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'There He is… so beautiful.' Cas thought to himself, looking toward Dean. Dean was currently sitting at the main table in the bunker, coffee cups and files littering the table. The scent of old books fill the air, even after all his time the bunker still smells the same. You'd think after all the…incidents there had been in this room would cause more of a foul smell but no, still the same old. It kept everyone grounded. One thing that would never change. Unlike the people that lived there… especially Dean.
Cas knew it was creepy but he was growing more and more concerned about his… friend..
Dean had been leaving Sam and Cas by themselves more and more often to get some air. It was the look of excitement mixed with sadness that originally got him worried but when he couldn't even locate Dean most times, it made Cas's fear worse. This time though, Cas had followed him. 'I wonder why he didn't leave like the other times.' He thought on it for a moment then it dawned on him. Sam was going out for a grocery run and Cas lied and said he was going with. Dean thought he was alone. He was going to talk to him about his awareness skills later on why he didn't feel someone watching him. But only if he found out he was there…
Cas snapped back into reality. Looking over to the older hunter, he examined his face trying to read any emotion at all. Deans face was content? But his resting bitch face deceived his true emotion. He looked around a couple times before he stood up from the table, Cas still invisible watching him. Dean walked over to a large trunk that always sits empty on the side of the room, at least Cas thought it was empty.
When Dean opened it, a gorgeous guitar was sitting inside. The wood stained a dark brown and the lining that is stereotypically black was a light amber. 'When did Dean get a guitar?' Deans face warmed over, he carefully pulled out the instrument and sat back down.
Plucking at the strings and twisting the Machine heads individually, he tuned the guitar. Being seemingly proud of himself for tuning it, 'almost like watching a person pick up a hobby they haven't done since they were a kid.' Cas thought.
It clicked.
Dean probably used to play guitar. Cas has never seen Dean play guitar or heard him even mention it, he wondered why. Dean began to strum a couple different chords, he was quite good. A saddened look crossed over his face as he began to play, his voice lightly humming an older song. Cas couldn't help but think that Dean was gorgeous in this moment, the way his legs were positioned to support the guitar better, the way his voice paired with the sound of the chords and the way a sad smile took over his features. Oh how he wished he could reveal himself to Dean and comfort him, help him trust and learn to confide in him and kiss him…
Dean's voice rang out louder this time, more confident. Cas could tell what he was singing now. It was an old song from 68', Blackbird by The Beatles.
As Dean started to sing, the angel could hear the slightest wavering in his voice. Emotions that Dean trusted nobody with. "Take these broken wings and learn to fly.. all your life…" The second verse is where things got bad, Dean had tears brimming down his eyes as he sang. He stopped playing after that line, leaning over the guitar and shaking.. a choked sob escaped his throat. "I'm sorry Cas.."
Castiel was almost in tears before but now? He has to leave. He walked out of the living area and to his room. He undid the invisibility and thought about that line. 'Take these broken wings and learn to fly…' he also thought about Dean's words and apology. He thought back to everything, everything he could have done to make him think it was anyone's fault other than his. Then he thought of 2009. He hurt Dean. Told him it was his fault, that he gave up everything for him, just for Dean to let him down…
Cas broke.
Cas sat there wallowing in his regret and sadness while his friend sat just outside, sitting in his..
-A couple hours later-
Deans in the kitchen. Sam had just come home and is currently walking into the room. " Hey, so get this, while I was out they had a sale on your favorite pie so I bought three" Sam says matter of factly. "Awesome" Dean says, smiling. After admiring the pie for a minute longer Dean speaks up again. "Where's Cas?" "Oh, he changed his mind on going to the store and stayed home, probably in his room?"
"What?" Dean's heart sank. Sams immediately on edge but sighs after a second. " Were you watching that erotic anime stuff in the living room again?" He says disgusted and disappointed. " I need to go." Sam scoffs as Dean hurriedly runs out of the room, Sam assumes he was right and then goes back to unloading the groceries.
♡Outside Dean's room♡
Cas stood outside Dean's room. He knocked on the door after a moment of hesitation. "Come in" he hears, definitely Dean's voice but I sounded muffled not just from the door. Castiel opened the door and looked over to Dean. Finding him laying on the bed, head smothered into his pillow. "Dean?" Cas said "Are you alright?" He watched as Dean sat up and leaned over the edge of his bed "sit." Dean said demandingly but with a slight waver in his voice. Cas immediately listened and sat beside him. Maybe a bit too close but Dean didn't seem to mind so he stayed put. "Did you hear anything while Sam was gone?" Cas kinda froze at the question. " What do you mean. I went out with hi-" "Dont lie to me Cas!" Dean said raising his voice. Dean refused to look at him, why did he lie? If he did hear him what would he say? What would Cas think of him?
