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Kacchan ☆
Fri, April 26 at 23:49
Kacchan are you coming?
The movie already started where are you (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞
Ashido said I shouldn't bother bc you told her to go away!
ffs
i didn't tell pinky to "go away" i told her to FUCK OFF, if you're gonna gossip do it right
Kacchaaaaan
Pls it's a new All Might documentary!!
I wanna watch it
With you
STFU oh my god
Fri, April 26 at 23:53
fine fine i’m omw
like hell i’m letting ur dumbass out of my sight
Yay!!! („• ᴗ •„)
Wednesday 18:31
Hey
Wow, this hurts
Hahah
We just buried you.
It was weird, burying All Might and then…you.
I wonder if you even knew?
I mean how would you
I’ll just tell you
All Might died to keep AFO at bay during that fight
He had this awesome mech he used too!!!
Apparently Dave had made him this car that could transform and stuff
You remember Dave? Melissa’s dad?
Yeah anyway
You would’ve loved it
Or hated it?
Probably both
You’d say it was ridiculous and like some early 2000s movie or something
But I think you would’ve thought it was cool too
Wednesday 18:50
I wonder if you can see this, where you are?
In the ground or
In heaven
Or whatever
Idk
Why am I doing this?
I know you’ll never read it
And even if you did, you’d hate me for all this self pity
It’s okay
You can hate me. I hate me too
I’m sorry I wasn’t fast enough
Wednesday 19:04
I’m sorry I didn’t save you
I miss you
Kacchan ☆
One Year Ago
Mon, Feb 19 at 15:41
wtf was that?
????
What was what?
class.
the stupid fucking training thing Aizawa put us thru
u were slacking
Oh, yeah! Sorry
I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night ( ; ω ; )
idiot
how the hell are u supposed to surpass me
and make OFA your own
if you won’t even take care of urself
It wasn’t intentional!!
yeah yeah
whatever, just get some fucking sleep
u look like shit, got bags like that insomniac creep
??? Hitoshi?
THE HELL ARE U ON FIRST NAME BASIS WITH THAT PIECE OF SHIT FOR??
(*´▽`*) Hehe I was joking, Kacchan
??
Mon, Feb 19 at 15:53
Kacchan??
Don’t ignore me
Plssss
I’m sorry
I can see your phone buzzing
(｡•́︿•̀｡)
Kacchaaaaann
JFC SHUT UP WHATEVER
idc
do what you want
Okay, Kacchan
Are you still gonna tutor me tonight
?
Or did I upset you
i’m not upset at shit
fuck off with that
Mon, Feb 19 at 16:03
ofc i’ll study with you dumbass
can’t have you falling behind already
Yay!! Thank you, Kacchan!
Kacchan ☆
Wednesday 23:08
Do you remember you left me a voicemail?
It was towards the end of first year
You still hated me
I think
You called me bc someone told you my score on one of the exams
I was training and you were in the dorms
So you called me
I cherish it a lot
Especially now
When you’re
Well
You know.
Wednesday 23:17
You were so angry at the time
It’s nice
The dorms are so quiet
UA is so quiet
Without you
Please come back
Thursday 08:10
I feel angry
At you
At our class
For grieving you
Which isn’t really fair?
You were their friend too but…
It’s not the same
You were the closest thing to me in my life, you know?
No I guess you don’t
You can’t know anything while in the fucking ground
I really can’t do this
Kacchan ☆
Two Years Ago
Sat, Sep 5 at 17:10
dinner.
Okay!
Sat, Sep 5 at 17:35
Wow, Kacchan! It’s amazing, thank you for cooking for us!!
whatever
ik i’m amazing idiot
Well, still
It’s nice to get praise either way right?
Sat, Sep 5 at 17:46
Um
Why weren’t you down with everyone else though?
why would i?
Because you cooked for everyone?
Why would you spend all that time and energy just to leave
???
ur all annoying asf. i’d rather eat in fucking peace
Still… then why bother?
Cooking?
bc
they’d all starve w/o me
Sat, Sep 5 at 17:51
you included.
Would not!
