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The Temple spires pierced Coruscant's morning sky like broken fingers reaching for a sun that seemed dimmer than it had any right to be. Satine Kryze, Duchess of Mandalore, stood at the edge of the grand plaza where they'd erected the pyre—empty, because there was no body to burn.
There was never a body.
She'd received the message three days ago. A hologram, blue and flickering: Master Windu's face, grave and distant. “Duchess Kryze, it is with deep regret that we inform you of the death of Master Obi-Wan Kenobi. He fell in service to the Republic during a mission in the Outer Rim. The Jedi Council extends its condolences.“
Formal. Sterile. As if they were discussing a broken datapad rather than a man who'd once laughed so hard at her impression of a Coruscant senator that he'd nearly fallen off a balcony in Sundari.
She hadn't cried then. She'd stood in her office, surrounded by the pristine whites and blues of Mandalorian architecture, and felt something inside her calcify into stone. Her aide had asked if she needed anything. She'd said no. She'd dictated a response—equally formal, equally sterile—and then she'd requested an official invitation to any memorial services.
The Republic had been swift to comply. Too swift, perhaps. As if they wanted her there. As if her presence would lend legitimacy to their grief, their war, their endless machinery of death that had swallowed the man she—
No. She wouldn't think it. Not yet.
The plaza was filling now. Senators in their elaborate robes, military officers with their chests heavy with medals, Jedi in their browns and tans moving like ghosts through the crowd. Satine stood apart, flanked by two of her Royal Guards—Mandalorians in ceremonial armor, not the warrior culture of Death Watch, but the New Mandalorian ideal. Protectors, not conquerors.
Obi-Wan had always approved of that distinction.
Had. Past tense. The language of the dead.
"Duchess Kryze."
She turned. Senator Bail Organa approached, his face lined with genuine sorrow. She'd always liked Bail—he was one of the few senators who seemed to remember that politics was supposed to serve people, not the other way around.
"Senator Organa." She inclined her head.
"I'm so sorry," he said quietly. "I know you and Master Kenobi were... friends."
Friends. Such an inadequate word. What did you call someone who'd saved your life, argued philosophy with you until dawn, kissed you once on a Mandalorian terrace with such desperate tenderness that you'd felt the galaxy shift on its axis—and then walked away because his duty demanded it?
"Thank you," she said, because what else could she say?
Bail hesitated. "He spoke of you, you know. Not often, but... when he did, there was something in his voice. Respect. Admiration." A pause. "Affection."
The stone inside her cracked, just a hairline fracture, but she forced it back together through sheer will. "Master Kenobi was a good man."
"He was." Bail glanced toward the pyre, the empty pyre. "I wish they'd found him. Brought him home."
"Yes," Satine said softly. "So do I."
But they hadn't. The official report—she'd read it seventeen times in three days—stated that his ship had been shot down over an uncharted jungle world during what was termed a "reconnaissance mission." The wreckage had been located, but the cockpit was empty. No body. No blood. No sign of him at all, save for his lightsaber, recovered half a klick from the crash site.
They'd sent her a holo of it. The elegant cylinder, scratched and battered, lying in the mud.
She'd vomited after seeing it. Locked herself in her refresher and retched until there was nothing left.
"The ceremony is about to begin," Bail said gently. "Would you like to sit with the Alderaanian delegation?"
"Thank you, but I'll stand."
He nodded, understanding, and moved away. Satine remained at the edge, watching as the crowd coalesced into something resembling order. The Jedi Council filed onto the raised platform: Yoda, leaning on his gimer stick; Mace Windu, his face carved from stone; Ki-Adi-Mundi, Plo Koon, others whose names she knew but whose faces blurred together. They were warriors, all of them, no matter how much they dressed it up in philosophy and mysticism.
And they'd sent Obi-Wan to die.
Behind the Council came Obi-Wan's former Padawan. Anakin Skywalker looked like he'd aged ten years in three days. His face was pale, his eyes hollow, and there was something dangerous in the set of his shoulders—a coiled tension that reminded Satine of a Mandalorian viper about to strike. Beside him walked a Togruta girl—Ahsoka Tano, his own apprentice. She looked devastated but composed, her young face set in lines too mature for her years.
