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It wasn’t supposed to be like this…it wasn’t supposed to be like this Buck thought to himself over and over again in the dark of Tommy’s room…his supposed boyfriend’s room
Everything was supposed to be getting better Chris and Eddie were supposed to be here and not in El Paso miles away from him miles away from the family they built over the years
Eddie was supposed to make Chris come back! Supposed to make him come back to talk it out and they were supposed to go back to weekly Buckley/Diaz Movie nights
Eddie wasn’t supposed to go to El Paso after Christopher and be happy out there…away from Buck away from his family
Buck was of course happy that everyone else seemed to be doing okay again, Hen and Karen were good now that Mara was home again, and that Denny was feeling better Maddie and Chim were of course sad to see Mara go home but also excited that the Wilson family were back together
Bobby was even back at work after switching jobs with Gerrard and talking about how Brad was actually pretty chill, everything was supposed to be okay right!?
But no Buck was looking at a picture Eddie posted on instagram a few minutes ago which Eddie rarely uses, it was a picture of him with glitter all over his face in a overly revealing shirt and Ariana with bi colored glitter on her face there were two other guys, really hot guys in it, pushing close to them….they were clearly at a club from the looks
And they were happy in El Paso…Chris and Eddie were bonding and even going to places Eddie took Shannon without him and he was stuck in bed with Tommy..Tommy fucking Kinard who he was kinda over he felt sick
The coldness came against his naked skin again and he felt like he was Buck 1.0 again just being used for his body, looks and Tommy was basically feeding into his insecurities with the jokes about being hot and him being lucky Bucks built nice “cause that’s all he has going for him” not to mention the no physical affection after sex and stuff but Tommy really never wanted it to begin with other then getting off of course
Oh did Buck also forget to mention everything with the team and accidently learning…about Tommy’s past..
He was over everything and all he wanted was Eddie…His Diaz boys home with him and happy and Buck loved him didn’t he…?
Evan Buckley loved Eddie Diaz but it didn’t matter right cause Eddie was happy and Straight and even if he wasn't why would he want Buck? all Buck has is his body and looks and Eddie’s currently in El Paso miles away from him from their home in Los Angeles
Plus like Tommy said Eddie left him and was happy without him
Buck put his phone down and bit his bottom lip feeling the tears in his eyes…he balled up his body putting his head in his hands and sighed looking to the right of him at Tommy
I’m such a fucking fool aren’t I? Buck thought to himself what was he doing…why was he leading Tommy on when he knew what he wanted…who he wanted? Was Buck doing it cause he knew he couldn't get better…Buck always fucked it up didn't he?
He felt Tommy move but just turned and put his feet onto the floor it was almost 1 am and he was done and he was sick of waiting for Eddie to come home he wanted to be out of this house out of this relationship and alone cause everyone always left him
“Evan?” Tommy’s voice snapped him out of his mind and he looked at him with guilt on his face before he sighed and opened his mouth
“I can’t do this anymore Tommy…I’m done with this I'm done with us.”
Tommy looked at him confused and sat up with a sigh and a roll of his eyes “ Evan it’s the middle of the night and I know you have these “moments” where you don’t think your enough” He rolled his eyes again “But it’s too early for this shit and you're being exhausting just get back in bed.” He finished the sentence with a cold tone and Buck just bit his lip
“No…I-I have to go!” Buck got up and quickly put on his sweats and hoodie saying fuck you to his underwear and socks and rushed out Tommy’s room and heard Tommy’s sigh but ignored it as he grabbed his phone and wallet and keys and rushed out the house
°°••....••°°..••°° Buck’s 1 Pov °°••..°°••....••°°
The cold wind hit my skin but I didn't care I needed to get out of here now, I felt my heart start speeding up and ran towards my jeep getting in the driver seat
I sat there for a moment and just bit my lip I really just did that...I really just failed again another relationship down the drain cause I’ll always be to much they’ll always leave
I reached up with my shaky hand to the key hole and started the car, As soon as my car started the radio came on and blasted a song it was a Taylor swift song, I didn't know this one maybe it was the folklore album I barely listened to that one Maddie loved it tho and sighed
ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : My Tears Ricochet -Taylor Swift
“I didn't have it in myself to go with grace…
'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave
And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?
