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“Your lips are so soft, Hiyoko.”
Mikan quietly mumbled those words to herself, as she pressed her lips deeper onto the dancer’s. Arms around her waist, the blonde was completely entranced by her lover’s scent, warmth and embrace. Who would have known that you’d date the girl that used to bully you? Not Mikan, that was for sure. Pulling away, the brunette brushed her cheek with her bandaged finger and tenderness.
“M… Mikan…”, the blonde replied happily and gently caressed her messy, brown hair. Mikan smiled down at her lover with such care, as if Hiyoko was one of her patients. She leaned down and kissed her bully again, caressing her abdominal area. Satisfied, Hiyoko closed her eyes, not wanting this moment to end. After all the years of false hatred and insecurity, the blonde was finally kissing the girl she loved.
And then, came the sudden pain.
In all her lust, Hiyoko didn’t notice how Mikan had slowly plunged the knife into her stomach. Blood quelled out of it and the blonde screamed in pain, before looking at her “lover” in disbelief.
“Wh…. Why?”
“Is it not obvious, you nasty pig-whore?”
The dancer shuddered at the sudden change of the girl’s voice. It still had a friendly and gently sound, yet now Hiyoko was able to sense the hidden venom beneath it.
“This is the perfect revenge, don’t you see? I made you fall in love with me, let you bond with me, just so I can hurt you, where it pains the most.”, Mikan explained, with a growing smirk, her eyes cold and lifeless.
“But…. But, you…. You told me you loved me!”
Shaking her head, as if she was talking to a mere child, the nurse plunged the knife deeper, more blood quilling out and Hiyoko whimpered in pain.
“Love you? After what you did to me? After all the bullying? Did you seriously believe that, you dumb slut?”
Her voice was silent, yet Hiyoko could feel venom and rage between Mikan’s words. Her smirk became more and more dull, as she caressed the dancer’s cheek again, with obvious faux gentleness.
“You will die here, next to someone who could never love you. You mean nothing to me.”
Hiyoko whimpered, like a hurt fox, as tears began to build themselves up inside her. Soon, she began to sob quietly, as she slowly lost consciousness.
The last she saw, was Mikan’s cold, lifeless smile.
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“Hi…. Hiyoko, wake up!”
An all too familiar panicked voice woke the blonde up and with tears in her eyes, Hiyoko shot up and looked around panicky. She was in her dorm, the clock on the wall telling her that it was 3.30 AM. Breathing heavily in and out, Hiyoko realized that she didn’t feel any pain on her abdomen. There wasn’t any blood on the bedsheet either. Just what-
“Hi…. Hiyoko?”
Only now registering the voice, the dancer turned her head and saw Mikan, dressed in her purple nightwear. She timidly looked at her lover, whose breath began to slowly build up in speed.
“You….. Did you have a nightmare?”, the nurse asked concerned. “I woke up…. because I heard someone crying and when I saw you sobbing in your sleep…. I immediately panicked!
A small smile formed on her face.
“Needless to say…. I… I am glad that you woke up. You…. You must have been scared….”
She went closer in order to pull the dancer, into a loving embrace….
…only to get pushed away roughly.
Surprised, Mikan fell to the other side of the small bed and barely managed to not fall from it. Confused, she looked at the blonde puzzled, who glared at her, while wiping some tears away from her face.
“L… Leave me alone, you nasty pig-barf!”, she shouted angrily. “Don’t come closer to me, you skanky bitch!”
Mikan flinched in fear and shock. She hadn’t heard those insults in a long time, as Hiyoko dropped them completely when they began to date.
Yet here the blonde was, using the same insults all over again.
“Ex… Excuse me?”, Mikan asked confused, thinking that she was perhaps dreaming as well.
“Can’t you hear?! LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU CUMDUMPSTER!”, the dancer spat at her with venom. For a moment, the nurse wasn’t sure how to answer, until she took a closer look at her lover.
Finger’s shaking,
Breath hitching more and more,
Sweat gradually increasing,
And her body trembling,
“She is having a panic attack!”, Mikan thought with worry and slowly began to approach Hiyoko again, who looked at her with fear.
“Hiyoko…. It was just a nightmare. Calm down….”
“Shut up, shut up, shut up, you bitch! Just…. Just hurt me back, already!”
Confused, Mikan stopped and glanced at Hiyoko confused.
“Why… Why would I-”
“Don’t play dumb with me! I know what you’re planning!”, the dancer spat and tightened her glare. “You were faking your love for me from the start and were planning to stab me in the back, when I’d least expect it! Just so that you can get revenge!”
