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I had no idea why Adam’s Brother was calling me, but my heart literally stopped in my chest as I hit the talk button on my phone and placed it against my ear. “Kris…are you there?” I heard Neil ask as I swallowed nervously before speaking.
I’m here” I rushed out, swallowing hard again as a feeling of dread washed over me.
“Kris…you need to come home now” Neil yelled, setting my nerves on edge even more at the desperation I could hear in his voice.
“He kicked me out Neil…remember? He told me that he didn’t want to be in a relationship with me anymore and…”
“He’s pregnant” Neil cut me off before I could finish reminding him of all the hateful things Adam had said to me.
“What?” I asked, feeling light headed as the world around me began to spin, falling into a nearby chair as I tried to remember how to breathe.
“He’s pregnant” Neil repeated, causing me to forget how to breathe altogether as the world around me began to grow fuzzy. “Fucking Christ Kris…are you listening to me? Adam…the man that you love and wanted to start a family with is pregnant with your child and he’s considering terminating the pregnancy. So…I need you to get your hick ass on a plane and get back here and be the perfectly sickening family that I know you can be together”
“He doesn’t want to start a family…he broke up with me because I did” I replied, recalling the night that Adam Lambert, the man that I’d loved from the first moment I laid eyes on him devastated my heart when he told me that he never wanted to start a family with me, ever. We had been arguing about it for months before hand but that particular night we were both drunk and the arguing turned hateful and heated as I laid an ultimatum before him, start a family with me or maybe we needed to consider breaking up. I was drunk and angry and wouldn’t have ever gone through with that ultimatum, but Adam took it to heart and ended our three year relationship right then and there.
“Look Kris…normally I wouldn’t get involved with my brother and his love life but this isn’t about you or him, this is about an unborn baby that may not live to see his first birthday because my brother is a fucking self-centered asshole” Neil replied with nothing but panic in his voice. “This is your baby too and I know there is nothing that you want more than to bring a child into this world”
He was right but all I kept thinking was how I was going to convince Adam that this baby we had created together was a blessing and not a curse. “I’ll be on the next plane to L.A.” I told him as I raced across the room towards my lap top in order to book that flight. “Please Neil…don’t let him do anything until I get there” I begged as I starting looking for the earliest flight I could get out of Arkansas. “I’ll text you the information once I book my flight” I ended the call, opting to call the airport and book my flight instead because my eyes were so full of tears that I couldn’t read anything on the screen in front of me.
“Does he know that I’m here?” I asked Neil eight hours later after he picked me up from the airport.
“Oh yeah…he knows you’re here” Neil replied with a grim look on his face. “The fucker heard me talking on the phone with you and I’ve been paying for it ever since.
“I’m sorry Neil” I sighed in exhaustion because he looked just as exhausted as I felt. “I’ve booked a room at the…”
“Oh you are not staying in a hotel Kristopher” He cut me off, shooting a glare my way before focusing back on the road ahead of him. “I’ve already made it clear to him that you are staying at the house and that’s final”
“How did you do that?” I asked because I knew how ugly it could get when the two brother’s didn’t agree.
“I punched some sense into him” He replied with a smug smile on his face.
“You punched a pregnant man?” I questioned, not sure how to feel about that.
“It was only a light punch and it was in the face” He declared, glaring at me again. “Besides he deserved it. He’s so lucky he’s pregnant because the fucker deserves so much more for putting us through this shit” He grumbled, his hands tightening on the steering wheel. “You do know that I’m on your side for this right?”
“I know and I appreciate it” I replied, leaning my forehead against the glass of the door because I didn’t want him to see how tearful his words made me. I must have dozed off because when I woke up we were parked in front of the house Adam and I used to share and Neil was shaking me awake. “I don’t know what I’m going to say once I get in there” I whispered, my throat tight and heavy from not only the fear of what was about to happen but also the pain that had been lodged there since I had left our home nearly four months earlier.
