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Seulgi was staring at Jaeyi, wide-eyed and cheeks darkened.
Her eyes followed Jaeyi’s hands undoing the buttons of her own shirt then flickered from her nonchalant expression and the unveiling of what lies behind her uniform.
Jaeyi stared back at Seulgi, trying to read her expression. Her heart clenched at the way Seulgi was reacting to her undressing. The way Seulgi’s breathing was skipping, uneven. Her pupils were blown, her lips slightly parted; unbeknownst lust brewing behind her eyes.
Then all too soon: Seulgi, realizing her staring, broke eye contact, quickly prying her eyes away from Jaeyi’s unbuttoned chest.
Abruptly, she stood, mumbling something about needing to go to the bathroom and grabbed her pajamas on the way out.
Jaeyi sighed, continuing to change alone at a hastier pace. The sun was already going down, casting shadows across the room. Jaeyi sat there on the edge of her bed, her blue comforter dipping around her as she let herself drop onto her back, staring at the ceiling.
They stayed up longer than Jaeyi anticipated—not only were people not out and about, they probably were past the point of studying, too. It was nighttime, the day was over.
Jaeyi closed her eyes, thinking about the other girl. Her small frame against her chest. Her dimples, how they’re hidden most of the time, but appear when she’s eating a sweet snack from a street vendor. She smiled to herself remembering how she wiped the crumbs off her lips at their school fair.
She rolled onto her side to grab her phone. Scrolling through pictures, she finally found it:
In the picture, Seulgi held up her cotton candy smiling with her dimples out, small strings of sugar of her lips. So cute, Jaeyi thought. She smiled at the memory, changing her lock screen to the picture of the girl so she could look at her face all the time.
Meanwhile, Seulgi was splashing water on her heated face, elbows propping herself against the bathroom sink. She could feel her heartbeat leaving her chest.
It wouldn't be the first time Jaeyi and her shared an intimate moment. From holding hands, to being tangled into each other's arms, she wondered what it all meant. She didn’t exactly grow up to be the most popular person—in fact Jaeyi might be the first real friend she’s had. Of course she’d grown quite close to the other girl’s at the elementary school, but the comradery was primarily built out of survival.
Jaeyi was the first person that genuinely showed interest in her with no string attached. Sometimes she wondered if her kindness was just a means of getting something out of her, which was confusing because it wasn’t like she had much to offer anyways. She didn’t have money, or connections in high places. She was the top student in her previous highschool, but what merit was that when adderall was holding her hand every step of the way. Even after Jaeyi found out about her substance use, she still continued to help her—even supplying her with a prescription and cram school materials to ensure she could focus and pass her exams.
Even though Jaeyi’s interest in her didn’t make complete sense, she eventually got over her suspicions. But she had a new problem.
To put it mildly, Seulgi thinks about Jaeyi a lot. She catches herself staring at the other girl too often. Whether it's class, or across the cafeteria, it's almost like her eyes have a magnetic pull to the girl. And while she would never admit it, she finds thoughts of Jaeyi and herself even while she’s asleep.
It all started with that dream of them in the bathtub. Tangled in soap, suds, and skin. Jaeyi straddling and kissing her without leaving room for them to breathe, hands softly gripping her neck and waist. An imaginary memory that sent shudders up her neck.
But nevertheless, it was just a dream. Which could mean nothing.
Except it didn’t. Not at all, if you account for all the lewd thoughts protruding and manifesting her mind, because the dreams never stopped.
It made Seulgi guilty for saying yes to a second sleepover. Here she was, agreeing to sleep next to the girl she’s been having wet dreams about for months. But they’re friends, two good friends. This is what friends do right?
Sighing, she pressed her dripping face to a towel then hung it before changing into her sleep clothes. She opened the door, releasing the sound of soft music in the air and revealing the other girl lying on her stomach with her feet in the air smiling at her phone.
“Jaeyi-ah,” she called out.
Jaeyi looked up at her, eyes scanning up and down.
“You look cute,” she says.
Seulgi blinks a few times, before whispering a thanks.
Jaeyi sits up, motioning her to come sit next to her. Seulgi plops on the bed and faces her sitting criss-cross, staring expectantly. Her eyebrows scrunch, and she tilts her head in confusion. “Are you listening to Lucid Fall?”
Jaeyi laughs softly, “I thought I should start listening to them for real since they’re your favorite band,” Her head turns towards the old picture frame of her sister and herself on her dresser. “It reminds me of my sister too.”
Watching Jaeyi’s solemn expression, Seulgi reached out holding her hands in between her own.
The older girl was still missing. She wasn’t at the police station and she wasn’t answering any calls. It wasn’t out of the ordinary that Yena was disappearing, hell she’d been gone for months, but to disappear after Jaeyi had set her up in the drug arrest? Jaeyi couldn’t help but feel like something terrible had happened to her.
Jaeyi looked down at their intertwining hands, and smiled softly. “Enough of this, let's play a game: twenty one questions.”
