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Kirishima wasn't the best, but he wasn't the worst either. He had everything he could wish for. A loving family, good friends, a great mentor, the best teacher, promising hero career. It was awesome.
It was like that until the accident. The league of villains started attacking his high school more and more often. His best friend, Bakugou, was kidnapped by those psychos. But it was fine, he and Todoroki made up a plan to save him! It was all fine.
He saved him. Or how Bakugou liked to say it - "A good opportunity to escape.". He didn't mind tho.. It was good to know that he helped his friend.
Soon after they came back at the dorms, it was time to come back to school as well.
It was odd for Aizawa to be late. Sure he slept a lot but he never dared to be late.
"What if he's stuck in a patrol?" - Kaminari asked out loudly.
"He would've warned us." - answered Iida.
"Maybe he's sick!" - Mina shouted.
"He ain't sick, we saw him yesterday, remember?" - Sero said calmly.
"What if--"
"Kirishima." - Aizawa mumbled from the door frame. "Come with me, please."
Eyes on the red head.
"Uh.. S-sure!" - he jumped off his seat and ran towards the door, leaving a lot of confused looks.
"What's up, sensei?" - he asked.
"Follow me." - his black haired teacher said and started walking down the hall.
Aizawa lead them to the principal's office. Eijirou wouldn't lie, he was really nervous. Yet again he couldn't remember doing something that bad? Were they expelling him!? No, no, it can't be. His grades weren't that bad. He wasn't a bad person, he made sure to help around whenever he got the chance. Then what-
"Mr. Kirishima, I apologize for this all. " - Nezu said, jumping off his seat.
"I.. Wha.." - Eijirou couldn't make out a word. He was shaking.
"You are not in trouble, kid." - his teacher said, placing a hand on the younger boy's shoulder.
"What's happening..?" - the red head mumbled.
"Sit down for awhile. " - Nezu said, offering a place for Eijirou on the sofa.
"No, no.. I would rather stay still. "
"Mr. Kirishima, I'm afraid that we have some bad news for you." - the principal mumbled.
Eijirou nodded, showing that he was ready to hear them.
"Your parents passed away."
"What?" - a stupid smile made it's way onto the red head's face.
"They were in Kamino during the accident. Unfortunately, the fight reached them and they were.. Killed.. Right there." - Nezu looked at his student.
"What?" - Eijirou repeated. This time the smile was gone.
"From what I've heard, they were there for a business trip, on their way back to the hotel, they were caught by the damages."
Kirishima moved quickly but was held in place by his teacher.
"It's okay-"
"Let me go!!"
"I'm sorry, I can't-"
"You are lying, they are not dead! I talked with them the night before we went to Kamino!! They were alright!"
"Things like that just happen.. I'm sorry."
Tears started running down the younger male's face. "No.. No-"
"We will do everything possible to help you-"
Kirishima pushed away the hands of Aizawa and ran out of the office.
"Kirishima-" - his teacher yelled after him. He turned to the principal.
"I think he might need some time alone." - Nezu mumbled.
Kirishima ran, he ran past the halls, down the stairs, he ran outside of the school. Eventually, he got to the beta ground. It still counted as he was in school so technically he wasn't breaking any rules. Beside the fact that he started fighting.
Eijirou has never dared to fight and use his quirk when he's angry. He didn't like the fact that he could hurt someone, while he was raging.
But here he was, his arms hardened, punching the walls, the ground, kicking and yelling.
/
Back to class 1A, where Aizawa has started with his subject. When he stopped talking, he could hear the mumbles and whispers between his students. Pretty noisy..
"Okay, who can answer-"
"Shouta!" - Present Mic rushed into the classrooms.
"What is it, Hizashi? You know that I'm teaching, right now." - the teacher said.
"K--.. Nezu needs you in the beta ground!"- Yamada shouted.
"Alright. No need to yell.. Iida, on the front. Make sure the class is quiet." - and with that the two heroes left.
"What's-"
"It's not Nezu, it's Kirishima." - the blonde said.
Now they were running. The black haired man got ahead of the other. Soon enough, he was on the beta ground, where he could hear fighting and yelling.
"Where?"
"In Area B." - Present Mic answered.
On the other side, in Area B, Eijirou was fighting with no existing enemy. He was swinging his hands at a wall, kicking and breaking it.
"Okay, I'll take him-"
"No need." - Eraserhead activated his quirk.
"What.?" - and the red head's power was gone. He was soft again. Instead of stopping, he continued punching the wall.
"Okay, you may need to take him." - Shouta sighed.
Yamada rushed to the younger man. "Alright, let go kid." - he said pulling Eijirou back. His knuckles were bleeding and there were tears streaming down his face.
"Kirishima, let's get you back at your dorm." - Aizawa said walking up to them.
"I don't want to go in my dorm!!"
"Where do you want to go..?" - Hizashi asked.
"I want to go to my house!!"
"You know we can't let you go back home.." - Shouta nodded to his colleague.
"Okay, little listener, let's go." - the blonde picked up Eijirou and started walking away.
"I don't think this is really good-"
"Do you have any other ideas, Sho?" - the blonde mumbled.
"Right.. Okay well, to Recovery girl." - Aizawa said.
/
In the afternoon, Kirishima was resting in his room. He was reading a book, that he found under the bed. Right now, he was pretty calm, unlike earlier.
How embarrassing, he made Mic carry him around like a kid.
Two knocks on the wooden door and a blonde boy walked in the room.
"I'm pretty sure I texted you that we won't have a lesson today.. Didn't I? Sorry for making you come here without a reason!" - Kirishima quickly picked up himself from the bed and faced his friend.
"You did text me.. That doesn't mean I can't come in here, does it?"
"No, no, you can stay!!"
"Good, so-" - Bakugou sat on the desk. "what's up?"
"Hm? Ohh- I have some missing assignments to fill, nothing bad!"
"I hate liars."
"Okay, okay.. It's some healthy issues I have, I don't think I'll come to class in the next few days-"
"Woah- that doesn't sound really good?"
"It's not that serious, don't worry-"
"I wasn't worried, idiot. I was just saying."
"Right."
"So why would you be at the beta ground for that?"
"Huh?"
"The loud teacher came rushing in the middle of the lesson. He said something about Nezu needing Aizawa on the beta ground.. It's not hard to connect two and two."
"I was kinda mad I couldn't train with y'all today so I thought I could do it myself."
"Really?"
"Yeah..?"
"You never rage like that, I thought it was sort of my thing."
"Well-"
"Is that everything, you seem kinda off.. Really shitty to be honest."
"Ouch? But yeah, that's all."
"I need you at your best, you know that right?"
"Yeah I know." - Kirishima sat back on his bed and laid down.
