usual." Hoseok giggles low, fully remembering of how much a workaholic you are. His small laugh makes you smile, you haven't realize how much you missed his laugh.
"Of course you have. You never did like staying at home all the time."
"If I'm at home too much I get bored." You say defending yourself with a bit of a laugh. Hoseok laughs again turning his head to face you.
"There are other things to do besides work you know."
"And I have been doing things other than working."
"Oh yeah?" He crosses his legs, facing you fully and rests his chin in his hands. "Like what?"
You giggle and do the same as Hoseok, crossing your legs. You tap your chin, thinking of some things you do in your free time. "Remember that dance studio that we used to go to together? The freestyle one?" While you and Hoseok were dating, he took you to one of his favorite dance studios to go to. At first you weren't sure about going, you weren't exactly a good dancer. But he convinced you that it would be fun, easy for beginners. After your first date there, you fell in love with it. You saw why Hoseok loved dancing so much.
He smiles fondly and nods once, feeling nostalgic at the memory of taking you there for the first time. "Well, I like to go there a couple times a week. Turns out I really like dancing." You finish softly, nervously avoiding eye contact. He was the person that got you into his passion, something that you kept doing even after the breakup.
His heart swells at your words. To know you never stopped dancing.. "I'm happy that you like it ba-.. Y/n."
You pause. Even after a year, he still has the habit of wanting to call you baby. I guess some things never change. You clear your throat, ending the silence. "What about you? How have you been? I remember you had that dream of being a part of the National dance team." It breaks your heart mentioning it. The whole reason you ended the relationship...
He looks down at the grass, clearing his throat. When you ended things... he couldn't go on the same way anymore. He changed his future plans almost immediately after you left him. If he couldn't share his dream with you, then he didn't want it. "Um, it uh.. It didn't work out."
Your expression falls, sad for him. It was something he was so excited about. "Why not?"
Hoseok let's a sad smile across his face, speaking very softly. "I didn't have someone to share it with." His gaze meets yours and your eyes water, seeing the pain in his eyes and hearing the hurt in his voice. A stoic silence hangs between you two, finding it hard to find the words.
"I'm sorry." You whisper, ducking your head in shame almost.
"It's okay. I own my own studio now, it's doing great actually. I would really like it if you could come visit some time."
You smile again, happy that he wants you to see where he ended up instead. "I'd love to."
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Around a week later, you meet Hoseok outside the doors of his dance studio. He closed it for the day to show you around, without you feeling self conscious about getting in other people's way. When he sees you outside he looks you up and down, taking you in. You really do get more beautiful every time he sees you.
He unlocks the door and extends his arm to you. "Right this way."
You laugh at his tone of voice, trying to hide your smile from him. Hoseok closes the door and turns all the lights on, making your jaw drop. You gasp "Wow.." The entire room is his personality in the form of a building. Walls on both sides of the studio have art that looks hand painted on, each little piece unique like it was done by a different person.
"Ah, when I opened, I invited each new student to paint something on the wall. So they would feel at home while dancing."
You picture him squatting down with the little kids, smiling with them as he helps them with the paint and brush. Even laughing if they got paint on him, encouraging them to keep painting. Your heart tugs at the scene in your head, wishing that you could've witnessed his grand opening.
The wall at the front of the room is just mirrors, as you expected. Hanging in the two front corners are large speakers for music. You stop turning around, looking across the room. The floor showing age already with scrapes from shoes, possibly from routine rehearsals.
"I have a room right over there for changing and showers. People get really sweaty after practice."
You laugh to yourself, picturing exhausted students sprawled out on the floor. "With you as their teacher, yeah they'd get kinda gross."
"Hey," Hoseok blurts out, making you giggle some more. "I'm not that tough on my students."
You roll your eyes playfully. "Hoseok, do you not realize how intimidating you are when it comes to this?"
"How am I intimidating??"
You drop your purse on the floor, getting closer to him. "You get real serious and stare at people like this." You try making the same expression, but it doesn't come across the same way. You know that you didn't do good when Hoseok starts giggling at you.
"You're not supposed to laugh!" You say smacking his arm. He backs away holding up his hands.
"Hey, in my defense I could never take you serious. You always just look cute to me."
You blush and start running after him, Hoseok laughing as he easily evades you. You can't help laughing too, he was always the sunshine in your life. Finally you give up, resting your hands on your knees as you catch your breath. "You win.. I.. give up."
He laughs at your worn out state, a bit tired himself from running around his studio. "Hey, why don't you show me some dancing you've learned?"
"What?"
"Yeah, come on. We're in my dance studio, there's no one around for you to feel embarrassed."
You mess with your shirt, feeling self conscious about dancing in front of him. It's been so long, you aren't sure.
