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He is short of money again. Jungkook can’t afford to pull from his savings. He won’t ever reach the decided amount if he keeps pulling from his savings.

His monthly budget was going good until his health decided to act up and the unplanned cost of checkup and medicines is going to mess it all up. He didn't want to ask for money from his parents but he also couldn’t manage it from somewhere else.

He couldn’t skip his medicines and screw up whatever progress he has made. And if things got worse all of it would be spent on his treatment that he really doesn’t want to happen.

Guess he has to face the inevitable. Jungkook was so lost in calculating and finding ways to look for money rather than asking his parents when Yoongi brought him back to the real world, there was chaos in the cafe. A boy, most probably a college student, is fighting with an old lady.

He doesn't want to be the one to resolve their fight but Yoongi had already gone back to the counter to manage the incoming crowd to order coffee. Why does the day keep getting worse?

The man is saying some things about it’s not his fault and being rude saying how it’s probably because of her old age that she couldn’t see much. He can see the brown stain mark on her creamy white top and he got an idea of the whole situation.

“What is happening here?” His stern yet polite tone got  the attention of both of them.

“This young man spilled his drink on me while going out and now he is blaming it on me.” The lady beats the boy to it and speaks first.

When he faced the boy he was a little furious as if wrongly accused. ”It was not me. This ajumma can not see where she is going and bumped into me and now she is blaming it all on me.”

“Who’s on the phone and looking outside through the window” this seems to silence the boy.

Jungkook raised an eyebrow, hoping for a response but he just stayed silent.

“Apologise to her if you are in the fault”

“Fine. Sorry.” And he was out of the cafe fuming with anger.

Now when Jungkook turns his head and looks at the lady, she seems like her mother's age but the types of clothes she is wearing are looking elegant. The kind of people that belong to a five star restaurant and not this cheap cafe which mostly college going students visit to fill their daily coffee intake at a cheaper rate.

Her top is almost ruined, the stain looks very ugly and Jungkook is feeling bad for her pretty dress getting ruined.

“I’m really sorry, your beautiful dress got ruined.” He apologised bowing slightly. Before she can reply Jungkook is on his feet.

“Wait a minute” He hurried through the table to the changing room to bring her a spare shirt he keeps for himself  in case.

The lady seems to be waiting for him to say something. “Thank You so much for earlier. The boy kept getting more rude and I didn't know what I should do.” 

“It’s ok. Here you can take this shirt to cover the stain. The stain  looks really bad on your white dress.”

She seems to contemplate what she should do but after a little encouragement from Jungkook saying that it’s a spare shirt he keeps She took his shirt thanking him again saying how grateful she is. Jungkook is just happy to help.

She asked to return the shirt the next day but Jungkook said that it's not urgent and she doesn't have to rush.

The day went well except Yoongi bothers him why he didn't talk this much to him and like every single time he ignored all the complaints. Yoongi mumbled a little fine, he won’t bother him with an enthusiastic ‘only for today’.

He wants to talk, to make friends but he has enough past experience to know that in the beginning everyone found him mysterious, wanted to talk to him, they were curious to know about him but when they got close to him they left him on his own.

The hurt of being left alone over and over and the constant reminder that he is worthless and unlovable is not something he can bear more. Living in oblivion is far better than being reminded of your worth every single second. 

So better being alone then left alone by the one you consider friends.

***

Taehyung was putting his laptop bag in the car when his mother's car arrived. He thought of saying bye to her before leaving but the condition of her top has him in shock.

“Mom, what happened to your top?”

“Nothing honey, just a college boy spilled his coffee. Nothing serious. Don’t worry”

“And this shirt” he said pointing to the shirt she is carrying around in her arm.

“Oh, this. A sweet boy gave it to me to cover the stain. Such a good boy he was.” Taehyung only nodded to her response.

“Are you leaving for work?”

“Yeah”

“This late” Her shock is valid as Taehyung rarely is late to work.

“Yeah. Had a headache in the morning so I slept a little more.”

“Oh. Take care son. I need to go change this. Bye.”

“Bye mom.”

***

Hyeon and Jungyon both sitting in front of him and eating their food silently. He couldn’t even touch his food, already lost his appetite by the thought of asking money from his mother.

Jungkook thought it would be easy, he just had to ask for some money but now that he is sitting in front of her who never behaved like a mother to him, he realises how difficult it is to even say a word in front of her.

The fear of again being reminded of what he is and where he belongs scares him to his core. But he has to pay bills and if he stays silent then the chances are zero. He had to ask, so he mustered all the courage and called her.

“Mom” she didn’t even bother to respond or look at him but he knew that she was listening and now he has started this is his only chance.

“I need some money for medicines. My salary got used up on the checkup and last week's medicines expenses. Could you please help me with this month's medicines?” This was a half lie, he does have some money left from his salary but if he told them that then no way he is getting any money and he has to pay for the transport and his food.

He prays to the gods that this lady feels some pity for him. He is in a tight spot from the last few months and his expenses keep on increasing.

The sound of the spoon hitting the table was loud and he flinched from the sudden noise.

“No. Go work and earn that money yourself. I know you’re lying and finding ways to ask for money so that you can buy those useless colours which cost thousands and keep lying on your room’s floor. And I’m definitely not giving you money to just waste it. Go look around at you, boys your age don’t ask money from parents, they earn and feed their home. Why do you have to be so useless in everything? Can’t do what we want, can't do what you want. Can’t earn money or make a living for yourself. Useless shit. Is there a single thing that you can be good at? I spent so much money on you and look at you still useless and unlovable, who is good for nothing, just lying here and living on our hard earned money. Ruined my mood.” Once she was satisfied she said enough she resumed her dinner like nothing happened, like she didn’t humiliate her son just for asking some money that too for medical expenses.

Why did he think that this was a good idea? Oh his bad, thinking maybe she’ll care for once or act as a mom when her child is hurt. But she never changed and in the process he hurt himself more.

He tried to control the tears that threatened to leave his eyes, his heart churning within chest, every single cell in his body screaming from the pain that he was feeling. He couldn’t process all that he had just heard. 

The ringing noise increased in his head and his  mother’s voice was screaming at him. He tried to notice where he was, pushing back the chair he went upstairs, in the safety of his room.

He stood on the threshold of his room, tears spilling from his eyes, hands shivering and legs froze to move to his bed.

He  locked his bedroom door when his mother's loud voice came from downstairs, maybe talking to his dad or just for him to listen some more. Maybe what she said downstairs wasn’t enough.

“For how long are we going to feed him and provide for him. He is an adult, doesn’t he know that we have other expenses too not to cater his useless hobbies. Does he even know how costly living is? I can’t believe I gave birth to such a futile child. A good for nothing only leaching off of our money and lazing around and doing useless things instead of real work because he got his parents paying for everything.”

Tears are flowing from his eyes, everything too blurry. Hands clasping on his ears tightly to shut out the outer voice. Blabbering things so he won’t hear what they are saying.

It took him 10 minutes to calm himself down. Taking deep breaths, focusing on everything he can see and trying to think of anything, anything that diverts his attention from what he just heard.

 That’s why he never asks them for anything. That’s why he chooses to eat outside or just stay hungry so at least he can have some peace.

What did he do so wrong?

What is his mistake?

He just asked for some money, but they refused. It’s ok. He is not saying anything but is it necessary to say it every time he talks to them. To remind him.

He never asks for anything from them, trying to fend for himself. But living is really costly and sometimes he curses himself for not going to college, even if it is doing what his mom wants.

Why can’t he live a day in peace? Just why??

That day he slept himself to tears.

***

His eyes are swollen from crying for so long and if Yoongi sees them he is going to bother him again asking what happened. He doesn’t want anyone to bother him today. Today he wants peace and to be left alone, so he is trying to avoid Yoongi and stay at the back as much as Possible.

He is lost in thoughts, again, when Yoongi called for him saying someone is waiting for him. Which is weird. He had no one to wait for him or come meet him here so he was a little suspicious when he reached the counter. But the lady he lent his shirt to yesterday is standing there with a sweet smile.

She handed him the bag, probably having his shirt and thanking him again.

“Can I buy you a drink as a thank you?”

“umm. It’s ok you don’t have to buy me a drink for it. And I have to work so I can’t take a break.”

As if on cue his name got called again from the back.

‘I’ll get going then, please sit and have a drink” he bid his goodbye not before bowing to her.

***

He usually prefers to eat outside even if it’s instant noodles when his parents are home, the reason being how they can’t stop him comparing and taunting him every given second. Sometimes he wanted to ask them why they gave birth to him when they never wanted him.

 He was eating his breakfast in peace thinking there won’t be a lecture today but who he was kidding.

His mother loves reminding him his place in his house and of his failures. Or maybe how much of a failure he himself is in his life.

“You know Sunmi, my college friend. She was far behind me in grade and in looks too and you know her son. He is a surgeon who has a huge apartment and bought her a diamond necklace on her birthday. Imagine having a son like her. She was saying that he even sponsored her trip to Japan as a gift on her birthday.” There was a bitter tone in her voice when she was talking to Jungyon.

Jungkook knows where this is going. Whenever this type of discussion or talk happens, Jungkook gets dragged for being a college drop out, who can’t earn or so many things that he remembers by heart now.

“And here in Jungkook” here it is, him getting dragged again. The dagger twisting in his heart again.

“He didn’t even complete his college, fought so hard for not  going to college just to end up earning the bare minimum. And spending that too on useless things, which are sitting in the corner of his room. He just spends and wastes so much money and leeches off of his parents. Forget about the apartment and living alone, he couldn’t even handle his basic expenses.” She is talking as if he isn't even present there. His dad is just eating and agreeing to whatever she says. Not even interrupting her or taking Jungkook's side. 

He looked down at the plate, he just started, the plate was still full but his appetite was lost. With whatever strength remaining in his body he stood up. He didn’t stay there to hear a single more word or he’ll puke whatever he has eaten by now.

He wondered what he did so wrong for her to hate him like this. He always tried to do whatever they wanted; he just didn’t want to go college and become a doctor when he didn’t want to. And his parents won’t support his love for art so he has no other option then to drop college and collect enough money to go to one by himself.