"Here." - Bakugou threw some notebooks on the other's stomach. "You missed some important things today."
"Thanks.. I'll copy them later."
"What are you reading?"
"Old book.. I don't know."
"I thought you didn't like to read that much."
"I don't. But sensei suggested to read, said it would calm me down a bit."
"That's dumb.. Anyways, you coming with me?"
"With you?"
"Beside the studying 'date' "- Katsuki joked. "We agreed to go to dinner tonight, to talk about the accident." - then his voice got serious.
"The accident.." - Eijirou didn't want to cry in front of the blonde. "Yep.. Sure, just let me change my clothes." - he whispered trying to keep his voice from breaking.
"Okay." - Bakugou left the room.
The red head shut the door and started crying quietly. He tried to brush the tears off but they were never ending. He never thought he would be so emotional at every mention of the accident. Kirishima took some clothes from his closet, a tank top and some short jeans. His hair was a mess, yeah, he tried to fix it but it wouldn't sit straight. He ended up letting it down, just for tonight. Eijirou grabbed his personal stuff and walked out of his dorm.
"Woah." - Bakugou mumbled, truly impressed. "Your hair.. It's not that shitty anymore."
"That's the nicest thing you've told me. I decided it would look better like that.. Just for the night tho." - Kirishima said putting some hair behind his ear.
"Whatever. Let's go." - the blonde mumbled and they started walking.
/
CW!! ED!
At the restaurant, Eijirou didn't really eat. He was just playing with his food, using his chopsticks.
"Aren't you going to eat?" - the blonde asked, making eye contact with the other boy.
"Nah, I'm not hungry."
"Okay, about Kamino-"
Kirishima looked away.
"My parents-"
'Seriously? What the fuck?'
"-said that I should repay you somehow, the hag said to make it up to you for risking your life and bla-bla-bla.. Even tho I already gave you money for the night glasses.." - Katsuki mumbled.
"No need to repay me, you don't owe me anything."
"I didn't say I did but okay? This dinner, might be my repayment method. Tho, you haven't touched your food all night." - Bakugou looked disappointed.
"I'm just.. not hungry."
"Funny, beside the fact that you haven't eaten all day."
"I did eat a healthy bar."
"That's not normal food, dumbass."
"I ate breakfast as well so it's all fine."
"Sure is.. You are lying to me. You know damn well I hate liars so spit it all. What's wrong? Do you have trouble eating food.? Or you force yourself not to-"
"Dude no!! It's nothing like that!!"
Bakugou looked at the red head and sighed. "My mom will beat me up after she finds out we didn't spend the night how she wanted us to do."
"I'm sorry.."
"Don't apologize? It's not your fault."
"It is-"
"Shh."
"But-"
"SHH!"
Kirishima closed his mouth like a fish.
"Let's just go back to the dorms, hm?" - Katsuki asked and waved to the waitress.
"Sure."
/
After taking the bus back to the school area, the two boys started heading towards their dorms.
"Good night, Bakugou. Sleep well." - Eijirou mumbled.
The blonde looked at him. "Night." - and his door was closed.
The red haired boy walked into his own room and threw himself on the bed. He remembered the conversation from earlier.
'I'm pretty sure I'm not forcing myself not to eat.. It's because I can't look at food the same way- I can't eat it because it all feels gross but I AM hungry!' - he thought.
END OF CW!
Eijirou removed his top and tossed it away.
'Maybe if I was stronger? If I was quicker? Maybe if I had flashier quirk...? Would they.. Still be alive? Would it change anything? It's my fault they are.. dead.. after all.' - those thoughts filled his mind. Eventually, he found himself beating his own head aggressively. His hands pulling the bright red hair and big fat tears started streaming down his face. "Why am I like this..?" - he mumbled quietly.
Kirishima laid on the bed, facing the balcony door. It was windy outside. Suddenly, small watery dots hit the door and soon, it was raining outside. Eijirou walked to his balcony. Sliding the glass door aside, he walked out in the rain. Shirtless and without any shoes, he sat on the ground and rested his head on the glass. The water started streaming down his body. The bright red hair was soaking wet. His body was shivering from the cold water.
"Kirishima?"
Eijirou yelped. He looked towards his left and saw his classmate peek from their own balcony.
"Is everything okay?"
"Shouji! You scared me, dude!!" - Kirishima quickly fixed himself and stood up.
"It's raining a lot, you look really cold."
"Nah, I'm fine!"
"You are trembling? I'm sure I heard some sort of fighting? Should I call Aizawa?" - the bigger man said with concern in his voice.
'Fighting..? I was just- oh... I was loud?'
"Fighting? I was training with my punch bag, nothing serious."
"You are still trembling.."
"Well it might be just a little bit of cold.. I'll go take a shower and head back to sleep, eh?"
"Are you positive that you don't want Aizawa knowing?"
"Yes, hundred percent!"
"If you say so, get some rest." - Shouji looked at the smaller boy.
"Thank you, good night!" - the red head flashed a smile and walked back into his room. He kicked the wooden bed and growled like an angry animal.
'Great job, Eijirou, now you are bothering the others too. Hooray!' - he thought and took his towel, after that he headed towards the showers. Kirishima got to the bathroom and started stripping his clothes off.
After a quick cold shower, he was back in bed. His eyes were on the ceiling. A few happy memories filled his mind. Then he started sobbing like a little kid. Putting his hands over his mouth, he tried to shush himself.
/
The next day, he woke up sweating. His pillows were on the ground, his blanket was on the edge of the bed, his body was laying uncomfortably on the hard mattress. Kirishima looked around then rolled off the bed. He took his phone and made his way to the common room. Taking the controller, he started scrolling through the TV channels.
"Good morning."
"Morning.. sensei?" - Eijirou looked behind himself to see his teacher.
"How are you feeling?" - the older male sat in front of Kirishima.
".. Not at my best, to be honest."
"Understandable. How did you sleep?"
"Uncomfortable."
"If there's anything I could do-"
"It's alright. I don't want to be a bother to you or anyone else."
"You are not a bother, Kirishima. I promise you- everyone in the school would be more than happy to help you."
"I don't need help.. I need.." - Eijirou stopped himself. The 'them' was on the top of his tongue.
"Did you contact with any of your other relatives.?"
"I don't have anyone else."
"What? But in your documents it's stated that your grandparents are able to take you in if there was something to happen to your parents-"
"They passed away last year."
"No aunts or uncles..?"
"No."
Aizawa looked at the smaller boy with pathetic face expression. 'Poor kid.' - he thought. "Is there anyone you could contact, that's close to you? Like.. Fat Gum or Tamaki Amajiki? They are both close to you and you spend a lot of time together. I'm sure they won't mind if they took you-"
"No, I'll wait till we graduate this year and I'll find myself a job so I can pay the bills to my old house. I'll live there till Year 2 starts."