And behind them, trying to be inconspicuous and failing utterly, was Senator Padmé Amidala. She wore black, severe and elegant, and her eyes never left Anakin's back.
Satine filed that observation away. Later, perhaps, it would matter. Now, it was simply another piece of evidence that everyone was breaking in their own private ways.
Supreme Chancellor Palpatine took the podium. Satine's jaw tightened. She'd never liked Palpatine—there was something oleaginous about him, something that made her think of stone-mites infesting the foundations of Sundari's great halls. But he was popular, and he spoke with the practiced ease of a career politician.
"Citizens of the Republic," he began, his voice projected across the plaza by hidden speakers. "We gather today to honor a hero. Master Obi-Wan Kenobi was a beacon of hope in these dark times, a warrior for peace, a defender of the innocent."
Satine's hands clenched into fists inside the sleeves of her gown. She'd chosen gray—not the vibrant blues and whites of Mandalore, but something subdued, neutral. Grief without allegiance.
"He gave his life," Palpatine continued, "so that others might live. He stood between the darkness and the light, and he did not falter. The Republic owes him a debt that can never be repaid."
Empty words. Politician's words. Obi-Wan would have hated this spectacle.
"But we must remember," Palpatine said, his voice dropping to something more intimate, "that his sacrifice is not unique. Every day, brave men and women give their lives for our freedom. The Jedi, the clone troopers, our senators and diplomats—all of them stand against the tide of chaos that threatens to engulf us."
He was pivoting. Satine could see it happening in real-time. Obi-Wan's death wasn't about Obi-Wan anymore—it was about the war. About justifying the endless grinding machine that devoured lives and spat out propaganda.
"We must honor Master Kenobi's memory," Palpatine said, "by continuing the fight. By ensuring that his death was not in vain. By—"
"Enough."
The word cut through the plaza like a vibroblade. Anakin Skywalker had stepped forward, away from the Council, away from Ahsoka's restraining hand. His voice wasn't loud, but it carried—raw and jagged with pain.
"He's dead," Anakin said. "You don't get to use him."
The plaza went silent. Palpatine's expression flickered—concern, perhaps, or calculation—but when he spoke, his voice was gentle. "Anakin, my boy, I understand your grief—"
"You don't understand anything," Anakin snapped. "None of you do. You sent him out there. Alone. On some mission you won't even tell us about. And now he's gone, and you stand up here talking about continuing the fight?" He laughed, bitter and broken. "He'd hate this. All of it."
Mace Windu stepped forward. "Anakin, this is not the time—"
"When is the time?" Anakin turned on the Council, and Satine saw something frightening in his eyes—something wild and uncontrolled. "When were you going to tell me what he was doing out there? What was so important that you sent the best of us into the Outer Rim without backup, without support, without—"
"Enough, young Skywalker." Yoda's voice was quiet but unyielding. "Grieve, you may. Disrespect this ceremony, you will not."
For a moment, Satine thought Anakin might ignite his lightsaber right there on the platform. His hand twitched toward his belt, his breathing ragged. But then Ahsoka was there, her small hand on his arm, and Padmé had risen from her seat, her expression pleading.
Anakin's shoulders sagged. He looked suddenly young, lost. "I'm sorry," he said, but Satine didn't think he meant it. "I need—I can't—"
He turned and walked away. Not ran—that would have been undignified, and for all his fury, Anakin Skywalker was still a Jedi. But he walked quickly, cutting through the crowd like a man fleeing a collapsing building. Ahsoka followed, and after a moment's hesitation, so did Padmé.
The plaza buzzed with whispered conversations. Palpatine smoothed over the disruption with practiced ease, offering platitudes about grief and understanding. Mace Windu spoke next, his eulogy stiff and formal—all duty and sacrifice, nothing of the man. Ki-Adi-Mundi followed, then Plo Koon.
Satine stopped listening.
She watched the empty pyre, the ceremonial wrappings that held no body, and felt the stone inside her pressing against her ribs. They were burning an absence. A ghost. The idea of a man rather than the man himself.
