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He drank slowly, savouring each drop of his liquor. Childe was only doing that because he could see that it annoyed the barman that served him. Diluc was well-known among his comrades, and they liked to spend the maximum time in his pub, the Angel’s Share. The man could not prove their wrongs and also couldn’t put them out if they didn’t make any trouble. It was funny to see his angry face every time they would call for another drink — Childe would even dare say he had a very cute angry face…
However, he wasn’t there tonight to bother Diluc, even if to do so he didn’t need to do much. He was awaiting her to finally come, like a puppy waiting for its owner after they went out to work. Lumine had this type of power over him, she only needed to text him for him to come back to her.
It did surprise him though, her subtle appearance out of nowhere after their last goodbye being the way it was. Childe still remembered the last day he saw her.
Lumine was with her hair untied, her blond locks falling everywhere around her face. “We should stop seeing each other.”
It hurt a lot to hear her saying that. Childe understood why the words were spoken, they really should stop seeing each other. Things could get very ugly if someone discovered them — no, no one needed to discover them to make things get messy, suspicion would suffice.
“I know,” and he was being sincere, Childe of the two would be the one most troubled if the Fatui discovered since his position there depended on the benevolence of the Tsaritsa. “but I can’t let you go. I devoted my life to Tsaritsa but I am capable of throwing everything out of the window for you. I chose you, Lumine. Every time we saw each other, every time I betrayed my comrades' trust I was putting you over everything else.”
She didn’t look in his eyes while he was pouring his heart out to her, offering it without any restriction. Childe hoped the reason was the fact that his words were so sincere, so full of truth and love, that it would break her cold resolve and she was trying to stop them from doing so. Maybe in her mind, she thought that looking away would stop his words from invading her mind.
When Lumine looked back at him, Childe knew he was wrong, and she didn't move — even a little bit — by his words.
“I never asked any of it from you. You just kept coming back every time I sent you away. What should I do? Close my doors for you?”
He clenched his fist, anger starting to pour inside him. “What you should’ve done?” He breathed in and out, controlling his temper. “Nothing, Lumine. You could’ve closed your door at my face any time you wanted since it was in that dark lair of yours we’ve met all this time to cover my betrayal. Or better, you could’ve gone directly to the Tsaritsa herself, told her what we were doing and I’d stop appearing at the Abyss. I know it would stop you from being disturbed by my presence.”
“Ajax…” he almost didn’t hear her, she spoke so softly. “You know if I could I would choose you. Don’t… don’t get angry, please. My brother… I’ll always put him over anything else, over anyone else. This we have can put his life in danger and I’m not doing it with him.”
Lumine would always do that. Childe knew the sacrifices she made from a young age to maintain her brother away from the real world problems, from the ugly truth they lived. It was one of the reasons why they could keep around each other for such a long time — Childe agreed that to defend his brothers' life he should sacrifice everything , even himself.
Yet he couldn't disagree more with Lumine right now.
“Am I not doing the same? You know that Teucer, Tonia and Anthon are also involved in this mess… you know how much they would lose with this !”
“And I know that after this you’ll get home, will see their happy faces and will with time forget that I was once in your life.” Lumine extended her hand as if she was going to touch Childe’s face, the way she was acquainted with doing after their heated nights at her lair.
But he couldn’t… she wasn’t going to touch him one last time. He wasn’t one for goodbyes of this kind.
Childe held her hands. “I hope the same happens to you, Your Majesty. Please, don’t ever come after me again.”
She watched him walk slowly away. Though he was tempted to, Childe didn’t look back at her. He wouldn’t give Lumine a glimpse of his face, since it showed how hurt he was.
And now she was calling him again and Childe, as the idiot he was, went to Angel’s Share as her text suggested.
“Barman, another drink.” He called for Diluc, trying to distract himself a little.
Diluc was serving another person at the moment and Childe could see from where he was seated that the man cursed him in a low voice. It wasn’t the first time and wouldn’t be the last.
“Can’t you see I’m already serving another?” Diluc sighed, getting his hair out of his eyes as he started pouring the drink he finished mixing to his client. Childe always found it funny how he would subtly incite him with little gestures. Did Diluc know he could provoke him so much by only combing his hair through his fingers? And was Childe already wasted to be thinking this type of thing?
“Yes, I can…” Childe looked at his cup almost empty. Should he really drink more? Maybe Lumine wasn’t even going to appear . He knew that the thought of him there getting wasted while he waited for someone that wasn’t even thinking about really meeting him would amuse Lumine a lot. “You know… I changed my mind… I think I’ll stop-”
“Stopping already, Ajax? At the very moment I finally arrived?”
