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Part 3 of Steve Rogers
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2015-07-04
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2023-02-21
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Letters to Steve

Summary:

Set a while after the events of Some Dreams Can Come True, Steve's Daughter Sarah is sorting through some boxes, when she comes across some letters, letters written by her mother to her father, that she never knew existed, and gives them to Steve, who gets more insight in to how she was after he went in to the ice.

Notes:

Warning for possible Triggers, as there are Serious Emotions in this.

For those of you that read and loved In My Wildest Dreams, this was originally what i was going to fit in to the follow on from it that i did where Steve meets the Daughter he never knew he had in Some Dreams Can Come True, letters written to Steve after his Plane went down and i decided back then not to add them to the stories, but my muse wasn't having any of it and decided to deprive me of sleep until i posted them, and so i could actually get some sleep, i decided to post them a chapter at a time.

I know i've always wondered about Bucky and Steve's Appartment after they left for war, and was it still there waiting for them for when they got back.

I re read over them, and I cried and cried as reading them actually reminded me of how i felt while originally writing them it really got me in the feels, like i was actually experiencing everything that was written in them, i know i would do everything i could to hold on to anything that reminded me of that person.

I wasn't sure whether to include dates i'd originally written with the letters, so i left them out but if you feel they would work better then let me know and i'll add them.

Events from Wildest Dreams you will probably see mentioned in the letters, i think these letters are an insight in to how she was feeling and dealing with loosing Steve, and gives a more detailed timeline leading up to the events of Some Dreams Can Come True.

If you haven't read *In My Wildest Dreams* and its follow on *Some Dreams Can Come True, read those first them come back to this after.

I might re edit so consider this the first draft as i'm not still sure on it, but when my muse speaks i listen.

So i'm so sorry if this makes you sad.

Unbeta'd so if you see any mistakes please let me know thanks, i'm off to cry in to my pillow *Sobbing*

Chapter 1

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Sorting through some boxes of stuff that her mother kept, Sarah Rogers, Daughter of Steve, found letters her mother had written to her father before, during and some after she was born, her mother's neat handwriting on the front of the envelope with her fathers name on them, she took out the first one to have a look wondering if it was a love letter, but after reading a bit of it she put it back in the envelope and put it back with the others, putting the box away with the intent of continuing with it later, and went to deliver them to her father.

Ever since that day when she found him, they had become really close and developed a strong father/daughter bond. After Sarah left Steve was sitting in the kitchen, he was surprised when she handed them to him and told him where she came across them. After a while he reached over and took one taking it out of the envelope and began to read.

 

 

My Darling Steve                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

The War is over, but you are gone, I can't believe it it feels like i'm dreaming and that i'm gonna wake up and find you next to me, you saved the world baby, but to do that I had to loose you, it hurts more than you will ever know.

I  feel numb. I know its been a couple of years since you were home, my parents managed to coax me out of bed to go for a walk one day, and when I was out I happened to walk to your apartment, I found your spare key still under the rock where you kept it, and when I turned it in the lock the door opened, and I went inside, it was still how you and Bucky had left it, I stood there for a while just looking around after shutting the door behind me.

I went straight to your room after that and I sat on the edge of your bed, I picked up your pillow to smell it, I thought after this long it wouldn't smell of you but the smell was still faintly there, I hugged your pillow and lay down on your bed, as I sobbed at the memory of the night we first made love there. I must of cried myself to sleep as when I woke just for a minute it was like waking up next to you again, and that loosing you was all a horrible nightmare, but it wasn't, can a person get any more heartbroken than they already are?.

Oh Steve, god I miss you so much!!!!!

I got up and looked around a bit more at some of the things you left behind and didn't take with you, I picked up the picture of you and Bucky from Coney Island, you looked so happy, I miss Bucky to.

I stayed late until I had to force myself to leave, I locked the door behind me but instead of placing the key back where I found it, I put in my pocket, so I could come back again.

I didn't expect it to be left untouched Steve but all I can think of is that you must of been sending money back or something, so you had a home to come back to after the war, I can't think of any other reason why your apartment would still be untouched after all this time, but I feel closer to you in there.

I know I can't send this letter to you, but maybe one day if you're ever found you might get to read it, I have to cling on to that hope Stevie, I have to.

I love you so much Stevie

(Your Name)

Steve sets the letter down, as the tears stream down his face, its a while before he's able to compose himself, to reach for another letter.