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I sighed, a weight pushing down onto my chest as I lay in bed. I let the darkness consume my figure as I let a tear slip down my cheek. It hurt, even just to be alive. My heart ached and my head pounded. I was so unbelievably depressed. All I could do was lie in bed and cry.
I rolled onto my side, gazing out the window into the forest. Life wasn't the same since I moved to this mansion. It was lonely, it's not healthy to have serial killers and spirits as your only friends. It takes a toll on you. I had Toby, but that was about it. Masky is a bully, ben is a child, Jeff is abusive, and hell, Smile is just a dog. I had no one, sure I could talk to slender, but I could never tell him I wanted to leave this place. He'd have one of the proxies murder me. The only two people I had were Hoodie and Toby. Even Hoodie wasn't much of a friend, I didn't trust him after I found out what he had done to Masky before he was a proxy. He was a psychopath under slender's control.
I began to cry harder as I realized just how alone I was in this world. It wasn't the same planet as earth. It couldn't be. Life was just so different now that I was a proxy. Sure, I met the love of my life, but at what cost?
I was ripped from my dreadful thoughts by a door creaking open.
"Y-y/n? Are you okay?" Toby nervously stuttered, "I heard you crying from downstairs and thought I'd check on you..."
I quickly wiped the tears from my face and smiled up at him.
"Yeah, I'm fine toby, don't worry."
He frowned. "Y/n d-don't lie to me plea-please."
I nodded, looking down in disappointment with myself. I had really gotten to the point of lying to Toby. I sat up in bed, looking up at him with drooping eyes.
He leaned down, hugging me.
"Shh, i-it'll be okay."
I nodded, stuffing my chin into his shoulder.
He smiled a small bit, waiting a moment before pulling away.
He soon sat down next to me and held my hand. It was relaxing despite the twitches every so often. I heavily sighed, resting my face in his chest.
Toby soon broke the silence. "Can I turn o-on the lig-light, Y/n?"
I had completely forgotten that the lights were off in the first place. I was too focused on myself and the surprise visit from Toby to notice that I was wallowing in the dark.
"Of course! I'm so sorry."
He stood up, approaching the light. "N-no need to apologize."
I nodded, giving him a small, reassuring smile.
He returned to his standing position in front of me and held out a hand for me.
"H-how about we g-go watch a m-movie."
I took his hand and stood up.
"Sure, if you think that'll get me out of this slump."
He nodded, "I'm pre-pretty sure it will."
I took his word for it, hoping that he was right.
I shakily took the first few steps since 2 am last night. I was completely disoriented as to what time it was, whether it was day or night if I was alive or dead.
I shook my head and hugged Toby before making my way downstairs.
When we reached the entertainment room it was thankfully empty. No Jeff. No relentless bullying. Thank god.
Toby and I sat down on the couch. He gently picked up the remote and flipped through the channels until he found my favorite movie, just starting.
I smiled.
This movie always cheered me up, and being with Toby made it so much better.
I cuddled up to him, resting my head on his shoulder. His sudden twitches reminded me it was him, making me smile each time they happened. An hour passed before I was ripped from my peace. Jeff entered the room. The entire aura soon changed from calm and pleasing to stressful and horrific. His slit smile ruined the entire energy of the room. My god, that face, I can't even look at it without gagging.
I buried my head into Toby's shoulder, hiding my face from the man in the doorway.
Toby patted my head comfortingly and glared in Jeff's direction.
"W-what do you wa-want?" He hissed.
Jeff laughed, "Nothing now that I know you're with your bitch."
My heart sank at that moment, I didn't like Jeff by any means but hearing that I was nothing more than Toby's bitch hurt. What if I really was? What if I was just here for sex?
Toby reacted by giving me a comforting hug.
"S-shut up Jeff. You're up-upsetting them!"
He scoffed. "Whatever. Have fun with your toy."
Toby sighed. Jeff exited the room. Toby turned to me, running his hands through my hair.
"I'm so so-sorry Y/n."
I began to cry harder. "Am I really just your bitch?"
"No! NO, no, no, Y/n you're so much more than that to me. You're m-my everything Y/n. I love you so much. I would kill anyone for you.
I smiled, tears still staining my cheeks. I looked up at Toby. He rubbed a thumb over my cheek, smiling at me. He gently kissed me. He quickly pulled away and gave me a nervous, reassuring grin. I leaned up, returning his smooch. This made his eyes sparkle like a kid in a candy shop. Pure joy.
More time passed as we finished the movie. As it cam to a close, Toby looked down at me.
"Would yo-you like some dinner?"
I nodded. I wasn't hungry, but I hadn't eaten in almost twenty-four hours. I needed food, whether my depressed mind liked it or not.
He stood up, taking my hand in his, and led me to the kitchen. He sat me down once we reached our destination and began cooking. It was so precious, having a man that could cook. Everything about his was so perfect. His smile, his eyes, his personality, his hobbies, hell, he could breathe and I'd fall head over heels for him like I did three years ago. He was still that precious little boy I once knew. Just a little scary. Like how he broke into my apartment. But I didn't have much to lose anyway. For some reason, he never scared me, even when he did those psychopathic things. He was just a lost boy in my eyes. How I wish I could've known him before his accident and the whole ordeal with his father.
Before I could finish my thoughts I had a plate in front of me and food on the table.
Waffles.
I didn't mind them, but they definitely weren't my favorite food. But hey, whatever Toby likes. I'd do anything for that boy.
We finished our meals and he cleaned the dishes. We then headed upstairs for Toby to get changed. It was time for him to go on a mission. Slender had given me a break, seeing as I was in poor mental health and lacked the capacity to complete even the simplest task given to me. However, I could not remain like this for long or I'd have to suffer the consequences.
I smiled as Toby changed into his 'uniform' if you could call it that.
He laughed, "What're you look-looking at?"
I giggled back. "Your perfect ass."
He smiled at me.
"I love you, Y/n."
"I love you too, Toby."