She thought of the last time she'd seen him. Two years ago, a brief layover on Coruscant between diplomatic missions. They'd shared tea in her temporary quarters—nothing improper, nothing that would raise eyebrows, just two old friends catching up. He'd been tired, she remembered. The war was wearing on him.
"Do you ever regret it?" she'd asked. Not specifying what it was. They both knew.
He'd been quiet for a long moment, staring into his cup. Then: "Every day. But regret doesn't change duty."
"No," she'd agreed. "It doesn't."
They'd sat in silence after that, and when he'd left, he'd paused at the door. "Satine—"
"Don't," she'd said softly. "Please don't."
He'd nodded and left. She hadn't seen him again.
And now she never would.
The ceremony dragged on. Senators offered condolences to the Council. Clone Commander Cody—Obi-Wan's second-in-command—spoke briefly, his voice tight with military precision, but Satine heard the grief underneath. He'd loved Obi-Wan too, in his own way. They all had.
That was the worst part. Obi-Wan had been easy to love—warm, witty, kind in ways that made you forget he was also a weapon honed by decades of training. He'd made everyone feel like they mattered, like their problems were worth his attention, their opinions worth considering.
And he'd died alone, on some forgotten planet, for reasons no one would explain.
Finally—finally—the ceremony ended. The pyre was lit, the empty wrappings consumed by flame, and the crowd began to disperse. Satine remained where she was, watching the smoke rise into Coruscant's polluted sky.
"Duchess Kryze."
She turned. Mace Windu stood before her, his expression unreadable. "The Council would like to speak with you. If you have time."
It wasn't really a request. "Of course, Master Windu."
She followed him into the Temple, through corridors that seemed too quiet, too empty. The war had taken most of the Jedi to the front lines, leaving behind only the very young, the very old, and those too injured to fight.
The Council Chamber was circular, ringed with chairs, most of them empty. Yoda sat in his customary seat, Mace Windu took his own, and Ki-Adi-Mundi and Plo Koon filled two others. The rest remained vacant—ghosts of Jedi scattered across the galaxy.
"Duchess," Yoda said. "Appreciate your presence, we do. Difficult, this must be."
"Master Kenobi was a friend," Satine said carefully. "His loss is felt deeply."
"Friend, yes." Yoda's ears twitched. "More than friend, perhaps."
Satine's spine stiffened. "I'm not sure what you're implying, Master Yoda."
"Implying nothing, I am. Observing only." He leaned forward on his stick. "Known Obi-Wan for many years, you have. Trusted him. Respected him."
"Yes."
"Then trust this: serve the Force, his death did. Purpose, it had."
Anger flared, hot and unexpected. "What purpose?" Satine demanded. "What could possibly justify sending him alone into hostile territory with no support, no backup, no—"
"Classified, the mission was," Mace Windu said flatly. "We cannot discuss the details."
"Cannot, or will not?"
"Both."
Satine took a breath, forcing calm. "Then why am I here? If you won't tell me what happened, what's the point of this conversation?"
Plo Koon spoke, his voice gentle through his mask. "We wanted you to know that Obi-Wan's death was not in vain. He completed his mission. Because of him, thousands of lives were saved."
"How comforting," Satine said icily. "I'm sure that will sustain me when I return to Mandalore and explain to my people why one of the galaxy's greatest peacekeepers died in a war that seems to have no end."
"Unfair, that is," Yoda said quietly. "But not untrue."
The admission surprised her. She looked at the ancient Jedi, and for a moment, she saw past the mysticism and the cryptic wisdom to something raw underneath. Grief. Yoda was grieving too.
"Lost many, we have," Yoda continued. "Lose more, we will, before this war ends. But remember them, we must. Honor them, by living as they would wish."
"And how would Obi-Wan wish us to live?" Satine asked.
"With compassion," Plo Koon said. "With integrity. With hope."
Satine closed her eyes. Hope. She'd built a pacifist society on hope, on the belief that diplomacy and reason could triumph over violence. Obi-Wan had admired that, even as he'd chosen a different path.
"The Republic has invited me to remain on Coruscant for two weeks," she said. "For a memorial honoring all fallen heroes. I've accepted."
"Good," Mace Windu said. "Your presence will be appreciated."