Cursing my name, wishing I stayed
Look at how my tears ricochet
And I can go anywhere I want
Anywhere I want, just not home…
And you can aim for my heart, go for blood”
I quickly reached for the radio button and turned it off not wanting to hear the rest and started to drive towards Eddie's house, I had been house sitting/living there since he left…since they left me
Bobby and Athena had been using the loft while they were building there house… and of course I loved it at first being here all the time..but then realized it took both of them leaving for me…to call it home to get to live there full time and realized I rather be in my cold loft sometimes and on a semi-soft couch with them here instead but I took it for granted
I was too slow and didn't realize that it wasn't the house that felt like home, it was them…and now they were gone and I was alone again
When I got there I quickly got out the jeep (leaving the door open on accident) and rushed to the door walking in, I walked towards the kitchen to grab a sticky note, I had already decided that I needed a drink today and that I needed to leave a note just in case Maddie came here before me for our breakfast date we planned tomorrow
I started to write the note “Maddie If I'm not here its cause I need time i’ll be back in-” I heard my phone go off and looked at the screen it was a update from Eddie’s Instagram and I put the pen down and opened it
Another photo of him and Arianna at the club but this time there smiling really brightly and Ariana is kissing his cheek
I switched my phone to the uber app and picked a bar that was close but also not to close so I know the others wouldn't be there and quickly rushed to my-Eddie’s room and switched clothes
Before I knew it I walked out the house and got into the Uber to go to the bar
°°••....••°°..••°° Eddie’s 1 Pov °°••..°°••....••°°
It was six am when I walked into the kitchen I didn't drink that much last night but I felt sick still Ariana walked into the kitchen behind me and smiled
Chris and I decided to stay with her for a while and help her pack up cause she had decided to move to Los Angeles and me and Chris decided to help her pack and leave when she did which was in two weeks
Lets just say our parents didn't like her being Bi and when she came out and got disowned Chris wasn't to happy with his grandparents and I also explained that I thought I liked men and a lot came out that week
Ariana was making two cups of coffee when I heard my phone ring and saw that it was a group face time
It has Chim, Hen and Bobby in it I answered it confused cause it was Tommy that started the call and when I answered I put it on the counter so it could fully see me which I realized I still had glitter on my face
Maybe it was Buck on Tommy’s phone?
When my face came into view I saw Maddie and Chim in Chim’s Box and Hen and Karen together and finally Bobby and Athena which she was in her uniform clearly about to leave for work
The group chat name was “ Buck has Problems” and then I looked at Tommy’s box and it was him looking really annoyed
“Uh…as weird as this is…what's going on?” I said and then I saw Maddie’s face do something and she then side-eyed me
“Why is there glitter all over your face” I was about to answer her but then I heard Ariana beat me to it “Cause we partied last night!”
Which was half the truth she threatened me and I came against my will..