They alway attack him for painting while he buys the cheapest ones because he couldn’t afford the real one. And he got to hear words for them too. 

He is still hungry but doesn't have any appetite to eat anymore. Park seems a better idea for now, he can calm himself down and maybe then go to work. If he walked there with this mood he is going to ruin their mood also.

***

He was waiting for the light to turn green when he noticed a very old lady standing beside him, waiting for the light too to cross the road. He just asked her in case she needed any help.

“Halmeonim, do you need help crossing the road.?”

"Thank you kid. Nowadays people don’t help each other.” There was a little smile on her lips which wasn’t there before and it was enough to lift his mood up.

What if his life is not happy at least he can make other people happy.

Kim Taeri was observing the scene from the opposite side of the road, The kind barista helping an old lady crossing the road. When he helped her she thought maybe he was doing it because of his job so a customer won’t make a fuss but still she can tell that he won’t have to go to that lengths he went.

Here again he is helping others. He seems like a very kind kid. There are rarely any good kids out here who are kind enough to think of others and she needs a person like this for her son.

An idea popped up in her mind, she needed to go on her detective mode and gather some information before proceeding with it.

***

Taeri was trying to find the best opportunity to talk to Taehyung. She knows if she just randomly said it then he won’t be much interested in talking and will find excuses to escape the conversation.

He was eating breakfast right now and will probably have some time before leaving for work, this situation seems perfect to her to strike up a conversation.

“Tae baby” He was reviewing files while eating breakfast and his mother's tone seems to be too soft to scold him working while eating.so he closed his tab, giving her complete attention.

“Yes mom”

“Eat your breakfast properly. How many times do I have to tell you? Hmm”

“I’m eating properly mom”

“Don’t play with your mom,” she said, twisting his ear slightly.

“Ah- mom it hurts. I won’t work while eating. Promise” and his ear is free. He looks at her with accusatory eyes but he can’t say anything knowing he is in the wrong.

“You never eat your food properly Taehyung, always engrossed in work, even while eating”

“Mom, I’ve a meeting early in the morning and this is very important to me, so i was just reviewing if everything is perfect”

“You can also review it after breakfast. You need to learn how to eat food”

“Mom” He whined like a little kid and Taeri just wants to coo at his grown child antics but she needs to be stern to teach him some things.

“Taehyung” her strict tone made him close his mouth.

“I’ll keep this in mind mom”

“Good. And when are you going to grow up and take care of yourself like an adult. You always drown yourself in so much work and have sleep problems.”

“Mom that was one time”

“So you want me to wait for it to be repetitive”

“This is not what i mean”

“And when are going to bring over someone to meet me”

“Mom, not this conversation again”

“why”

“I am always busy in work, I don’t have time for all this”

“When are you going to have time for this? When you are 40. You are already 29 Taehyung, you need someone in your life who can be there for you and be your support”

“But mom, I told you I don’t have time to date and find someone.”

“Then let me find them for you”

“Fine. You can find someone and I’ll meet them” She is laughing evilly in her mind. Her plan worked.

“ok. So when are you free”

“What do you mean?”

“I’ve already found someone” The shock on Taehyung's face is one to see. He never in his dreams expected things to turn out like this. He thought that his mother who is very picky will at least take a month or two to find someone for him. But here she is already having someone in mind and now he looks back at the conversation it does seem like his mother tricked him in it.

“Mom, you are going too fast. Why hurry so much. We can take things slow”

“like how you did and don't have someone even at the age of 29.” That was a low blow.

“I’ve taken things too slow and look where you are. So I am not going to listen to you. Tell me when you are free and I’ll arrange the meeting.”

“Fine.” He doesn't have any option right now then to agree with her.

She is very giddy, finally her stubborn son decided to go on a date even if it is arranged by her. She is hoping he likes Jungkook because that child is too precious to be not liked by anyone. And she can gossip with him as his son in law.

***

“We just need to put more focus on the import material and their cost and quality. And -”

“Taehyung are you listening”

“Taehyung”

He zoned out again, shit. “Yeah, what were you saying”

“Is everything ok? I have seen you zoned out in the meeting too. And this is rare for you to get zoned out too often”

“Yeah. Everything is ok. But-”

“But”

“I’m just worried about something”

“About”

“Mom is nagging me for marriage and by the looks of it she already has someone in mind and this time she is really stubborn about it so I couldn’t even avoid it like every time.”

“hmm”

“And now I have to meet someone she decided and you know we have this huge project going on and I rarely have time”

Namjoon is listening to him calmly, this is how usually conversation goes between them. He listens to the whole thing first, all the complications, risks, issues and then gives his perspective and input in it.

"So what’s the problem here”

“I don’t want to marry soon”

“Did you told her that”’

“Yeah I did, but she was really stubborn this time.”

“Taehyung, excuse me for my language but you are her son and you can be more stubborn than her and I’ve seen it. If you really didn’t want to marry or meet someone you definitely would’ve fought with her. So by the looks of it, It doesn’t look like you don’t want to marry.”

And this seems to silence Taehyung. Namjoon does have a point, now that he thinks about it he is not that much opposed to the idea. And the reasoning her mother gave to him does seem valid, sometimes he too craves for someone’s presence. He too wants someone by his side who’ll understand him, give him support and share a space with him. The idea doesn’t seem bad. He doesn't have time to date or find someone himself so maybe he can find someone this way.

“It looks like you got your answer. I'll get going then. I have some files to arrange.”

Taehyung just nodded in his direction, still trying to figure out his need and thoughts on this.

Well he’ll see how things go and then decide what he actually wants.

***

Hyeon was surprised when she opened the door to a lady around her age, wearing a sage green dress with a matching cream-coloured necklace of stone that seems to be extravagant and giving extremely rich vibes.

Her status screams from her clothes and the way she carries herself around.

“Hello. I didn’t recognize you?” Of course she wouldn’t they don’t have relations with such rich people.

“Ah Hello. You must be Mrs. Jeon. Jungkook’s mother right?”

“Yes, I am.” why mentioning that good for nothing and associating her with him. He learnt nothing from her and is useless.

“Pleasant meeting to you Mrs. Jeon. I am Kim Taeri, I am here to talk to you on for an important thing”

“Ah sure. Come sit, I’ll get you something to drink”

Once they have settled down after drinking water and some snacks, Hyeon looks expectantly at the lady who introduced herself as Kim Taeri. She is wishing Jungkook hadn’t done something, or is waiting for her to ask for money, maybe Jungkook borrowed from her. Can he ever do something right in his life?

She just hopes the amount is not that big otherwise she is going to sell his kidney to recover it from him.

“Umm.. so I am here to talk about my son Taehyung and Jungkook’s marriage”

“What” She is too shocked to mask it. Her mouth opened wide, too shocked to form a wods and the surprise can be seen clear on her face.

“I mean what?” she schooled her expression.

Taeri talked about how she had already met the boy at a cafe and she liked him a lot. Jungkook is too sweet and kind, already enormous Taeri. and She is here to propose it in front of his family so both the family can talk about it. And with Jungkook also.

Taeri hasn't discussed it with Taehyung but she knows that his son will definitely like Jungkook. Jungkook is perfect for Taehyung from what she has observed.

Hyeon is definitely not happy about it.

“I think you got the wrong idea about Jungkook. He hasn’t completed his college, he is a college dropout.” She tried warning the lady by saying indirectly how useless Jungkook is and is of no use and can become a burden to them in future. She started from his personality traits, saying how he hardly talks and voices out his opinion, is a very picky eater and rarely eats food at home, about him having problems with connecting with people and maintaining them.

How he earns low and has no talent to make an income. He is living with his parents.

Taeri interrupted her by saying how she already met Jungkook and this put Hyeon in a more critical situation.

Why does the boy not tell him about it, always telling random things that are of no use and keeping the main thing to himself. She needs to have a talk with him but that can wait for now. 

What infuriates him is how useless and trashy Jungkook gets a proposal from this rich family. He must have painted a rosy picture in front of this lady. 

“Ah, That’s great. How was his impression” Hyeon was expecting the same response as she discussed earlier about her son but Taeri has a totally different perspective of Jungkook.

“The boy is very sweet. Yeah he talks less but I guess because he is shy or maybe he doesn't like talking much but he has a great personality. I really liked him.”

“Ah I see. But there are other things too that you need to know.”

“About what” Taeri gives a confused look to Hyeon.

And Hyeon is ready to list all the bad things about Jungkook again. She doesn't want to marry Jungkook in such a house, if he did any bad thing there she will have to take the toll of it. And Jungkook deserves a trashy house just like himself. He deserves  to live on roads and only then will he realise how important money is in life.

She listed again how he doesn't have a proper job, doesn't know how to cook or manage a house, hasn’t graduated yet and is still dependent on his parents for so many things. He doesn't want to study further or do a high paying job. He likes to waste his day away just sitting in his room alone. Lazy, useless whatever she finds that can stop this lady, shi listes out everything.

She is not as subtle as she thinks of herself.

Taeri was really confused by how Jungkook’s mom, who introduced herself as Hyeon, is talking about him. No mom talks bad about their child. No matter how imperfect or lacking their child is, they are always good in their mother’s eyes. So nothing is making sense to her.

She keeps saying things which don't matter, like Jungkook is not good at one thing or he doesn’t deserve things. How can a mother say something like that? She’s baffled.

She was a little pissed and her passive aggressiveness was about to come but someone distracted her from saying anything further. The distraction being a male entering the house and how Hyeon calls him honey he must be Jungkook’s dad.

The situation improved a lot after he came. Hyeon finds out the lady Kim Taeri is the chairwoman of Kim Enterprises in which his husband works and Taehyung is the CEO for whose marriage she is talking about.

At first she didn't want to move further with this marriage, she tried mentioning how worthless Jungkook’s is to marry their son and was thinking of denying if the lady still persisted on marrying her son to Jungkook. But now the situation is different, she can’t disappoint her otherwise the chance of his husband's promotion will go down the drain.

And if anything bad happens, the reason will be Jungkook. Can he get any more detrimental for them? Always a burden.

So for now she agreed and will see how things move further.