I can fend for myself just fine
the fact that you just used the phrase “fend for myself” proves my point further
you shouldn’t be FENDING for shit
you should be cooking and EATING
fending implies you would struggle in the first place, dimwit
Haha
I guess you’re right
don’t laugh at me, asshole
you’re a goddamn hero in training, learn how to take care of yourself
I wasn’t laughing!!
Well, mostly
And that was almost sweet, Kacchan!
shut
the
fuck up
teach me to ever try to watch out for you
piece of shit
Sat, Sep 5 at 18:10
Okay, Kacchan. (⌒ω⌒)
the fuck is that supposed to be??
Oh! It’s a kaomoji
what.
It’s like an emoticon?
Like an emoji!
They’re cute aren’t they??
(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ
they’re fuckin weird is what they are
y don’t you just use an emoji?
Because they’re cuter!! Obviously!
They’re fun to find and make too!
I know we don’t really text that much
So I probably haven’t really sent any to you yet
Haha
I can stop if you really dislike it
Sorry
it’s whatever, Deku
do whatever you want
jesus all these years and u still don’t have a fucking backbone??
I do too!! I just
Don’t want to make you uncomfortable
??
And you said they were weird so
idc
but you should do what makes u happy
or whatever
god fuck u for making me say this shit
Okay, Kacchan ( = ⩊ = )
Sat, Sep 5 at 18:28
weirdo.
Kacchan ☆
Saturday 20:00
You were right, Kacchan
Iw ould starve withput you
Haha
Sorry
I’ve been crying again
Itz hard 2 type liek this
Saturday 20:27
Okay I’m good now
Not good
But
You know
As I was saying, you were right
You always are
Were.
Whatever, hahaha
I can’t eat anymore
Not really
And when I do
I just kind of throw up?
It feels like middle school again
I never told you about that, did I?
Well, better late than never I guess
Anyway
It feels wrong?
Like
You’re not here, next to me so
What’s the point?
Saturday 20:34
Wow that’s depressing
I just mean
I dunno
I grew up with you always out of reach
But
You were there.
You know?
And now you’re not and
All of our friends
Yes, OUR friends
I know you loved them too
You big secret softie
Saturday 20:45
What was I saying?
Oh. Right
Our friends are just as sad over you
I know you’d be yelling at them
And me too
For being so hung up over you
You made a great sacrifice for all of us
But you didn’t NEED to
Saturday 20:57
The dorms feel weird
Empty
Aizawa locked your room the day after your funeral
I think about breaking in sometimes
I know I’d get in trouble but like
I think it’d still smell like you?
Would that be better or worse for me?
Anyway, I think he did it for your parents
They haven’t come to collect your things yet but
Eventually they will
And he’ll prbably
Unlock it for them
At dinner time I keep looking for you haha
I keep expecting you to be waving a knife around in the kitchen, shouting
But you’re not
And you won’t
I think everyone else expects it too
So we switched our routine
We have our movie nights three times a week now
Before we start preparing dinner
Saturday 21:12
Ojiro picked up what you left behind.
He cooks for us
But he’s quiet and it’s nowhere near as spicy as you would have made it
But it’s food
Not that I can eat it.
But it’s something
We
No
They
Are trying to move on
To accept it.
I just…
I can’t
You’re not gone really, are you?
You’re gonna suddenly text me back aren’t you?
Leave me another angry voicemail about how if you really died
I shouldn’t be so sad and pathetic about it
That I should fucking deal with it and move on
Right?
You’re just waiting, right?
You’ll come back, won’t you?
After Exams
Or
As a secret guest to one of Aizawa’s training sessions!
Oh, that would be fun.
“And now you’ll be competing against once thought dead, Bakugou Katsuki!”
And we’d all turn around and you’d be there
Healthy and breathing and safe
Alive
You would be there
Right?
Kacchan ☆
One Year Ago
Tue, Jan 16 at 22:57
oi
u left ur shitty hoodie
come get it
Wed, Jan 17 at 00:02
OI
don’t fucking IGNORE ME
i know ur shitty ass is awake
ur hoodie fuckin reeks i can’t sleep with it in here
Wed, Jan 17 at 00:14
Omg
Kacchan
I’m so sorry, Todoroki called me!