She popped into the facetime and smiled “Where’s Buck?” she said and then Tommy sighed loudly catching everyone’s attention
“That’s the reason I'm calling you guys…uh so”
“How do I even explain this…fuck it” Tommy said and we all looked at him worried “Last night Buck was acting weird but then again he's been acting off for a while now”
“But last night around like 12ish maybe one…he randomly got up said something about “how he was done” Ima be honest I wasn't listening I was tired as fuck”
“I told him to stop being so extra or something like that and to come back to bed but then he said no. and just got up and left…I went back to bed of course…cause it was like 12am”
“And yeah so…now he turned off his location and his phones going to voicemail”
I then saw that Chim added Maddie to the chat and she joined the call as she clearly set up her phone and started her car
“Okay not to be that person but…Tommy why the fuck would you go back to bed if he was clearly upset?” Hen questioned annoyed
“I know you have a breakfast meeting with him Maddie but I'm coming as soon as I get through roll call keep me updated” Athena rushed out the door of the call and Tommy sighed again
“Cause he's been acting like this for a while now! Like we get it he's upset about the whole being left behind thing, Like isn't this supposed to be norm- you know what nevermind.. Plus him not sleeping is killing me when I'm tired like it's actually getting exhausting he's getting exhausting-”
“What left behind thing? Not sleeping? Tommy what the fuck are you talking about? Buck has been saying he’s fine? Also don't fucking say that about Buck he isn't exhausting!” I snapped and Tommy's face went blank
“For someone that claims to be his best friend you sure don't know anything unless…he didn't tell you on p-”
“Yeah and for someone that claims to be his boyfriend you sure are a dick not only has your boyfriend not been sleeping well at all! He left mind you! In the middle of the night! and you didn't go after him!” Ariana cut in and looked pissed
“God your such a dick what does Buck see in him Eddie?” Ariana questioned in Spanish and Eddie sighed
“I ask myself that everytime his mouth opens” Tommy looked at them confused and then Hen and Karen frowned
“But like maybe he just went back to Eddie’s and were just freaking out for no reason right? Maybe he just wanted to be away from Tommy?” Karen asked and Chim frowned Tommy gasped and Ari laughed
“Keep me updated I have to watch Jee!”
Hen and Karen said they had to go to cause the kids and to keep them updated so now it was only Eddie Ariana Maddie Bobby and a pissed-off Tommy
“Okay I made it to your house Eddie is your extra key still in the same place?” She questioned unhooking the phone from her phone holder
“Yeah it is” Maddie's face showed up again and she frowned
“That can't be good…” she whispered and then flipped the camera to Buck’s jeep the driver's side was wide open and she started to walk to the door
“Wait wait! what if there's something bad in there maybe you should wait for Athena!?” Eddie rushed in and Tommy sighed
“Don’t you think your being dramatic Eddie?”
“No I don't Tommy…Maddie’s Bucks sister you wouldn't understand…you weren't there when it happened” He said back to Tommy and Bobby sighed
“Boys! Stop arguing…I agree with Eddie we don't know whats in the house and Athena texted me she's on the way”
Without thinking Eddie got up and started to walk towards the door before Ari stopped him with her words “Where are you going?”
“To my house to protect Maddie and see if-” Eddie stop and bit his lip before he set the phone back down and started to pase “right…” he whispered and Ari frowned
“You know what your right Eddie I’ll go to your house and “protect” Maddie I mean when we find him he's gonna need someone to be there for him” He said with a smart tone and Eddie laughed
“Yeah cause your clearly so good at that? Like if you were we wouldn't be here right now would we you let him leave the house in a bad mindset a drop-”
“Yeah but at least I didn't do what scares him the most! You left him! I might not be the best at whatever you guys do or call your friendship but I didn't leave him plus I'm his boyfriend, your in El Paso and he's missing what can you do?”