There was only one person that would call him that way.
“Well, you can’t blame me.” He turned around to look at her. The same blond locks he loved to comb with his fingers and the same blue eyes he would search for desperately to go back to Earth. “Thought you wouldn’t come.”
Lumine at least got flushed by his comment. “Sorry, it wasn’t easy to deceive everyone this time. Dainsleif almost followed me all the way to here.”
And that was it. He didn’t even need to hear her say that she was sorry for trying to completely erase him from her life. A simple excuse for her delay and there was his heart, already beating fast for her, waiting desperately for her next move and her next words.
It was now that she would sit over his lap and cover him with kisses. Lumine knew he looked Diluc a little bit more than he should and she was more than happy to show every time to the redhead that Childe was hers.
But it wasn’t the way things happened. They were too awkward around each other to go back to the way they were used to.
“Can we… go to another place?” Lumine asked, she didn’t avert his eyes this time. “I know we need to talk.”
He followed her out of the establishment. If he had a tail, he knew it would be shaking behind him. He couldn’t help though. Childe should be angry, he should yell a lot of things to Lumine, things he’s been keeping inside him since their last argument.
He wouldn’t do that. And it wasn’t to be blamed on alcoholic drinks. It was his nature.
Lumine pressed him on the wall of the pub. Childe didn’t even have time to think before she pulled him and kissed him with the voracity he so loved — and missed.
It… it wasn’t right. Lumine should not have this power over him. He should push her away, scream everything that was stuck in his throat.
But she smelled so good… and she was there with him . She came back, came back to him… and he missed her so greatly. He would leave the thinking to “the Childe of tomorrow”. He’ll be the one to rethink every decision he makes that night.
He would not think. Thoughts hurt and he only wanted to feel loved again by Lumine tonight.
.
Somehow they found a place — a motel that was conveniently close to the place they were. The owner didn’t ask questions and they didn’t ask back. Both sides apparently knew that something that should not happen was about to be started.
Childe combed his fingers through Lumine’s hair, the way he yearned so much to do. She was everything in his mind now, in his tongue, in his hands. Intoxicating, Lumine always filled his lungs with her and only her. How could he not give away everything he had for her?
They separated from each other for a bit and Lumine took hold of this opportunity to start undressing him. Childe could feel her nails over his chest, provoking him and making him get more and more hard as time went by.
“Already excited, are we?” Lumine asked him and then she nibbled his ear. That made him chuckle a bit, she knew he was so sensitive there and would tease him whenever she could.
In answer to her, Childe pulled Lumine back, kissing her again. If nothing good would come out of her mouth, he better stop her from talking too much or else they would end up discussing again, and it was the only thing he didn't want to happen. Not right here, not right now.
Taking advantage of the fact that Childe gave her full access to his chest, Lumine used part of her strength to make him finally fall into the bed, his back hitting the sheets and his arms circling her as if she was a treasure.
"Desperate to finally get there?" it was the sole response Childe gave to her, saying the phrase in a playful tone. Lumine didn’t answer him with words, though her hands going down and down Childe's body were the reply he needed.
Childe helped Lumine get his trouser out, her hands playing with his already marked erection. If he let her, Lumine would take her sweet time teasing him, her hand going up and down his dick slowly while all the while she looked at his face as if to make sure he was there , there while she gave him pleasure.
But where more could he be? Her eyes always had the power to capture him and make him surrender — though he would never admit it.
It was when he was lost in his thoughts and his pleasure that Lumine’s hand stopped its movement. Did she get out of bed? Now, in all the moments she could do it?
Was that her punishment for him? Give him pleasure, make him think everything was alright and then go away and never come back to him?
But as soon as she went, she came back. In her hands, there was… a dildo? A strap-on? Was it the name? Lumine held a bottle of lube also. If Childe wasn't seeing what was in her hands, he would think it was an ordinary item by the look on her face — though it wasn't.
"Oh …"
"Oh?" She put the things in the bed. "That's all you have to say?"
"Yes. A 'please be careful' or a 'we are not doing it' would be very out of character, don't you think?"
She was back over him, already opening the bottle of lube. Childe opened his legs a little bit more, already excited about what was going to happen. It wasn’t the first time they were doing things in that… unusual way. But Lumine knew he liked when she was dominant, so he really didn't expected her to be so merciful and fuck him right after their last goodbye being an argument.