“Well I’m all about slapping him around a little bit but I know that’s not how you roll…so just talk to him” Neil said as we climbed out of the car. “He’s been a miserable wreck since you left so don’t let him let you think otherwise. I love my brother but as you know he’s usually so focused on his career that nothing else matters. You just need to show him that adding a child to the mix isn’t going to end the fabulous Adam Lambert’s life but that it’s going to add to it” It was great advice I thought as Neil hugged me quickly before handing me the bag I had brought with me. “Look…you know that I hate sappy shit and I hate that I even have to say this but out of all the idiots that my brother has been with since he started dating…you are the only one that I ever approved of. You never let him get too full of himself and call him on his bullshit when it starts to get out of hand, but the main reason I approve of you is because there is no doubt in my mind whatsoever that you love him”
“I do love him” I assured, dropping my bag to the ground before I pulled Neil in for a real hug. “I love you too you know…just like a brother” I whispered against his ear, chuckling a little as he pushed me away as he wiped at the tears in his eyes.
“Ditto…” He replied quickly before getting into his car and screeching away.
I didn’t know what to expect as I entered my former home, placing my bag in the hallway before entering the living room. Adam was nowhere to be found as I searched the rest of the house, too afraid to call yell out his name for fear of starting out on an already bad note. I felt defeated and alone as I walked out into the backyard, my favorite part of the house and found him sitting on a lounger staring up at the sky. “Well I guess you got what you wanted” He broke the silence, alerting me to the fact that he knew I was there.
“I never wanted this Adam” I replied softly, standing behind him on the patio because I was still too afraid to do much of anything that might insight another fight like the last one we had had.
“Of course you did” He replied heatedly as he slung his legs over the side of the lounger and glared at me. “You’ve wanted to get me pregnant for so long and you’ve finally got your wish”
“I won’t deny that I wanted to have a child with you Adam because there was nothing more in this world that I wanted then that but I never wanted it this way. I never wanted to find out from your brother that you were pregnant and considering terminating the pregnancy” I couldn’t speak anymore, too exhausted to stand any longer as I sat on the lounger across from him and buried my face in my hands. “Please Adam…I know that you don’t love me anymore…that you might even hate me but please don’t end the life of our baby because of it” I just lost it after that, my face still hidden in my hands as I began to sob uncontrollably. I cried over the loss of the relationship I had shared with Adam prior to that night, I cried over the broken heart I’d been living with since, but most of all I cried out of pure fear that Adam might ignore my pleas and end the life of the baby that I already loved with my entire heart and soul. “Please…I beg of you” I sobbed even harder when I felt Adam sit down beside me and pull me into his arms.
“I’m so sorry Kris” I heard him whisper wetly against my ear as he held me tightly. “I’m so sorry for everything” “I would never do it you know…terminate the pregnancy” He spoke after the two of us had pretty much cried ourselves out, still clinging to each other as if for dear life. “I was just so angry and confused and Neil wouldn’t stop giving me shit for letting you go that I just blurted it out. I’ve seen a lot of looks from Neil in my lifetime but I’d never seen the look of pure disgust on his face before and yet as horrified as I was that I was the reason it was there I refused to take it back. He called me every name in the book and threatened to disown me if I ever said that to him again. I knew he was going to call you and as much as I knew it should have been me making that call and letting you know I took the coward’s way out. I’ve been so miserable without you Kris” He started crying all over again, crushing me so tightly against his body that I couldn’t breathe and yet I prayed that he never let go. “I know that we have a lot to talk about but I’m so exhausted Kris. Can we please just go to sleep and talk about everything in the morning?” He begged as he gazed at me through exhausted eyes.