Ariana was about to say something but then Maddie cut in “Tommy you're out of line! Eddie didn't leave he wouldn't leave Buck and I don't know what you have been saying to him but I swear if I find out you've been saying shit like that to him I will personally!-”
“Okay Okay calm down fighting isn't gonna help us find our boy plus he might just be inside sleeping” Athena’s voice came through Maddie’s phone and she sighed
“I’m going in Maddie I will tell you when its clear”
Maddie nodded on the camera and then a couple minutes later Athena came out the house and popped into the camera
“The house is clear but Buck isn't there I found his car keys on the table and a sticky note which said Maddie on it I didn't read it tho
Maddie’s camera blurred for a minute and they heard heavy foot steps like she was running she then paused and Eddie saw her set down the camera where she was in it holding a baby pink note which was Buck's color and Athena standing behind her
Eddie smiled at the thought that Buck was still following their system he had accidentally brought a bulk pack of pastel color sticky notes once and they just kept it as a joke Buck was baby pink Eddie was Baby Blue and Chris was Purple or Green cause he used the most Yellow was important and darker blue was ex
“It just says…Maddie If I'm not here it’s cause I need time I’ll be back in-” Maddie stopped and Bobby frowned
“In what?” Maddie just looked up a worried look on her face and her eyes started watering
“That’s all it says he didn't finish writing it…I said something similar to this when I left you don't understand”
“Eddie Bobby…Buck doesn't do this he isn't the runner I am I ran I'm the one that leaves he only left cause I told him to he only kept leaving cause I-”
“What if he-”
“Maddie!” Eddie said loudly and she snapped back in looking at Eddie’s box
“This isn't your fault and I bet Buck has a reason for the note I bet he was writing tomorrow and just got distracted its gonna be fine…plus he would never leave the jeep behind”
Maddie smiled and nodded “God Eddie I wish you were here you would know what to do…” Eddie smiled and hummed
“Yeah I wish I was…”
Eddie then looked around the house… Ariana’s house and realized all she had left was her day to day things… did she really need him here still it seemed like Buck needed him more and fuck Eddie would do anything for Buck, Eddie then looked at Ariana
“Maddie I’ll call you back can you give me a hour or two and keep me posted also check this list of places I'm about to send you okay!” Maddie looked confused but nodded
“Of course you know my brother the best” Tommy laugh a bit and was about to say something but Maddie just said
“Talk to you later Bobby Eddie and Ariana before hanging up and Ariana laughed saying “I like her” before Eddie hung up followed by Bobby
“Okay I know I’m about to sound crazy but Ariana I need to-”
“Go home? And your wondering if I’ll watch Chris for this remaining time and stuff?” Eddie looked at his little sister basically one of his first kids plus Sophia and smiled but they were cut off by a
“Why are you trying to go home so early Dad? What's wrong!? Is it Buck!?”
Eddie looked at a worried looking Chris and explained and Chris looked upset
“This is our fault…we promised Buck we would never leave him and we did and now he's missing dad I didn't say goodbye last time I saw him or I love him”
“This is all my fault I shouldn't have gotten mad I should have stayed home with you and Buck…and now were here and not with him you were supposed to have his back” Chris was in full tears now and Eddie was hugging him
“That’s why I need to go home mi vida and I promise this isn't your fault and Buck isn't mad or gonna blame you okay he understood why you were upset what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have done it”
“I wanna go!” Chris demanded and Eddie sighed
“Buddy I don't think I'm gonna be able to find two tickets for this late in time..”
“That’s fine you go today Eddie and me and Chris will be flying in tomorrow I mean all I have to pack is like two more boxes and I already texted Sophia she’ll deal with the moving people and boom!”
“Sounds good Chris?” Ariana got down to his chair level with eddie, Chris nodded
“Okay but dad find him…promise?”
Eddie frowned and sighed “I’ll do my best I can't promise I will find him but I can pinky promise I’ll try my best” Chris nodded and put his finger out and Eddie smiled and pinky promised him
Ariana sighed “Good thing you agreed cause I already got the tickets your flight leaves at 8:30!” Eddie sighed and glared at her
“You really gave me 45 minutes! I Still have to shower and get this glitter off”
°°••....••°°..••°° Buck’s 3 Pov °°••..°°••....••°°
Buck woke up in a random bed and started to freak out but the room style felt familiar and he looked at the time and it was 10 am he then heard a hum and looked up to a red-haired woman
“Good morning sleeping beauty…you seemed really upset last night..”
“Taylor! What's going on?”
“That’s what I would like to know…cause I only got some parts of the story”
“What are you talking about?” Buck said confused and she fixed her shirt and sighed
“Well what I'm talking about is I'm on a date with my girlfriend last night and then I ran into you…drunk out of your mind I might add and of course I ask what’s wrong..”
