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The hum of the stage filled Luka's ears, so loud yet something that he heard for his entire life—it was the purpose why he was created, after all. All those blinding lights, each clap that shook the stage, the adrenaline, the way his voice filled his own in-ear each time he sang on his mic, something that Luka grew accustomed to.
Years after the stage tragedy, his mind never forgets about what happened that night. Each time he stepped on the damned stage when his life was being gambled, his mind drifted to the time he saw his soul being taken out of his life.
He still sang his songs, yet he wasn’t alive anymore.
He still stood stern on that stage, yet his skeletons that only remained in his body.
And his oxygen, the medium that he breathed to run his body, now suffocates him when his love, his life, his future decided to take her own life in front of him years ago.
Hyuna was gone, long, long time and she brought Luka’s life together.
In the coldness of his room, each after he smiled whenever one life was taken on the same stage when Hyuna decided to take her own life in front of him, his mind drifted away to where it seemed impossible to happen in that life.
To when Alien Stage never being held in their life, no aliens that reign their universe like they were merely a toy to be paraded.
They might live in a small city, no disturbance, no claps, and every night when they just came home from going somewhere far away from their own house, they sat together on their dining table while basking under the romantic light. Soft jazz played from their small radio on the corner of their room and they would dance despite tripping over each others’ feet then laugh while cuddling on their couch that was placed in front of their TV.
Luka might have a small proposal, not even grandiose yet he only wants Hyuna who was standing in front of him when he bent his knee after they just came home from a pizza restaurant. Even when Luka is still searching for his ring, Hyuna would say yes no matter how silly or clumsy he looks; Hyuna only wants him to be her husband, so does Luka who only wants her to stand with him for his entire life.
Or when they married in a small chapel in the countryside, there might be only ten people who attended their wedding yet they were happy since both of them only needed each other to conquer the world.
And the time Luka held the baby who has Hyuna’s features and his hair, Luka might not stop crying from how joyous he was upon the birth of the fruit of their love for their whole life. At the time he didn't believe he would have such a future when everything felt like a dream and hoping that if a parallel universe existed, he wanted Hyuna to be his one and only partner in each universe.
Though everything only happened merely in his mind since in reality, he saw how Hyuna’s blood was splashing everywhere, together with the gunshot that deafened his ears.
And Hyuna’s words: Luka, life with love—always haunted him every night before he slept, ate, drank, or when he just woke up to begin his day.
Hyuna, his Hyuna, decided to leave him with love. Yet the love that she left him with wasn’t something that he needed, it was her.
Hyuna knew that she was his love and the only one that he needed. But sacrifice must be made in order to make him realise that he needed to open his eyes.
Hyuna realizes that he is blinded by her own presence, to chase her, to haunt her, to choke her with their past that she decided to leave and bear the freedom that is worth her entire life.
But deep down, Hyuna ever thought about the time she didn’t need to make that kind of sacrifice.
To when Luka and her might live as a normal couple who sang their song and produced their album together.
When she doesn’t need to escape yet she could have her freedom to live together with him.
And when her brother is still alive, breathing, and being the one she shares her story with.
And when Luka and her never know what it feels to die to open his eyes about the world that doesn’t have “Hyuna” in his life.
And there it was, Luka needed to swallow the hard pill about the truth where Hyuna is gone for his entire life; no grey streaks that would shine whenever seeing his presence, no words that being sent to him from his exact woman that he loves with his entire life, and no laugh that would cure the entire guilt that rot inside his heart for this whole time.
He was going to live with “love” that Hyuna taught him to live with, he should keep singing with voice that he uses to call Hyuna despite there was no longer being answered for eternity, and he was going to bear the burden of the guilt that Hyuna taught when she left him in front of his eyes.