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Will stares at the lesson plan like it's daring him to fail.
The words sit on the page in neat, meaningless rows, refusing to organize themselves into anything useful. He reads the same paragraph for the fourth time and still can't remember what it says. His pen hovers, unmoving, then scratches out a sentence too hard, tearing slightly into the paper.
The classroom feels wrong today. Too bright. Too loud in that way quiet places get when your head won't cooperate. The fluorescent lights hum overhead, a thin, constant whine that crawls along his nerves. Somewhere down the hall a door closes, the sound echoing too sharply, and Will flinches before he can stop himself.
His shoulders ache. His neck is stiff, pulled tight like wire. He realizes, distantly, that he's been clenching his jaw hard enough to make his teeth hurt.
Focus, he tells himself, because that's always been the answer before.
Will closes his eyes and forces himself to breathe.
In through his nose. Slow. Count it. Hold. Out through his mouth, longer than the inhale.
Hannibal's voice echoes faintly in his head, calm and precise, instructing him. Will follows it exactly. He does it again. And again.
Nothing happens.
If anything, the pressure behind his eyes worsens, swelling into a dull, insistent ache. His heart feels like it's beating too fast for the rest of him, his body lagging behind, unwilling to catch up.
Will opens his eyes, frustration sparking hot and sharp in his chest. His leg is bouncing under the desk. He hadn't noticed when it started.
"This is useless," he mutters under his breath.
He gives up before the thought can spiral any further. The lesson plan remains unfinished, abandoned mid-sentence. Will gathers his things mechanically, barely remembering to lock the classroom as he leaves. By the time he reaches the parking lot, the tension has settled deeper, like it's found somewhere permanent to live.
Inside his car, Will grips the steering wheel and exhales shakily. He closes his eyes again, trying once more.
Just relax, he tells himself, the words almost pleading now.
He breathes the way Hannibal taught him. He imagines his muscles loosening, the stress draining away. He tries to picture calm, tries to convince his body that it's safe.
His chest feels tight. His breath catches. His fingers twitch against the leather of the wheel.
"Fuck," Will murmurs, dropping his head back against the seat.
Nothing works. The realization lands heavily, unwelcome and undeniable. He checks the time on the dashboard clock and scoffs softly. His appointment is soon anyway. He's just been delaying the inevitable.
Will starts the car.
The drive is miserable. Every red light feels like an insult. His neck throbs from holding his head too rigidly, his shoulders locked in place. The ache spreads down his back, settling between his shoulder blades, sharp enough that he has to shift in his seat.
His vision blurs at the edges, the world slightly out of focus no matter how hard he blinks. Sounds crowd in too close. Engines, tires on asphalt, a horn blaring somewhere behind him. He winces, fingers tightening around the steering wheel.
By the time he pulls up outside Hannibal Lecter's office, Will feels stripped raw.
Inside, the air is cool and dim, a relief that almost makes him sag with it. The quiet presses in gently instead of attacking him. Hannibal notices immediately.
Will doesn't meet his eyes when he enters. His posture is rigid, movements stiff, like he's conserving what little energy he has left. He stands too straight, shoulders locked, hands clenched at his sides.
"Will," Hannibal says smoothly, rising from his chair. His gaze flicks over Will with practiced ease. "Please. Sit."
Will obeys without argument. The moment he lowers himself into the chair, a long, shaky sigh escapes him, like his body has been waiting for permission. He leans forward, planting his elbows on his knees, and presses the heel of his hand into his forehead.
Hannibal watches him for a moment longer than usual before speaking.
"You appear—strained," he says mildly.
Will huffs a short, humorless laugh. "That's one word for it."
He drags his hand down his face, fingers catching briefly at the bridge of his nose. "Your techniques," He stops, frowns, and tries again. "They're not working."
Hannibal's expression shifts almost imperceptibly, concern softening his features. "Tell me what you're experiencing."
"Everything," Will says, too quickly. He gestures vaguely, hand trembling slightly. "My head feels like it's splitting open. The lights are too bright. I can't focus on anything for more than a second." His words begin to stumble, frustration bleeding through. "I do the breathing, the grounding, the visualization, all of it, and it just makes me more aware of how bad it is."
Hannibal rises without comment and moves to the lamp, dimming the lights until the room settles into a softer shadow. His voice remains calm as he speaks.
"There are other methods we could explore," he says. "Externalizing your thoughts through journaling, perhaps. Or structured reflection."
Will grimaces. "I don't think sitting alone with my thoughts is the solution here."
Hannibal hums thoughtfully and returns to stand near Will, though he doesn't sit. "No," he agrees softly. "I suspected as much."
He pauses, choosing his words with care. "Stress is not merely psychological. It embeds itself in the body. Muscles tighten. Pain becomes habitual. Sometimes the mind cannot be soothed until the body is taught to release."
Will looks up at him despite himself. "You mean... physically?"
"Yes."
The word hangs between them, heavy with implication. Will shifts in his seat, something flickering behind his exhaustion.
"That sounds," Will starts, then clears his throat. "Effective."
Hannibal's mouth curves faintly. "It can be."
He explains as he moves closer, voice steady and instructional. Pressure points. Muscle tension. How pain lingers long after its cause is gone. He speaks like a doctor, like a therapist, like someone entirely above suspicion.
"May I?" Hannibal asks, gesturing toward Will's shoulder.
Will hesitates, then nods.
Hannibal's hands are warm when they make contact. Precise. He presses his fingers gently into the muscle at the base of Will's neck, testing. Will inhales sharply before he can stop himself, stifling a groan
"Here," Hannibal murmurs.
He applies more pressure, slow and deliberate. Will's shoulders tense instinctively, then, gradually, begin to yield. Hannibal adjusts his grip, fingers digging in with practiced care. He watches closely as Will's breathing stutters, then evens out.
They move methodically. Neck. Upper back. Along the spine, careful and professional. Hannibal notes every reaction: the way Will's hands unclench, the slight sound he makes when a particularly tight knot finally releases.
Minutes pass. The change is unmistakable.
Will sags slightly in the chair, head dipping forward as if he's forgotten how to hold it up. The pain recedes, leaving behind a strange, quiet calm. His thoughts slow. His body feels lighter, looser, almost unfamiliar.
"That's," Will exhales, then stops, searching for the word. He can’t quite find it.
"Better," Hannibal offers gently.
"Yeah," Will murmurs. "Better."
When the session ends, Will leaves steadier than he arrived, the tension no longer screaming for his attention. As he gets into his car, he pauses, hand resting on the steering wheel.
There's a strange sensation low in his gut. Not pain. Not relief, exactly. Something else. Something he doesn't have a name for.
Will frowns, starts the engine, and pulls away.
It's probably nothing, he tells himself.
Just stress leaving his system.
Nothing more.