“Cause even tho we didn't work out we were good friends and all you told me is that you dumped your boyfriend? and that Eddie’s gone Chris is gone and your life sucks that there's no point of living and I tried asking and you just started crying more…” She rolled her eyes and moved her hair behind her ear with another sigh
“So now your gonna explain what's going on…it’s the least you could do after ruining my date, oh! And of course this is off the record” She smiled and I realized she looked better now more happy
“Wait girlfriend!?” I said and she smiled with a bit of a laugh I got up slowly cause my head was banging and she hummed
“Yeah her name is Eva she's amazing and actually in the kitchen making us coffee right now so come on?” She put her hand out and I realized she had dark green nails instead of her bold red ones and I smiled
“Oh well uh I'm happy for you Tay you deserved better and I'm sorry about-” Taylor interrupted me and walked towards the kitchen
“Don’t…I don't deserve one we were both shitty to each other and we both deserved better people and it seems like we both went for the same gender” she smirked at me and I smiled back at her
When we reached the kitchen which was beautiful I looked at the girl standing in the kitchen she was wow
She was taller then Taylor and tanner definitely mixed and has curly hair that was definitely more of a wavy and a small nose with full lips she then looked up and her green eyes flicked in the light of the kitchen
“Wow Taylor how did you pull her?” I questioned and she glared at me “Wow rude and also did you forget I am hot”
I smiled and rolled my eyes “Yeah forgot that part” She play slapped my arm and helped me over to the island stool cause I was still messed up
“Hello I'm Eva its nice to meet you” She smiled and I looked at her she has a soft voice
“Evan Buckely but everyone calls me Buck its nice to meet you sorry I missed up your date…” Eva just smiled and nodded “It’s all fine it happens with us sometimes”
“You know Taylor she gets busy with her stories and sometimes I get called for emergency sessions” I looked at her confused and then realization popped up on her face
“Oh right sorry I'm a child therapist! And Taylor told me your a firefighter sounds like a hard job” Buck blushed and smiled
“Oh no, I bet yours is the harder one I know how child trauma can be hard to deal with” she smiled even brighter and then reached for the mug she made and set it in front of me
“Thanks, how do you take your coffee?” Taylor quickly grab my cup and added the stuff I liked then made another cup and handed it to Eva with a kiss on her cheek I smiled at them and bit my lip
“Soooo wanna talk now or do I have to get you breakfast? I live by that place we use to get?”
“What do you wanna know first…” I whispered and she looked at Eva and handed her a menu before she pointed at some stuff and Eva nodded and grabbed her phone
“I’ll be back!” She said and walked out the kitchen
“Well why don't we start with this alleged non-Eddie boyfriend and you dumping him at 1am and then leaving?”
“What does that even mean?” Taylor rolled her eyes again and she sighed
“Buck…We all know that you and Eddie…love each other”
“Even if I found that out after our relationship actually when Eddie got…when he got hurt”
“Plus I’m just saying what did this boyfriend do to make you act so unreasonable you've never been that way Buck you might be unpredictable and a idiot sometimes but you normally never leave a relationship like how you explained last night”
“So what happened..” She put her hand on Buck’s arm and frowned
°°••....••°°..••°° Eddie’s Pov °°••..°°••....••°°
When I arrived in Los Angeles two hours and fourty-five minutes after getting off the phone with the team plus Tommy I rushed to get an uber home and 15 minutes later I was at my door step finally I was home my home our home.