"Y/n," Hoseok starts, getting your eyes back on him. "please."
"Okay." You say, resolve crumbling instantly. His gaze never fails to make you melt whenever he asked you to do something. There was only one time it didn't work... When his eyes were full of sadness and desperation, pleading with you to stay.
Hoseok notices the change in your body language, seeing your eyes downcast. He stops messing with the laptop, turning back to you. "Hey," you turn around seeing his concern. "you okay?"
"Yeah yeah, I'm fine. W-what do you wanna, uh see?"
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You start with some fun easy moves that you've learned, too scared to try anything harder. God forbid you screw up in front of him. He watches you dance freely, even mirroring your moves to join you. The two of you laugh dancing together. Hoseok making little sound effects and facial expressions, each time making you stop and laugh.
"Come on," he says coming over taking your hands. "dance with me." You giggle letting him guide you, spinning you around in circles. Playfully bringing you close before pushing you back. Even twirling you around, the both of you laughing and having fun. He twirls you around again, bringing you close to his chest. The two of you stopping, intensely aware of how close you are. His eyes become hooded, holding you in place. He looks down at your lips, his hand reaching up to caress your cheek. Slowly he starts to close the gap, getting closer to you.
"I can't..." You whisper before backing away, breaking the moment. Hoseok reaches for you, confused.
"Y/n, I don't understand.."
"I don't deserve this! Any of this! You-..just..nothing at all." You sob wiping away at your cheeks. It is all just too much, being around him again. Dancing with him, having him smile and laugh with you. You broke his heart, you don't deserve his smile. You don't deserve him practically cherishing you again. Why is he acting like nothing happened? Like you never hurt him? It doesn't make any sense to you.
"Y/n.. That's not true." He says gently holding your arm. His thumb caresses your skin, attempting to comfort you. You push him away, feeling desperate now to make your point.
"No! Don't do that. You should be screaming at me! Angry! I broke your heart, you shouldn't be showing me any kindness! Don't you have anything to say to me?"
"No." He says softly, taking slow steps towards you.
"Not even why I broke up with you?"
"I know that you had your reasons, and I've made peace with that. But y/n, what does that-.."
"I left because I was holding you back! You were never going to make it if I stayed."
"Y/n, the only reason I wanted it was because it was something that you seemed so excited about. You encouraged me to practice, and go for the audition. I was excited because if I got in, we would celebrate and travel together. Without you.." he stops, searching for the right words. "it just wasn't worth it anymore."
Another tear falls as you take it in, trying to understand. "You..only wanted it..because of me?"
"I thought it would make you happy." Hoseok finally gets close to you, his hand gently cupping your cheek. You lean into his touch, his thumb again rubbing circles. Wiping away your tears.
"I'm sorry, I ruined everything.."
He shushes you, his other hand resting on your other cheek. "Stop apologizing." You meet his eyes again, those brown pools you've always found comfort in. You find no resentment in his gaze, only love and care. Like truly nothing has changed.
You lean forward, letting your forehead rest against his. He lets one hand fall to rest on your arm, rubbing up and down. He's missed having you this close to him. After a moment you pull back, looking at him fully. Finally, you close the last bit of distance between you two. Kissing him for the first time in months. The kiss starts off slow, careful. As if you're scared of him pushing you away.
But he doesn't push you away, he holds you closer. Hoseok starts kissing you deeper, wrapping his arms around your shoulders. Holding you as close as he possibly can to him. Missing your warmth, missing your taste..missing you. When he feels you relax, he moves to kiss along your chin. "I missed you." He whispers as he continues up and down along your neck. "Oh I missed you, I missed you so so much."
You sigh as he begins sucking on your neck, going at a quick pace. Like he's trying to make up for lost time. He's words at the same time assuring you that his feelings never changed. Even though he's making you feel good, you want to cry at the same time. You ignore the need when he bites at your skin, making you gasp. Your fingers thread through his hair, closing your eyes as you succumb to his touch. Giving in to his lips sucking on your neck. "I missed you too.. I'm sorry Hobi."
Hoseok stops sucking on your neck, lifting up his head to you. "Didn't I say," his hand cradles your face. "to stop.. apologizing."
He kisses all over your face, memorizing each feature with just his lips. "Mm, Hoseok, please. You have windows."
"So?" He asks smirking, nibbling on your ear lobe.
"People are gonna see us."
Hoseok pulls back, smiling at you. He takes both your hands in his, raising one finger to his lips. "Follow me."
Once inside the locker room, he backs you up against the wall. Kisses now more hurried, giving you goosebumps. You sigh in the kiss, subconsciously pushing yourself closer to him. His hands start wondering over your body when he feels you get relaxed. He trails it down your neck, gently wrapping his hand around it. You moan, the small added pressure giving you pleasure. He lets his hand go down further, letting it rest in between your breasts.