I knew we had so much to talk about and so much bullshit to wade through before we should even consider sleeping in the same bed again but the fact of that matter was that when it came to Adam and he needs I could deny him nothing. “Yeah…” I replied tiredly, taking his hand and leading him back into the house. No words were spoken as I left him in the bedroom we used to share in order to get my bag, Still no words were spoken as we prepared for bed, my heart constricting in my chest at just how much I missed my former life and the man I was about to share a bed with.
“Will you just hold me?” He asked like a frightened child once I slid under the covers next to him and again I couldn’t deny him anything as I allowed him to situate himself next to me before wrapping my arms around him and holding him close. “I love you” I heard him whisper softly and I wasn’t sure it he even realized he said it because not two seconds later he was breathing warm air across my naked chest, his snores wafting in a familiar tone around us.
When I woke up the next morning he was lying on his back, his hand splayed across his still flat belly and looking so angelic that it took my breath away. My heart clenched within my chest at just how much I loved that man and how much those months apart had taken a toll on me. Since leaving our home I had been a lonely and miserable mess. I wanted nothing to do with anyone as I locked myself within the home I rented in Conway and resigned myself to a life of solitude and loneliness. Reaching out placed my hand gently on top of Adam’s lying my head on my arm as I tried to think about how my life was going to change now that I was going to be a father and if Adam was going to be a part of that life or not. “Can you ever forgive me?” I heard him whisper as I looked up and found him looking at our joined hands with tears in his eyes.
“Only if you can forgive me for being so stubborn and then running away when I didn’t get the answer I wanted” I replied as I pulled myself upright and sat indian style on the bed before him.
“I kind of didn’t give you a chance” He replied as he sat up as well. “I was scared and angry and so I pushed you away”
“I could have fought you but I was hurt and angry and so confused because I couldn’t understand why you claimed to love me and wanted to spend the rest of your life with me and yet you didn’t want to start a family with me” I said, deciding to be truthful as well.
“I knew it was going to change everything about my life…about our life and I wasn’t ready for that” He whispered, his chin tucked into his chest as he stared at the hands in his lap. “I’m selfish Kris…you know this and I knew if we had a baby then I’d have to make changes and sacrifices that I wasn’t willing to make. I love my life. I love making music and touring. I love being able to do whatever I want whenever I want. I love my body Kris…I’ve worked hard for this body” He rushed out, running his hand down his chest before lying them in his lap once again. “I know it sounds vain but I don’t want to lose this body”
“I love that body too” I replied with a small smile as I reached forward and laid my hand on Adam’s flat stomach. “But having a baby doesn’t mean that you can’t have your beautiful body back…and it really is beautiful” I teased playfully. “Actor’s and models have babies all the time and you can’t even tell afterwards. But you have to know that even if you didn’t get your body back…and that’s a huge if” I rushed out when Adam looked over at me through wide eyes. “But if you didn’t it wouldn’t matter to me because I love you” I assured as I laid my hand over his heart. “And I really mean that” I choked out, tears slipping down my face because it had hit me once again just how much I had missed Adam during our separation.
“I love you too” He cried out, tears blazing down his own cheeks as he reached out and cupped the back of my head, leaning forward and crushing my lips under his own. The kiss felt and tasted like heaven as our lips moved together soft and slowly at first until the need for more consumed us and then it turned explosive. I could hardly breathe as he continued to kiss me in a way that he’d never kissed me before and I never wanted it to end as I pushed him backwards and took control. “Make love to me Kris” I heard him cry out, panting loudly, his body arching up against me as if he couldn’t touch me enough. “Please…please just make love to me” He cried out again and the aggressor in me couldn’t wait to comply as I pinned his arms over his head and shifted my body until I was lying directly on top of him.
“Don’t you move those” I growled as I tapped his wrist, licking and nipping hungrily as his neck. “Good boy” I smiled against the same neck when he grabbed onto the underside of the headboard and held on. I took my time as I removed his pajama bottoms with my hands and body until they were pooled at the bottom of the bed. “Such a beautiful body” I murmured as I kissed my way across his shoulder, sitting up while I straddled his hips. “So beautiful” I began to pant as I shifted my hips up and back again across his hardening cock, my hands exploring his heaving chest.