"I apologize, but I cannot let you do that."
"Why.?"
"You are not even sixteen, you can't work that much, bills are tough plus I can't let you live alone.. We will have to think of someone to take you in."
"I can work! I'll find a good job.."
"You are too young. I'm sorry."
"Aizawa- i- I can do a lot of stuff!!"
"Kirishima, don't even try." - Shouta sighed and put a hand over the other's shoulder. "It's okay to need help. It's okay to ask for help. Let the people, who love you, help you."
Eijirou looked away and bite the inside of his cheek. "Okay.."
"Do you want me to talk with Fat Gum?"
"Yes, please."
"Alright. Let's go get some lunch." - the teacher said and stood up.
"I am not hungry.."
"Did I ask? No. Go get changed, I'll call your mentor's agency." - Aizawa shot a serious look at the red head. Kirishima nodded and went to his room.
/
Eijirou was playing with his food, using a fork, trying to ignore what his teacher and mentor were talking about.
"Whatz up, Eraser? You called me as if it was an emergency?" - Fat Gum said, taking a bite from his own meal.
"Fat, it's really hard for me to say this.. Kirishima-"
"Is there something wrong with my buddy Red.?" - suddenly a worried look placed itself on the bigger man's face. "Red?" - he glanced at his student.
Eijirou shook his head away and looked away quickly, feeling the tears starting to form in his eyes.
"Kirishima's parents passed away at Kamino, he doesn't have any relatives and since he's too young to live alone, pay the bills, put up with hero work and his own health, he doesn't have a place to stay other than the dorms. However the year is ending soon and they will be closed for all students. Since you-"
"I will take him!!" - Toyomitsu jumped.
"Are you sure? I could always take him as well but I'm so busy with the whole accident, plus Shinsou's staying with me too."
"I.. I don't know, I myself don't have a great house.. I don't know if he will be comfortable-.. Maybe it won't be the best idea for me to take him."
Shouta looked down and sighed. "I was hoping I would be able to sort this out today."
"But I will help with whatever I can! And when I fix my home I be more than glad to help little Red." - Fat Gum said, with a smile on his face, though it was obvious he was dying of worry inside.
"No need for that Fat, I can take care of myself." - Eijirou mumbled.
"Sure ya can, kiddo, but that doesn't mean I can't help!"
"He's right." - Aizawa agreed taking a look at the younger boy.
/
Hours after that, Kirishima was laying on his bed again, reading a comic book. It was raining outside, his balcony door was wide open and the storms were so loud, the wind was making him shiver and the rainy drops were making his little carpet wet.
Two knocks on the door.
"It's open!" - Eijirou shouted.
"I know damn well that it's open. What the hell are you doing here? The whole class has a movie night??" - Katsuki entered the room.
"I'm not in the mood for movies.."
"Then in what mood are you? We barely see each other, it's like you closed yourself!! What the fuck is wrong with you??"
"Please stop yelling, it's some personal things."
"I'm your... " - Bakugou thought for a moment. "I'm your best friend!!" - he finally admitted. "You told me I could tell you everything- then why the hell are you keeping secrets from me!?"
"I'm sorry- I just can't tell you! I can't."
"Why? It's not like you keep it a secret either since you won't stop crying after midnight!?" - Katsuki shouted. The surprised look on Eijirou's face made him smirk. "You thought I couldn't hear you.?" - he said with a devilish grin.
"I thought I was quiet, I'm sorry." - the red head said and he turned his back towards his friend.
"Well you are loud as fuck! It's like you are desperately trying to get my attention-"
"That's not the case, I swear!!"
"Then what is it!?" - Bakugou yelled and punched the wall near him.
After that, the room was silent.
Kirishima felt tears in his eyes. He hoped that Bakugou would leave soon.
"Not answering, huh?"
Nothing.
"Okay then, don't come whining to me when you get out of this awful mood. I don't even need you." - and with that, Katsuki left and slammed the door.
Eijirou started feeling the tears streaming down his face.
Bakugou left.
'I made him hate me.'
/
A day later, he got a call from Aizawa. Eijirou had to recognize his parents. He was the only one who could say for sure if the victims were his mother and his father.
So he still had some sort of hope. There's a possibility that the corpses weren't his parents.
'How selfish of you, Eijirou, to hope for someone else's life to be over.'
He fixed himself, changed and left. After thirty minutes, he was standing next to Aizawa in front of the morgue.
"I can't force you to do this, kid." - his teacher said. "Naomasa said you had to do this. I tried to tell-"
"It's alright. I can take it."
"Kirishima. You can't. That's perfectly fine. No one can handle these types of things."
"I will be able to."
"Eijirou, you will see your parents in there."
"I know."
"They won't look the same as they used to. Their bodies will be damaged, they will be cold." - Shouta said.
"If I can't recognize them.. Then who's going to do it.?"
Aizawa didn't reply.
"Mr. Kirishima? You may come in now." - a doctor with a mask over his mouth and nose said, opening the door.
Eijirou started walking, his teacher caught his shoulder. "You really don't have to do this."
"I have." - mumbled the red head and entered the room.
It was indeed colder than the outside. The doctors lead him to a table with two bodies on it. A masculine one and a feminine one. However, their faces were covered. They were both covered in nasty scars.
"When you are ready, sir." - one of the doctors said.
Kirishima took a long breath. He nodded.
The doctors lifted the object, that was covering the faces of the victims.
Eijirou froze.
The feminine one had long black hair, reaching her shoulders. Her head had a deep wound, that has started to close up with dried blood on it. Her lips were blue.
Kirishima turned his gaze on the masculine one. Brown hair and big eyes with a small scar over his lips, over one of the eyes, there was a bigger scar that clearly damaged the right eye.
The two figures had their eyes open. Red, dead, eyes were staring into Eijirou. He didn't move, didn't flinch. He was staring back at them, hoping they would show a sign of life.
They didn't do it.
"Sir.. Do you recognize the victims.?"
Kirishima didn't answer.
"Mr. Kirishima- we need to know- Hey!! You can't enter the morgue without permission-"
"I'm with him." - the voice of his teacher said. He walked up to his student and pulled him away from the bodies. Aizawa turned the boy around and hugged him, putting a hand over the bright red hair, he asked the same question.
A small, barely noticeable nod was the answer from the smaller boy.
"Yes. The victims are recognized, may you excuse us now?" - Shouta asked but didn't wait for an answer, he quickly took the kid out of the cold room.
Eijirou was visibly shaking.
"It's okay."
"You did a great job."
"I'm proud of you."
Were some of the words Aizawa spoke.
Shouta drove Kirishima back to the dorms. He told the red head that he still had some work to do but would be back soon. Eijirou nodded and entered the building.
