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Sitting alone at the end of time is extremely tiring and I can feel my body's atrophy every day that passes by but I can still hear them, my friends at the end of time. I wish I was there to see everything seeing, mobius trying, sylvie happy, verity helping, O.B and Ceasey tinkering but listening to their lives is like music to me.
A symphony of emotions through the days to the nights.
I Sometimes wish I could see them and they could see me too and we could talk or eat desserts or talk about o.b confusing explanations to his bluntness or ceasey being oblivious, it used to mess with my patience during those centuries when I was trying to help but looking back at it now, I can't help but laugh or cry at the memory.
I can hear my laugh echo through the void and the timelines swaying left and right, it's so loud sometimes and there's an off chance, i could tune them out but it's hard especially on those bad days where all I remember is him, that man, i,m still afraid that he might came back and take everything.i don't know what I'll do if that happens again but i think we're safe for now atleast. Sylvie moved somewhere else after that, she quit her job and told her friends that she's moving away, wanted to see the whole world.
she's a good liar.
Mobius found a little spot somewhere that had beaches and of course, jetskis………typical.
Seeing Him drinking, no surprises there but the surprise was him actually trying to be human, trying other foods, desserts, reconnecting with others, what a liar but some nights I could hear his thoughts especially when he's drunk, i wish could respond to those questions or have the answers you want mobius but I don't nor am I there. I wish could tell you i,m sorry for leaving you, my friend.
It gets lonely and quiet, too quiet so i often talk to myself until i grow tired or annoyed with my own voice or questions, sylvie, mobius and thor would throw a laugh riot with that. The god of stories tired of talking. I haven't thought about thor in a while, i do sometimes check on him, he has a adopted daughter now, jane foster became a lady thor, was consumed due to her illness and a valkyre is king now, i thought the the valkyre were all dead. The weirdest part was I have never seen thor be that needy, well that's not true but the need was coming from the fact that thor had no one anymore, mother, father, me, even hemidall was gone so kinda makes sense that he overreacted at the simplest things but I was happy when he found someone to take care of but she's gonna be handfull as all kids are.
Other than that, life goes on and on until the time is up but I wonder what happens when i die, will all of this go away or will it happen again and again forever. I have to be honest, I hope it's the first option. I don't regret my decision at all but it's so quiet and loud, it's horrible especially on the day where I can't stand it anymore and I start screaming out of pure sadness or frustration.
I wonder if I'll go to vallhalla , I don't think i will with all that done to asgard, to earth but it is a nice thought from Time to time.
I miss food and drinks, I miss literally anything that keeps me distracted from all this, hearing their lives and voices helps and gives me sense of comfort and happiness, sadness but it's so loud sometimes.
I try not think so much anymore.
It's hard to breathe or move but life goes on and on.
Without me.