Your breath shudders, gripping tighter onto his hair. Begging him to touch you. His hand gently cups your breast, testing the waters. You moan in his mouth, making him grip it tighter. He moves to slip his hand underneath your shirt. The sensation of his warm hand on your skin making you shiver, your breath shuddering. You rest your hand over his, making him pause. He opens his mouth to speak but you put your finger on his mouth. Slowly, with your hand still over his, you begin lifting your shirt. Hoseok moves your hands to take the rest of it off for you. Staring at you when the fabric falls to the floor.
"You're even more beautiful than I remember." He whispers.
You blush and push him back, wanting him to start stripping as well. He quickly removes the baggy shirt, revealing his incredibly toned physic. If it was possible his muscles have gotten even more toned in the past year. Your fingers trace over the his chest and abs, needing to feel them. To see that they are real.
"How is it possible? you've gotten sexier.." You say to yourself, but he hears you anyway. He smirks, you never could keep your thoughts to yourself.
He grabs your shoulders, turning you back around. He resumes kissing you, stepping closer. You back up, blindly trying to find a wall to rest against. Your back into what you assume is a different room, the floor feeling different under your feet. Hoseok guides you to what feels like a narrow column. His hand snakes up your back, fiddling with the strap.
Your hand moves to the back of his neck, poking your tongue inside his mouth. He moans, grinding is growing erection on your center. You gasp breaking the kiss, burying your face in his neck.
Hoseok reaches to put his hand above your head, but it slips and turns a knob. You hear a screech and then water running. Water splashing on you. The sudden contact making you pause, opening your eyes as you take in where you and Hoseok ended up.
He stops grinding and nibbling on your neck, an idea popping into his head. But he's nervous to ask you, sure that you'll say that it's too soon. "Y/n," he starts, still breathless. "do..do you, want to..?"
You smile at him stumbling over his words, something that didn't happen often. "In, the shower?" You ask, it being new territory for you both. He nods, his hand threading through your hair.
"If you'll let me."
You press your lips against his, pulling back after a moment. "Yes, please fuck me Hoseok."
He steps back to take off his shoes, almost throwing them to the side. You do the same, shaking as you take them off. Nervous excitement running through your body. Hoseok get close to you again, kneeling as he kisses your stomach. His hands reaching up, cupping your breasts. You moan, realizing that your bra still wasn't off. You take it off, allowing him to grip and squeeze at your boobs. His fingers pinching at your nipples, making you moan arching your back. He moves his hand down your body, running his hot hands all over you.
He stops kissing you to unbutton your skinny jeans, pealing it off you along with your underwear. His pupils dilate, seeing your fully naked body again. He really has missed just everything about you. You blush, suddenly feeling embarrassed and self conscious. He knows what your thinking and smiles as he stands back up. "Still so sexy." Taking your hand he takes you into the narrow shower, the water shocking you. He pushes you onto the far wall, the water not directly on you.
You notice him still wearing his pants, the jeans quickly getting soaked. Your fingers undo the buttons, pulling it down. He kicks the rest of it off, throwing it away. Hoseok reattaches himself to you, kissing you deeply. His lips molding perfectly with yours. His kisses feeling bruising, you press yourself closer to him. Trying to hold on as he practically makes you melt. You feel his erection on your stomach, your body shivering in anticipation. Needy for him.
He pushes your legs apart with his knee, his hand dipping down to cup your pussy. His finger spreading your folds, gathering your juices. He chuckles, "Are you really that wet for me already? Or is this just water?" He teases pressing harshly on your clit.
You gasp, your legs wanting to wrap around him. You stay still instead, legs wobbling as you resist the urge. Hoseok is dominating you, not too much like he used to. But you knew to already to not be braty, or else he won't let you cum.
You whimper nodding your head, his fingers teasing your hole. His lips move along your jaw, leaving open mouthed kisses. He inserts two fingers in you without warning, making you yell. Your finger nails scratching on his back. He moans, loving the pain.
He continues pumping his fingers, aggressively stretching you out for him. His other hand sneaks to the back of your head, forcing you to look at him. He wants to see your face as he pleasures you. No needing to see you feel the pleasure he's giving you. It's been too long. "Fuck I've missed this." He whispers, his fingers starting to slow. The lewd squishing sounds echoing throughout the shower room. You don't look away from him, his facial expressions enticing you as he changes his fingers positions. Finding new angles to hit. He curls his fingers, increasing his speed. You groan closing your eyes, jaw dropping. It feels so good.
Hoseok removes his fingers, not even letting you get close to an orgasm. He hasn't seen you make that kind of face since the first time you slept together. You whine when he removes his fingers. "Why you stop?"
