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your name is JUNE EGBERT. right now, you are sitting in a room in Rose’s house, completely alone except for a troll by the name of KARKAT VANTAS who sits beside you. the room you are in is full of musical instruments, indicating that a BAND had met here recently.
you and many of your FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES recently formed a band, and have recorded some MUSIC. the band consisted of ROSE, DAVE and JADE of course, but also a few of the trolls: TEREZI, NEPETA, SOLLUX, and of course, KARKAT. KANAYA and VRISKA even showed up too, the latter of which seemed to be pretty excited at the announcement that Karkat had just come out as a trans girl. oh yeah, that’s why you’re here. Karkat had wanted to talk to you about... just the concept of being a girl? Vriska, being transfem herself, also wanted to come along, but Karkat seemed to just want to be alone with you, June Egbert.
JUNE: so... why do you want to talk to me specifically? there’s tons of other trans fems here.
JUNE: not that i don’t enjoy your company though!
JUNE: but i’m sure dave and jade and vriska and kanaya could also tell you a lot!
JUNE: well, dave came out very recently so she might also not be that experienced.
KARKAT: WELL, YOU WERE THE FIRST ONE TO COME OUT AFTER WE ALL KNEW EACHOTHER.
KARKAT: I THINK THE FACT THAT VRISKA AND KANAYA HAVE BEEN GIRLS SINCE BEFORE I KNEW THEM GAVE ME THE IDEA THAT BEING TRANS IS JUST SOMETHING YOU FIGURE OUT IMMEDIATELY.
KARKAT: AND THUS MY ABSOLUTE DUMBASS OF A PAST SELF THOUGHT THAT OF COURSE THAT COULD NEVER BE *ME*, BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE ALREADY FIGURED IT OUT.
KARKAT: AND THEN YOU COMING OUT COMPLETELY DESTROYED THAT REASONING AND LEFT ME THINGKING ABOUT A LOT OF SHIT FOR A WHILE, AND THEN DAVE WROTE HER COMING OUT MESSAGE AND THAT PUSHED ME OVER THE EDGE INTO THE “OH FUCK MAYBE THAT IS ME” ZONE
JUNE: haha, you must have been Close To The Edge for a while.
KARKAT: IF YOU’RE GOING TO START MAKING SEX JOKES IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS SERIOUS CONVERSATION I’M FUCKING LEAVING.
JUNE: what? i was just referencing the Yes album.
KARKAT: OH.
KARKAT: WELL ANYWAYS, I’M PRETTY FUCKING SURE I’M A GIRL. AND I GUESS I WANT SOME GUIDENCE? ON HOW TO BE A GIRL? I DON’T FUCKING KNOW.
JUNE: well, i don’t think you really have to do anything specific to be a girl. i think you’re already just as much of a girl as any of us!
JUNE: unless you are non binary or a demi girl or something?
KARKAT: I HONESTLY DO NOT KNOW THE SPECIFICS.
KARKAT: AND YEAH, I KNOW GENDER IS A SOCIAL CONSTRUCT AND EVERYTHING, AND THERE'S NOT ANYTHING SPECIFIC I HAVE TO DO, BUT...
KARKAT: YOU KNOW THAT’S NOT WHAT I MEANT.
KARKAT: I JUST REALLY WANT TO... LOOK LIKE YOU???
KARKAT: THAT SOUNDS REALLY STUPID.
JUNE: no, i get it!
JUNE: i definitely have changed a lot from what i looked like before i started transitioning...
JUNE: but i think you are already getting there!
JUNE: i like how you grew your hair longer.
JUNE: it makes you look really pretty!
KARKAT: ......
Our perspective switches to 3rd person as we leave the dialogue box... looks like things are about to get serious. June is leaning closer into Karkat as she says the last few lines of the above dialog.
After a little bit of silence, Karkat says “UM... YOU THINK SO?”
June says: yeah! i have thought you were really cute for a while!
i mean platonically though, haha, i think, she continues.
Let’s switch back to the dialog box.
KARKAT: HMM... UH
JUNE: lol, remember that “i am not a homosexual” conversation?
JUNE: that turned out to be pretty incorrect!
KARKAT: ... OH GOD I HAD KIND OF WANTED TO NOT THINK ABOUT THAT AGAIN...
JUNE: well i am definitely a lesbian actually and you are a girl so i was completely wrong about that being the reason i did not want to be your spade quadrant...
KARKAT: WAIT...
JUNE: and i guess you might turn out to be a lesbian to considering me and dave turned out to be girls!
JUNE: you liked other girls, right?
JUNE: i remember hearing about you and dave fighting over what quadrant you would have terezi in or whatever. and did you like nepeta? or was that the other way around... You definitely were into jade though. i mean honestly-
KARKAT: SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR A SECOND
JUNE: uh
KARKAT: HOLY FUCK. I JUST FIGURED IT OUT.
JUNE: what-
KARKAT: ALL THOSE KISMESISTITUDES OHHHH MAN
JUNE: what did you figure out???