I can come get it now?
fuck u
it’s mine now
WHAT??
are u illiterate now?
ur not getting ur hoodie back
it stays here.
Why????
bc u were too fucking busy w toDoRoKi
so it’s mine now
now fuck off so i can sleep
I thought it stunk too much too sleep??
I’ll come get it now
Kacchan?
??
Don’t be like this
zzzzzz
Kacchan!!!
Kirishima
Hey, man! Saw you weren’t in class today, wanted to check in?
Everyone is grieving Bakugou’s death too so we’re here for you okay?
I know we didn’t know him like you but we still loved him in our own way
Let me know if you’re okay when you get this, okay dude?
We all care about you
Aizawa
Tuesday 13:42
Midoriya, here are your lesson plans for this week
[LINK]
I would much prefer to see you in class, but I understand what you are going through.
Please remember you are not alone.
We all lost Bakugou and I am always around if you need someone.
He would not want you to give up, remember that, problem child.
Tsu
Thursday 10:05
Hey, Midoriya
How are you doing?
We all are worried for you
Kirishima says you aren’t replying to anyone
I’m always here if you need a study friend, okay?
Maybe try taking a walk soon too, it can help to leave your room
Let me know if you want someone to come along
Kacchan ☆
Thursday 22:19
I broke into your room
It wasn’t even that hard either?
I had to scale two floors
And I was a little afraid Kirishima or Uraraka might catch me
Or even Aizawa but
Nope
I just used float to go from my balcony and onto yours
Your balcony door was even unlocked
I wonder if that was on purpose?
Maybe Aizawa left it unlocked on accident
Maybe Kirishima unlocked it because he knew
Maybe you unlocked it
Did you?
Haha what am I even saying
They’re worried for me you know?
Thursday 22:23
I know, at least
I see the way everyone looks at me
On the rare occasion I show up for classes
Oh
I didn’t tell you that did I?
Well I’ve stopped going to class
It hurts too much to not see you there
Shouting and yelling
If I close my eyes I can almost imagine you’re still there but
I open my eyes and your desk is empty
Always fucking empty
And I…can’t.
Don’t worry though, I’m not falling behindor anything
Aizawa arranged online classes for me after the first couple weeks of me not even leaving my room haha
I’m really worrying everyone in UA and I feel awful
But I also… don’t
Because you’re not here
You’re supposed to be here
We’re supposed to be heroes together
Why is it just me?
Why is it all up to me?
Kacchan, please
Thursday 22:40
I can’t believe you kept it
Like, I knew you did because I’ve still had one less hoodie but
Seeing it is…
You really cared, didn’t you?
Oh god
Thursday 23:00
It somehow smells like you too haha
Everything smells like you
I should’ve expected this
I mean it’s your room
But it’s still
I can’t
I don’t want to leave
Tsu was right, leaving my room did help
Just not in the way she thought
And maybe help isn’t the right word for this
I miss you so much
Your blankets smell just like you
Mom ♡
Sunday 07:15
Izuku, hon. I’m withdrawing you from UA.
What?
Oh, so that gets a response?
Love, you haven’t been responding to anyone other than submitting Aizawa your assignments and he says you’ve been sleeping in Katsuki’s room?
Sweetie, you know none of this is healthy.
Aizawa says you can come home for the remainder of your year and by graduation decide if you want to become a hero still.
You can’t continue on like this, Izuku.
Please, come home?
Okay
Thank you. I’ll pick you up this afternoon?
I can make katsudon.
Or…something else, if that’s too soon
I’m not hungry
Izuku.
Not katsudon, please
Okay.
We’ll decide later?
Okay
Kacchan ☆
Friday 18:36
I think I loved you
I think I still do
Your parents cleared out your room a couple days ago
And came over with a box of stuff
Auntie looked just as distraught as I feel
So did your dad
He was so quiet, and yeah, he always sort of is but it was different?
