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(Petyr pov)
I been here since 10:30 just sitting out here in my car with a cigar just thinking about the past which i could have had, now the present and future is all gone now my life have no meaning anymore.
Sitting in this Dame expensive car right across the street of the church that i'm suppose to be in, telling my goodbyes too...her the only woman i have ever loved. now you can hear the rain coming down knowing this is the last time she will ever be here on this earth before barring her.
The rain It was raining but it was raining just for her, she love the rain she love the smell of the rain once's when i was a young boy i carried a small empty bottle i filled with wet soil dirt with rain water so she can always have the smell of rain, hoping when she smelled it she think of me.
She love the rain, how it can bring life to nature it self......but nature also take life away especially if it was your love one's. Just thinking about her how i will never see my cat again full of life and joy, i will never hear her laughter or her smart remarks.
I'm so frustrated, Angry to god, that he had taken my life away from me she wasn't suppose to leave on this earth no not this way it wasn't her time, she was suppose to be here with me telling that i was right and she was wrong that she made a mistake that she chose wrong man, the only person that she ever love was me.
GOD DAME YOU CAT..... God Dame Me for still loving you like a fool even until now if god would give me a chance to trade places with you i would do it in a heart beat. No.. i got this all wrong the only person who i should be more angry towards Ned, Ned Fucking Stark, he the one that let her die. He should be the one that in the casket not you, i will never understand why did you choose him, he wasn't good enough for you, he didn't love you, you where force to be with him by your families to make an alliance with the family business, your family sold you like stock not caring to let you to decide for yourself.
When i heard the news that your cancer came back i couldn't believe it, i wont believe it you have beaten this once before Cat you can do it again. i knew, i need to save her , i don't care if i need to give all my wealth up as long it would save her i knew what i was getting in to when i last spoke to Ned.
(flashback)
Entering the building on a mission to find Ned, when i finally got to his office i barley even recognize him, he wasn't the handsome strong Ned Stark that everyone before describe him...no this was a broken, sadden man that look like he haven't slept for a long time. He was surprises to see me here, without care i close the door slowly approaching his desk before he spoke i beat him to it.
I know you have been busy and about take off leave from work for a while just wanted to get to chance to speak with you , he just stared at me like a stupid school boy barley learning how to tie his shoes or learning how to masturbate for the first time, who know but the way he was looking at was pathetic. i know there no time left for her and i know you are running out of options, so i make it short for you Ned, i know Doctor's and Experts treatments, trials that can do the impossible Ned we can save Cat.
He just stared at me for the longest time he slowly got up and took a deep breath in a quit voice he told me to go. he those words i snapped YOU BASTARD! she is dying and yet you are refusing of saving her what kind of man are you letting the mother of your children , your wife , to die.. you don't love her, you are thee.... All i remember my body was against the wall his hands around my neck, i can hear him breathing very fast, i swear i can hear his heart as well. All i can do was to put my hands on his shoulder trying to fight him off. He gave me a deep long cold glare in a deep cold voice .... You don't ever tell me i don't love her, i do anything for her and our children i would give my life for her.
He slowly let his hands down... drop me on the floor i'm trying to catch my breath, when i finally was able to use my voice it was a bit raspy, your letting her go, he pause look at me and tells me yes she has suffer enough already, she is tired of all the medicine, no more doctors and chemo, she just want to live enough to be with her love one's.
I 'm sitting on a cold floor trying to understand what he just said, all i can do was to adjust my sitting position let him hear what i have to say it can't be worst what his brother did to me and yet again he is a Stark all i can do say want i need say . That doesn't sound like Cat that i know of she would have fight until the very end she wouldn't leave her children behind , i am only saying this once NED i am begging you save HER.
Before Ned left the room his last words still taunt me till this day.
You will never understand, i promise her i would do anything she ask from me and she did and i'm just completing her wishes, you see the reason you will never understand in your thick head of yours is because you have know one, know one to love or know one to love you back, and sadly you never will, money, power will never get that type of love and happiness it will only bring you loneliness.... he left the room and left me on the floor filled with rage and haplessness this feelings came back to him, he promise himself he never feel humiliated, never again be defeated by a Stark or to anyone and above all i let him see this side of me DAME HIM!! DAME HIM!!
( END Flashback)
He let her die now that i think of it i do have a motive, a motive that know one will ever expect of me. I'm not going to fight them no i'm going to fuck them that what i know, i'm going to make everyone pay for my suffering all the years now this the time to get even from everyone the Lannister's , the Tully , the Tyrells and especially the Starks they will all pay they will not know what coming there way, Let the chaos begin.