***

Taeri doesn't know how to put together the dynamic of Jungkook’s house. At dinner she talked about his visit to Jungkook house and the thing she found odd the most, Jungkook’s mom's behaviour. She does find her a little odd but she clearly doesn’t like her downplaying her son’s personality and keeps berating him. And the most infuriating thing is how she called Jungkook useless a few times.

Taehyung also thinks the same, feels a little weird how it was odd mentioning anything and everything and not saying one good thing about someone as if she’s intentionally portraying him as bad.

But the word marriage proposal has him halting.

“Mom, wait, marriage proposal” his chopstick hitting  on the table. 

“ Mom, I haven’t even met him yet and you talked to his parents already about our marriage. Aren’t you going too fast”

“Shhh. I haven’t confirmed the marriage yet, it’ll be confirmed after you meet him. I have decided your first meeting and place. I’ll text you about the place and time and reach there on time. No complaints. And about marriage, you can decide after meeting him. And eat, one day I’m gonna burn your tab, all day and night you keep reading your files. Give it some break at least.”

Taehyung is silenced.

***

He was doomed. He was running late for the date with Jungkook and he still hasn’t left his office yet. He was about to but the last meeting of today was supposed to end an hour early. He was thinking of changing and bringing something for Jungkook but by the looks of it he isn’t even sure now that he can make it to the restaurant on time.

He wants to kill himself, bury himself in the depth of oceans but he can’t do that right now.

The department head choses that it’s the perfect day to mess things up and bring chaos in the company. He tried resolving it fast but things got more tangled up and at last he had to extend the meeting. The problem is still there but they came to a conclusion and some task was assigned to each department head to address the problem from their side. But now he is running late.

He wants to inform Jungkook but he doesn’t have his number and he can’t ask his mom because if she gets to know that he got late due to a meeting she is definitely going to kill him. He is contemplating between suicide(asking for Jungkook’s number from his mom) or running late.

Maybe if he hurries then he can reach there a little early. That’s why he is running to his car in the parking lot, no time to look or act cool.

He kept looking at the time again and again and telling the driver to hurry. Hopefully Jungkook hasn’t told his mother that he hasn’t arrived. He should because he is already half hour late and it will take him more time to reach there but he is hoping that he hasn’t yet.

He is fucked. He is feeling really guilty about making someone wait sitting alone in a restaurant on their first date and he doesn't even have his number so that he can inform him. He is not like this normally. He is the definition of punctuality but the meeting was really important today regarding a new deal they have to sign and the department heads  thought what a good time to mess up the documents.

He really tried his best to wrap up it fast but it still got really late. He planned to buy some flowers for his date today but the way he is anxiously looking at his phone every minute, it seems impossible. He is going to look like a rich jerk arriving an hour late only if he was still there waiting for him.

He is feeling really bad. He is wishing that either Jungkook was late or left already.

But that’s not the case for Jungkook. He has been waiting in the restaurant for the past 45 minutes and there is no sign of his date. No message about cancelling the date or about being late. He didn’t have his number.

He wanted to ask for the number from his mom but if she knew that Taehyung the name his mother told him of his date hasn’t arrived yet, she is going to blame it on Jungkook, just like she did blame him for the proposal.

~

“You definitely did something didn’t you” his mother tome was harsh, accusing like he committed a murder.

“I didn’t do anything” he tried but when have they ever listened to him.

“Of course you won’t admit it. Acting like an attention whore all the time. It must be you who approached her knowing her riches. You can’t earn so now you look for wealthy people and beg from them. And what do you think? They’ll like you and give you some bread.”

Jungkook doesn't know why it is happening or the reason behind her lashing but he doesn't know why she loves breaking him. Making it her mission to point out every single thing and make him insecure about it. What is so wrong that he did in life that he gets to hear all this.

But this time he is not understanding the reason behind it. Who’s the lady she is talking about? All this just because of a date and if her mother was so against it why didn’t she deny it already.

“You love acting like an attention seeker all the time. Do you think that you’ll marry a rich man and get the money that you beg us for everyday? They are not going to like your worthless and unlovable ass. Just a day and they’ll know what your worth is. No one can love you. And forget money. Rich people are more obnoxious. Do you think they are going to give you money just like that? No one likes to spend money on useless shit.”

She keeps saying more and more but he is getting numb to the outside, he can see her lip moving but his mind somewhere else floating. She loves blaming him for things he didn’t do.

~

So he is definitely not going to ask for his number from her. He doesn't want to listen to anything from her. He has enough of all this. Maybe she did receive the message for cancellation of his date and decided not to tell him. He doesn't know.

He is contemplating staying a little more or leaving just now. The server has already asked him two times to order food and he dismissed him every time saying he is waiting for someone and he can see the pity in the server’s eye.

Maybe the person came but after seeing him they decided that he was not worth their time and decided to leave. Even faceless strangers don’t like him. If they are going to cancel on him at least he should’ve informed him beforehand or maybe they like wasting his time.

Or maybe they already informed his mother that no one is going to come and she just wants him to sit here alone with a glass of water looking like a fool which he already is. She is the  one deciding thing for him including his marriage and if he rebels then he knows what is going to happen and in the end he just has to accept it as his fate so maybe waiting here it is then.

He is going to leave after 15 more minutes so the other party won’t blame him for not waiting.

He never felt loved or cared at home, well it doesn’t even feel like home for him. But he had high hopes for his marriage. He had imagined marrying someone he loved but given how unlovable he is, it is looking almost impossible. He knew it was impossible but still he thought maybe he is going to marry someone who he will love. Chances of someone loving him is far far less but one can dream.

Maybe his suffering is written in his destiny. Maybe this is what he deserves, ignored, left alone. Maybe he really is unlovable. Unlovable useless piece of shit.

***

He was locking his phone  and was about to stand up to leave the restaurant when someone came running and bowed 90 degrees in front of him. He was frightened for a second from the sudden appearance, hands going a little clammy under the table. It took him a few seconds to register the bowing man in front of him and compose the words in his head that the man just said.

“I’m sorry. I was stuck in a meeting and couldn’t really make it sooner. I’m really sorry for making you wait for an hour but I didn’t have your number either so couldn’t inform you prior. But I’m really sorry about this and if you want to leave then I totally understand. It’s all my fault”

Going over the words again he registers what the man is saying. He doesn’t have anything to say to him. He understands him very well. If the date is like him, everyone will prefer work over it.

“It’s okay.”

Taehyung was in shock when he heard the words ‘It’s okay’. He was ready for some yelling, blaming him for making the other wait for an hour and a glass of water on his face for the worst scenario but not the calm ‘it’s okay’.

He was looking at Jungkook, shocked. How can he just say it’s okay? Either he is an extremely calm person or he doesn’t care about this meeting at all but in both scenarios he expected some reaction.

He took the seat in front of him, observing the table. Jungkook has only ordered one glass of water and he feels more guilty for keeping the boy hungry.

He asked Jungkook what would we like to order while going through the menu and looking for anything to his liking. He looked up when there was no response and Jungkook was eyeing the menu on the table.

“Umm. You could order for me, I’m fine with anything.” Jungkook has never visited such a fine restaurant in his life and he doesn't want to embarass himself by picking the wrong thing or pronouncing the wrong name of dishes. Being silent is always good for him. When he stays silent people don’t get the chance to make fun of things he says, do or like.

Jungkook noticed the sharp features of the man sitting in front of him, his plump lips moving giving order to the server noting down everything he says. His sharp eyes yet have a soft touch to them. He can also see his sharp jawline when he speaks or looks back at the server. The beauty marks on his face. He looks elegant, the definition of grace and the suit fitting him perfectly in the right place.

He does look like he came directly from his office. His hair is a little dishevelled. The tie is a little loose around his neck and he can see lines across his suit.

But he is handsome there is no doubt in that. Even after coming directly from the office he looks like this and  there is Jungkook, who spent two hours getting ready and still looks hideous.

He can’t believe a man like him is interested in going on a date with him but he didn’t see him prior so that justifies that. He can’t believe a well settled person is on a date with him. But he also doesn’t know Jungkook. They are on their first date and after knowing how unpleasant his company is, he is definitely not going on a second one with him.

He is a worthless person who doesn’t deserve this kind of thing in his life. And it’ll be sooner when Taehyung realises it too and throws him like trash out of his life.

Taehyung finishes up giving his and Jungkook’s order and turns to him. The latter is already looking at him with round doe eyes as if observing and calculating his every move. There was silence for a few seconds before he decided to break it and started a conversation, his mother told him how Jungkook is a little shy. He’ll try to make the latter comfortable.

“ I am the CEO of Kim Enterprises as you already know. Apart from that I love reading, listening to music and playing golf. I don’t go out much though, as I’m not an outdoor person.”

Taehyung looks expectantly at Jungkook to say something but the latter looks a little uncomfortable and Taehyung doesn’t know if it’s because he mentioned his position or he just doesn’t want to talk. So he tried again.

“What about you? Do you have any hobbies or interests?” Maybe asking direct questions to Jungkook will help him.

When Taehyung first started, Jungkook was in awe of how confident and comfortable the man looked as if he owned the place. He has a unique charisma. He doesn't know what to say about himself. He doesn’t think there is anything worthy being mentioned about him or  if Taehyung finds it interesting or not.

Taehyung is looking at him to say something and he doesn't know what to say first. Should he start by mentioning about his job first, that he works at a cafe but what if Taehyung thinks lowly of him because of his Job. Or should he mention his hobbies but he rarely has any aside from painting but that too he is not good at, he has heard from his mother many times how he is not good at anything and how his paintings look like some cheap thrifted worn off pieces. So he is not sure what to mention about himself or his hobbies.

He didn’t know he was overthinking unless he heard Taehyung speaking again. This time the man asked a direct question, he can answer this one easily.

“I like painting”

“Oh. That’s great. What do you usually paint” Jungkook didn’t think that Taehyung would ask any further questions about his hobby.

“I usually do portraits and nature painting. It relaxes me.”

“That’s awesome. Can you show me only if you don’t mind showing it. Otherwise it’s okay.”

“Sure” Jungkook fished out his phone from his jeans pocket but the overthinking skyrocket again. What if  Taehyung doesn’t like his painting and calls it trash too. Maybe he can show him that one painting that Yoongi saw by mistake and couldn’t stop praising it. It was good. He keeps saying how good Jungkook painting is and it is the only painting that he has confidence in.

