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Ruffle and masonry, bits of dust everywhere… I pull a bit of my running gaiter up to try to shield my face from the debris a bit more a bit dizzy I’m still not used to running with my face covered but in all this dust it’s necessary I’m half hearing Sam’s happy chatter as I run, Paula and Maxine cheerfully going on…”and Sam and I have talked it over.” Then Sam’s awkwardness, I can almost see him blushing and stammering oh… am oh I thought we discussed this privately the hubbub celebration I’ve already turned down the offer to come join the rollers and runners but regret strikes me hard I wonder for a moment if I should’ve done that I had been a long time since I’ve been on rollerskates but at least I felt alive again useful. Jamie here now.
Duty, sacrifice - yes, maybe that’s all I am. I’m not the only traveler what the hell am I supposed to do Sam I hadn’t realized I mean I had but I had put off everything in the helicopter to come down I’ve been thrown into this I’ve been struggling to survive I was still haunted by Alice wasn’t Sam wasn’t that why he’s never asked and why I keep waiting I let moonchild close and it led to this I just watched her fall she was the one who brought down my helicopter the reason I met everyone for the reason I became Runner Five was Sam. The night we Met and Maxine was there too she told me I had to find some thing or they might not be able to take me in so I can still be close to each other and I’ll be on the outside looking in I had all and then most of you some will it now be nothing I do need somewhere that feels like home I thought Abel was home but… cheerful celebration makes me feel outside again good night Sam stayed up talking to self force I slow and start to try to look around me covered in dust and debris seeing cheerful smiles on the faces of those around me I feel exhaustion. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do I remember the night full of terrors nothing but a voice in the dark to guide me on now in the bright day I feel ghosts of the past haunting me more than ever streets with piles of dreaded random items in the day along with a random degree this was all supposed to be temporary but it’s gone on I’ve been searching for a trail to follow the whole time and Sam‘s been my guiding voice as I search for so long I feel establish jealousy if he and Maxine and Paula start a family but I can’t see Sam…Sam who plays with Molly who misses his family so much not being part of the family where will that leave me? I’m here alone I’m caught I have no business knowing about the relationship that was there long before my helicopter come down by the hospital…