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The new patient
The hospital smelled like bleach and dying hope.
It clung to the air in thick, metallic strands, so heavy it almost tasted like rust on the tongue. Every surface was cold, washed-out grey. Pale green walls, flickering lights that buzzed like angry insects, floors scuffed and marked with stains that had been there so long no amount of scrubbing could erase them. It wasn’t a place built for healing. It was a place where people were left to rot, tucked away so no one had to look.
Patients shuffled down the hallway like ghosts, eyes glassy, feet dragging. Some muttered to themselves, others stared straight ahead as if daring the world to notice they were still alive. Every few minutes, the loud clang of a door locking or a distant scream being quickly muffled reminded anyone awake that this wasn’t a sanctuary.
It was a holding cell for the broken.
And in one corner of the rec room sat Shadow.
He always took the corner. He needed the wall behind him, needed to feel the solidity of it. Without it, his skin crawled, his pulse raced, a primal instinct screaming that something was coming. He didn’t know what. He didn’t care anymore. He just knew it was there. Always there. Watching.
His chair was scraped and worn, its plastic armrests chewed at the edges by nervous hands long before his time. He sat curled into himself, one leg pulled up against his chest, his eyes sunken and hollow. No one bothered him. The staff didn’t make him talk. They’d given up months ago, when every attempt was met with silence or, on his worse days, a glass-shattering scream from somewhere deep inside him.
He was a statue. He existed. That was all.
The only thing he ever moved were his hands — tracing the old, raised scars on his wrists. Over and over. He didn’t remember making them. He barely remembered anything from before this place. But those jagged, uneven lines were his map. The only proof that once, there had been something to hurt. Now, there was just a dull throb of memory where pain used to be.
Sometimes, in the middle of the night, when the lights dimmed and the howling in the halls faded to a low hum, he’d catch himself pressing his thumb into those marks, trying to feel something. A sting, a burn, a pinch. But it was always the same: nothing. Just skin, old and knotted.
He couldn’t even remember how to cry.
The routine was clockwork. Checkups every two hours. More, if he twitched wrong. Orderlies with pale faces and cold hands placing a hand on his shoulder, checking his pupils, asking pointless questions.
“Shadow? Can you hear me?”
He could. He just didn’t care to respond.
His voice felt locked away somewhere, with the rest of him. A part of him wondered if it even worked anymore.
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It was during one of those silent, static-soaked afternoons that he arrived.
The new one.
The one who didn’t belong.
The kid burst through the double doors in a burst of manic energy, like color spilling onto a black-and-white photograph. Electric blue fur, green eyes too bright, too alive for a place like this. His name tag read Maurice in scrawled, impersonal handwriting. But even before the nurse could finish stapling it on his chest, the hedgehog had crossed it out with a stolen marker, writing Sonic in crooked letters.
And then — as if drawn by some invisible string — those bright, unquiet eyes landed on Shadow.
He didn’t know why, but the stare pinned him. Not in a way that made his skin crawl, not like the doctors or the cameras in the corners of the ceiling. This was different. Curious. Interested. Not pitying. Not afraid.
Shadow’s fingers brushed over his scars again, his body tightening as if bracing for impact. His heart — which he swore had been dead for years — gave a slow, treacherous thud.
He dropped his gaze. He didn’t need this.
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Later, after Sonic had been registered and given the same shapeless grey scrubs, he wandered into the rec room like a storm. Talking to himself, to no one, to everyone. Jittery, restless, a grin stretched too wide.
And he went straight for Shadow.
“Hey. You always sit here?” The voice was warm. Too warm for this frozen place.
Shadow didn’t answer. He didn’t even look up.
Sonic didn’t care. He flopped into the chair beside him, bouncing his leg. “I saw you when I came in, y’know. You kinda have this… cool thing going on. Mysterious, broody, all that.”
Still no answer.
“That’s fine,” Sonic muttered, more to himself now. “I talk enough for both of us.”
And he did. Rambling about nothing. About how the doctors took his markers, about how he wasn’t supposed to have sugar but had stolen three pudding cups during lunch, about how they’d keep replacing his name tag but he’d just keep fixing it.
Shadow let the words wash over him. He didn’t know why he didn’t move. Why he didn’t get up and switch to another corner.
Maybe… maybe it was that small, stubborn part of him that wanted to remember what warmth felt like.
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Night fell fast in the hospital. Lights dimmed to a sickly, yellowish hue. The screaming usually picked up around 10.
Due to ongoing renovations in the East Wing, several patients were temporarily reassigned. Sonic, being new, was placed in the room with Shadow — one of the more stable residents — as a calming influence and to monitor his adjustment.
“Guess we’re stuck together, huh?” Sonic grinned as they were led into the small, two-bed room. One window, barred. White walls, scratches beneath the paint where fingernails had clawed. A mattress that felt like it had been stuffed with broken glass.
Shadow immediately took the bed nearest the corner.
Sonic threw himself onto the other, limbs splaying. The manic grin faded, replaced by something softer, more private. He bit his lip, staring at the ceiling.
Shadow turned away, pretending to sleep.
But he heard it.
The soft, muffled sound of feet kicking against the mattress, the rustling of cheap sheets. Then a low, embarrassed laugh, like Sonic was trying to suffocate his own feelings into the pillow.
“God, he’s so—” Sonic whispered into the fabric, not even realizing he’d said it aloud.
His stomach fluttered, his skin buzzed. He felt like a teenager, hopeless and giddy and fucking desperate. Shadow had this… thing. Not just looks, though he was beautiful in a broken-glass kind of way. It was the way he existed. Like he was already dead and still fighting for something no one else could see.
Sonic buried his face deeper into the pillow. His heart was beating too fast. His thoughts spun.
“I’m so fucked.”
And somewhere, deep in the quiet between their beds, Shadow opened his eyes.