He opened the picture of that one painting and forwarded the mobile to Taehyung.

“Wow. This painting is so good. You paint so damn good” He tried to hide the heated cheeks by ducking his head. It was a good idea to trust Yoongi's judgement. He has an eye for good art and he keeps telling Jungkook even though he didn't want to hear why the paintings in the cafe are not that good. Jungkook didn't want to be rude but he knew that there are major areas of painting that need to be worked on but they are good for the price they paid for.

“You should definitely paint more. You are really good at it.”

“Thank you. I do commission and sometimes I paint for myself too.”

And after this the conversation just flows between them. Taehyung telling Jungkook his favourite colour and asking in return. When Jungkook told him that there is no colour that is his favourite or he likes it more than others.

But Taehyung was hellbent on finding out, so they had to eliminate colours one by one and find out which colour he likes the most. Jungkook finds it funny and endearing at the same time.

Taehyung telling that he doesn't like spicy food and Jungkook snorting and saying that spicy food is the best, and Taehyung laughing at that.

Jungkook didn’t realise when they had finished the food and Taehyung was paying for the food. They walked out of the restaurant in complete silence. Jungkook thought this was it.

“Do you really wanna marry?”

“Huh?” Jungkook was lost again.

“I don’t understand’

“I am asking if you want to marry me or not. Or you already have someone you love. So before going any further I want to ask you if this is what you want or not.”

“oh.” It was not in his plans to marry so soon. He was saving money to study further and maybe live a comfortable life alone somewhere far from his parents. But after meeting Taehyung it doesn’t look bad either. 

Taehyung seems like a good person, if ignored the first 45 minutes he has to wait for him. And he is exhausted from living with his parents. They always have something to complain about him, taunt him or remind him that he is a mistake in their life.

“Yeah. I want to marry you.”

“That’s great. I too want to after meeting you. But I think knowing each other a little is good for both of us before marriage.”

Jungkook was a little shocked after hearing that. Did he get it right? Taehyung wants to marry him.

“If you don’t mind. Can I drop you?” They are standing in front of Taehyung’s car.

“No. I have some work nearby” He doesn't have any work anymore but  he panicked and denied it so early. Maybe just him being his usual self, pushing people away before they hurt him.

“Ok then. I’ll take my leave. Bye Jungkook”

“Bye”

***

This is the third time Taehyung has changed clothes and he is not going to change it again no matter what. According to his mom, all his previous attires look like he is going to an office meeting, well he is going for a meeting but she keeps saying to dress normally. And they are just going to meet Jungkook’s family, and his suits are more than good for that.

“Mom, this is my final outfit, I’m not going to change it anymore.”

“It’s still not that good but it’ll pass.”

“Mom. Who goes to meet family after the first date and talk about their arranged marriage.”
”Well you said yes to him, after the first date. So”

Oh, how much he regrets telling his mom about Jungkook and that he is looking forward to more dates. He found the latter very cute whenever he looked at him with those big cute eyes like Taehyung holds all the answers to every problem in this world.

He is a little introvert as his mother told him earlier but apart from that Jungkook just seems perfect to him and he looks cuter with flushed cheeks whenever Taehyung complimented him. And Taehyung is planning on doing it more to see the flushed cheeks, he just looks so adorable.

And now his mom got a hint of his liking towards Jungkook. She is not going to let it go so easily. He just prays that she won’t tease him often.

***

This time Hyeon is not as much surprised by their visit as Taeri has already informed them about their visit. Jungkook is in the living room waiting for them. Jungkook looks comfy in his house clothes that are not so formal. They are sitting on the sofa opposite of theirs.

Taehyung’s eyes find Jungkook’s first and the latter ducks his head breaking the eye contact.

“Taehyung’s dad couldn’t make it today because of a business trip but he’ll be here next time whenever we are meeting.”

“No problem about that.”

The meeting or you can say gathering was very short, just them discussing some things with each other but what irks Taehyung is Jungkook’s mom's behaviour.

She keeps pointing to useless things as if to humiliate Jungkook in front of them. His blood starts to boil when she points out how low he earns from his salary and is still dependent on them for basic necessities. He couldn’t survive on his own, saying he doesn't know anything and calling him names but in a polite way as if it made it less offending. They are his parents, if not them then who will he ask for things.

His eyes moves to Jungkook everytimehis mom says something and he can see the pain in letter’s eyes. The way he fidgets his hands or contracts himself more.

Things got out of control when she mentioned how Jungkook couldn’t be a good husband as he doesn't know how to cook, clean or manage the house as he mostly does his useless hobby and Jungkook just listens silently with head down and his hand fumbling with his shirt’s corner. He can see the boy’s hands shaking a little at the remark and moisture in his eyes when he looks towards him as if pleading silently.

Taehyung had enough of it, he couldn’t see the shitshow anymore and listen to the rubbish Jungkook’s mom is saying. He wants to drag Jungkook out of here but he couldn’t do that so he did what he had in power.

“What are you trying to say?” The tone is bitter and accusing and almost everyone is shocked when Taehyung directs the question to Jungkook’s mom who looks like a deer caught in the headlights.

“What do you mean dear?” Hyeon is laughing awkwardly, the environment tensing a little. But Taehyung is not one of those who back down, if it is wrong then it is, he is not going to support it or stay silent.

He can tell his mom is also not liking it but she is too good to say anything to these people belittling their own son like that in front of other people.

“I mean with all the humiliated Jungkook thing, what are you trying to project?” His voice is confident and straight forward, leaving no room for doubt and Jungkook’s mom looks uncomfortable.

He could see a lone tear escaping Jungkook's eyes and rolling down on his cheeks, his fists clenching not to lash out more and discuss it patiently. He doesn't want to create a scene and then Jungkook takes the hit.

“Umm.. I just want you to know everything about my son before making such big decisions.” Taehyung can see straight through the lies and he wants to argue.

“It's definitely not looking like that.” The situation gets more awkward and Jungkook's mom is upfront defending herself that he is thinking too much, it’s not her intention.

And he has another valid point to argue more but her mother’s little ‘Taehyung enough’ had him in silence.

They finalised the decision of their marriage, leaving the marriage date for later. Taehyung’s mom says the kids get to know each other a little before marrying. The tension is still in the air but Taehyung stays silent, focusing on Jungkook all the time and observing his every move.

He couldn’t understand their family dynamics and the scene that happened in front of him cleared some things but he didn't want to jump to conclusions. He won’t form a rigid image until Jungkook is the one  mentioning things to him.

***

“I don’t like that lady” Taehyung is always transparent about his likes and dislikes with his mom. They have a great understanding between them.

“Is this the way I have taught you to talk to elders?” her mom’s tone is stern but not in a scolding way so he is good.

“Mom you saw too how she was looking down on her son and trying to humiliate in front of us. And have you looked at his face, he looked so dejected.”

“I know, I saw that too. I also didn’t like her and the way she was talking but it doesn’t mean you’ll talk to her like that. You can be nice Taehyung.”

“But I don’t want to be, mom. How can I be nice to her when she is so mean to Jungkook? Even if it’s someone else, how can a mother talk about her son like that?”

“Taehyung I understand what you’re saying but we are the one son who goes there with the proposal, they can deny it if you keep behaving this way”

And Taehyung’s shoulder drops hearing that. Maybe he can behave for a few days.

“Fine mom, I’ll behave, But only till marriage.”

“That’ll be enough son.”

***

He keeps opening and closing Jungkook chats, but he chicken out every time. He doesn't know what to type. Should he directly tell him about the date and timing? No, that would be rude. Should he ask for his schedule first?That's a good option but it won’t look good.

Hi, is ok he thinks. Yeah, that's the safest option he can come up with. So hi it is. The reply is instant. It’s 11.45 right now, either it’s his holiday or he is on break.

From Taehyung

Hi, It’s Taehyung.

From Jungkook

Hello

From Taehyung

When are you free this week?

From Jungkook

Umm. Why?

From Taehyung

I was thinking we can go on a date this week,

 if you’re free.

Is it okay for you to send your schedule?

 So I’ll know when to plan things. Only if you’re ok with it.

From Jungkook

Thursday after 12 I’m free.

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^Schedule

From Taehyung

Cool.

I’ll pick you up.

From Jungkook

Where are we going?

From Taehyung

Are you curious?

From Jungkook

Yeah

From Taehyung

It’s a surprise. So you’ll only get to know when we reach there.

From Jungkook

Okk.

This time Taehyung is going to do everything perfectly. He had already picked up the flowers from the shop and was set to pick up Jungkook.

He’ll be there by 12:30 if things don’t go wrong like last time. When he was entering the location he realised that he didn’t ask Jungkook for his cafe location. Will he reply now?

Can he do something right? He needs to be smacked. Thankfully Jungkook replied right away. He has an extra 20 minutes after reaching there. He’ll just wait for him outside his cafe.

Jungkook is jumpy today and Yoongi thought it’s just his casual self and will get better after some time. But the thing is, he doesn’t. It got worse with time. He keeps looking at his phone every minute. Jumping from every sound. It is the first time he is seeing him like that.

He tried asking but Jungkook, as his usual self, didn't reply.

As a form of encouragement he gave him a chocolate, which he knew Jungkook secretly liked but pretends to hate. His smile grew when he saw him sneaking the chocolate and disappearing at the back.

And it all made sense when he saw him sitting in a car and some handsome man opening and closing the door for him. Oh he is going on a date. It all made sense now.

***

This time Taehyung reached there 15 minutes earlier. He is on time. He checked himself, his car, if everything is at place, he smells alright. Yeah everything is good. But why is time not passing? Now it hit him how hard it must be for Jungkook to wait alone in the restaurant for 45 minutes. He feels like an asshole again but he won’t ever do it again and try his best to compensate for that.

His smile grows when he thinks of their date venue. Hope Jungkook likes it and won’t find it too invasive. He doesn't know much about him but from what he knows he is sure that he’ll like it. After what happened that day at Jungkook’s home and seeing him so dejected he just wanted to lift his mood, see him happy.