KARKAT: OH GOD JUNE I THINK MOST OF THE PITCH CRUSHES I HAD WERE ACTUALLY RED
KARKAT: BUT THEY WERE JUST FUNNELED THROUGH ALL THE DYSPHORIA AND SHIT OHHHHH GOD
JUNE: oh.....
JUNE: wait didn’t you have a spade crush on like... your future self or something?
KARKAT: UM. WELL I THINK THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN GENUINE
KARKAT: BUT IT MAKES SO MUTCH FUCKING SENSE THAT THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN FROM MORE DYSPHORIA!
KARKAT: HOLY FUCK I WAS NOT EXPECTING TO HAVE TO RETHINK LIKE ALL MY PAST RELATIONSHIPS
JUNE: well yeah, realizing you are trans does make you rethink a lot about things that happened in the past.
JUNE: i felt really stupid after realizing that vriska had been trying to “crack my egg” or what ever since i first got to know her!
JUNE: i definitely do wish i listened to her though.
JUNE: maybe i could have helped you figure out who you are, too!
JUNE: that spades crush conversation would probably have gone a lot differently if i knew who i really was and knew how much of a beautiful girl you would become...
KARKAT: OH WOW....
KARKAT: HOLY SHITTING FUCK..
KARKAT: GOD... THE FACT THAT IF I JUST TRUSTED VRISKA A BIT MORE THEN...
KARKAT: I COULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH HAPPIER..
KARKAT: WE COULD HAVE......
JUNE: it is pretty funny how such small things have led to bigger consequences all throughout our adventures.
JUNE: but we don’t need vriska anymore!
JUNE: we’re both girls and that’s so cool and we can kiss as much as we want!
KARKAT:
KARKAT: WOAH
KARKAT: OH OK SO I HAVEN’T BEEN HALUCINATING THAT. YOU ACTUALLY HAVE REAL RED FEELINGS FOR ME.. WHY NOW?? I MEAN NOT THAT I DONT WANT- BUT LIKE- AFTER ALL THIS TIME? SORRY I’M KIND OF OVERWHELMED-
JUNE: jeez, calm down a bit. c’mere
June moves in a bit closer. Karkat stops talking and June pauses for a brief second before pulling her even closer and kissing her. After a few moments, June is back to sitting next to Karkat, who is looking very flustered and a bit shocked. After a bit of silence, she begins to talk again...
KARKAT: ..........WOAH
KARKAT: ....................
KARKAT: OK. SO. WHAT I WAS TRYING TO SAY THERE WAS: WHY ARE YOU RECIPROCATING *NOW* OF ALL TIMES.. OR, JUST, IN GENERAL I GUESS???
KARKAT: I DON’T SEE WHY ME JUST BEING A GIRL WOULD BE ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU HAVE RED FEELINGS FOR ME....
JUNE: i mean, that is kind of it!
JUNE: like i said before, being trans really does make you rethink your past a lot...
JUNE: but also, for me, gender euphoria kind of feels similar to romantic love? i have no idea if it is like that for other trans people though.
JUNE: so just... being around someone who is probably getting a lot of gender euphoria for the first time,
JUNE: combined with all the positive platonic feelings i had about you before,
JUNE: it all combines to make me really love you! In a romantic heart quadrant kinda way.
KARKAT: WOW. UH
KARKAT: BEING A GIRL IS SO COOL.......
KARKAT: UM. THANK YOU.. FOR LIKE? EVERYTHING? I PROBABLY SOUND REALLY STUPID RIGHT NOW BUT-
JUNE: ough you are so cute
June starts kissing her again, neither of them hesitating this time. After a while, Karkat speaks up again:
KARKAT: WELL FUCK. I DEFINITELY DID NOT EXPECT ANY OF THIS TO HAPPEN TODAY.
KARKAT: UM, THANK YOU AGAIN
JUNE: you’re welcome!
JUNE: ...you know, we should go see kanaya! i bet she would love to help you find some clothes you would want to wear!
KARKAT: THAT SOUNDS REALLY NICE
KARKAT: I MEAN LIKE
KARKAT: REALLY FUCKING NICE
JUNE: yeah, i remember jade helping me pick out some clothes after i first came out... that was probably the happiest i had been for a long time!
JUNE: i am really excited to get to see you as happy as i was... :)
KARKAT: I’M ...ALSO REALLY FUCKING EXCITED ACTUALLY.
KARKAT: HOLY FUCK... JUST.... KNOWING THAT I CAN BE A GIRL AT ALL IS ALREADY MAKING ME FEEL... REALLY HOPEFUL?
JUNE: i have definitely been through all these feelings before and yeah. it is fucking awsome. And i am glad i get to help you get all this euphoria!
JUNE: after we visit kanaya do you want to go get some food? make it a stereo typical romantic date.
KARKAT: YEAH... (I’M STILL AMAZED AT THE FACT WE ARE IN AN ACTUAL RELATIONSHIP HOOOOLY SHIT)
JUNE: yeah! We can go to jane’s bakery, i heard they have a u-post!
KARKAT: THE FUCK IS A U-POST???
JUNE: (hehehehehe)
JUNE: u post cringe online
KARKAT: FUCK OFF
JUNE: but really, it would be nice to spend some more time with you!
and then they kiss forever. the end