I got my key out smiling and then I heard some yelling? that was concerning to say the least and my smile dimmed
“Tommy can you just go? I didn't even ask you to come, I don't need you here to judge and criticize everything, I don’t need you here to just make me feel like crap”
“You aren't even helping look for Buck, you just keep saying that he’ll come back and that we’re all being over dramatic! But Buck doesn’t just do this and you should know that as his boyfriend” That was Maddie's voice and then I heard a annoyed sigh and Tommy spoke
“Maddie I'm not leaving and I don't have to this is technically Bucks and Eddie’s house and they didn't tell me I couldn't be here, plus what are you gonna do about it huh? His voice sounded taunting
“Maybe fight me huh? Push me? Stab me like how you did your ex husband I’m sick of you thinking you know Buck best cause your his sister I’m sick of your fucking team pushing this idea in your head that Buck’s Eddie’s you know what! You’re such a-”
I rushed in and saw them standing in my living room Maddie looked beyond upset and was biting her lip and Tommy was stepping closer to her with a cocky expression on his face
“Finish that sentence I fucking dare you…” I said pissed off, what made this guy think he could talk to Maddie like that?
Tommy Kinard was definitely on my shit list not only was he a bad person to Hen and Chim he was a horrible boyfriend and now he was threatening Maddie? Oh he definitely wasn't staying in Bucks life if I had a say so
Maddie looked up with watery eyes and they widened Tommy looked up too shocked and I walked over to Maddie getting between them
“First of all Tommy” I put my hand on his chest and gently pushed him back, from us and he looked at me paled face
“Maddie has the same authority as Buck and if she tells you to leave our house you fucking leave”
“Second if you ever threaten her again I will fucking hurt you and this isn't a threat this is a promise”
“Lastly I don't care what type of relationship you and Buck have going on right now when he gets back its over…now get the fuck out my house before I end up in handcuffs again”
Tommy just nodded and rushed out the house and Maddie just let out a breath and then hugged my side tightly
“Thank you I-I was so…” Maddie said as a whisper and I just frowned and turned to her hugging her
“It’s fine don't mention it…Your Buck’s sister so your important to me by default” She smiled and wiped her eyes before she got her phone out
“Okay so I checked most of the places you told me and nothing…Buck has been gone since 12 and it's now almost 11 am so he's been gone for 11 hours
Maddie frowned again and I swallowed “God I should have never left maybe Chris would have-”
“Don’t Eddie you did what you thought was best and as a parent, you did what was needed if anything this is Tommy’s fault…”
“Not only did he not go after him he kept messing with his head and you know how Buck gets…it was mental abuse”
“Yeah but how didn't I realize what I did? What I did to him, I knew his insecurities and how he felt about his place in my life, I basically did what Abby did right? I told him I'd be back for him told him to wait for me then left him…
Left him standing at the airport not to mention he's been living in my house what makes us different?” I frowned and Maddie looked at me upset
“Maybe the fact that you knew you were coming back!?, I mean your back! Your right in front of me home looking for him you dropped everything when you realized he was in trouble and your here now
Abby wouldn’t have done that for my brother plus you and Buck have more than they’ll ever have…more then most honestly, even if you guys don’t wanna talk or say it right now..”
“Plus you truly love him…”
I blushed and Maddie just smiled “So let's find him and bring him home he needs you Eddie and he needs Chris too, your his family and he's been missing you guys”
I nodded and Maddie explained how they tried pinging his phone but it was off or dead and Hen and Karen had all the kids and Chim and Bobby were still going to the places I suggested
She also explained that Athena and Lou started to look too even if it hadn't been 24hrs and that Athena’s Captain agreed to it and that if it hit the 24hr mark she would send out a whole unit cause Buck was Athena’s son
I breathed a bit better knowing that everyone was looking for him and updated Ariana Maddie then told me how Athena told her to stay here just in case he came home and that she was gonna start dinner for everyone cause it was gonna be a long day
I decided to stay with her just in case and mainly cause I was worried about what Tommy would do if he came back and Maddie was by herself
I might have wanted to look to join Athena and them on the hunt but I realized not only Buck needed me so did Maddie…and she was a Buckley so she was Important by default
°°••....••°°..••°° Buck’s Pov °°••..°°••....••°°
ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Halley’s Comet - Billie Eilish
“I haven't slept since Sunday
Midnight for me is 3:00 a.m. for you
But my sleepless nights are better
With you than nights could ever be alone, ooh-ooh-ooh
I was good at feeling nothing, now I'm hopeless
What a drag to love you like I do, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh”
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“Wait so your telling me that Eddie had to go back to El Paso cause of Chris stuff which you understood at the time and were happy that he was finally doing something about this whole situation that you won't explain without Eddie’s consent”
“But then you started to realize it felt wrong without him and that your relationship with this Tommy dude was just getting worse cause he made you feel like your 1.0 phase?”