More and more tears gradually began to build themselves up inside her and the dancer tried to push them back, not wanting to show any weakness again. Meanwhile, Mikan was trying to make sense of her partner’s words.
“You…. You think, I am faking my feelings for you?”
“Of course you fucking do!”, Hiyoko shot back. “After all, how can you love me after I treated you like shit?! After all I did to you?!”
The brunette tried to say something again, yet the blonde interrupted her, before she could even start.
“Oh come on, just admit it already! You hated how I bullied you! I bet you were despising me, because of it and wished revenge! Come on say it! Am I wrong?!”
In almost every other argument, between a normal couple, the partner would realize that the accusations were utterly ridiculous and will deny them completely.
However, Mikan stayed silent. She tried to find any way to refute the blonde’s claims, yet did not find one. Breathing slowly in and out, the nurse forced the bitter truth out of herself.
“No….No you were not wrong…”
She closed her eyes, not daring to look at her lover’s face.
“You were right….. I hated you….. You hurt me time and time again….. You were always mean to others, but somehow you targeted me a lot... I….I…..”
Suddenly, Mikan opened her eyes and looked at Hiyoko with an empty look that was similar to her nightmare version.
“I wanted to hurt you a lot. I wanted to be in control and thanks to that fashionista, I had a lot of ideas, as to how to take revenge. It was something I looked forward to, a lot.”
“Se… See?! I was right! You were faking your feelings, from the start, you whore!”
“No, that’s wrong.”
Mikan’s empty look slowly disappeared and was replaced by one, of shame.
“I…. I wanted revenge yes…. But…. But I couldn’t go through it….. I….. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. And when…. When you were telling me, why you were actually bullying me…. Because of how afraid you were, about your sexuality coming out…. I….I lost interest in revenge….”
“You-”
“Please listen to me, Hiyoko.”
Surprised, the blonde stared at the brunette. Her stutter was gone.
“I began to sympathize with you. The more you told me about, how conservative your family was and how homophobic they were, the more I realized that we two are not so different. Both of us had been mistreated in the past and…. I began to see another side of yours. Mom always used to beat me, whenever she saw pictures of girls in my room…. Just like how your sisters put nails in your shoe, as punishment for your homosexuality….and….
Before I realized it, I began to fall in love with you.”
“S… Stop sprouting such lies!”, the dancer shot back and suddenly moved closer and grabbed Mikan’s hand roughly. The nurse flinched surprised, yet did not try to free herself.
“JUST GET YOUR REVENGE ALREADY! YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE HERE, WHO KNOWS THAT I LIKE GIRLS, SO JUST GO AHEAD AND SPILL THE BEANS! TAKE REVENGE ON ME, STAB ME, INSULT ME, JUST DO WHATEVER YOU’D LIKE TO ME! PLEASE……”
Suddenly her voice turns quiet and almost pleading.
“Just….. Just get it over with….. Please…..”
For a while, Mikan was just staring at her lover, unsure how to proceed. However, eventually she shook her head, freed herself from Hiyoko’s grip and then suddenly slung her arms around the taller girl’s waist. Surprised, the dancer wanted to free herself, yet she was no longer in control of her body.
“Wh… What….”
“I am sorry you had a bad dream. It is true that I used to hate you and even now, still haven't forgiven you fully for what you did to me.”, Mikan began and caressed the blonde’s back, who began to blush even more. “But I promise that I don’t hate you. I love you Hiyoko Saijonji. I want to be with you, for the rest of our very lives. I will not take revenge on you whatsoever, I promise.”
For a while, Hiyoko didn’t say anything and instead stared lifelessly, scared and confused at the brunette. However, eventually tears began to leak out again from her eyes once more, though no sobs were heard and before Mikan knew it, she felt how her embrace was returned to her.
“I…. I am so sorry for saying those things to you….. I…. I was so afraid that I’d get hurt again…. Tossed aside and left behind…. Dancing alone and forever…..”
“You’re not going to be alone my dear.”, Mikan replied gently. “You are my medicine and I can’t get enough of you.”
Suddenly, a light chuckle filled the room, one the nurse knew all too well.
“You really are horrible at flirting, dummy.”, Hiyoko said and smirked at her, teasingly. “This is not, how you should treat a lady, you know. I gotta teach you some manners, it seems. ”
“Ah…. I am sorry….”, Mikan replied with a knowing smile. She was glad that Hiyoko was feeling better and that was all that mattered.
Both of the girl just smiled at each other for a while, before Hiyoko leaned in and closed the gap between their lips. The tears gave the kiss a salty taste, yet neither cared as both girls deepened the kiss, before eventually falling asleep besides one another.