“God Kris…get rid of the fucking pants and fuck me already” He demanded, sounding hot and greedy and it caused me to smile because I knew how much he loved it when I took control of our love making and how crazy it drove him when I dragged it out. “Please baby…please” His demand turned to begging as he grabbed onto my hips and attempted to remove my sleep pants.
“Put your hands back on that headboard or you’re not going to get what you want” I warned, grabbing his hands and placing them over his head once again, making sure to press my chest against his open mouth. “Yeah…that’s it” I urged him onward when he began to tease my nipple with his teeth and tongue. “Harder…” I cried out because nipple play was a huge kink of mine and I had gone without for far too long. “Yes…more” I demanded, grabbing him by the side of the head and moving him towards the other one. “Harder…” My demands got louder, my lower body rutting against Adam harder and harder with each bite. I could tell he was close to coming at the wetness I felt through my threadbare sleep pants and it made me grin evilly because I had so much control over him. I was ready to come myself but I refused to give in to him because the ultimate goal was to fuck Adam until he couldn’t see straight. Reaching down I took his cock into my hand, aligning it with my own as I pressed them both against his stomach and continued rocking my body back and forth. “When I say come…you come” I panted, taking several deeps breaths in order to keep my hard on and not blow it too soon. “Come!” I demanded, giving his cock as hard squeeze. He didn’t disappoint as he arched up hard into my grip crying out loudly as he spilled his seed between us
“God Kris…I missed this” He ground our wildly, gasping for breath. “Missed you”
“It’s not over yet baby” I said, smearing the clearish liquid into the skin of his stomach before shifting down enough that I could lick it off of him. Once I had cleaned it all up I quickly removed my own pants, reaching for the lube we usually kept in the drawer of the nightstand. “Lube?” I questioned when I found the drawer empty, wondering briefly if Adam had used it on someone else after we’d split up.
“I didn’t’ think I’d need it anymore when you left so I threw it away” He replied with a blush to his cheeks, yet such sadness in his eyes.
“I love you so much” I rushed out, pressing my body against his once again as I kissed him with all the love that I felt in my heart. As I kissed him my lower region seemed to have a mind of its own as it humped at him in a crazed motion until there was come between us once again. “We have got to remedy that really, really soon” I panted, stealing another kiss before I slid off to his side, my leg still plastered against his thigh. The rest of the day was spent talking about all of the things that had brought us there in the first place. There were tears and angered words but in the end none of that mattered as we declared our love and devotion to each other and the child we were going to be bringing into the world.
“What do you mean you’re pregnant?” Brad cried out as we sat in the living room of our home a few weeks later, all of our close friends surrounding us. “Just a few months ago you were telling me that you never wanted to have a baby and now you’re pregnant. How the fuck did that happen?” I watched as Adam flinched at his words, looking over at me for a second before finding fascination with the floor because as much as we had talked in those weeks since I’d come home, that subject was still a little sore for both of us. I could feel the heat of Brad’s glare on me but I ignored him as I focused on refilling everyone’s drinks. “But you’ve been bitching about having a kid for as long as you’ve been together so I guess you got what you wanted regardless of what Adam wanted. This is all your fault little man isn’t it? I blame you totally for this because you’ve been trying to ruin Adam’s career since he decided to take pity of your sorry ass and fall in love with you. It’s just a matter of time before he comes to his senses and realizes what you did to him and kicks your ass back out of here”
“Shut the fuck up toothpick” I heard Tommy growl at him, causing me to laugh despite Brad’s hurtful words because there really wasn’t any love lost between the two of them. “I think their having a baby is a beautiful and amazing thing and I for one can’t wait to meet the little booger” I had to laugh again because there was no doubt that Tommy was a little bit drunk since we had plied them with many drinks before our announcement but I knew that sentiment behind it was real. Adam stayed pretty quiet for the rest of the visit, still quiet after they left and it was really starting to bother me because I knew he was hiding something from me.
