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Yeah I wonder if
My name has ever crossed your mind
Even for a second
Know it's been a second
Lewis will never ever admit to anyone that he still thinks about Nico every day. He cursed the very day when Nico walked out from F1 after winning the championship, walked out from his life and leave him alone with all the memories (the good and the bad) of their time together.
Don't get him wrong, Valtteri is a great teammate and also a great friend, but, he's not Nico and the only person that he wants to race with is Nico.
There are days when he would just locks himself in his apartment and drink his head off to ease the pain and repress the memories and feelings about Nico.
Then, there are the nights when he would lie on his bed, listen to sad songs over the radio and cries silently when his emotions are too overwhelming.
He guess what happened between them mostly it's his fault, he let the championships affect their relationship. He is too focused on winning that he didn't realized he hurt the person he loves in the process.
They never talked about what happened that night at the beach during their holiday in Greece where they first kissed. Sometimes he scrolled through their pictures on his phone and wonders, would it change anything if they did talked about it? Will they have something more? Will it be for the better or for the worst?
The most stupid mistake he has ever made in his entire life, he guess, must be not telling Nico, his one and only best friend, about his true feelings. All he did along the way was picking on Nico’s insecurities and playing mind games with him to gain the upper hand. That’s all he cared about, was to gain the upper hand, to win. And what did his ego cost him? He had lost what could be the love of his life in the process.
But, it doesn't matter now isn't it? 'They aren't friends’, he said before and everybody knows it. There's nothing he can do to save their relationship anymore, they've fallen to hard. He'll forever regret the hateful words and the pain that he had caused towards Nico. This is his sin, the consequences that he's going to bare for the rest of his life.
So to my ex best friend
I thought I'd know til the end
Sorry I know things aren't going as we planned