“Pretty much..” I said and Taylor frowned then Eva spoke up
“Buck…I know I might not know you as well as Taylor but this Tommy dude sounds manipulative and mentally abusive… he took a time were you already felt wrong and low and used stuff he knew would make you break, and pushed it to get what he wanted and what he knew you needed which was intimacy”
“You did the right thing breaking up with him and to be honest…you need to talk to this Eddie about how you feel instead of acting like everythings okay…”
“I’m not saying you should also tell him how you feel but at least communicate…and hey he might not be as happy as he seems at home you never know the media is meant to fool people
I hummed listening to her close before I spoke “Taylor you picked a great one you know and thank you Eva for that I needed it” Taylor just smiled at Eva
“I know I did…” she said and Eva blushed before she coughed
“You’re welcome”
“Now let’s get you home it’s almost one, I bet this sister of yours is confused right now with just a note that you’ll be back tomorrow
I laughed and they help me get my stuff together before we got in the car and started driving towards Eddie’s house
“Hey Taylor just so you know-” She turned around and smirked
“Oh I know and just let me know when you wanna hangout…maybe a future double date?”
I laughed and she sighed “Maybe this time Eddie won’t glare at me the whole time and then suggest that I should choked”
I looked at her shocked and confused and she sighed again
“He what!?”
°°••....••°°..••°° Eddie’s Pov °°••..°°••....••°°
ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : You’re gonna go far -Noah Kahan
It makes me smile to know when things get hard
Ooh-ooh, you'll be far, Ooh-ooh, you'll be far from here, And while I clean shit up in the yard
Ooh-ooh, you'll be far, Ooh-ooh, you'll be far, far from here
So, pack up your car, put a hand on your heart, Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are
We ain't angry at you, love
You're the greatest thing we've lost
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I sat there my leg shaking as Maddie sung to the song sadly and I sighed as I looked at the clock it was 12 hours now…to the half way point I guess
I felt my stomach hurting…this was all my fault I should have been home with Eddie Chris should have never left I didn’t need a girlfriend or someone a wife like my family said to help me raise Chris,fuck I didn’t even need a man to help me all I needed was Buck and Chris home and safe
I rub my face and bit my lip hard tasting blood on my tongue still no sign of Buck… Maddie was trying not to freak out but I could tell she was, she was doing what Buck did when he was worried shrinking on herself looking away and honestly the same face
I was about to get up and just suggest we start looking for him ourselves, when I heard a loud noise and the door opening it snapped me out my thoughts and then Maddie’s face did a crazy switch from worry to panic
Maddie ran toward the door super fast and I got up to turn off the oven and slowly walked to the living room I peeked out from the kitchen and there he was in all his glory hugging Maddie tightly
I looked into his baby blues and I felt my stomach flip and a bit of water in my eyes he was home and safe I was about to walk out and honestly hug him but then I heard another voice
“Sorry to interrupt your moment but he needs more water he drunk a lot last night.” I looked at the tan-ish woman with green eyes and frowned “oh…” I said quietly and then I saw someone else walk in too
“Yeah for real… he was alarming last night it took me fighting him and the security feeling bad for me to help me stop him…it was a rough night and he owe’s me heels and a drink”
Taylor fucking Kelly walked in confidently and swayed her hair out the way before she grabned onto Buck…my fucking Buck’s arm and smiled at him and Buck just looked down at her and smiled back
I glared at her and she looked up at me and then gasped loudly making everyone look at her
“What the Fuck!? I thought you were in El Paso Buck?”