"Oh, hello Kirishima-kun!" - Midoriya said loudly when he saw his friend.
The red head didn't even try to smile. "Hey."
"How are you doing? We barely see you these days, everything is fine, right?"
"I'm.... Fine."
"You don't look like it."
Eijirou raised an eyebrow.
"Oh my God that sounded so rude!! I'm sorry- I meant that- you don't look like your usual self!!"
"I'm fine, Midoriya."
"Okay, I believe you. You know that you can trust me, right?"
The red head nodded.
"You can tell me if there's something wrong."
"I know."
"Good. I have some work to do.. But I'm looking forward to seeing you again, eh?" - the green haired boy smiled.
"Yeah.. Good luck." - Kirishima said and started walking towards his room.
"Where were you.?" - a familiar voice said.
"I thought you didn't need me?" - Eijirou raised an eyebrow, facing his best friend (could he even call him best friend anymore.?).
"I.. I don't. You were out way too early."
"I had some stuff to do."
"What stuff?"
"Do you really care?"
"I do. I want to know what fucked up your mood so bad." - Katsuki crossed his arms in front of his stomach.
"It's not important. I'll be back in shape after awhile."
"You've been saying this for a long time.. No results."
"Why are you even talking to me?! After.. That night, you've been ignoring me- I didn't know if I should try and talk to you more- I wanted- I just-"
"Hey- calm down, Kirishima!!" - Bakugou caught the swinging arms and looked down at the red head.
"I don't want you to hate me- I'm having- bad..so much stuff happened- I'm sorry!!"
The blonde looked away. "Don't apologize. Don't you dare to apologize! I am the one who insulted you. I knew you were having a tough time and I still couldn't keep my mouth shut. I'm still.. Hurt that you don't want me to know but it's fine if you don't want to tell me... I'm.. S.. ssss-."
Eijirou chuckled.
"Are you laughing at me!?"
"You can't even say sorry!!" - the red head hid his mouth and started laughing.
"It's not funny!!"
"You are all flustered!"
"Shut up!!"
Kirishima looked away and his laugh slowly died.
"I am... Apologizing."
"Apology accepted, I missed you."
"Don't get all lovely-dovely, ew."
"But it's true!"
"Yeah, sure. Now come on, I'll help you with the new notes. You have a lot to catch up." - Katsuki pulled the other by the wrist and they walked into Bakugou's room.
While they were studying, the blonde was building courage to ask a very strange question.
"Is something bothering you.?" - Eijirou asked, seeing the way Katsuki's face was making differenta and quite funny expressions.
"My parents want to meet you."
"What?"
"The old had insisted for you to come for dinner. Tomorrow."
"Woah."
"They've wanted to see you since Kamino. I tried to shush them down but they are so stubborn."
"Do you want me to come?"
"I don't mind."
"Tomorrow, huh.?"
"Yea, the old hag's cooking."
"Alright.. I'll come."
"Good. We have to be there at half past six so be ready at five, we will go by the bus."
"Okay."
"My parents are.. so clingy to my friends.. So don't mind them."
"I won't, no worries."
"Alright, now back to the exercise!!" - Katsuki shouted.
/
The next day at exactly half past four, Eijirou was standing in front of his mirror and looking at himself.
'I've lost a lot of weight.. This might effect my fighting.. I'm so hungry. My hair looks like a mop.. I miss them, I miss you.' - he was dressed in a brown shorts and white shirt, his hair was down, covering his ears and touching his shoulders. His eyes were wandering over the reflection of his body. 'I need you. I need you here.' - suddenly he felt his legs give out and he fell on his knees. The view was pathetic and he knew it. The tears started forming faster than what he expected. 'Maybe if we didn't go.. Maybe it would be different. The whole fight.. If we weren't there it could happen much better! Maybe they wouldn't-' - he shivered. 'They wouldn't be gone now. But.. Bakugou's back. We saved him. I should be thankful that I got my best friend back- I'm so selfish!!' - Eijirou looked at the reflection. Just a month ago, he was so strong, he had muscles, his hair was shiny, his smile was bright. What happened?
"Kirishima!! The bus will be there earlier! We have to go!!" - he heard from the other side of the door. He tried to move but it felt like something was pulling his body down. Kirishima tried to say something, no words came out.
"Hello? I'm coming in!!"
'No.. No don't-..' - the red head thought.
"1.... 2......3!" - Bakugou opened the door and walked in the room. "What the hell are you doing!?"
Ruby red eyes, full of tears looked at the blonde.
"What.. Is- is everything alright.?" - Katsuki asked, he knelt down next to his friend to get a better view. "Do you need help.?"
'His voice is so calm.' "I'm fine.. Sorry for making you wait."
"No problem. Here." - Bakugou gave his hand to Eijirou. "Come on."
It was ironic. Now, Kirishima was the one who needed to be saved.
The red head smiled and took the hand.
"You ready to go?" - Katsuki asked. Eijirou nodded and they started walking to the bus stop.
"I'm kinda nervous."
"Why? You don't need to be perfect.. My parents are- well my parents. Nothing so special- plus we ain't dating. You could be, just you." - the blonde said and glanced to his friend.
Kirishima stared back at those crimson eyes. "Okay."
The bus came, the ride was calm and enjoyable and soon enough, at exactly 6 o'clock they were in front of Bakugou's porch.
"They are really extra.. You will have to tell them-"
"Katsuki!!" - the door opened and two adults peeked outside. A woman, with beautiful blonde hair, close shape to Katsuki's, her eyes were crimson red. Next to her was what Eijirou figured - her husband, Bakugou's father. His hair was brown, his eyes were dark and he wore thin glasses.
"Good evening!" - Kirishima bowed down.
"Is this your friend?? He seems so nice! Hello! I'm Mitsuki, this brat's mother!" - the lady said and smiled.
"I'm Masaru, it's nice to meet you, kid." - the older male greeted.
"Could we not do this on the porch? The sofa is really comfortable." - Katsuki said walking past them and pulling the red head along.
"Oh, yeah! Of course! Make yourself in home, uh-"
"Kirishima- Kirishima Eijirou!"
"Eijirou.. Can I call you that?" - the woman asked politely.
"Of course!!" - the boy smiled.
"Kirishima.. Are you related to Ichimoku Kirishima?" - the father, Masaru asked.
Eijirou froze and felt his tongue dry. "Yes, sir. He's my father." - he said carefully, fighting back the tears. 'Was' - the red head thought.
"So Yu is your mother?? How is she?? How are they actually?" - Mitsuki smiled.
"They are fine.." - he mumbled.
"Oi- how do you know Kirishima's parents?" - Katsuki asked.