“Are you hungry?” I asked as I began to clean up the mess our friends had left, still smarting from Brad’s words and Adam’s silence.
“He’s partly right” He said instead of answering me as I stopped cleaning and looked over at him. “I felt like you wanted to get me pregnant just so you could ruin my career. Well maybe not ruin it but hinder it” I had no words as I continued to stare at him, unsure what to feel as the glass I was holding slipped from my hand and landed on the carpet. I felt as if my legs were ready to give out on me as I fell onto the chair I had been standing by trying to come to terms with what I had just heard.
“Wow…” Was all I could say as I stood up and started walking towards the bedroom so I could change into my swim trunks and go for a swim in the pool to burn of the anger that I was starting to feel.
“Kris…” He called out after me but I ignored him as I quickened my step. “Where are you going?” He asked when I walked back into the living room.
“I just need to be alone right now” I replied as I ran for the backyard.
“Kris…please just listen to me” Adam begged but I ignored him because I was too hurt and too pissed to be in the mindset of listening to anything he had to say in the moment. Ripping off my shirt I dove into the pool intending to swim as many laps as it took for me to burn off all the angry energy consuming me and hopefully clear my head as well. I didn’t know how many laps I swam or how long I had been out there but when I could hardly move my arms any longer I knew it was time to call it quits. I found Adam sitting on the same lounger I had found him on weeks prior to that when I’d come back home after finding out about the baby. He had tears in his eyes as he got up and handed me a towel once I pulled myself out. I ignored him as I dried myself off because despite the fact that I had burned off some of my anger, there was still a part of me that just couldn’t move past what Adam had said to me.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before I looked up at him once again. “I’m ready to listen” I said as I sat down heavily on the other lounger waiting for him to speak, not really sure if I was ready to hear what he had to say but willing to give him the benefit anyway.
He said nothing for the longest time as he sat down yet again, head hung low as he stared at the concrete under his feet. “Everything was so perfect for such a long time and then you started talking about retiring from our music and having babies and I just got scared and started to freak out” He began as I tightened the towel around my shoulders and bit into my bottom lip in order to keep my mouth shut because not once had I ever mentions anything about either of us retiring, cutting back on his touring yes, but retiring no. “It was like once you got the idea in your head that you wanted to have a baby that was all you cared about. It was like it didn’t matter what I wanted or how this was going to affect my career because all that mattered to you was getting what you wanted. You wouldn’t even listen to me when I tried to talk to you about it. You would get angry and call me selfish and then you wouldn’t talk to me afterwards. It hurt to know that you cared more about yourself and this baby that you wanted so badly” I could feel my lips start to pulse as I bit into the soft tissue even harder, determined not to speak a word until he said all that he had to say. “I guess that I knew it was a bad idea to talk to Brad about it but you were hardly speaking to me and I needed to talk to someone. He jumped on the band wagon right away of course because let’s face it the man really doesn’t care for you” It was an understatement since I knew Brad hated me and yet I still said nothing. “Then right before our anniversary you started talking to me and acting like it didn’t matter…like everything was ok again I let my guard down because you seemed to understand where I was coming from and the night of our anniversary was so amazing and perfect, but then you got me drunk and took advantage of me when you fucked me without a condom and now here we are” He said as he laid his hand upon his stomach, his eyes still locked at his feet.
“Are you fucking kidding me right now?” I yelled, feeling so shocked and so hurt by his words once again. “Seriously…you think I got you drunk so I could fuck you without a condom in hopes of getting you pregnant?”