Seeing the time again, it’s 12:25 so he exited the car. He can see the cafe’s door from where he’s standing and just a few minutes later he can see Jungkook exiting the cafe, looking here and there for him maybe.

He had told him that he’ll be waiting outside the cafe for him. Before he can go to him Jungkook already spotted him. They shared a shy hello. Taehyung opened the door for Jungkook and there it was again the red blooming on his cheeks.

The moment Taehyung started the car Jungkook asked again hoping he’ll get his answer. He doesn't deal well with unknown things, it’ll be good for him to prepare himself if it is something that he doesn’t like.

“Where are we going?”

“I am not going to tell you. It’s a surprise, you’ll know after” he looked at his watch to see the time “ 25 minutes.”

“Okay.”

“Here, for you.” 

He can see the surprise on Jungkook’s face seeing the flower but it made him happy seeing the latter smile so shyly. He keeps looking at the flowers and Taehyung is too proud of himself to not forget flowers today.

Jungkook wants to say something to fill the silence but he has nothing that he can talk about. Nothing interesting happens in his life, he lives a monotone one.

Taehyung sensing the awkwardness in the car turned on the radio, some random songs playing, they filled the silence enough to remove awkwardness.

When They reached their destination, Jungkook was confused. It doesn’t seem like some famous place or any restaurant, so why are they here?

He couldn’t mask his shock and the gasp leaving his mouth when he saw the board just in front of the building, written in artistic painting strokes, ‘Artist’s heaven’. He got a little idea about the place just from the name.

Taehyung is looking for any kind of reaction when he enters the art studio and the huge smile with crinkling eyes is worth all the research he has to do for their date. He is happy that instead of taking Namjoon’s suggestion to go for a movie he chose this. The happiness on Jungkook’s face looks so beautiful and the stars in his eyes are more beautiful than the whole galaxy.

Jungkook is beyond happy. He never felt this happy in his life. The place looks so beautiful with all THE PAINTINGS HUNG ON THE WALL.

The session started with basic introduction to things and with description of all materials provided with each table. They are given a small canvas as a starter and can ask for a bigger canvas if they want.

Taehyung is not paying any mind to the instructions, his whole attention is on Jungkook who is vibrating with energy. He can see the bounce in his steps when he goes to fetch another bigger canvas. He just observes how a subtle smile never leaves Jungkook's lips.

After coming back Jungkook is the first one to start painting, he needs no assistance to ask what to do first, already familiar with the whole process.

He is just so engrossed that when Taehyung started painting beside him and asking him what to do, he started talking to himself. He didn’t realise that he was talking about whatever he is doing, all about paint, how this paint is so good, how he can check the quality of paint, how the texture is so smooth, how it calms him but they are way costly to just use it on one painting.

He keeps on ranting about material, about the process when Taehyung asks him something as if he is in trance. He looks so happy, so free like this. Taehyung is mesmerised by him. He never knew someone’s happiness could make him feel like this.

“I thought you didn’t like to talk, you were so silent on our first date.”

All it took for Jungkook to stay silent was just this sentence from Taehyung and he felt guilty again to make Jungkook realise. But it also makes him understand a few things about his personality. During the remaining time they painted in silence. It was hard for Taehyung to complete even one painting as he was admiring Jungkook half of the time who is about to complete his second painting.

At the end of it they were told that they can take the paintings if they want to or they can also leave it here. Taehyung and Jungkook both decide to take it for different reasons. For Taehyung it was a memorable day, he saw how happy Jungkook was and his painting is somehow connected to him, so he wanted to keep this happy memory with him.

Jungkook never felt this relaxed and free while painting. There was a constant worry about the cost of paint or their quality in his mind and the nagging voice of his mother, a constant presence that he is never good and is just wasting his money but this place feels different, new. The only thing he can think of is painting and painting. He painted without worrying about the material and money so it felt really good.

He wants to explore a lot of materials, different arts and so many things but being tight on money couldn’t allow him to do so and the fear of what if the supplies he bought aren’t of his liking then he wasted his savings of months into something that he doesn't even like. So he always stuck to the same thing.

But today he got the opportunity and he used it to the max. Today is one of the happiest days of his life and he never felt this grateful to someone. This became possible because Taehyung thought of this date. He doesn't know how to thank him but he is really grateful for him.

Taehyung dropped Jungkook home and he was happy that Jungkook enjoyed their date. Although they couldn’t talk much,it was good spending some time with each other.

If Jungkook has the best sleep that night, no one has to know and for the first time he  thought of his life with Taehyung that too no one has to know.

***

Yoongi can see the small smile on Jungkook’s face. He is happy to see him happy and he has a little idea about the reason behind his smile. He knows Jungkook will probably ignore him again but he asks him nonetheless.

“You seem happy today. There must be a reason for your smile. What or I say who is the reason. Mm.”

“It’s nothing” Yoongi is surprised for two reasons. First Jungkook replied so fast without fighting him and second his tone is really soft.

“Oh my god. You’re talking to me. It must be something good for you to talk to me.” Jungkook tries escaping but Yoongi is not going to let him go so easily.

“Come on, tell me what it is.”

Jungkook escapes when there is a call for Yoongi at the front and Yoongi happily lets him escape. He is just happy to see him smile. That kid rarely smiles so it’s a good change. He just hopes it is permanent.

He has seen him with absolutely silent, bruises on hands. He asked him to talk a lot of times but he never shared anything. He is not pitying him, he just wants that at least he talks to someone. But now seeing he has someone who is making him happy like this, he can step back and watch him silently.

***

He has contacted the art studio for a personal recommendation and to get some ideas on something. He was just checking out the items on his cart when the whisper near his ear had him jumping in panic.

“How was you date yesterday”

His mom’s habit of sneaking behind him and scaring him will never die. She just loves seeing him jumping in alarm.

“Yeah. It was good.” the smile involuntarily floating on his lips, reminding him of Jungkook cute ranting about paints and how he can paint with different ways and style and all this.

Unknown to him Taeri observing him keenly and seeing how smitten Taehyung looks right now. She clears her throat and Taehyung’s face sobers up realising that his mother is still here.

“‘Where did you both go?”

“We went for an art date because Jungkook really loves painting and he painted so well. They allowed us to take our painting and I bought mine too.”

“The date seems to go well, you seem really happy.”

“I'm not that happy. It was ok. I’m going, I’ve some work to finish.”

He was out of her sight before she could speak but she says it anyway.

“You can’t fool a mother.”

***

He is really tense today. He tried his best so everything in place and hope that department head doesn’t fuck up something like last time they did with the file. Today was a really important meeting for the future of their company and if they got the deal then it’s going to increase their market value and the net profit for the company too.

He was sure that their proposal is best on all aspects and the chances of it getting selected is really high. If they are the one manufacturing the product with their branding then it’ll be hard for any other company to come up with such a demanding product in a short time leaving the market to only them.

And he knows how hard other companies are trying to get this project first. They are in advantage right now but if something goes wrong in today’s meeting then he is not sure what they’ll do.

Namjoon had already told him many times that everything is going to be ok and all the documents were verified two times. Everything that needs to be shown there is present but until the meeting is over he knows the anxiety will be there.

In the past something like this has happened before and he knows to never relax properly and divert his attention, because just as he divert his attention to some other thing, Jayhyung will swipe the opportunity under his nose.

Last time when he was ready to sign the deal with a famous international brand for their merging of products, they just snatched it right from their mouth. The only mistake he made was to delay the document signing because he had to check some things before rushing the signing process.

Park Jaehyung has tried to sabotage his company so many times with their similar products and showcasing them better than theirs. Taehyung is not a fool, he can see what they are doing. It can be a coincidence once or twice but every time is a well planned strategy. So he is not going to repeat his past mistake again and do his best to get them to sign this deal. They can’t lose another good project.

“I told you, didn't I, that the meeting will go well.”

“I trust you Namjoon but nothing can be trusted until we have proof in our hands. I too am really happy that we got the deal signed. Now we have a huge upcoming project. You can take a break for a few days if you want because once this starts we rarely have any time to give you a day off. So now’s your time.”

“If you are allowing it so generously then definitely I’m not going to back out. Who don’t like day off but-”

“Yeah, Jin too can. Just send me an email. I’ll approve of it.”

“Thank you. And about the celebratory lunch, we are going in an hour, are you joining us?”

“About that. I have somewhere else to go, so you can go ahead with it and inform them that I am not  joining today. I'll get going then, I have some things to do.”

Namjoon looks at the retreating Taehyung suspiciously, it's rare to see Taehyung smile when he has some things to do. What is so interesting, that he is so happy.

***

Happiness is rare for Jungkook and even if it knocks his door it rarely stays a day or two. And this is what happens this time too. His bubble of a happy life broke too, and reality hit him hard this time.

He doesn't want to trust his mother but even if he thinks he couldn’t find a reason to justify it. His mothers words playing in his mind.

~

“Do you think they like you or something? Are you still that naive to believe that you are useful to someone.”

“They are just marrying you to him so you won’t speak a word, work in their home and be used when it deems necessary. You are just so useless that they find you perfect for their work.”

~

Yoongi is pissed off today after seeing the mark on Jungkook’s face first thing after he stepped in the cafe. He was really happy yesterday that Jungkook is getting happiness in life but again. He doesn't know what is happening in his life but this is unacceptable and today he wants to confront Jungkook about it, ask him who it is and what is the reason behind it. But from the way Jungkook is steering clear of him he can see he doesn't want to talk about it, not even a little.

He is really angry and looking at Jungkook’ defeated figure trying to get the work done, which is usually done with double speed on other days, is making him more angry.

***

His mood is really off. He really didn’t want to be here today and work but he has some bills to pay that his family deems as a waste. He can see the glances he is getting from his coworkers, they are not subtle about it well except Yoongi, they are used to seeing him like that.

Slap marks on face, bruises on his arm or neck. He can see Yoongi is trying to find the perfect time to say something to him but honestly he is not in the mood for any conversation right now. He didn't want to snap at him so he tried to stay away from him, as far as possible and Yoongi could see his efforts clearly.

He is just trying to get the work done, it is exhausting but he has to do it. And this is the reason he didn’t see his phone flooding with notification from Taehyung, asking him that he checked Jungkook’s schedule and if Jungkook is ok with it they can go on a lunch today.

