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It's mid-afternoon on a relatively warm day in the wilderness. Most of the girls are taking a swim in the lake or resting. Shauna only likes to write in her journal when she knows no one else is around. She wants to feel like her thoughts are hers and hers alone. She's perched on one of the windowsills, keeping an eye out for anyone that could come back to the cabin as that would be her cue to stop writing and put her journal away. She thinks most people feel this way about their diaries. However, what Shauna is writing in there is a tad more explicit than most people’s diaries.
"The boredom of being stranded in the wilderness is one thing no one should have to endure." Shauna starts her journal entry with a newfound hatred of her current situation. "As miraculous as it was to survive that plane crash, I sometimes wish it had taken me. An early death sounds way better than this torture." As she continues her rant, Jackie is waking up from a nap she had been taking in the attic. As she's trying to shake off the grogginess, she hears a snapping sound and then an abrupt "Fuck! Again?". She realizes Shauna's downstairs, but the thing is, Shauna would have never even touched her journal if she knew Jackie was in the cabin. It’s one thing if Tai, Van, or hell even Misty found her journal, but it’s a whole other thing for Jackie to stumble upon it. Jackie’s noticed that Shauna has been acting strange lately, almost as if she were suddenly uncomfortable to be around her. Jackie chalked it up to pregnancy hormones and has been trying to brush it off. She slowly walks over the ladder connecting the attic to the main floor, listening out to try and figure out what that noise was. She hears some rustling, as if a bookbag were being opened. Shauna grabs a new pencil as the one she had somehow managed to snap in half. It must have been from her hatred of her boredom translating into how hard she was holding it. “Thank goodness we have like 20 of these.” She says to herself. Jackie realizes that Shauna must be writing. She thought she had seen what looked like a journal lying around her stuff the other day but didn’t
give it much of a second thought.
“Shauna Shipman writing down her feelings? That’s new.” Jackie thinks to herself. A spark of curiosity jumps through her. She’s not sure if it’s her own boredom taking over or if she genuinely wants to know what’s going through Shauna’s mind. Taking a peak couldn’t hurt, right? Jackie makes a plan to herself to get her hands on that journal. Her excitement is taking over any rational thoughts of respecting her best friend’s privacy. She waits about 10 minutes purely just listening to any cues of Shauna leaving to head down there and grab it. It wasn’t until about 40 minutes later that Jackie heard the cabin door slam and silence follow.
She quickly scurried down the ladder and did a quick scan of the cabin floor. It dawned on her that she’ll really have to search for this thing. As she’s rushing around the cabin, worrying about someone coming in during her hunt, she steps on a piece of the floor and her foot nearly slips through. She looks down and smirks. “Oh Shipman, sometimes you’re too easy,” she says proudly. A few weeks prior, when Shauna had been looking for a place to hide her journal, she had noticed that some pieces of the floorboard weren’t nailed down like the rest of them. She figured this would be a simple hiding spot, as to what psycho would go in search of a diary underneath the cabin floor? However, Shauna had forgotten a crucial step to her hiding process; to move the piece of wood completely back so it’s flush with the rest of the pieces. It was a few inches off than it should’ve been, causing the forefront of Jackie’s foot to come through. In a swift motion, she bends down, grabs the journal, then places the floor board so that it’s perfectly aligned with the other pieces.
“Now, time for some light reading!” Jackie says in a smug tone. She flips to the last entry, curious about what Shauna has just added. Jackie’s eyes widen and her face grows hot as she realizes what she's reading. She quickly puts the journal down, feeling immediate regret for snooping. She had really only read about one sentence to understand why her journal had a hiding spot. She contemplates continuing reading but she’s invested too much effort into this to stop now. She slowly picks the journal back up and continues to read aloud in a low whisper, as if saying the words out loud will somehow make them less shocking.
“I’ve thought about undressing her. Putting my lips on her lips, her neck, her breasts.” Shauna writes. Jackie’s heart starts beating faster. The passage continues, “I picture her beautiful body responding to my touch and I grow hot. The thought of having her underneath me and hearing her moan as I’m inside her nearly brings me to the edge. To taste her would be heaven. I need her. I need to fuck her. And I need her to like it. No, not just like it. I need her to crave it. I need her to want me like I want her. Writing about it only satisfies me so much.” Jackie stops reading. She flips through the other pages to see if there’s anything else like this. As she’s sifting through the pages, she comes across drawings of herself naked. She begins to blush. She finds another drawing of herself sprawled out, as Shauna’s head is in between her thighs and Jackie’s hands are gripping her hair. She flips through it more and finds other passages of passionate confession. She’s caught off guard by how much she’s enjoying this. But truth be told, Jackie is more than enjoying it. She’s indulging in it. She knows she shouldn’t keep reading but her body is taking over. Every time she flips a page she feels increasingly guilty but each page offers a new sense of pleasure in a way Jackie didn’t know she could feel. Jackie begins to panic…does she feel this way because she loves being worshipped or is she getting turned on by the thought of her best friend fucking her?
She brushes this thought away and continues to read as her eagerness to see what else Shauna’s hiding takes over. She knows that she loves being the center of attention and there’s nothing between her and her best friend. But her mind starts to wander to places she never thought it would and before she knows it, Jackie begins unlocking some deep feelings she hadn’t even realized that she had hidden away.