He just kept zoning out and I felt so bad for him
Auntie kept crying too
It was weird because
You know
She looks so much like you
Or I guess you look like her
Looked
Whatever, you know what I mean
And you never cried
Neither does she normally
She really loves you, Kacchan
Anyway
Mitsuki gave me this look and hugged me before she left
She said she knew how much you meant to me
That I probably loved you more than she does
And I started thinking
Is that right?? Is that what this is?
And yeah, I think so.
I love you
Friday 18:50
The words don’t feel like enough?
Like if I could’ve said “I love you” to you it wouldn’t have ever been enough
It’s not enough to sum up how I feel
I want to wrap myself up in you
God, does that make sense?
I wish I could’ve gotten the chance to curl up in you
To bury my hands in your ribs and make a home right there
Next to your heart
Stay there forever
Listen to it beat
Memorize the sound
Would you have let me?
Fucl fuck fuck
Wednesday 10:03
Mom started taking me to therapy
Dr. Auichi thinks I loved you too
She thinks I need to let go
But you’re coming back, right?
She doesn’t think so, she thinks I’m not grieving you properly like this
I think I agree with her too.
But I don’t want to, I can’t let go of you.
There is no world without Kacchan
So come back, yeah?
I love you
So come back
Saturday 10:09
Happy anniversary
It’s been a year since you left, haha
A year without Kacchan
Wow
We visited your grave earlier
Everyone.
Class A, Aizawa, all our teachers, our parents
Best Jeanist was there too
I figured you would want to know that
He says he’s sorry, by the way
He wishes he tried harder to stop you
I dunno.
I wore the hoodie you stole.
Saturday 23:15
Mom let me go for a walk
I’m walking on rooftops but shh, our secret, okay?
Haha, not like you could tell anyway
It’s nice.
The breeze.
I haven’t gone for a walk like this in a while, man
Tsu was really right about this, huh?
I should apologize to her
To everyone really
I should talk to them more
Saturday 23:48
Hey Kacchan?
You can stop ignoring me now
Hahaha
I should stop pretending you’re coming back, shouldn’t I?
You’re really gone, aren’t you?
Sunday 00:01
I love you.
Wednesday 8:12
Graduation is soon.
I’ve started going back to class
I told Aizawa I’m not sure if I can be a hero after all this, but I’d still like to do something
Like I could be like Hatsume and make tech
Or help on the sidelines
It means I might not graduate this year though, I may have to spend a couple extra years in UA in another course
I think it’ll be fine though
It might be nice even?
I’ll be behind everyone, for sure but…what’s the fun in taking the easy way, right Kacchan?
My whole life has been a rollercoaster of difficulty, what’s one more?
I wish I could ask you what you thought of this all
Do you think I’m being stupid?
Am I just making mistake after mistake?
Can you tell me, please?
Wednesday 8:50
Kacchan
I love you
Monday 14:09
Kacchan I think I have to stop this
Dr. Auichi says I can’t progress until I let go of this part of myself
She says life is full of small deaths and rebirths
And this part of me that clings onto you like this isn’t good for me
I told her I can’t imagine a world without you in it and she told me I’m already living in it
And she is right
But
Why couldn’t I figure out my feelings before you died?
Why did I have to see Auntie cry and have everything click into place then?
Why couldn’t I have told you back then, back in April?
I have so many regrets
What would be different?
They say it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all
But I feel like I’ve somehow done both.
I love you Kacchan
And I have lost you again and again and again
I can’t take losing you another time
Fuck, Kacchan
I can’t stop crying
Hahah I bet you’d laugh, seeing how hard this is for me
I hope you’d laugh.
I miss you with every ounce of my soul
I love you with every beat of my heart
But I can’t keep chasing after you anymore, okay?
I can’t keep reaching out for a hand covered in dirt
You’re gone
God, you’re really actually fucking gone
And I have to actually accept it or I’ll never be whole again
I’ll probably never be whole again either way
But I’ve got to try
I hope I’ll see you again some day
Just don’t be too mad at me, okay?
Goodbye, Kacchan.
Izuku
Three Months Later
Sunday 12:05
what the actual fuck