"They are our coworkers, they work in company that supported us! I believe you've seen them.." - Masaru looked at his son.
"You must bring them for dinner sometime!! They are so nice." - the woman messed the red hair.
"Alright..!" - he forced a smile.
Mitsuki looked at the boy with love. "What am I doing here? I should be preparing the table!! Katsuki, come help me!" - she rushed to the kitchen.
"What!? Can't you do it alone!?" - he quickly followed her.
"You can sit down, son. I don't bite." - Masaru chuckled.
"Ah- yes thank you!" - Eijirou sat on the sofa and looked at Bakugou's father.
They sat in silence, a very awkward silence for the red head, until they heard the other two call them for dinner. They all sat down and began to eat.
"So, Eijirou.. Katsuki must be very important for you, eh?" - the mother asked.
A slight, pinkish blush appeared on Kirishima's nose. "Y-yes. He's my best friend. Manliest guy I've ever seen-"
"Shush it down, Shitty hair." - Katsuki mumbled, embarrassed by the compliment.
"I think we talked about this, Katsuki. You shouldn't be rude to your friends." - the older male said.
"Ah it's fine! I'm used to that nickname-"
"Be ashamed, Katsu. We didn't raise you like this." - Mitsuki looked at her son.
"Sure you did not!! Let me remind you that you called old man a "show off brat" when y'all first met. You don't have the right to lecture me." - the younger blonde said.
"Let's not argue about this now, how about we talk about Kamino? I really want to hear some details." - Masaru said with a smile.
"Oh yes! Katsuki got kidnapped by those nasty villains, what happened after that?" - the woman asked.
"Well.. I.. Uh.."
"Come on, broom head, you haven't talked to me about this as well." - Bakugou pushed the other's elbow.
"Alright.. Alright.. Well um, I got really worried after I found out Bakugou got taken away. I started thinking a plan or well we could call it a mission to save him. The pros were taking very long.. While Momo- our classmate had put a location detector on one of the nomus! Which actually helped a lot since we found the location easier. Me and Todoroki created a simple plan, we go there and save him, after Midoriya-kun got released we took Momo with us and went to Kamino. There.." - Eijirou was trying so hard to ignore the accident. He was on the verge of tears. He could imagine his parents walking down the street and then the accident and--- "All Might was on his way to save Bakugou, however the villains were ready for that.. They weren't ready for some students, when they were busy with All Might, we created another plan, we blasted ourselves in the sky and there, I was supposed to caught Bakugou. He used his explosions to get to us and after that.. Well you know the other part, heh." - Kirishima gave a small smile.
"I'm surprised some high schoolers thought about a whole plan and managed to do it. Impressive." - the brown haired male said.
"It is indeed interesting. We can be happy that our future is in such good hands." - Mitsuki smiled.
"You are so sappy.." - Katsuki mumbled and turned his gaze on the red head who was staring at his food, uncomfortably. "We will be back in a minute" - he mumbled to his parents and grabbed Eijirou's hand.
"Ow- Bakugou!!" - the red head yelped when they were away.
CW! ED!!
"Talk. The food cannot be bad. You haven't eaten for awhile!? I've been watching you- not in a weird way but- you don't take care of your health. What the hell is wrong!?"
"Bakugou- it's nothing- I actually ate a healthy bar today! I'm good."
"Like hell you are. I can hear your stomach growling. Do I have to force feed you so you can put something in your system!?"
"No! No.. I'll.. I'll eat, I promise."
"I better see you fucking do it." - the blonde snorted and walked back to the table. Kirishima followed him.
Bakugou watched the red head carefully. Eijirou started taking slow bites from his meal. That's when Katsuki finally calmed down. Not that he was worried, he was never worried!
After the nice dinner, they all said their goodbyes. Mitsuki kindly offered Eijirou to stay for the night but Katsuki obviously declined. They made their way to the bus stop and then to the school. Kirishima was about to die. His body was acting up. The food he was forced to eat was rioting. He shouldn't have eaten. He shouldn't have starved himself either!! Why did he do it!?
"You are not mad, are you?" - the blonde asked.
"Hm? About what?" - the red head grinned.
"For making you eat. I know some people get really anxious about those sort of things.. I just- no, you just have to be healthy to become a hero, you know?"
"Oh yes! It's completely alright."
"Good. I wasn't about to apologize anyway." - Katsuki smirked.
Soon enough they were in front of their rooms, saying good nights. Eijirou quickly closed the door behind his back and rushed to the bathroom. He bent over the toilet and shoved two fingers up his throat. The food he previously ate was now coming back. His hands were shaking as he tried to hold himself over the toilet. Tears started streaming down his face everything was spinning, his chest was hurting, his throat was sore.
CW ED DONE!!
After everything was done, he fell back and laid on the bathroom floor.
CW! SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!!
"Pathetic." - Eijirou mumbled. "So pathetic. What a failure. The only good thing about them being gone is that they won't find out what pathetic son they have. They won't see the stupid.. dumb and weak hero." - he started talking, to who? To himself.
"Do you want to go with them?"
"No, no.. I don't think."
"You do."
"I do.?"
"Yes, you should follow them."
"That means I should.. Again.?"
"This time you will be successful. I'll make sure you will be."
"What about my quirk. Last time.. It tried to help me."
"You can always take some.. Medicine. To 'calm' yourself. Those pills always make you quirkless for short amount of time. More than enough to finally do it."
"I want to die."
"You will."
"Alright. When?"
"Tomorrow. At night, make sure nobody's awake. You will take some medicine from the store, then you will wait. After it's late enough, you could climb to the roof.
It's high enough."
"Okay"
"You won't fail at that right?"
"I won't."
"Good."
/
The next morning, he woke up past lunch. His head hurt a lot and his hair was so messy. After fully understanding and remembering what happened the night before he rushed to his closet, changed himself and started walking to the store. On the way, he bumped in Aizawa, who looked down at the red head and apologized.
"Are you okay? Where are you heading.?" - the teacher asked.
"My protein shakes are gone, I'll go to the store where I used to buy them from." - the students said, he had already thought of a good lie.
"Oh, alright. Just, come back before 3 pm, not a minute late, understand?"
"Yes, sir! I'll be back before 3 pm!!"
"Good. Now go, and take yourself something for lunch."
"Will do, thank you sensei!" - Kirishima said and ran out of the building. His hands were trembling. That was close. What if he had offered to come? Anyways, the bus came and Eijirou took it for two stops, he walked to the store and started searching for the right pills. He found them and took them, he went to the cashier and started taking his money out.
"I need a receipt from your doctor. We don't sell those type of medicine to kids." - the lady said.
"I don't have but.." - he thought for a second. "My dad- he's very sick. His quirk hurts him and the family! He's not able to control it so I really need to take some of these.. Please!" - Eijirou bowed.