"Yes, I agree." Her fingers were wet when she looked at him as if he was a problem to be resolved. "Open your legs, Ajax. That way I can’t prepare you properly."
And he did as he was said to.
"You are so tight." he could hear Lumine whispering, though he was more concentrated on her fingers inside him than what she was saying. "Did anyone touch you since me?"
He moaned, holding the sheets to keep himself in place. Lumine kissed his neck, whispering to him a "as I can see, you're still as loyal as ever, uh?"
The place she kissed was burning, everything was burning to be honest. He tried to keep his mouth shut, to not let Lumine be victorious in making him moan, but it was hard to stop himself from making that type of shameful sound.
It was when she hit that spot that he couldn’t help but moan her name . His lips, already swollen by her kisses, opened to pronounce every syllable of her name. "Lumine."
She hit there again, and again as if trying to see if he could moan again and again and again.
" Lumine , stop playing with me!" Childe thought about pulling her by her hair. He could do that, he could throw her at that bed and fuck her in a way she would never forget. His dick even throbbed only by the idea, his mind already imagining her surprised face and the way she would be the one moaning shamefully.
However, he knew the price he would play after. It was better to obey her majesty than to get on bad terms with the Princess of the Abyss.
"You know the way to make me do what you want."
He knew, but he wasn't ready to admit defeat. He was going to fight until the end or he would not be Childe, the Eleventh…
Lumine licked one of his nipples, the way only she knew how to. Her fingers were still inside him, but now not touching the place he wanted them to touch most.
" Lumine , please…"
"Only when you say."
Childe closed his eyes. "Please, fuck me."
The way she looked at him almost made him fearful — almost.
She took her fingers out of him, but Childe didn’t have the time to feel empty because soon she was back, with the strap-on in hand. He watched excited Lumine wrap it around her hips. Before she could do so, Childe got the lube putting it in his fingers.
"Let me help you," he said, wrapping his fingers around the dildo for her. It wasn't a move without previous thought, since he took advantage of the moment to get closer to Lumine and he even kissed her belly.
Lumine combed his hair. "Good boy. Now lay back for me."
And he was back to the bed and she was back over him, and they were again a mess.
Instead of putting the dildo slowly inside him, Lumine pushed the toy with her hips as fast as she could, hitting Childe’s prostate so fast he lost his breath.
Lumine held his hair and he held her shoulders, his legs around her lips. Each thrust made him moan more and more, making him want to touch himself so bad.
As if knowing what he was thinking, Lumine looked him in his eyes and said, "don't touch, I want you to come by yourself."
Childe didn’t need to touch himself though. He missed her so much, and it was so good to have Lumine back that he couldn’t hold himself much. He felt his whole body get tensed and then he released it all, coming so bad that his belly and Lumine’s were white with his sperm.
Before she could get out of him, Childe held her with the last of his strength.
"Why did you come back?" He was afraid to ask it to her, but now he was satisfied and tired and he couldn't pretend anymore that nothing had happened before. "Why did you leave me?"
"Ajax…"
He held Lumine’s hair and made her look at him. "You better tell me, or that will be the last time you're ever seeing me."
It didn't sound the way he wanted though. He appeared desperate, and how could he be different when she was still inside him and his cum was all over him?
"I can't live without you." Sincerity, he could see it reflected in her eyes. "I'm sorry for what I said that night, you have as much as me to lose and still put me over everything. It wasn’t fair I wouldn't do the same."
Childe could feel the tears already invading his eyes, but he would not cry. He tried to look away from Lumine, her eyes were unbearable.
"Ajax…" she whispered his name. He waited and waited, however, nothing more came out of her mouth. Was she calling him only because she wanted to do so? She had no more words for him?
As if to answer him, Lumine pushed herself out of him and he felt how cold the night really was for the first time. He looked for a cover for himself but there was none.
But then, Lumine was back. Wearing nothing more now and holding a blanket. Apparently she was the only one that thought about anything else in the room, remembering that they needed at least a bit of comfort.
She came to him, slowly, as if in fear he would suddenly decide to make his words real and leave as soon as possible.
Where there was nothing more to add, where words could be disastrous, gestures were the most welcome way to show what one felt. Instead of saying that he accepted her apologies, Childe pulled Lumine, making her lay beside him.
He kissed her forehead, she lifted the blanket over them. No one spoke, both knowing that they didn't need that to come back, the fact that they were together now was all they needed.