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So this is his diary? Thank you...Rhyme...I’m sorry about...what happened…
August 6th, 2021
I’m finally back, yo! Been a hot minute since I was stuck in the UG without my diary. When Rhyme’s right, she’s right. I definitely feel better when I can write down my feelings. Even if it feels weird talkin’ to a piece of paper.
Still, life’s been fuckin’ great! Sure, I did get beat up over an’ over in the UG, but ‘phones is back! I don’ care that pi-face is back too if it means ‘phones is back with us. Still gotta give priss kid the what for for keepin’ ‘phones to himself though! Same wit’ that pixie chick!
Seein’ the gang back together at Hachiko felt...kinda unreal, ya know? Tho I’m not gonna lie, I felt a bit weird when I saw ‘phones and Shiki reunite. Felt somethin’ weird in my throat.
August 13th, 2021
Somethin’ weird happened when I was hittin’ the gym. Normally I could handle my reps no sweat, but before I could even get halfway, I felt like I had ta throw up! I managed to get to the toilet on time, but aside from a small bit of vomit, I threw up flowers of all things. Sure is wack, yo. Felt kinda bad for the gym bathroom, since i did kinda stink up the place.
My chest fuckin’ hurt though. Never thought peeps could even throw flowers up, I sure as hell didn’t think it’d hurt so much. I dunno what kind of flowers they were or why they came up, but I should be fine in a day or two. I wasn’t doin’ nothin’ different this time. I was just thinkin’ of asking ‘phones if he wanted to go to the movies wit’ me.
August 20th, 2021
‘Phones, Shiki, Rhyme an’ even priss kid agreed to go out next week to watch some movies! It’s great havin’ the gang together again, even if I do wanna strangle priss kid sometimes. I can’t wait to spend more time with ‘phones. I wanted to go alone wit’ him, but I guess this is the best a guy like me can hope for. He’s spendin’ so much more time with Shiki now that he’s back. I shouldn’t feel dis way, but seeing them together pi
Dammit. The page’s stained with blood… I can’t read the rest of it.
What happened to you, Beat…?
August 27th, 2021
The movie was aight I guess. Scratch that actually. It fuckin’ blew. I just wanted to make ‘phones and the gang happy, but I couldn’t even do that right. ‘Phones and Shiki were talkin’ and gettin’ close to each other the entire time. Priss kid didn’t even bother hidin’ how bored he was. Rhyme was doin’ her best at lookin’ interested, but I could tell she was fakin’ it.
By the final half hour or so, ‘phones went to the bathroom and, of course, Shiki followed him. I thought he mighta been sick or somethin’ or wanted to leave, so I followed him to the guys’ bathroom.
I saw the two of ‘em makin’ out in a stall. Could tell from the sounds and their legs pokin’ out from below the stall’s wall.
I know it shouldn’t have meant anything.
It was just a stupid movie.
But what does he see in her?
don’t have?
Why am I not
Rhyme got me back home after findin’ me throwin’ up on the streets.
I don’t wanna her.
She doesn’t need to
There’s so much blood covering these last few pages. Why didn’t you say anything…? I never realized you felt that way….
September 3rd, 2021
it hurts so much I
can’t ruin our friendship She deserves him
I don’t
I keep coughing there’s so much
doc said somethin’ Hanahaki inoperable
gotta confess, but
‘Phones doesn’t feel the same way
It hurts
‘Phones, I’m sor don’t blame you
I love you
I...did this…? Fuck...Fuck...Beat...I’m- I’m…
I’m so sorry- I can’t- I didn’t- I...I…! You didn’t deserve someone like me…! I’m sorry...I couldn't….You didn't deserve this….
I’m sorry