A fucking liar.
That's what he was.
He really deserved to die the most painful way.
"Ah- I'm sorry.. I.. Okay, but just this once! Don't tell anyone I gave you the medicine." - she whispered and took the money from him. "I hope he recovers soon!! Good luck!" - she shouted as Eijirou left the store.
He started walking back to the bus stop when it started raining.
Gosh, his mother would cry. How could he become such a liar.
And his father. What kind of a man lies.
Rot in hell, you dumb kid.
Were some of the thoughts that filled the red head's mind. He waited for the bus to come. His shoes filled with cold water. His hair was now wet. It was really cold, he didn't bother to take a jacket.
The bus came and he quickly got in. When it stopped near the dorms, he ran out and started walking fast to the building.
"Hey! Kiri!! How are you? Oh you are wet- you should definitely take a hot shower, it will help you." - Mina said when she saw her friend.
"It's cold outside, you should hide in a pillow fort-"
"He will catch a cold, Denki!!" - Sero cut off the yellow haired boy.
"Yes, yes! I'll do it, but I'll have to go so I can get in the showers quicker."
"What ya got there?" - Ashido asked, pointing at the bag in Eijirou's hands.
"Some medicine, you know... Cuz I've got some health issues! Nothing too serious!" - he smiled brightly.
"Okay.. Then-"
"Cut it out, let the man take a long relaxing shower." - the black haired male said and walked away with his two other friends.
Kirishima smiled. He went to his room and hid the medicine. He started stripping down when his head started to hurt. Eijirou sat on the bed for a moment and before he could feel it, he was asleep.
/
Kirishima woke up sweating. He was with his dirty clothes on. His shoes weren't even off.
'What's the time..?' - he thought before pulling out his phone from his back pocket.
19:45
'Nice.. I'll go down and talk with the others, that won't make me suspicious, after that I'll have to wait for them to fall asleep.. '
Eijirou changed his clothes and went down to the common room.
"Kirishima-kun!! Hey!" - Ochako rushed to him. "How are you feeling today?"
"I'm good, thank you, what about you?"
"I'm fine! We miss you, Kiri!! How long till we have you back?" - she asked leaning in to hug him.
'Forever.'
"Not much." - he smiled brightly and received the hug.
"Hello, Kirishima! I've been collecting all the notes and tests you missed, I'll make sure the teachers know that you cannot be tested in the next few weeks, I could fill your repor-"
"It's alright, Iida. Thank you." - the red head glanced to his friend with glasses.
"Kirishima! Perfect timing actually, I made your favorite tea!!" - Momo said walking up to him with his mug.
"Ah, that's so sweet!!" - he took it and started drinking it.
"Kero, Eijirou, we are going to the cinema the next week. Do you think you could come?" - Asui asked.
He smiled at her. "I'll do my best to be there!"
"Aw, what a sunshine." - Kaminari put his arm around the red head.
"We will wait for you there" - Sero winked.
"Don't forget to convince Bakugou to come!! He won't even look at us!!" - Mina whined.
"Hey, that's not true, Racoon eyes!!"
"You did say you don't want to see us so you will stay here and not come with us in the cinema." - Todoroki mumbled.
"No one asked you!!"
"Calm down, Kacchan! It will be fun." - Izuku smiled.
"Yeah, sure" - the blonde rolled his eyes.
"It can't be that bad.." - Jirou said and rested her hand on Katsuki's shoulder.
"Like hell-"
"We are about to watch the new movie that's not for kids- you know what I mean Bakugou? With those hot, spicy scenes-" - Hagakure kicked the short, purple haired boy and looked away. "Disgusting."
"Whatever.." - Bakugou mumbled and walked away.
The rest of the night was alright. Eijirou would miss this. No he won't. It's okay. He won't even know if he will miss it, if he misses it.
He laughed with his friends. Everything was good until they all said their good nights.
Soon, he would have to do this.
Walking along with Shoji, the red head was rethinking his decisions.
"Something on your mind?" - the bigger guy asked.
"Well- not really."
"Need to talk? I am all ears." - Shoji said and made his other limbs turn into ears.
"Hah, it's alright. Thank you tho"
"Of course. Call me if there's something bothering you." - he said and went in his room. "Good night, Kirishima."
"Night, Shoji!" - Eijirou smiled. He closed the door behind his back and looked at the muscle clock on his wall.
23:40
It's alright. Just stay awake for one hour and everything will be over.' - he thought to himself before sitting on his desk and taking out a piece of paper. He took a note and started writing. His handwriting was messy and sloppy but he really tried to make it look better.
After twenty minutes, Eijirou put the pen down and started rereading the letter. He smiled to himself. It wasn't that bad, yeah he was cringing at some parts but that didn't really matter. He was proud of himself.
After Kirishima settled the letter down, he walked to his bed and threw himself on it. The red head took his phone out and started scrolling through his socials. Unfortunately, he didn't feel his eyelids close and soon enough he was sleeping peacefully.
Eijirou woke up at exactly 02:30. He grabbed his phone to check the phone and let out a sigh of relief. He found the medicine he has hid earlier and started taking them.
"Gah-!.." - he groaned. It was gross. And it totally felt like he was drugging himself. One by one, all the little liquids were gone. He stood up, a bit shaken by the amount of medicine he just took but ignored it. Kirishima put his phone in his back pocket and made his way to the roof. He used the stairs, though he barely could stand still. Eijirou got to the roof and started walking closer to the edge. He took his shoes off and tossed them away.
It was cold.
The red head took his phone and checked the time.
03:00
He took a step forward. One more and everything would stop.
'I need you at your best.' - suddenly Bakugou appeared at his mind.
"Shit!" - Kirishima cursed. He was about to fall. He calmed himself and opened his phone. Scrolling through the numbers on the screen, Eijirou finally pressed one of them and waited.
"It's three at the morning, what the fuck is wrong with you!?" - he heard from the other side of the phone.
"I... I did something stupid." - he mumbled, feeling the breeze mess with his bright red hair.
"What?"
"I can't move.."
"What do you mean? Kirishima, what did you do!?"
"Something dumb.."
"Where are you??" - he heard shifting from the other side.
"On the roof.."
"What!? Hold on, I'm coming-"
"I'm about to die."
"You are not dying, just wait for me-"
"I'm so stupid, why can't I do anything right..?" - Kirishima fell on his knees as his eyes filled with salty tears.
"I'm almost there, don't worry."
"Bakugou.." - the red haired boy mumbled before he found out that the call has ended.
Suddenly, the door for the exit, slammed open. A pissed blonde with pajamas ran to Eijirou.
"What's wrong.!? What are you doing here?"
"Bakugou.. I.."
"Come on, let's get away from the edge!!"