“You’d never fucked me without a condom before that night”
“You seem to forget that I was equally drunk that night Adam” I reminded him as I shot up off of the lounger and began to pace behind it because the urge to punch him was just too great in the instant. “I wanted to have a quiet night at home remember? You…were the one that wanted to go out and celebrate in style” I used air quotes as I glared at the man I thought I knew. “You were the one who started with the bottle of Champaign in the limo and then another once we got to the restaurant. You were the one who kept ordering us drinks when we went to the club afterwards, pouting like a spoiled fucking child when I told you I was at my limit. You were the one that made us open another bottle of Champaign in the limo on the way back home and then brought it to our bed with us afterwards. I may not remember much from that night but I know for a fact that I didn’t set out to get you drunk and then trick you into having sex with me without a condom. I can’t believe that you think I’d do that to you” I could hardly see through the tears in my eyes as I ran into the house because I couldn’t even stand to look at Adam any longer.
I felt as if my heart was broken as I stood under the spray of the shower, leaning against the coolness of the tile as I cried my heart out. I wanted to fight him when he climbed into the shower behind me but instead I found myself plastered against his body when I felt his arms come around me and hold me close. “I’m such a fuck up Kris. I know you didn’t do any of that but I got scared and when the thought crossed my mind I just kind of jumped on it and refused to believe anything else” I said nothing as I clung to him and cried my heart out within his arms. “Will you please talk to me baby?” He said some time later as we lay in bed later that night the silence around us deafening.
“You hurt me so much tonight Adam” I told him, my eyes welling up with tears again.
“I didn’t want too” He replied, looking as if he was ready to cry himself. “I just wanted you to know why I was acting like I was acting before I asked you to leave” I wanted to remind him that he had actually kicked me out but I kept my mouth shut as I tried to figure out how I wanted to respond to any of the things he had said to me earlier that night.
“First off Adam I want you to know that I never asked you to retire” I decided to be truthful about some things and hoped that afterwards we would be able to move on now that we had a child on the way. “I asked that you cut back on your touring because honestly in the three years that we’ve been a couple we’ve never been together living our life for more than a few months at a time. Second…you are one of the most selfish men I have ever met when it comes to your career but I understand it and I’ve never loved you any less for it. I know your career and your fans mean the world to you but after three years of being together just for once I wanted you to put me ahead of everything else. Third…maybe I went about having a child with you all wrong and I should have listened when you tried to talk to me about it but honestly you can’t blame me because you never once took what I had to say seriously. Fourth…I know Brad is your friend and that you know you can confide in him about things, but I’m your partner Adam and you should be confiding in me, even if I don’t want to hear it. Fifth…and most important is that I love you” I whispered as I reached out and touched his face. “I love you so much and I love this baby and I don’t want any lack of trust or hurt hanging over our heads as we raise him or her together. I know you’re scared but so am I, so let’s just be scared together and enjoy this beautiful life that we’ve created and the amazing journey we are about to embark on. Can we do that Adam?” I asked, receiving my answer without words as I gazed into his beautiful eyes and found nothing but love, forgiveness and acceptance staring back at me.
I didn’t know what to expect after our talk that night, but it was more amazing then I could have ever asked for as we made love for hours before falling asleep in each other’s arms. The next morning I woke up to Adam talking on the phone with someone and at first I thought that nothing had changed as I heard mention of another tour, but to my surprise Adam declined the tour as well as let the person on the phone know that he was pregnant and taking an extended amount of time off. I couldn’t hear what the other person was saying but I could hear their raised voice as they yelled at the man that I loved. Once again I expected the worst as I waited for him to give in but instead he stood his ground and repeated his earlier words before ending the call. I felt bad for Adam because the rest of the day was phone call after phone call from managers, record label executives and more, but with each call he stood his ground and refused to back down. I swear in that exact moment of time I felt my love for Adam actually grow even more because for once since we started dating our life was finally going to be about us. “God…they are relentless” He cried out later that evening as he sat in the living room while I made us dinner.