Today was so hectic that he clocked off 20 minutes later than his usual schedule. He really needs some rest and then some food to fill his empty stomach since morning. After all what happened in the morning he wasn’t in the mood to digest anything so he came straight to work but now the work is done he is feeling hungry.

He picked his phone when it vibrated again in his hands. He has half a mind to ignore it and head to the nearest convenience store but it can be something important so he checked it just in case.

There are a total of 5 messages from Taehyung.

‘Hi, good morning.’

‘I checked your schedule for today and you are free after 2, I too don’t have anything for today.’

‘So I thought maybe we can go out for a lunch date, if it’s okay with you. Or you can tell me if you have something else planned.’

‘I am leaving the office right now, message me when you see the message.’

and one message just a few minutes before.

‘I have reached here.’

‘look on your right’

Jungkook is doomed. He can’t even escape it now. How can he deny him and tell him to go back when he is already here. Wait, here.

He looks around and he can see Taehyung’s car in the distance. A hand waving out to him.

***

Taehyung has checked all the things and everything is perfect and in place. He had already left messages to Jungkook half an hour before so if the latter is busy he can tell him but there are no messages from Jungkook. He left another telling him that he is leaving his office. He picked a bouquet on his way to Jungkook.

It’s been 25 minutes since he arrived here. There are no signs of Jungkook nearby, maybe he is still working but there are no messages either telling him that he is late or can’t make it today.

He is thinking of going into the cafe and looking for Jungkook himself but that can make him uncomfortable so he is opting to just wait in his car.

He can see Jungkook walking out of the cafe door and looking ahead of him, maybe thinking something. He grabbed his phone again and messaged him and this time he can see Jungkook unlocking his phone and maybe reading the messages because this shows him reading.

And when Jungkook looked in his direction, he waved out his hand from the window so Jungkook could recognize him.

..

Jungkook's feet are glued to the pavement, he just couldn’t move. He can’t let Taehyung see him like this, what is he going to think? That Jungkook is pathetic. But he also can’t tell him to leave right now, when he has been waiting for him for almost 20 minutes and has informed him a few hours ahead.

Why out of all days today is the day that he has to visit. Why? Throwing the hood over his head, trying to cover as much of his face as he can, he walked towards the car.

When they both are in the car Jungkook can see Taehyung curious glances at him, most probably because of the hood but thankfully he didn’t say anything related to it.

He turned to pick something up from the backseat and only then he noticed that there was a bouquet there, placed neatly on the back seat.

His cheeks bloomed with a dark shade of red when Taehyung handed him the bouquet, saying how he looks more pretty than the bouquet itself. He told him that they are going to lunch at a restaurant nearby and it won’t take much time but Jungkook’s heartbeats are speeding up the more time he stays with Taehyung.

He can’t let him see like this. But maybe destiny has other plans because when he was adjusting his hood to cover his left cheek, Taehyung who was engrossed in checking the menu while giving orders just had to turn at him.

And before Jungkook can cover it, Taehyung has seen everything, if not confirmed by the hard gaze that is not moving from his face. There is a sudden change in Taehyung’s demeanour and when the server left to fetch the ordered dishes, Taehyung’s cold voice sent shivers down his spine.

“What is it on your left cheek”

He knew Taehyung saw it and Taehyung also knew Jungkook was aware of it but he still tried covering it up like a dumb that he is.

“There is nothing”

“Lift your hood?” And Jungkook is more panicked now, he can’t do that. He has enough of, stare of pity today at his cafe, he doesn’t want more people to notice and stare at it. And himself revealing it to others, he just can’t do it.

Taehyung’s gentle hands on his tight fists resting on the table bring him back to reality that he so badly wants to escape and just reach in the comfort of his room.

“I am sorry, I don’t mean to be harsh. It’s ok. Let’s just have lunch okay?”

A low hmm leaving Jungkook’s mouth. He is really thankful that Taehyung didn’t pry further and pushed him to remove his hood. He himself doesn’t know how he’d react to being pushed to the corner in public.

They eat their lunch in complete silence and some talking by Taehyung here and there about his deal that he signed today. He also recalled the first date and how they messed up the document of this deal on that day and he got late because of that meeting. But he is happy that their deal got signed today.

Jungkook can see what Taehyung is trying to do. He is telling some silly things about his secretary, his office department head and about meetings. He is trying to lift his mood but Jungkook is too deep to feel any kind of emotion except panic and shame right now. He tried hiding it at his best.

He is feeling something else too for the first time but he doesn't know what it is. No one has ever respected his wishes and personal space as much as Taehyung, as if he knows when Jungkook is getting uncomfortable and stopping right there and even trying to divert his attention from the topic and lift his mood. Maybe it’s happiness, he doesn't know but if this is happiness then what was it when he felt at the art date?

He doesn't know and he doesn't want to know either. He just doesn't want to feel this anxiety anymore.

Jungkook also noticed how they are polar opposites of each other. Taehyung is dressed in a cream coloured suit with white shirt underneath. He looks like a rich CEO which he is, well maintained, knows how to react and answer things in every circumstance and voice out his opinions even if others don't like them. Like he did in his house. He doesn't know about his age or study background but he must have done at least his masters to be in such a high position. He can search it up, but that is for later.

On the other hand Jungkook, in washed jeans that is 3 years old and a black hoodie, stark opposite to Taehyung. He fumbles with his words, doesn't have confidence to even voice out simple things and hates attention to him. He is working on minimum wage, just passed high school and can’t afford to live alone

He wonders how Taehyung agreed to marry a complete failure like him. He can have anyone he wants with the most handsome face and such a credible position in a company yet he chooses him. He doesn't even have anything to offer him. What if he regrets this marriage later on.

He stops himself going on a spiral in this direction. He knows from previous experiences that overthinking never does him good and his past therapist has told him not to blame himself for others' decisions. So he tried counting his breath and remaining in the present.

Taehyung asked him if he can drop him home but Jungkook doesn't know how to deny him. He wants to go to his house but being with Taehyung has him in slight panic if he asks him again about the mark on his cheeks.

Maybe understanding his inner turmoil, Taehyung speaks up.

“We don’t have to talk or anything. And I won't ask again, unless you decide to tell me so don’t worry about it.”

Jungkook's stance relaxed on hearing the words and maybe saving the fare to reach home is not a bad thing and he doesn't have to stand in the bus the whole way. He was too tired for it.

True to his words Taehyung doesn’t try starting any conversation with him. He just asks if he can say anything and during the whole ride Jungkook gets to know that Taehyung’s secretary destroys a lot of things. Tablets, phones and tables also.

Jungkook didn’t realise when they reached his house but it was a good ride. Taehyung rushed out to open the door for him.

“Wait a minute.” But before he could say goodbye he was rushing to the car back, not knowing what to do.

And after a few seconds he has a gift in his hand, packed with white shiny paper and a bow in the middle of it.

“I saw this and thought of you, So I bought it for you. I hope you like it. I'll get going then.” That is definitely not the truth , he specially searched out for this and did a deep research and after some advice he bought this for Jungkook but he didn't have to know.

***

During his ride back Taehyung thought a lot about Jungkook’s behaviour in the cafe. That was definitely a slap mark on his face and probably the reason when Jungkook was covering his face with the hood.

He wanted to ask who did it to him and why but Jungkook seemed too uncomfortable to even talk about it. He seems like a little scared puppy, hiding behind something in a corner to defend himself so he didn’t pry much.

But it angers him to the core. How can someone raise their hand on him? He is always so sweet and gentle and a little scared of this world. This intensifies the feeling in Taehyung to protect him and take away all his hurt and suffering, but he can’t. Jungkook is the only person who can do that but he will always be there with him to help with it. He just wishes that Jungkook trusts him enough to tell him if something is hurting him.

He is going to wait as long as it takes, he doesn't want to push him and forcefully know about his life. He wants Jungkook to come to him and tell him because he feels safe and he is going to work hard for it. For Jungkook to feel safe with him.

***

“They are so pretty. Thank you so much for them. I really liked them.”

“I’ll use them well”

He is parking his car when he receives the message and seeing Jungkook’s name on the lock screen he is fast to unlock and see what it is. Smiling to himself when he read the messages.

“I am glad that you liked them and no need to thank me. Can you show me when you use them.”

He waited a few minutes but there was no reply from Jungkook and maybe it was hard for him to show, so Taehyung typed again to assure him that there is no need for it.

“You don’t have to. It’s totally ok with me.”

“I will”

Their timing was the same.

“I’ll be waiting then”

Taehyung smiles to himself knowing that Jungkook will show him more of his work, unaware of his mother who is in the living room, seeing him smile like a fool going to his room without even greeting her.

“And he says he doesn't want to marry.”

***

Jungkook started his painting on Saturday and he is not sure if it is going well or not. He impulsively sends the picture to Taehyung to seek reviews, so he can just scrape it if it’s not to his liking.

But the outcome was completely unexpected to him. Even though Taehyung couldn’t understand what he was going to paint, he bathed him in praise. How good it is already, he knows how to paint and the choice of colours.

This works as a motivation for him and he completes his painting by Sunday evening. He so badly wants to send the completed painting to Taehyung to ask how it is but his inner self critic keeps finding mistakes in it the more he looks at it. And it is getting hard for him to believe that it is a good painting. He just wasted colors again, making trash.

He wants to throw this painting like other one’s but he doesn't want to disrespect Taehyung's efforts so he just hides it in his closet.

But the itching was there to ask someone how it is, because it is important to him. Someone gifted him such a precious gift and he doesn't want it to go to waste and stay in the closet. Maybe if he asks nicely they can tell what it is lacking and he can improve and then show Taehyung. Yeah he can do that.

He has a complete night to think about it. Whom to ask for suggestions, looking at it again and again opening the closet if he can himself find out the mistakes but they are too much.

***

He is really happy that it’s already Monday( quite opposite to what other people think.) But for him it’s relief from his overthinking and insomniac brain. He can indulge himself in work and put his complete focus there so he doesn't have to think about the painting.

When he was working he saw Yoongi looking at the painting in the cafe and it reminded him that he too knew how to paint and complemented Jungkook’s painting once. The painting that he showed Taehyung on their first date and he liked it. If there are chances that Yoongi finds the mistake in the painting that he just made yesterday then Taehyung will surely like it too.

