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about.. 7 months so far? its been a good portion of the relationship and hes really happy to how far theyve gotten with eachother.
streber loves him, cares for him, and is ever so patient. carefully guiding him through this new relationship and helping him with communication.
..and his anger and lashing out. to be honest.. things we're getting a little rocky. it was really kevins fault though, he kept bottling his emotions and lashing out when that bottle finally shattered. he didnt know why, but it was getting harder and harder to hide it all.
..maybe that was the communication. streber kept showing him so much love and it just.. felt so much easier to say what was bothering him and streber was so patient and knew every single little thing kevin needed to feel better. it was so careful of what it said and did, and made sure to analyze a lot of things everytime it comforted kevin.
streber listened and cared and payed attention. it was harder to avoid something like that when he actually had someone who loved him.
so, bottling stuff up was harder, and it made him freak out over the smallest things. breakdowns over small inconveniences, or even worse, just small sounds. his misophonia would flare up badly at times and it was the fucking worst. he could feel every quiver in his body and he could feel the pounding of his heartbeat just from the smallest noise.
but streber was there.
mmmgh.
anyway, enough of that.. he could tell it was getting kind of bad. but it shouldn't be too big of a deal. he just needs to calm down. thats all. and strebers there.
it'll be fine.
though, hes been getting worried over the concerned looks he barely caught on streber, to the point he couldnt even really tell if the looks were real.
its okay. it'll be okay.
remember the words he said to you.
in streber's bed, sobbing and clawing at his shirt mumbling utter nonsense. kevin's back and shoulders being massaged and rubbed gently.
with love and care all in the beautiful rhythm of strebers hands.
he loved them, and that love would never, ever go out.
a passionate burn. no, a passionate SEARING and SCORCHING.
his heart was on fire, and he never wanted streber to put that out.
he felt a small tap on his nose. it jolted him out of his daydreams, and he hadnt realized he was just looking somewhere in the room that whole time.
"..you okay, schatz?"
"yeah- yeah sorry. um.. just thinking. of you"
strebers eyes crinkled a bit at the corners from their wide smile, their fangs being completely visible aswell
kevin could never tear his eyes off those fangs, perfectly curved and sharp.
"yeah? whatre you thinking about?" they asked, rubbing kevins upper arm. "obviously.. i always say this, but its still really good to say, yknow? no pressure. never. you dont have to tell me things youre not ready to tell."
it gently moved its hand up, sliding to kevins neck and gently gliding its nails very softly against his skin.
"even if it feels small to you, im proud when you communicate or share little things or tell me about your interests. i love it and i love you and everytime you open up to me about something it feels amazing. im so happy you can trust me like this, even if those are small things to you. it means a lot to me."
.. woah.
streber let out a small giggle, tapping on kevins cheek with his free hand. "you're red, babe."
"i- fuck. uhm. i know- yeah. god uh- i dont.. know how to respond sorry. i-im really happy you talk to me like that. i dont know how to explain it but i just really like when you give me a good.. perspective about how you feel about this."
he gently tapped his fingers rhythmically against strebers hip, then moving into a slow rubbing motion, and repeating.
"i dont know, its just. helpful and it makes me feel loved and good. im really glad you trust me too. i dont mean to bring it up but.. like when we started hanging out. you seemed really jittery yknow? but now you seem much more relaxed and im super happy about that. i feel honored you can trust me."
streber smiled even wider, and gently laid a kiss on kevins lips.
"i love you."
kevin smiled back, his canines poking out the side of his mouth. his left was a bit smaller though, but the thing streber LOVED was his genuine smile in itself. the goofy curve at the end of his lips and how the middle of it seemed to go up just a little bit.
"kind of like a cat if that makes sense.." streber had said weeks before, gently pecking that middle spot of his lips.
but in the present right now, he saw those beautiful green eyes, brown speckled in the middle and fading to a darker brown as it surrounded his pupil. strebers eyes showed so much emotion to him, and right now he could just see the overflowing love in them. and even then, streber didnt really like eye contact, but he specifically said to kevin how he enjoyed eye contact with someone he loved.
"i love you too, streb."
streber responded in pressing messy, urgent kisses on his lips. quickly grabbing his face and sliding his left hand into the back of kevins head. gently tugging his hair to press even stronger against his lips.
"i love you sooo so much."
"mmhg- hffuck.. i love you more." kevin murmured against strebers lips.
"i need you so bad." streber pulled kevin closer by his hips.
"ive needed you forever."
"hehe, you one upped me there. sappy fucker."
(that one ended in streber using his fucking TEETH for the next kiss.)
"youre the best thing thats ever happened to me."
"youre.. my favorite person." it stumbled out of his mouth, being rather dumbfounded with what streber said.
streber stuck his pierced, forked tongue out at that, but couldnt resist smiling even bigger.
to be honest, kevin didnt find "favorite person" being romantic. it kinda just came out, but streber definitely became super ecstatic about it, kissing him messily all over his face.
"you're my favorite person too, love."
oh.. fuck..
that searing burn of love in his heart grew a little bit. no, not a little bit. that flame felt stronger, bigger, more confident even.
"you're my favorite person too, love."
the only coherent thought in his melting brain was to continue messily kissing streber on his mouth, arms locking around strebers back and pulling him impossibly closer. limbs interlocked together, and only short, gasping breaths coming out every few minutes.
breathing wasnt important right now, he wanted to soak in all of streber and make that flame in his heart be everlasting.
and to be never put out.