“Come on my poor baby” I giggled as I took his hand and led him towards the dining room table. “I just want you to know that I love you so much for doing this for me” I stopped, before we made it, placing my arms around his neck and kissing him.
“I’m doing this for us” Adam corrected me with a smile as he tossed the phone still in his other hand on the couch when it rang again and then kissed me. His phone continued to ring all through dinner before I got pissed off, shut the damn thing off and then hid it in the back of the silverware drawer in the kitchen. I didn’t even acknowledge Adam when he laughed at me because I was tired of the noise and how it was grating on each of our nerves every time it rang. Our reprieve was short lived though as the next morning Adam’s manager, his assistant and a gaggle of record company personal showed up at our door bright and early and they did not look happy. It was like a circus as each and every one of them tried to talk over Adam or myself when we attempted to speak, the entire room going eerily silent when he made an attempt to quickly get off of the couch we were sitting on, but didn’t make it far before he vomited all over his manager’s high heeled shoes. He looked absolutely mortified as he stood before her with his hand covering his mouth looking as he was ready to cry, the other clutching at his stomach. I lost it after that kicking every single one of them out of our house except for his manager and assistant before ushering Adam into the bathroom.
“Are you ok?” I asked him after I had helped him brush his teeth and change his shirt. I didn’t wait for him to answer as I took his hand and led him into the bedroom. “I want you to rest for a while” I told him as I assisted him onto the bed, knowing that he truly wasn’t feeling well when he didn’t put up any sort of a fight “I’m going to take care of this for us. You just rest” He was already asleep by the time I made it to the door and it increased my determination to deal with the issues his management team felt were more important than our baby.
“I cleaned up the vomit” I heard Adam’s assistant say from the kitchen when I walked past it.
“Thank you” I nodded towards her as I walked into the living room. “I’m sorry about your shoes” I said to his manager as I fell backwards onto the couch that Adam and I had been sharing earlier when we were getting our asses handed to us for most of the day.
“No you’re not and that’s ok because I deserved that and more” She replied with a sigh, looking almost as exhausted as Adam did before I put him to bed. “Is he ok?”
“He’s exhausted” I told her, sitting forward because I knew my afternoon was far from over.
“Adam pregnant…who saw that coming” She said with a smile on her face and to say I was shocked was kind of an understatement. “Don’t worry I’ll take care of the label” She went on. “Do you have any idea how long he plans to take?” She asked and I really had no idea because although Adam had agreed to take some time off during and after his pregnancy we hadn’t really discussed how much time.
“I’m not sure” I replied with a shrug. “I’m hoping that he steps away from it for at least two years but I can’t speak for him”
“Well talk to Adam and then let me know” She said, still smiling. “I don’t even want to think about how much money we’re going to lose while he’s on this break but even I know that some things are more important than money. The label will wait Kris for however long it takes for him to come back so enjoy this time that you’re going to have together because you know we plan to have him make up for lost time once he comes back” She was laughing as she said the words but I had no doubt in my mind once Adam decided to go back to work that they going to do just that. “Have Adam call me in a few days to let me know what he’s decided. I’ll see myself out. Take care of him Kris” She said as she walked over to me and kissed me on the cheek as I stood to greet her.
“I will” I replied as I watched her walk away.
“Thank you so much for cleaning that up” I said to Adam’s assistant when she walked into the living room.
“No problem…you seem to forget I was Adam’s assistant long before you came into the picture and cleaning up vomit was a regular thing for me and worse” She winked as she rushed forward and hugged me. “I’m so happy for the both of you. I just know you are going to be the best parents in the world”
“Thank you” Was all I could say at first because of the lump of tearful happiness in my throat. “I’d like you to continue working for Adam if that's ok?” I asked because no matter how much I knew Adam said he was going to slow down, there was no way that he was just going to drop off the face of the earth altogether and honestly I was ok with that.
“Of course” She replied as she hugged me again. “Just call me when you need me”
And so began our journey into fatherhood…