He didn't know how to approach him or ask for his suggestion so he opened the picture in his phone and turned it towards Yoongi. Yoongi is too shocked to see that Jungkook is initiating something and even more when he looks down at what he was sliding and it’s his phone. An image of the painting opened and Jungkook looked to the side, maybe not wanting to face him.

He remembered when he saw one of Jungkook paintings and he liked them a lot. He was very vocal about it and he was sure Jungkook was happy that he liked it. He thought that their relationship was going to improve after that but they were back to usual the next day. So he is not sure what he is asking this time.

“umm. Why are you showing it to me?” he didn't know exactly what was expected from him.

“How is it? I made it.” The words are short and straight to the point but Yoongi is more than happy with it because it’s from Jungkook. And he picked up the phone looking, focusing on the painting. Zooming in and out to see the little details hiding. He can see from the corner of his eyes that Jungkook is looking at him and it brings a smile to his face and he knows what to do.

“It’s fabulous. I’ve never seen such a beautiful painting before and the details are so awesome and give it an extra touch. You painted so well and I am amazed that you have such great painting skills.”

A hand came out from his side snatching the phone from his grip and disappearing in the back, not before muttering a small thank you.

Whenever Jungkook comes to the front to place the food he can see the red ears and blush on his cheeks and he is so endeared by it. Jungkook looks so cute that he wants to coo at him and pat his cheeks. From now on he’ll make it a habit to compliment him daily to see this side of him.

Jungkook rushed to his house when his shift got over to take a better picture of the painting and sent it to Taehyung. It was a good idea to show it to Yoongi, if he liked it then chances are Taehyung too will like it a lot and he wants to hear it from him.

***

“How does it get leaked, we haven’t even shared the news to the public yet.” Taehyung’s voice held the authoritative aura yet the slight panic.

“I too am finding it, till now i can conclude that it is shared by an insider that knows about the deal and has access to the deal papers.”

“it’s ridiculous Namjoon. It’s been a few days since we signed the deal and things related to it are already leaking now. Like how are they going to trust us if situations remain like this. What if they wanna revoke it.”

“I understand your worry Taehyung but i am also as confused and worried as you are. I already had a meeting with the department head but they all are denying the claims saying it’s not them. And I can't just suspect them and blame one person out of them.”

“I'm going to bury the person alive once I find them.”

He is worried out of his wits. He worked so hard for this deal, number of meetings, sleepless nights and a lot of effort from the team. If this goes wrong then they are going to suffer a huge loss for this year. And the danger of affecting it their other product is also their. He can’t let this happen. He has to find the person and rectify this before it becomes a huge problem for them.

“For now we have one solution to turn this on our side.”

Taehyung just hummed, looking through the document to see what was leaked and how much it matches the information.

“We can turn it into a PR scene for the deal we signed, spread the rumour more and shake out the market with more false numbers. It can increase the share value and once the market calms down we can release the deal with an official statement.”

“Yeah, it is a good idea. We can get free marketing from this also..”

“Yeah. That’s what I’m thinking.”

“Okay then. You handle all this.”

“Sure.”

Taehyung is still tense, who is this person? He has to find else there can be more scenes like this in the future. He was thinking of going through the office of every department head but that’ll create an environment of doubt and distrust. He can’t let it happen at this crucial time, so he has to find another way.

His brows furrowed in worry and mind going miles thinking of a way to find the mole when his lock screen brightened up with Jungkook’s name in it. His hand reached out to it in an instant.

The gloomy cloud around him turns into a cool breeze carrying the fragrance of coffee, just like how Jungkook smells.

Jungkook sent the final outcome of his painting and it was so awesome. His lips curving in a smile. This was the second time Jungkook has been messaging him first and it blooms a weird feeling in his chest.

When does he start to feel like this after receiving a message? His face is back to normal, as he types out the response back to him. Showering him in complement, he can imagine the blush on Jungkook’s cheeks. It definitely is a sight to behold.

The reply from Jungkook was in an instant, only a smiling emoji with blushing cheeks, just like him.

The smile that again found home on Taehyung lips went back to normal when Hoseok, marketing head department rushed into the office, that too without knocking.

That was unusual for him and Taehyung's ear rang in alarm after hearing the next words.

“I found something suspicious with the product operating team.”

And they had a long discussion, some insights from all three and a plan to execute.

***

“How are things going with Jungkook?”

“Mom, stop scaring me like that.”

And he can see the smirk on her face, telling him that she just succeeded in what she intended to do.

“I’ll try, but you tell me. You both have been on a few dates, and you didn’t deny going on dates after the first one so I’m hoping you are moving forward with this.”

“Mom, slow down for once. I’m getting to know him and yeah, he is not bad.” He tried to hide his real intention, because once his mom got to know the strange feelings bubbling in his heart, that he has to name yet, she won’t let it go. She’ll tease him to no end and don’t want it to happen ever.

“Hmm. So you smile looking at your chat just because things are going ok.”

“Mommmm, stop looking at my phone. At least give me some space.”

“ok, ok. Have you space. kids these days asking for space when i literally had you in my belly for 9 months and now they came asking for space. Fine, have it.”

Why is his mom always like that? He has come to the conclusion that she likes bickering with him. He totally forgot to send the message that he already typed out to send it to Jungkook.

“Do you prefer coffee or hot chocolate? I just don’t want to judge you just because you work in a cafe.”

“What’s the occasion?” Jungkook is surprised by Taehyung’s text at this time. and the question too is unpredictable but given it’s always Taehyung asking him things and then answering his own question, it explains this sudden curiosity.

“Just some random thought, what would you prefer?”

“ I like hot chocolate too but If I had to choose between two, I’ll go for coffee. “

“You”

“I will definitely go for hot chocolate. I can’t stand bitter things.”

“oh.”

“What about spicy or sweet? I know you like spicy but what if you had to choose between one?”

“Definitely spicy. I love spicy food.”

“Haha we are so opposite. I can’t handle spicy food.”

“But why did you order spicy food on our first date?”

“I ordered both, you just went for spicy.”

“That is true.”

“Ocean or mountains.”

“I love both, it just depends on mood. But mountains I guess.”

“Me too. What about long walks or long drives?”

“Long drive.”

They talked for a long time discussing the things they love or prefer, sharing the reasons behind some, lost in their own world smiles adorning both of their lips.

Jungkook never talked this much on messages or even on call with someone. It was a new experience for him, one that brought a smile to his face. He never knew talking to someone like this, sharing some parts of his feels so good, without having the fear because he knows Taehyung won’t judge him.

He didn’t sleep that night just like others but he wasn’t restless either. It was a peaceful one with blinks of sleep in between.

***

Monday was the most peaceful day of the week for Jungkook. It's Thursday today and he just wants the weekend to come. Usually he prefers working but something keeps happening in the cafe and Yoongi also took leave for two days so he has to cover for him. He just doesn't want to deal with people. Just one day left and he can just rot in his bed doing nothing or maybe painting something from the paints Taehyung bought him.

This was supposed to be in the list of his bad days of this week but one text from Taehyung asking if he is free this Saturday saves it. He himself hadn’t realised that Taehyung started holding this much power on him.

He is free this Saturday so he is gleeful for what’s to come. He did ask Taehyung what they were going to do but Taehyung is keeping it secret this time too. So it must be something good so he just waits in excitement for Saturday to come.

***

Taehyung picked him directly from his house, ruining his own plan to surprise him. But it was still a surprise because Taehyung didn’t know what it was. Taehyung was also curious about his gift but Jungkook is planning to give it to him at last, he too has to live in the excitement of surprise that Jungkook went through.

They stopped at a cafe on the way and Taehyung brought him some coffee and a fruit drink for himself and he is slowly realising that what Taehyung asked him on that night was for today, maybe, maybe not.

When Taehyung switches to the highway and the building starts to turn into trees, he realises that they are going for a long drive.

“I think you’ve already realised what I planned. Now are you gonna tell me what you bought for me as a gift?”

“No. It’s going to stay as a surprise till the end of date.”

“Jungkook please.”

“No, I’m not going to tell you.”

“Pretty please.” The puppy eyes that Taehyung gives him with the compliment has Jungkook in a blushing mess. He can't deny it anymore.

“It was the painting that I painted on the weekend.”

”The one you showed me.”

“Yes.”

“Oh my god. It was so good. Thank you so much Jungkook.”

Jungkook blushed at the compliment. Looking out of the window to hide from Taehyung’s gaze whose eyes keep flickering between the road and him.

“You want me to turn off the ac?”

“No. Why?”

“You keep fidgeting with your Jacket so I thought you were feeling cold from it. If not, you can take off the jacket.”

“No, it’s ok.”

“Jungkook, you know I can sense when something is not right with you or you are not feeling comfortable. I can see it right now. You know I won’t judge or ask you a question if you don’t want it. Be comfortable with me.”

He remembers when Taehyung saw his cheek, he didn’t ask any questions about it after the first time and never brought it up. So maybe he won’t ask anything this time too. He is not sure what he should do but he trusts Taehyung’s words and removes the Jacket and  places it in the backseat.

They were talking about random things. The car parked on the side for a short break when Taehyung noticed the slight dark black colour on Jungkook’s arm. His mind stopped working for a second, he didn't want to form something so fast, so he casually asked for Jungkook’s hand. The hesitation is clear and he can see it too.

“I think my fingers are longer than you, see” He tried showing them to him.

“Let’s compare them.”

Taehyung is trying to act as nonchalant as much as he can, but the more he sees the bruises the more his blood boils. Now he understands the reason for wearing a jacket in this season. But he promised him that he won’t ask any questions so he won’t.

“Look, I told you mine are bigger than yours.” Taehyung let go of his hand and started looking for some things that he usually kept in the small storage space.

He is very clumsy and sometimes which results in bruises on his arms and legs. That cream must be still somewhere here.

“Let me see your arm, fold your sleeves a little bit.”

“Taehyung, I —”

“I am not asking anything. Just let me apply this cream, the bruises will heal faster.”