"No- I - I was about to-"
"About to what!? Jump!? Are you trying to kill yourself-"
"Yes!!"
"What?" - Katsuki froze.
"I can't do this anymore. I want to die. I want to end it. There's nothing I could do to fix it."
"What happened.. Talk to me!"
"I cannot. I took.. A really good amount of quirk cancelling medicine, or however they are called. I can't even think straight."
"You idiot!! What the fuck were you thinking.!?"
"I'm done. I'm done with this."
"Stop!! Let's get you to bed. Come on!"
"No, no I don't want!"
"Kirishima!!" - Bakugou smacked him lightly. "Stop." - he said and picked up the red haired boy.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry!"
"Fucking stop!!" - yelled the blonde.
Kirishima shut his mouth and looked away. Katsuki walked away and picked up Eijirou's shoes on the way. They used the elevator to get to their rooms. Bakugou thought about leaving the red head in his room but decided that it wouldn't be the best idea so he took him in his own dorm. The blonde placed Kirishima on the the bed and sat across him.
"What were you doing up there? That was so reckless."
"I'm sorry."
"And why would you even try to!?"
"I.. I'm sorry."
"Stop apologizing and fucking talk to me! I want- I want to help you, damn it!!"
Silence.
"Please. I want to know what's wrong! I want to be able to help you!!" - Katsuki repeated.
"Okay.. Okay. Just.. Let me sleep- the medicine is really kicking in.." - Eijirou said, feeling dizzy.
"The-" - Bakugou suddenly remembered that the other mentioned it before. "How much did you take!? You could've drugged yourself-"
"My room- I don't remember.." - the red head laid down and passed out.
"Shit-.." - Katsuki cursed and rushed to the other's dorm. He saw empty medicine bottles on the ground. "Oh god." - they seemed countless. He started picking them up, one by one and putting them in a bag. 'What did you just do, idiot..' - Bakugou thought. He finally finished and took the bag in his hand. Walking back to his room, he saw the letter, Eijirou wrote earlier. He was curious. Katsuki walked closer to the desk and started reading.
'To whoever finds this message,
Bring it to the whole class..
It's my fault. There's no one else to blame! I tried to deal with the sadness and emptiness on my own but I failed miserably. I regret not a asking for help but it's way too late. I will miss you. Well actually- I'll be kinda dead so I won't be able to feel emotions, you know.. :). Whatever. I'm writing this so I can tell y'all that I love you so much. You were like my family! I'm so sorry that I acted the way I did for the past few days. My excuse is that my only relatives passed away at Kamino's accident. I couldn't bear with the lost. I know it's my fault they are gone, I know that if I was better, they would be here right now. Aizawa sensei, I want to thank you. Beside the scary mask you put on everyday, you are actually one of the kindest souls I've met. Thank you for being so caring after the accident. Thank you. I love you guys so much. Ever since the first day, I was so proud that I got myself in a class, full of heroes! Good heroes.
Bakugou, thanks.
Thank you for being a great friend. For being such a manly dude who taught me how to face different situations. Thank you for trying to cheer me on. I didn't know what to do, I thought I lost you when we started yelling at each other the other night. I'm glad I managed to save you, even though I can't say the same for my dear parents. I don't regret saving you. Well you hate it when I say "save" but okay! I don't regret helping you escape! That's better, ain't it? Hah.. There's something I've always wanted to tell you. It's better if I tell you face in face but we won't be able to see each other. I love you.
Thank you.'
He looked at the paper as if it was fake. Katsuki couldn't believe his eyes. For the past few days, his friend has been hurting this much and he did nothing to help him. Not nothing, he actually made it worse with the stupid argument they had!
'Stupid Kirishima! Stupid. You should've- damn it!!' - the blonde put the paper in his pocket and rushed back to his own room.
Eijirou was peacefully sleeping on Bakugou's bed. It was surprising, the amount of medicine he had taken in his body was quite a lot. His bright red hair covering half of his face. Katsuki sits down on his chair and waits for the other to wake up. Little did he know, he fell asleep as well.
/
The next morning, the blonde boy woke up first. He looked around and slapped his forehead.
"Idiot!" - he shouted.
Eijirou opened his eyes and sat up from the bed. "What!?" - he shouted.
Bakugou looked at him. "Fuck- I didn't mean to be loud."
"Oh.. Alright." - Kirishima looked at the blonde. "What happened..?"
"You don't remember..?"
"Well.. " - the ruby red eyes widened. Kirishima turned his gaze to the other, unable to say any words.
"You can talk to me. I won't judge you. I promise." - Bakugou walked closer to the boy and sat on the floor. "I may have said some things that I didn't mean. I.. apologize." - he said, clearly embarrassed.
"Bakugou-"
"I found the medicine. I'm not sure if your body can handle this much. We have to get to recovery girl."
"I'm sorry."
"Huh?"
"You saw it. I know you saw it!"
"Wait-"
"Why did I call you.. It was so dumb! I can't do anything- I can't even kill myself properly! Stupid- stupid--"
"Kirishima!" - Katsuki yelled, sitting on the bed next to his friend.
"I didn't mean to- I didn't want to get this far.. I just.. I miss them. I can't do this." - the red hair felt tears form in his eyes.
"Kirishima.."
"I.. I am done, Bakugou. I can't live like this. They are gone.. Everything's gone. I don't have a home anymore. I don't have my parents with me- I can't- I.. They will probably expel me!"
"Shut up! They won't- they won't dare to do that!! You are going to be fine-"
"You are lying!! Lies. You know- they.. I need them!! I need them."
"I know.. But we can't turn back time."
"I want this to be over. Why did I call you..?"
"Because.. Because deep down, you knew that it was wrong. You shouldn't take your own life for this. You should continue training to become a hero and- and prevent this from happening again!"
"I can't- I'm not a hero- I'm a failure!!"
"Kirishima!!"
"Bakugou!!"
"Stop it- stop saying those things about yourself. It's fine."
"Nothing's fine."
"That's true.. That's okay. You will get through this. We.. We are going to get through this. I can-.. My parents would be more than glad to take you in, for as long as it's needed. You have me. You have Aizawa. You have the whole shitty class. You are not alone."
"Bakugou.."
"I'm glad you called me. I'm glad I didn't close and continue to sleep.. I'm glad I stopped you."
"Thank you."
"Don't thank me."
"Bakugou.. I wanted to tell you.. I.. " - Eijirou felt a hand on his shoulder. "I.. I think I love you. I've never felt like this before. I don't want my feelings to ruin our friendship because- because I need it so much. You make me a better person. I love you so much. And.. Even though I have the whole class.. I just can't imagine myself living without you. You are everything for me! I admire you. I hope this.. Doesn't ruin our friendship. Oh God- what did I do!? Did I really say that!? I'm sorry- Bakugou-" - the red head was shutted down by soft lips pressed on his own.
