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The cane struck the floor rhythmically, a steady percussion against the silence of Princeton-Plainsboro's dimly lit corridors. House walked with his usual sharp, uneven gait, every step a reminder of the pain he carried. Not just the stabbing ache in his leg, but the other pain—the quiet, consuming kind he never talked about. He didn't have to. Pain, after all, was familiar. Predictable.
The elevator doors slid open, and he stepped in, leaning back against the wall with a grimace that wasn’t quite a frown but wasn’t far from one either. He hated elevators almost as much as stairs. Too slow, too crowded. But tonight, it was empty, just him and his thoughts.
He glanced at his watch. Midnight. Most of the hospital was asleep, or at least pretending to be. His team had gone home hours ago, leaving the whiteboard untouched down and the latest medical mystery unsolved. He hadn’t sent them away out of kindness, of course. He’d sent them away because he wanted to be alone—needed to be.
The ibuprofen bottle rattled in his pocket like a taunt. He pulled it out, shaking two pills into his palm and swallowing them dry. His throat clenched, and for a moment, he considered adding a third. It wouldn't fix anything, but it might dull the edge. And wasn’t that enough?
The elevator dinged, and the doors opened. He stepped into his office, his sanctuary and prison rolled into one. He dropped into his chair, feet propped on the desk, his cane leaning precariously against the side.
Pain had always been there, an unwelcome guest that refused to leave. It had stripped him down over the years, carving its name into his body and soul. But pain didn’t bother him, not really. It was the silence that got to him—the way it lingered, stretching into the early hours of the morning when everyone else had retreated to their lives.
He stared at the whiteboard, the patient’s symptoms glaring back at him like an accusation. Something was missing. He could feel it, an itch at the back of his brain, but the answer wouldn’t come. Not yet.
He drummed his fingers on the desk, his gaze shifting to the window. The night stretched endlessly outside, dark and unyielding. It was easier this way, he thought. Easier to keep the world at arm’s length. Easier to bury himself in puzzles and diagnoses, things he could control.
And yet, deep down, House knew the truth he’d never admit to anyone. Not Wilson, not Cuddy, not even himself.
Pain was the only thing he could trust.