"Dean!" Cas shouted shaking his shoulder, snapping him out of his thoughts. He looked at Cas for the first time that evening to see slight tears in his eyes. In a blink of an eye He was enveloped by a hug from his friend of many years. He was overcome with a sense of sadness and longing. He hugged back.
As Dean adjusted to hug him back better, Cas spoke up. I'm sorry Dean, I did lie.. and I did hear you.. I heard everything." Dean responded by nuzzling his face deeper into the crook of his neck, his face being surrounded by the smell of that silly trench coat and the smell of the impalas leather seats. Although he was upset Cas has lied, was still comforted by the angel infront of him.
"I'm sorry Cas.." if possible Dean hugged him tighter, trying to hold back his sobs. A hand went up to his hair and another started stroking his back. "Why on earth are you sorry? You have nothing to be sorry for." He placed a slight kiss on the deans temple, he regretted it a second later, In fear of making Dean uncomfortable but he stayed, still nuzzling into Cas. Dean raised his head, "But its all my fault! You going against heaven and falling. You being hurt all those time and killed!, all cause of m-" "No!" Cas inturupted. He cupped the crying hunters face, stroking some of the tears with his thumbs. " Nobody can make anyone do anything, God gave us all free will. I did this because I wanted to. Because I love you.." Cas said. He stilled regretting his last statement when he saw the look of shock wash over Deans face. "What?" Dean said breathless. They were 6 inches apart at this point.
Cas went to pull away, letting go of Deans face. "I'm so sorry I should-" Dean pulled Cas back by his twisted blue tie and immediately kissed him.
It was just a quick peck but that's all Cas needed to know his feelings were reciprocated. Dean rested his head on Cas's chest, slowly wrapping his arms around his neck. Cas, still in shock just sat there blushing and questioning if what happened actually just happened. "Do you wanna stay here for the night?" Dean asked hopefully, looking up at his new lover. Cas looked down towards his and placed another kiss atop his head "Ofcourse"
-30 minutes later-
One thing Cas wasn't expecting was for Dean to be so touch starved but the more he thought about it the more it made sense. Dean was laying on his back in his pajamas while holding Cas ontop of him, who was also in sleeping clothes. "Best night ever.." Dean said looking up to the ceiling, hoping this moment would never end. Cas's head was laying in his neck and inhaling the surprisingly clean smell, the bunker truly had done wonders for the boys hygiene. Cas was drapped over deans chest and and lower body and their legs tangled together, entirely laying on him.
Cas tilted his head up and placed kisses to Deans neck. He felt deans arms tighten around him. "Can we try something different now?" Cas said innocently "What!?" Dean flushed. "Like could I try spooning you?" Cas finished. "Oh..um yeah I guess." He said hesitantly.
Cas got off dean and waited for Dean to roll on his side. As he did Cas snuggled up right behind him wrapping his hands around deans body and pulling him closer.
Dean felt safe. Safer then he's ever felt. He felt like he could cry, and thats exactly what he did.
When Castiel heard quiet sniffles from infront of his, he was on high alert. Did he hurt him, did he not like this position? "Dean?" "Sorry Cas, im just really.. really happy" he pushed him back closer to the angel. Cas sighed, happy it was nothing bad. Cas still wanted to try something though. As they were cuddling Dean heard a hum from behind him. It was Cas humming the tune to Blackbird. Dean turned around and shoved his face into Cas's chest very fast after hearing him. Wanting to he even closer if possible. His love for the Angel was so strong, it was awesome to know after all this time that his feelings were reciprocated.
After he finished adusting, wrapping his arms around Castiel, his hands on Dean's back, he continued singing " Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these sunken eyes and learn to see. All your life, you were only waiting for this moment to be free" his gruff voice was enough for Dean, he was falling asleep within minutes of him singing and humming. All cuddled up into Cas's chest with a small smile on his face
Cas ofcourse didn't need sleep but still it made him feel happy and relaxed seeing his new lover like this. Finally together after all this time and finally saying the thing that needed to be said after years. "I love you Dean" Cas whispered placing one last kiss on his head. "I love you too Cas."
☆Writers note☆
I hope this was alright. It was my first time writing a story that wasn't "x reader". If you have any feedback at all I'd love to hear it!♡♡ thank you for reading this mediocre oneshot:))