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Kiyotaka's POV:
It's been 3 years since I was given freedom and experienced new things beyond the white walls.
I was able to learn not just the environment outside of it but I also learned many different people and individuals across my life within the facility the school has given to me.
And these experiences made my curiosity expand more than I ever could in the place I was trained and learned from the beginning of it. Some things I learned are interesting while some are not.
But despite all of it, my time of staying outside of the walls ends here.
I'm now currently riding in a black car with individuals whom I know as bodyguards of that man. As well as driving further away from the school I have learned many things from it.
ANHS, the school I stayed at for exactly 3 years has been nothing but full of new things that do not exist. Including how the curriculum works as well.
And while looking out the window at the car driving away from the same building that I have stayed in, I also remembered a lot of moments and times that affected my life as well as the people I have met in that place.
Horikita Suzune, the person who I helped to grow and set up to be the one who defeated me with her class.
Kushida Kikuyo, a traitor of the class but became allied with Horikita to achieve my defeat.
Yosuke Hirata, a saint that was able to grow and become one of the most important pillars of Horikita's class.
Kakeru Ryuen, a former dictator leader that was able to grow and became a proper leader of his own class
Sakayanagi Arisu, a formidable individual but is not capable of beating me despite her intellectual prowess.
Ichinose Honami, a leader of her own class and in turn manipulated her feelings in achieving my own goals.
My former friends, the Ayanokouji Group whom we broke apart after Airi was expelled due to the special exam.
Sato Maya, the first girl who confessed to me. She was able to grow and support her own friends
And lastly Karuizawa Kei the girl whom I thought was a parasite but already moved past it and became an independent girl of her own.
I remember the time I misjudged her entire behavior the moment when we were both 2nd years in the past.
It was during one of the special exams where she is threatened by other students who are tasked to eliminate her by the orders from Nagumo himself.
As I observed, I first thought that she was just doing it just to stall time for me to save her. To which I didn't have any chance to observe more of it and immediately went to save her.
I only realized this mistake when we broke up at the end of 2nd year in order to fulfill my selfish plans.
I still remember that moment and the words she said to me during that time. Including she also mention about her not being parasite.
Yes, indeed I made a mistake of my own judgement as I realized that she indeed genuinely loved me and in the process of it I hurt her because of my own misunderstanding. In the end I felt guilty for the things I did to her. And yet because I didn't want her to get involved with my plans I no choice but tp go along with it so she can move on and be independent without me.
And yet despite those reasons, I also felt my heart ache as if it was tugging as I left her side to transfer into another class as intended.
We didn't interact with one another for a long time until after the final special exam in our 3rdY year right before graduation. When I finally got a chance to talk to her. Where we meet up in her room.
It was there that I finally told her the truth about my actions, my plans as well my motivations of what I did. Including the part where I used her to learn about love.
I assume that she will hate me or try to hurt me for betraying her own feelings.
But instead she went closer to me as she proceeded to hug me in the process as she cried in tears as she told me that she forgave me.
I was speechless at that moment, I began to ask many questions about her words and actions she did for me just to forgive me in the end.
But soon after that I didn't need to find any answers about it. As I was reminded of my mistaken judgment before. That she will still love me no matter what even if we break up or not. Kei will always love me no matter what happens. Despite that I have leave her soon.
I immediately hugged her as I was able to feel her warmth for so long ever since we broke up.
We continued to be like this for a long time until we slept together in her room.
Although I wanted to stay like this for so long, I can't stay with her at her side. Because tomorrow is where I have to leave the school after accomplishing my selfish plan of defeating myself after the final exams. So it is unfortunate that I cannot attend graduation for this or even get to stay with her for too long.
And despite giving proof that my father is wrong. I was still destined to return to my origins.
I immediately stood up from the bed slowly as I put a blanket over to Kei. I went to my own bag and brought out some unused papers and I proceeded to write my entire past for Kei. As she deserved to know the truth.
While I was writing she moved to the other side of the bed sleeping as I got to see her peaceful face smiling despite me leaving very soon. Yet I went closer to her and moved my hand onto her head gently before I continued to write everything she must know.
After writing it for 15 minutes. I put down the entire letter about my past on the table and proceed to get my bag and other belongings I have.
But before I leave I look back at Kei one last time before without realizing myself of my sudden actions.
I walked back to her, went down and kissed her forehead. And after that I immediately left her room without notice.
I didn't understand what I just did to her after that. Did I still have feelings for her? Did I still love her? And if so, when did I learn these strange feelings for her despite us breaking up? I couldn't give any clear answers after that.
But I do understand that I did it because I felt it was the right thing for me to do. Despite that, we are going to be separated in the end.