Seulgi raised an eyebrow. “What more don’t you know about me?” she said amused. It was no longer a secret that Jaeyi already knew a lot about her after she went through the girl’s phone and found pictures of all her own documents.
Jaeyi rolled her eyes, leaning back on her palms. “I might know your birthday and your mother’s maiden name, but I don’t really know you. I wanna know about your favorite color, your first kiss-”
Seulgi snorted, cutting her off.
Jaeyi furrowed her eyebrows confused. “What’s so funny?”
Seulgi looks at her amused. “You’re gonna be disappointed if that's all you have to ask me.”
Jaeyi frowns. “Well, did you want to make the questions?”
Seulgi hums, lips pursing together while she thinks. “It’s not that, it’s just I don’t have much more to tell about myself: I don’t really have a favorite color, never really thought or cared too much about it, and I’ve never kissed anyone, so sorry, but that’s the boring truth.”
Jaeyi stares at her confused. “You haven’t had your first kiss? Why not?”
“Well nobody’s really in line to kiss the dirty orphan girl that lives in an elementary school with nuns.” Seulgi replied flatly, almost bewildered that the girl would be confused over such a non-trivial answer.
“Do you want to have your first kiss?” Jaeyi asks. Her eyes flickering down to Seulgi’s lips before reading her expression.
Seulgi’s cheeks were flushed again, eyes wide and darkened– thoughts flashing back to her dreams. Without anything to clutch, she places her hands over her thighs to grip at the fabric of her pants, palms sweating at the question.
Oh, I don’t really care about that stuff, she thought of saying to dodge the question—because she couldn’t possibly admit that she actually wanted this—but instead she opened her mouth and squeaked out “With you?” Her heart acted before her brain it seemed, because this might just be the craziest thing she’s ever said. She imagined herself explaining that she has no interest in trivial things like love or sex, but to be frank, ever since she met Jaeyi, it seems to be something that consumes her mind. But instead of laughing it off as a joke or changing the subject she ends up babbling: “I wouldn’t mind kissing you.”
It seems her heart has taken all control over her mouth.
Jaeyi stares back at Seulgi with an unreadable expression. “Okay, let’s do it.”
Seulgi gulps at Jaeyi’s calm demeanor. She can’t possibly be this calm about this, Seulgi thinks. Anxiety swims in her throat, but before she can voice her concerns, Jaeyi crawls over to her, moving closer.
“You look cute when you're nervous,” Jaeyi says, pushing Seulgi’s hair behind her ear. “Just relax.”
Jaeyi reaches behind her neck, pulling her closer to fill the gap. Their lips press together softly, patient and slow.
Seulgi had dreamt about kissing Jaeyi often. They’d be studying on the floor in Jaeyi’s room: Jaeyi kissing her for every right answer she got on their practice exam. She’d be scribbling furiously at the paper, trying to finish as soon as possible, while Jaeyi sits behind her holding her waist, nipping and licking at her ear telling her to finish faster. She’d turn around sliding her fingers into Jaeyi’s long, dark hair begging her to give her more.
Sometimes, Seulgi imagined herself on top of Jaeyi, straddling her thighs. She imagined herself grinding on the taller girl’s thigh while she littered her neck with bruised kisses. Though the dreams were intense, they never went past more than kissing. She was never interested in sex or dating so she never watched porn to satisfy her desires, and being raised by nun’s meant she wasn’t exposed to anything that left much to desire. Not until meeting Jaeyi at least.
Jaeyi is the first one to pull back from the kiss, and Seulgi lets go of a breath she didn’t know she was holding.
Jaeyi smiles, staring at the girl’s lips, then eyes. “Was that okay?”
“G-good, really good” Seulgi replies breathlessly.
Jaeyi leans in again, head tilting slightly as she opens her lips. Of all the lips and boys she’s kissed, none of them were nearly as good as Seulgi. Her lips were plump and soft, tasting sweet like candy. Without much thought, she licked Seulgi’s bottom lip, trying to open her up to get more access.
A soft moan escaped Seulgi’s lips, and a faint warm heartbeat started to grow between her legs as Jaeyi’s tongue licked into her mouth, searching for her tongue. Jaeyi hummed as she found the other girl’s tongue, sucking on it, deepening the kiss.
The room became warmer, rising in heat along with the building tension between the two girls. Jaeyi pulled Seulgi on top of her, her back against the headboard while Seulgi sat on her hips. Seulgi towered over the girl, fingers gripping into the darkness of her hair as she shifted, intertwining their thighs.
“Jae…” she moaned above her head, holding it as Jaeyi started to lick and suck down her neck.
“Is this okay?” Jaeyi asked, pressing open mouth kisses across her collarbone.
Seulgi could only moan in response, grinding down into the girl’s thigh. If she was stronger she would collect herself instead of rubbing against her like a dog in heat, but she only grew weaker. “Are we having sex?” Seulgi managed to squeak out.
Jaeyi halted her movements, looking up at her and letting out a soft laugh. “We can do anything you want.”
Seulgi looked down at her, then pulled her closer, uniting their lips. “Jaeyi-ah please touch me.” she said desperately, gripping her tightly.