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There are so many things that can set aside me from John watson. First I am a well respected consulting detective. He is a ex military doctor. I am brilliant, he not so much. I do my work and John praises me for it. Then the most important thing he is human, I am not.
See there are so many differences yet why...why do I feel this way about him? What are these feelings?
There are so many thoughts going through my mind at a time. But why does John always manage to enter it. My mind is sophisticated. Even when in my mind palace the thought of his face and body are lingering. Uh it is practically annoying at this point, always getting in the way of my thought prosses. Yet still the question remains.
What are these feelings?
At this point my symptoms are
1. Increase heart rate
2. Face becomes red (blushing)
3. Distracted
4. Stomach feels funny
These are just some of the symptoms I've recognized that happen when with John or thinking of John.
Putting in work and time I've made some conclusions. This feeling of funny in the stomach is referred to as butterflies.
Yet something commonly said is that butterflies can be a sign of nervousness. But this nervousness is connected to the main problem. And that main problem seems to be the human error people feel. Love.
But like everyone think, Like I think. I am not human, well at least I don't feel or have emotions like normal human brains and hearts.
I need time to think of something explaining all these symptoms.
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Okay after sone research these stupid symptoms also point to Love. I need to keep looking.
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It has almost been 2 months since these strange feelings started for John and my update is that they have gotten worse. I can't even go to sleep with out dreaming of John in my bed or in my arms. I think it us due from my drug use mabey I need to stop using.
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The painful weeks with out my medicine has proven no help. Nothing in my head is working correctly I can only think of John.
John
John
John
John
Uhg u can't get enough of his name I almost want to shout it out loud. I don't know what this is.
WHAT IS THIS FEELING?
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I give up. My mind will soon destroy its self if I don't face the truth. But the truth is hard to except. And the truth is...
I love John Watson.
Uhg now I can't get enough about thinking about those words.
LOVE
LOVE
LOVE
LOVE
I LOVE JOHN WATSON
and as a final parting I must confess. These words will slowly tear my head mind apart if I don't.
"I love you John"