He silently complied to Taehyung’s request, offer him his hand. They both sit in silence as Taehyung gently applies the cream on his bruises and sometimes blows on it when Jungkook hisses in pain. It was clear from nails, someone’s who has long and sharp nails.

He had noticed that Jungkook’s mother has sharp nails, but he didn't want to jump to any conclusion. He so badly wants to say many things but again Jungkook is trusting him and he is not going to break it. He will wait patiently till he is ready to tell him.

“Does it happen often?” He looked up to look into Jungkook's eyes and the latter is clearly trying to avoid them.

“Here, keep this with you. Apply this before sleeping also. The bruises will fade by tomorrow. And if the wounds are deeper than you need to visit the doctor too, don’t neglect them, ok. Take care of your health.”

“Shall I start again?”

He turned to ask Jungkook again when there was no reply for a few seconds and the scene in front of him had his heart in pieces. Jungkook is crying, so silently that he didn’t even hear it, just being a few inches away from him. His head ducked downwards and the pearl drops rolled down his cheeks.

“Hey, Jungkook.” He moved towards him, keeping his hands above his shoulder, not touching yet.

“I am sorry. I don’t know that it is not my place to say. I just acted on my impulse. I am really sorry. I won’t do this again.”

“no.”

“What.”

“It-t’s n-not your m-m-mistake.” His voice is watery, he is trying to not break down in front of Taehyung. He is good at controlling his emotions. He doesn't know why it is happening now. And he definitely doesn't want him to feel bad when he does nothing other than taking care of him. The only person who shows him some warmth.

“what. How is it not my mistake, you are here crying because of me. You don’t have to say this. I know it’s my mistake and I apologise for that. Don’t feel bad for crying. I am just sorry that I made you cry.”

“I am not crying because of you.” this time he looked directly at Taehyung, eyes filled with tears to the brim and some escaping, rolling down. He doesn't want Taehyung to blame himself.

“Then”

“just some memories. I didn’t mean to c-cry bu- but”

Taehyung encourages him some more but he is not speaking anymore and he just can’t see him cry like this. So he asked the first thing that he so desperately wanted to do.

”Can I hold you?”

Jungkook’s eyes meet Taehyung’s as he nods his head a little in confirmation. And Taehyung didn’t waste any second to hold him, engulfing him whole in his arms.

This is what it all takes to break down completely. His cries became more and more loud, tears soaking Taehyung's shoulders completely, his body shaking and his hand gripping Taehyung’s shirt so tightly as if someone was separating them.

Taehyung’s eyes tear up too, seeing Jungkook in this state. He holds him tight, assuring him that he is here.

“What did I do so w-wrong.”

“Wh-why me.”

“Wh-why can’t I-I -I have a little happiness, Whyyy?”

His voice was hoarse and a little watery from crying so much. This is the first time Taehyung saw someone so shattered, so torn. He knew who he was talking about. His cries rang in his ears and Taehyung vowed to himself that this is the last time that he’ll let Jungkook cry this much. He is going to fill his life with so much happiness that he’ll forget all of his pain.

“I know I am use-useless b-but they — don’t ha-have to remind me of it eve-every time. Saying mean stuff, I couldn’t even sleep there. It’s all kept playing in my head. I don't know what to do. How to make them happy.”

“‘Hey Jungkook, look at me, here, look here. You are not useless. And whoever is saying this to you is wrong. Don’t listen to them. You are such a good painter, paints so well, you work so hard, look so pretty and have such an amazing personality. So never say you are useless. Got it.”

The small hmm of affirmation from Jungkook brings a smile to his own watery eyes.

It took a long time for Jungkook to calm down but Taehyung is there holding him in his arms, mumbling small affirmations here and there, assuring him that he is not useless as they told him.

Taehyung knows that Jungkook is not in a good state right now and rest is best for him but he also didn’t want him to drop at his parent's house. So he asked if it’ll be okay with him to live at Taehyung’s apartment which is currently empty right now. Taehyung lives with his parents so the apartment is empty for a few months.

Jungkook is reluctant to agree but he assured him that it’s ok for him and that the place stays empty anyways so Jungkook can live there for a few days, on his own, away from his parents.

At last Jungkook agreed but only for a few days, which is enough for Taehyung. He visited a convenience store first for some necessities before dropping him to the flat.

***

He has to calm himself down before talking to his mom. When he dropped Jungkook he had half a mind to visit his parents and have some serious conversation with them but he didn't want to create any more problem for him, so he directly drove to his home.

He knows his mother can see right through him, so he has to find a good reason to prepone the marriage, the one that can convince his mother.

“Mom.”

‘Hmm” she is too engrossed in the magazine that she is reading but still paying some attention to Taehyung.

“I want to talk to you about something important about my marriage.” His palms are sweating but he is trying to act as nonchalant as he can.

“What is it? I’m listening.” still eyes glued to an emerald colour dress on the shiny page.

“I am thinking about preponing my marriage.”

“We haven’t even decided a date for your marriage Taehyung. How is it possible to prepone it.” There is a little humour in her tone but the side glance that she just gave him made it clear that she is suspecting something but willing to listen first.

“I was thinking we could finalise a date then, I have this upcoming project that is coming and I won’t have much time after we start working on it.”

“And when is this project of yours going to start?”

“in around 2-3 weeks.”

“So you are thinking of marrying before that?”

“Yeah.”

“Do you love the boy that much? Oh my I thought you are going to create difficulty for me and here you are proposing the idea to marry this early.”

Taehyung is silent, he doesn't know what is the ideal answer for this question, staying quiet is a better option than saying something that creates trouble for him.

“Now tell me what is the real thing.” Taeri asked as she finally put down the magazine on the table, looking dead in his eyes.

“This is it mom. The project is really important and I won’t be able to have much time to myself even if I try, so I thought marrying before that is a good option.”

“Why hurry son, you can marry after this project ends. That’ll be a good idea, don’t you think. You both can know each other till then and have plenty of time to come to a decision.”

“No” The speed at which he said no is surprising to both him and his mother. She has already realised that something is there which Taehyung is not telling her, but she doesn't want to push him. If it is something that he doesn't want to tell her then it’s his own decision and she’ll respect that but marriage is a huge decision and he just can’t take it so easily.

“Taehyung, I understand you worry but marriage is a huge step in one’s life. I know I am pressuring to go on dates and meet new people but don’t take this decision so lightly. It will affect your whole life. It’s not just a deal.”

“I know mom. I am not taking it lightly and I have thought it through.”

“Fine then. What time frame is suitable for you?”

He was surprised how easily his mom agreed to all this. It’s seriously shocking to him.

“Within three weeks but sooner the better.”

“Have you discussed it with Jungkook?”

“Not yet, but I’ll discuss it with him.”

“Have a proper conversation with him then we’ll take any decision.”

“Okay.”

***

Jungkook was changing when he saw himself in the mirror on his locker gate. His bruises are almost gone but they are still pretty visible. They would have faded completely only if he hadn’t forgotten about applying the cream Taehyung gave to him.

When he went to the front, Yoongi took the cream out of his pants pockets and slid it towards him. He looked at the cream in front of him and then Yoongi, questioning the reason behind this.

Yoongi, as if sensing his conflict, answered the unasked question.

“It’s for your bruises. On your arm.” He said pointing to his arm with his eyes.

“And how do I know about this, I saw it while you were changing. I didn’t mean to snoop but I just happened to be there. Here, take it.” He said while sliding the cream more towards him.

“Thank you.” and with that he left with the cream. He never knew that Yoongi cared this much for him. On Saturday Taehyung and today Yoongi two people caring for him, this is new. He is not used to the attention and care. He thought he always lived in shadows and people don’t pay much attention to him and who does have some motive behind them.

But it felt good to be cared for, on Saturday and today too.

***

It’s been almost a week since he is living in Taehyung’s apartment. He bought some clothes on Monday, even though he didn't want to go there but he had to otherwise he had nothing to wear for work.

After opening up with Taehyung, he needed some time alone, to collect himself and not break down again. It felt relieving saying things out loud to someone, it felt comforted that someone listened to him.

Living on his own for a few days provided him that comfort that he didn’t know he could get. No one to taunt him every second, no shouts or fights of his parents disturbing his peace when he was just laying there. It felt really good to live in quietness. He needed this for a long time but money was always the issue.

Yesterday Taehyung had talked with him about their marriage and his perspective on it. If he was ready or needed some more time to make any decision. Truly he will leave his house right now if he has a chance. But he doesn't want to marry anyone just to leave his house. He doesn't want to set foot in another hell just to leave one.

But this is not the case anymore. Taehyung is way better, if he says the truth then he deserves better. Jungkook is a hollow shell who sometimes doesn't even know himself and Taehyung is such a self assured, confident person. And he showed him nothing else but kindness and understanding.

So it didn’t even take him seconds to decide that he wants to move ahead with the decision of marrying him. He wants more of Taehyung's attention and care and maybe love if he got something useful to show him one day. When he won’t be so unlovable anymore.

He was happy that before asking his parents, Taehyung asked his opinion on it first. He can prepare himself for his parents reaction, that wasn’t going to be good definitely. They weren't happy when Taehyung and his mom came with the proposal and now they are finalising the date and all it’s going to be hell there. But nothing that he isn’t used to.

It was worse than he imagined. His mother blames him for the things that are out of his control but it still hurts. His therapist used to tell him to not blame him for his parents' decision or things that are out of his control but hearing it so many times made him believe that it’s all his fault.

He is a human at last. No matter how hard he tries to run, the voices in his head always catch up.

But he is happy, he is leaving this hell someday, the constant voice that haunted him for so long. He was not here when Taehyung’s mom came to discuss the marriage date, venue and all other things but he knew that it’ll be in around 10 days. Last 10 days of hell.

The next few days were hectic for him. Going for dress fitting, cake testing, flowers selection, decor preference, Taehyung included him in every part of planning, keeping his likes and dislikes in his mind.

The more he gets to know Taehyung the happier he is. Taehyung is cheerful around him and whenever he is with him, he can see the lift in his own mood. He is trying his best to be as useful as he can to him. He too wants to help him.

It truly feels like he is marrying and feeling happy about it. He is going to marry Taehyung. The handsome and successful CEO with a kind heart and amazing personality. He is happy. He is finally happy.