Chapter Text
Pantheon of Lunacy
(the numbers are the chronological order in which they were written in their respective books, this one's at the start because I like it more than the one that was before.)
Main Book:
4: Heaven without Desire
Heavens number one, most enamouring promise, is the removal of desire. Desire is the source of evil, of sin. Greed, lust, envy, desire, want. Our want causes us to act, most people cannot imagine a life without such an instinct.
In Dante Alighieri’s Divine Comedy, desire, the concept of desire, want, hunger, is placed in a sinful light, with the main promise of heaven, that cleanses a soul of sin, being the removal of desire, of hunger, of want. It seems Dantes image of a heaven, unlike most peoples, is not one with infinite food to quench an unquenchable hunger, but a realm entirely unfathomable by all, where each soul does not seek a thing. Indolence is a sin, and diligence is a virtue, but why remain diligent if we do not want? Are we expected only to work for gods approval for the rest of time? Your hunger is meaningless. Your lust and greed, your desire is meaningless. But this image of “god” that we have fabricated, keep in mind, wishes for us to remain diligent without desire. People cannot even picture this version of heaven or existence as desire is a fundamental part of us, of who we are. It is what keeps us going. Our motive. Our why and reason to keep living. And so this image of heaven is not imaginable, as it changes us fundamentally. Our earthly hungers and desires are arbitrary and meaningless, but who’s to say this gods demands aren’t as well? To submit to sin and live a worthless life of flesh, to be damned to eternal loathing and lamentation. To submit to virtue, to give and create with boundaries you do not understand, to sow and be reaped, as meaningless as the ones who reap, damned to eternal malformed apathy and pride, in “Heaven”. Putrid are the ones who submit to their body and its arbitrary and temporary desires. Only those who submit to dogma, a dogma ultimately made by man, and choose eternal ignorance, a falsely guiltless existence of martyrdom. Can you imagine a more selfish existence? Kill or be killed, create or destroy, there is no difference. Even though this superior image we have made, this guide to life some of us blindly follow and preach, this concept of principle and morality is just as foolish as the humans who live for nothing but their flesh. Try as you may to seek some exterior guide and gospel to your life, such a thing does not, can not exist. Carelessly we follow, ignorantly and blindly we obey, obey the others just as blind, ZyouAwillMneverPseeAnoNmatterOhow many false and fathomed stories you hear from your blind brethren. Alien is the imagined climax of such virtue we pray for, because such virtue does not exist. Tenuous is your imaginary grasp on reality and its principles, and this blur, this uncertainty regarding our perspective is what lets you continue to hold on to it. But you are not holding anything. None of us are, we simply hold onto some fake and fabricated ideology to lead us through life and experience without succumbing to chaos and entropy. Such people who pray and preach are as ignorant as the people they hold in contempt. Our world is full of horror, and a life of horror is just as certain as a life of tranquility, they are the same, yin and yang. Think for yourself, lest some man-made parasite think for you. Know that you are forever a child, always naïve, always without certainty, and revel in the fact you will never know what it is to be complete, for to be complete, is to be empty. Desire is a part of us, some people seek to shed it, I believe it needn’t be shed, but recognized as what it is. Do not throw out your desires in ignorant contempt, and do not conform to them as if nothing else claws at you from your noggin. Take life as it comes, without bias. *
(asterisk is here because this text is technically tied in with "kaleidoscopes" but they cover different themes so I separated them, plus they don't really need the other to function as a text but I did write them together is all)