"You talk too much." - Katsuki mumbled breaking the kiss.
"W-wha-"
"God, your mouth tastes like old medicine.. But yeah, I actually.. Kinda feel the same way? I mean.. I do have feelings that I've never felt before. I'm not good with words but I hope that with my actions I can show you that I really.. Really love you." - Bakugou mumbled.
"Woah.."
"Woah? Excuse you??"
"I- it's just unbelievable! I would never guess you... you liked me."
"Kirishima.. You are the first person I saw as my equal."
"Yeah.. Tho.. Now I'm probably the weakest thing you will ever see." - Eijirou chuckled, staring at his knees.
"No. Quite the opposite." - Bakugou pulled the other closer. "After everything that happened.. You managed to survive. You opened up to me.. You are so strong, Kirishima. Remember this as if these are my last words. You are the strongest."
"Don't lie.."
"I'm not lying. I give my head on the table if I'm lying."
Eijirou smiled sadly and rested his head on the other's shoulder.
"How are you feeling.?" - Katsuki asked.
"Not good. I'm sorry.. I should've been more careful.. I thought my quirk would stop me from-... you know."
"Yeah.."
"I don't feel good. My body is exhausted."
"That's alright. You can rest- uh..maybe we should go visit the old hag?"
"Please no-"
"She will understand! She won't judge!"
"I tried to kill myself! They could lock me up for that! People go into a hospital for those kind of things. They will all point at me. Bakugou- I don't want anyone to know about this-"
"Know about what?" - a tall male with black long hair was standing beside the door frame.
"Aizawa-sensei!!" - Kirishima stared at his teacher.
"Aizawa- I can explain." - Bakugou stood up in front of the red head.
"Explain what? What are you hiding? You are late for school Bakugou, I expected better. Kirishima is excused from school, but I don't know why you are still here. Is there something you want to tell me?"
Katsuki stayed silent.
"Kirishima, what happened?" - the black haired teacher walked into the room and closed the door behind his back. "What's wrong.?"
"I can't- Bakugou-"
"Bakugou? What happened?"
"Are you sure, Kirishima?"
A slight node from the visibly shaking red head was enough for Katsuki. "Kirishima.. You know that he has a hard time these days.. You know the reason and stuff.. He tried to-" - Bakugou's voice went down.
"Tried to? Talk to me!" - Shouta shouted worryingly.
"I tried to end it!" - yelled Eijirou shivering.
Aizawa was stunned. He stepped back and stared at Kirishima. The boy was on the verge of tears. His hands were trembling and his eyes were unfocused.
"What?" - the older male asked. He glanced to Katsuki, hoping that he misheard. There was no way he let that happen.
Bakugou nodded and looked away ashamed. He scratched the back of his neck nervously.
"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry, sensei. I failed. I couldn't- I can't do this anymore!" - the red head shouted. His eyes were starting to fill with tears.
"Kirishima.. No- don't say that. It's alright-"
"Nothing's alright! Nothing.. Aizawa.. I don't want to do this anymore! I can't be a hero.. I can't do anything right-"
"Of course you can- Kirishima, don't you dare talk like that again!"
"We have to take you to Recovery girl.. Your organism will get damaged."
"I don't want to go.. Aizawa please don't make me go-"
"Kirishima." - Shouta rested his palm on the red head's shoulder. "You have to go to Recovery girl. The amount of medicine you have in your system might be fatal and I can't let anything happen to you."
"Aizawa.."
"Do you want to change yourself or you will go with your PJs.? You can go as you wish."
After visiting the nursery office and after the lady finished her job, she pulled the homeroom teacher outside her office. "Talk to me, Shouta. It was really hard to get that thing out of him. What is it doing inside him?"
"He tried to kill himself." - the black haired man said and looked down at the woman. She nodded for him to continue. "Kirishima lost his parents, at the Kamino accident.. The past few days have been rough.. I guess I wasn't that careful.. I thought with more attention he would be okay? That he would do anything dumb.. Then he had to recognize their faces and- oh God.. It was such a pain.. He was shaking- his eyes were dead, Chiyo.. That was too much for him.. And tonight he decided it was enough.. He took countless amount of quirk cancelling pills so his quirk wouldn't stop him and then he went to the roof and.. and wanted to jump."
"But he didn't.?"
"He called Bakugou.. Of course he immediately rushed up and stopped Kirishima.. And when I didn't see Bakugou in class today I decided to see what's going on and.. I found out."
"Shouta.." - Shuzenji mumbled rubbing her forehead.
Inside the office, Eijirou was resting on one of the beds. His face was pale and his eyes were tired.
"Hey."
"Yeah.?" - he didn't even look up.
"That was really stupid of me.. I'm.... S-sorry." - Katsuki mumbled.
"Sorry about what..?" - finally Kirishima took his eyes off the ceiling.
"I shouldn't have confessed. After such a thing.. You are clearly struggling Kirishima! Why did I tell you that I like you? Why.. Why did I kiss you? Wasn't that like- so wrong?"
"I started it.. I confessed first."
"Yes but- but I shouldn't have followed you! At least not there! Kirishima.. "
"It's fine.. I mean.. I called you to save my ass when I was too pathetic to even bother living anymore so we are equal."
"Don't talk like that.."
"I can't do anything right.. You don't have to encourage me. I just.. I suck at everything.. It's just the way I am."
"You don't suck at everything.."
"Oh, yeah? Name one thing."
"Cooking?"
"I burnt the oven."
"Fighting?"
"I always mess up my techniques."
"Sparring?"
"You always win."
"Being a friend."
"I called you when-"
"Stop!! Stop it.. Just.. Just shut up. You are good at almost everything you do! You are so perfect, damn it! Even my parents like you! This should be enough."
Kirishima smiled and looked away. He didn't believe his friend's words. But it was so sweet of Katsuki to try and make him feel better. After some hours, they were allowed to go back at the dorms. They decided to stay in Bakugou's room for the rest of the day.
"Kirishima?"
"Yeah..?"
"I like you."
"I like you too."
"I love you."
"You do..?"
"I really do. Nothing could tear us apart."
"Beside death-"
"I don't see any dying in the next few years at least."
"Maybe."
"Of course. Just.. Tell me when you feel like this again, promise? I don't want to push you or.. or remind you of it but if it happens again I want to know. I want to be able to help you and make sure you are alright."
Eijirou smiled and turned to face the blonde. "You are amazing."
"I know. So are you."
"And what are we now..? Are we still best friends or-"
"We are boyfrienfs of course? Lovers if you wish, dummy!" - Katsuki kissed the other's forehead.