Because it's time for me to make love to you again, he thinks to himself. He can't go on much longer with preparing you. He needs you. Your hair is half wet, water droplets sprinkle your body. He's completely enticed by you, to him you look so stunning it's driving him mad.
You watch him just stare, his eyes raking all over you. The only sounds are his breathing and the shower going. Your hands go over his chest, going up his neck and through his wet hair. One hand move to his cheek, your fingers moving to trace his lips. That gets his attention. He kisses your fingers, making you smile. You trace his lip again, and he grabs your hand. Closing his eyes as let's his kiss linger for a moment before giving multiple smaller kisses.
"You ready baby?" He asks, making sure you really want this.
"Yes, I want you Hoseok."
He kisses you roughly and pulls back. Grabbing your leg, having you rest your foot on the corner. Opening you up nicely for him. He settles himself in between your legs, positioning in line with your pussy. Looking in your eyes, he slowly pushes his cock inside. Making you both groan at the same time, you close your eyes again. Reveling in the feeling of him filling up your pussy. Sheathing him with your juices.
Once he's bottomed out, he starts rolling his hips. Going slow, moving in waves as pulls out before shoving himself back in. You moan, feeling every inch of his delicious cock. You lean your head forward on his shoulder, your hands resting on his ass. Feeling him move. Making it more intimate, you moan, feeling another drop of arousal escape you. His dick pushing it right back inside you.
"f-faster.." You whisper, too quiet underneath the sound of the shower.
"What was that baby?" He says, voice low.
You hide your face in his neck, too embarrassed to say. He stops moving his hips, lifting your head. "I want to hear you. Say it louder for me baby."
You bite your lip, "Go faster, please." Hoseok smirks. You sound so needy for him, and he's more than happy to do what you want.
He slams his hips into yours right away, making you yell. Hoseok wasting no time, his thrusts quicker and hitting harder. You moaning right in his ear, your nails again scratching his back.
He pounds into you relentlessly, lewd sounds of sex filling the air. His lips going along your chest, up along your neck. "Aw baby...fuck.." He moans, your pussy taking his cock so well. Gripping him so tight. Your jaw dropping as you feel his hips going in circles stimulating your clit. He tilts back just in inch before slamming back into you, watching his cock going in and out. You hit back against the wall, Hoseoks hand holding the back on your head so he doesn't hurt you.
He fucks you roughly, keeping you sandwiched between him and the brick wall. He slows for just a moment, adjusting his hips. When he goes faster again, he starts hitting your sweet spot. Making your body jerk. Over...and over...and over again. Skin slapping on skin fills the room, the smell of sex so strong you know that it'll be lingering long after your both gone. The knot in your stomach starts to tighten, you know you're close. You dig your nails in his back, trying to hold off your orgasm.
"Mmm, ah.. Hoseok. I-im close." You gasping when hits your g-spot.
He smiles, taking a hold of your thigh as he takes your leg to wrap around his hip. "Well then, let me get you there."
He braces his arm against the wall beside your head, biting his lip. Pounding into you with so much desperation you've never felt before, your moans getting louder. He dips his head in the crook of your neck, sucking on the skin to mark you. You never want him to stop, moaning out praises for him. "Ah.. I love it, I love it..keep going." Your words edging him on, his fingers gripping harsher on your thigh. Sure that there's gonna be little bruises on you tomorrow. Feeling you grip him tighter.
Hoseok relaxes his pace, letting you feel each draw of his cock. It's just enough for you to focus on your unraveling orgasm, letting it go. You cry out his name as you feel it rip through you, your pussy convulsing around him. Coating him in your slick. He moans when he feels you clench on his cock, fucking you through your high.
He keeps going, overstimulating you as he chases after his own high. With a few more thrusts, he feels it. Moving his hands to grip your hips, holding you still. His thrusts falter, stuttering out moans as his orgasm reaches its peak. Hips jolting against yours as his cum fills up every inch of your walls.
He slumps on you, both your chests heaving off of each other as you try and catch your breath. You stay in his arms for a while, the cold water only now getting your attention.
Hoseok pulls his now soft dick out of your pussy, dripping with both your juices. He looks up at you, tired yet satisfied. He hums happily as his hand caresses your cheek.
"What?" You ask, wondering why he's smiling like that.
He shakes his head, still smiling at you. "Nothing, just.." He wraps his arms around your waist, "thinking about how much I still adore you."
You blush, reaching up on your toes to kiss him a few times. His soft lips addicting, you could kiss him all night.
"Can we try this again? Be a couple I mean."
Hoseok laughs low, kissing you quickly. "I've been wanting to ask you the same thing." You giggle kissing him, thankful that he wants you back for real. Because you never stopped loving him.
Hoseok. Your Hobi.
He never stopped loving you either, now determined to hold you tight and never let you go again.