She doubted that. But she'd stay anyway, because leaving felt like abandonment, and she'd already lost too much.
The meeting ended. Satine returned to her guest quarters in the diplomatic sector—a suite of rooms designed for visiting dignitaries, elegantly appointed and utterly soulless. Her guards took up positions outside. She dismissed her aides.
And then, finally, she was alone.
She stood in the center of the sitting room, still wearing her gray gown, still holding herself together through sheer force of will. The stone inside her was cracking now, spiderwebbing fissures spreading through her chest, and she knew—knew—that if she let it break, she might not survive it.
But she couldn't hold it anymore.
Satine walked into the bedroom, closed the door, and locked it. She drew the curtains against Coruscant's eternal lights. She sat on the edge of the bed, hands folded in her lap, and stared at nothing.
And then she shattered.
The sound that came out of her wasn't dignified. It wasn't the composed grief of a duchess or the measured sorrow of a politician. It was raw and animal, a keening wail that tore from her throat like something living trying to claw its way out.
She doubled over, arms wrapped around her stomach, and sobbed.
Not for the General. Not for the Jedi. For Obi-Wan. For the boy who'd protected her during the Mandalorian Civil War, who'd been so earnest and serious and young. For the man he'd become—wise and weary and still somehow kind, still somehow able to smile even when the galaxy was burning.
For the future they'd never have.
She'd told herself it didn't matter. That she'd made peace with it. They'd both chosen duty over desire, responsibility over personal happiness. It was the right choice. The noble choice.
But she'd always thought there would be time. Someday, when the war ended, when Mandalore was secure, when the Jedi Order didn't need him quite so desperately—maybe then. Maybe they could revisit that moment on the terrace, that kiss that had tasted like possibility.
Now there was no someday. There was only this: an empty pyre and an locked room and grief so vast it felt like drowning.
Satine cried until her throat was raw, until her eyes burned, until the sobs became dry heaves and she had nothing left. She cried for every conversation they'd never have, every debate they'd never finish, every touch they'd never share. She cried for the sound of his laugh, the way his eyes crinkled when he was amused, the gentle mockery in his voice when he called her "my dear Duchess" in that particular tone that made her want to kiss him and slap him in equal measure.
She cried because he'd died alone, and she hadn't been there.
She cried because she'd never told him that she loved him. Not properly. Not in words that couldn't be misunderstood or rationalized away.
She cried because it was too late.
When the tears finally subsided, she lay on the bed, curled on her side, staring at the wall. Her makeup was ruined, her hair falling from its elaborate style, her gown creased and uncomfortable. She didn't care.
The chrono on the nightstand read 2100 hours. The funeral had been this morning. It felt like years ago.
Satine closed her eyes and tried to imagine him. Not the hologram, not the propaganda image of the Negotiator, but him. The real Obi-Wan, with his dry humor and his terrible tea preferences and his habit of stroking his beard when he was thinking.
She imagined him sitting in the chair across the room, watching her with that gentle concern he'd always had. Really, Satine. Such dramatics. I'm quite all right, you know.
But he wasn't all right. He was dead. Ashes scattered over some Outer Rim jungle, or bones bleaching in an alien sun, or nothing at all—consumed by scavengers or decay or the simple indifference of the universe.
A fresh wave of tears threatened, but she forced it down. She'd broken. She'd grieved. Now she needed to breathe.
Satine sat up slowly, mechanically. She removed the pins from her hair, letting it fall loose around her shoulders. She washed her face in the refresher, avoiding her reflection. She changed into a sleeping gown and climbed properly into bed.
She didn't sleep. She lay in the dark, listening to Coruscant's distant hum, and thought about a man who'd been too good for the galaxy that killed him.
Somewhere in the Temple, Anakin Skywalker was probably raging. Ahsoka Tano was probably meditating, trying to find peace. Padmé Amidala was probably worrying. The Jedi Council was probably planning their next move in the endless chess game of war.
And Satine was here, alone, mourning a future that had died before it ever had a chance to live.
"I love you," she whispered to the darkness. "I always have. I always will."
No one answered. No one ever would.
Satine closed her eyes and waited for the mercy of dawn.