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June 1st, 1964
To Sue,
Dear Sue.
I don't know what to say, or if this will make things better. You probably won't read this, so I guess it doesn't matter.
You've done so much for me. You've always been there for everything, and it's not your fault that it wasn't enough. You did everything you could, and I'm sorry for making you try for so long. I thought this would all come a lot sooner.
Please don't think this is your fault; it never could be. You were the best sister I could have asked for. You let me move with you, taught me when I couldn't go to school, and I don't know if I would have made it this far without you.
Reed built an amazing ship, the best I've ever seen, and if anything happens Don't let Reed think this is his fault. His ship is amazing and would never fail with a better pilot.
Tell ben
I want Ben to know
I wish I could tell you why I feel this way, but I can't. I wake up every day, hoping it will get better, but it never does, and I'm so tired. I know I should keep waiting and trying. I'm sure that's what you'd tell me, but I don't want to.
I hope for these last few weeks or months, I've been pleasant. I know it hasn't been my best, but you've always been good at seeing the positives in me.
I'm sorry I won't be there for Christmas or my birthday. I hope you haven't bought my presents. I'm sorry I won't get to be an uncle to your kids, but when they are eventually born, please tell them I love them, and I wish I could have known them. I'm sorry I keep saying sorry, I know you hate that.
Please don't tell Dad
I don't think you'll be happier without me, but I hope that in some months or years you'll learn to live a happier life like we did after mum passed. I love you all, I hope you know that already