Buck looked up slowly at me and his face look shocked and then confused and I started to walk towards him but then he backed up and said
“No Eddie…you’re not supposed to be here” I froze and looked at him confused I then looked away and laughed a bit
“Oh…I okay”
“Evan?” Maddie said confused and then Buck rubbed his face and frowned “I-I didn’t mean it like that I just Eddie’s supposed to be in El Paso with uh w-with Chris and stuff and why Eddie is”
Buck rubbed his face roughly and then did somthing weird with his face before he stepped closer to me with water in his eyes
“Please tell me Eddie that he’s coming back that your coming h-“ Buck stopped and I looked at him realizing in my brain
“Buck” I said and he froze
He thought I was back cause I gave up on him that I was coming back to get my shit and leave forever I should have thought of that especially since Tommy’s been supposedly putting bad shit into his mind and mainly the thought that I was leaving him like Abby
“No! No, Evan” I rushed closer and he flinched a bit but when I put my hands on his face and softly cupped them he paused and looked at me with tears still in his eyes
“I’m home for good okay, I’m staying and Chris is coming back tomorrow okay I’m sorry for leaving I shouldn’t have left you I should have took you or somthing”
“This is my home and nothing can change that and I need you okay Evan you’re my person my home just like Chris..” I then heard foot steps and a soft “They need a moment let’s go outside and I’ll call Athena and everyone” out Maddie’s mouth but I didn’t check to see if they were gone
His face finally broke and tears started to run freely down his face he then hugged into me and I hugged him back tightly putting my hand into his hair to comfort him
“I’m so sorry I’m so sorry Mi Vida”
“I’ll keep apologizing till you believe me okay I’m sorry”
Buck just hugged into me and held onto me like I was gonna disappear till his tears finally stop and when they did he finally spoke in a soft broken voice
“I was so scared…I didn’t like it I tried so hard to be pleased for you and Chris to see you happy should have made me satisfied but it didn’t cause I wasn’t there…”
“Cause you seemed comfortable and at home without me and I didn’t like it Eddie I wanted to be there so bad”
“I’m sorr-“
“Shh, baby I understand I didn’t like you not being there either…I guess they were right were co-dependent and I don’t mind I want you with me all the time”
“I fucking hate when your not with me Mi Vida” I backed up and Buck’s face was red, I quickly wiped his tears and he smiled at me
“Also Tommy isn’t fucking aloud in the house ever again or near you or Maddie or I’ll fucking kill him your mine and we’re over this going around stuff”
“You hear me Evan Buckley you’re mine…that’s final.”
Buck just did a un-impressed look and rolled his eyes before he pecked Eddie on the lips and said
“I broke up with him last night no need to threaten him okay I’m yours..”
“Also what did he do to-“
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Eddie couldn’t hold back after Buck said that he was his so he rushed him and kissed him rough
It was definitely more passionate then their first kiss there small peck, Buck melted into it and let Eddie take the lead, Eddie licked into his mouth tasting the coffee and breakfast Buck had and moaned when he tasted Buck
Buck felt Eddie’s hands tug at his short blonde hair and leaned back moaning at the fact that he yanked it so rough and Eddie started kissing down his jaw to his throat and started to suck making Buck whine
“Eddie..” He said into the air, Eddie pushed a leg between Buck’s rubbing up into his pants “E-Ed?…oh fuck!” Buck mumbled as Buck heard the door start opening and a loud “Evan Buckley you have some serious explaining to do!” It was Athena’s voice
“Ed? Oh fuck stop!” He pushed Eddie back and Eddie’s face was shocked and worried
“Did I?” Buck quickly yelled “No Athena!” And at the exact moment she walked in and looked at them
“Eddie!? Buck?” She just stared at them both shocked and then just walked up to them hugging Buck and then quickly pulled Eddie into it
“Thank lord you’re both home…”
Eddie and Buck smiled over Athena’s shoulders and said at the same time
“Good cause it’s great to be home..”