When I arrived in my room, I changed my clothes and left my uniform in the closet as I didn't need to bring it. After that I brought my entire suitcase that I had already prepared beforehand.
As I already took my suitcase, I took one look in my room one last time as I knew that the place that I live within this school will not last long. I went outside to make sure that no one sees me as I leave this place without being disturbed.
As I was about to walk almost outside of the school gate I saw my former homeroom teacher who decided to support her class in order to move on from her past. Chabashira-sensei herself.
From what I remember she just talked about how she was proud of me as one of her students despite my actions. She already knew about my situation outside of the school as she was already informed with the Chairman about my existence. And although she didn't understand my motives when I transferred to another class. She was satisfied that she was able to see her class achieve the impossible. But she was also worried about my well-being , especially when she asked if I have any regrets that I made in the last 3 years even though I said that I have no regrets.
I even ask why I should need to know that question.
And when she answered she said that " sometimes making any regrets is a curse and a curse cannot go away itself." Just like herself.
She gave me the certificate that I graduated and then after she then gave me her own farewells before walking back from the school.
I never think about any regrets when I stayed here in this school in fact. I was able to learn and experience all of it right?
But despite the typical answer that I admit to myself. There is something missing or rather the words I just said feel too empty like it didn't make sense to me at all.
Did I really regret the way it is now? Did I feel something that I never felt before? Is this what regerts really is? More questions beside my own relationship with Kei started to form more in my head as I started to get more empty as I tried to understand all of it. When one of the bodyguards called me.
"Ayanokouji-sama we are already here"
I stop thinking to myself as I check my surroundings and after that I see the place itself again, The place that I was born, the place where I have become a genius, the place that I have escaped and now returned to in front of my eyes. The White Room. The place that I have now returned home.
As soon as the cars parked on the side of the sidewalk we then walked with our bodyguards including that man as he also got out of one of the cars.
The man I mentioned before is my father, the one who made the facility that I was born within. The man who rambles his dreams of making me the leader of the entire Japan. The man that I never recognized as my father. This man's name is Atsuomi Ayankouji.
"Kiyotaka, I'm disappointed in you that you have been defeated by those useless students that can never possess what we need in Japan! This is why you cannot lose your essence as the masterpiece of my own curriculum!"
This is the first time I have seen this man express his disappointment and anger right in front of me. Despite not showing any emotions for a long time so this is something.
"Sigh... That doesn't matter anymore now that you here we can start what we need to do. And that is maintain the curriculum you have learn while installing 5th and 6th generation curriculum as well"
Although I did hear what he was saying, I didn't care anymore as I accepted the reality I was presented with. Even I did give him proof that his ideas can be beaten.
I thought if I could give something to change his mind or make him realize that his ramblings are just nothing but fantasy.
But what I did, what I have tried to do in the end is nothing.
If that doesn't work, then destroying the WR will also give the benefit of the doubt if that is what I'll do....
But even if I did. Will it change everything? Will this result also be the same as what I did now? Will I ever feel something about this?
As the more questions arise from myself the deeper the point of it that I can never understand about it. Questions about my feelings with Kei, My own regrets and the actions that I already made. All of these questions that I can never answer myself after all.
"Why can I answer all of it?". I said in a whisper.
While I was still rambling about many things myself we were suddenly ambushed by some unknown people with guns and rifles pointing at us.
"Finally we found you! The man who killed my daughter!!!"
"Kill them!!!"
Soon they immediately fired their guns one by one. As all of our bodyguards tried to protect us with the unexpected crossfire on us as soon as all the bodyguards were short of numbers as a few of us were standing in the middle while the people that tried to kill us continued to shoot more.
I looked at the facility in front of me as I saw the explosion and children escaping the facility with the other people helping them.
I see... These unknown terrorists are the ones who destroyed the WR for themselves.
Soon I saw that man took multiple bullets in his body as he also fell down lying lifeless.
But once I saw it I also felt the same thing as what I just saw from that man. I was also being hit and then another one hit me and then another one until I couldn't do anything. It's like a knife hitting you again and again as fast as possible.
After that the firing was over, all the people that fired us cheered loudly as they were able to take down the enemies they wronged against them.
So my life ends here....
So this is death's doorstep... I can feel the darkness that covers the light in front of my eyes.
Slowly my eyes started to slow shut as blood flowed around under my lifeless body.
As memories started to flow like water. As I remember the things I did for the past 3 years of my high school life...
My motivations, my manipulation, my curiosity...
My freedom, my desires, my selfishness
Those I helped and those who I used and break those bonds
As well as the questions that I will never answer.
My actions...
My regrets...
And Kei herself...
.....
Kei.... I wanted to see you... again....
Slowly darkness enveloped my vision as I felt the cold darkness that surrounded me in the unknown.
Chapter 1 END