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being here drove him mad. Everyone told him to try it again, to hop on a new world and check out the update, so he did. Same mod pack, The Broken Script, no shaders, subtitles on, everything people recommended.
the lightbulbs didn’t glow the same as before, duller, sadder. Intimidating if he had to put it into words. But now he was fifty days in and losing his mind.
he didn’t sleep anymore, It pissed off Null when he did. Whenever he nodded off, he thought of Kihec, his best friend, partner in crime, the one he wanted to marry, the one he hadn’t seen since the leave world option disappeared. He momentarily wondered if Kihec looked for him.
Then he snapped back into it when the days and nights switched rapidly again. That meant tonight was gonna be full of the bowling pin idiots and things trying to kill him. That meant blocking off his stairs and jumping up to the roof to hide, as far away as he could get.
he wondered if he was hallucinating or if he had actually just been dreaming, and Kihec was waking him up for coffee and breakfast.
the sound of the fence groaning at the pressure reminded him this was real. He wasn’t home. He was going crazy in a mod that would have been better off deleted.
the whispers were the worst. Hearing Null tell him to Stop when he broke structures, or accidentally walking into another portal and feeling sick as he ran till he was teleported back home. He hated it.
his jokes weren’t the same anymore. By day 70 they were a desperate attempt not to re open the scars on his legs and arms. A wish for Kihec to be there, comforting him through the breakdowns.
it was only getting worse. Slowly losing it more, Getting Careless as he pissed Null off, wishing one of these deaths would send him home.
day Eighty-Five! Fifteen more days then maybe he could leave. Not be here forever. He wished. He prayed to a deity he never believed in. He was an atheist, and here he was, praying like a man who swore himself to religion.
ninety. Ten more days. He changed the settings, made it so he could be banned from the world by the mod. He stopped going home. Constantly in caves, typing phrases in chat that just made Null angrier, breaking the structures, all of it. He wanted to See Kihec again, and maybe if he Pissed Null off enough, he Could.