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Zero wasn’t all that miffed when he opened the door to the room he regrettably shared with the sailor and saw the man sitting in his own bed but frantically rearranging himself with paper rustling and a clear panic on his face as it went red.
He also, regrettably, had had a teenager and knew that shuffle well as the other man looked at him, his ears starting to burn red and sweat speckling on his face.
Zero had the humility to put his hands up, making sure not to make eye contact with the man as he had with his daughter one very, very unfortunate time.
“I’m just getting my glass.” Zero said quietly, closing the door firmly behind him. “I-I’ll give you 15 minutes, Johnathan. I don’t care if you’re finished or not when I come back, I’ll just read my book and ignore you.”
Zero picked up his glass off his night stand, he gave one last glance over at Star, unfortunately getting a bit too close to eye contact for his tastes.
The other man looked sick and terrified, and Zero knew the man’s entire night was probably ruined and felt bad for barging in.
Zero gave a nod and left the room with his water glass.
He took his time in the kitchen filling his glass, stopping to eat an apple slowly while leaning against one of his sinks.
Once the nerves finally started to leave, and he felt like standing was insufferable, he made his way back to the bedroom.
Creaking the door open, Zero saw Star sitting on his bed looking at his quilt, an ashamed look that Zero knew all too well glazed across his face.
Zero walked over and set his glass down on his night stand.
He left out a sigh as he glanced over his shoulder at the other man.
He shuffled his way across the room, burying his hands in the pockets of his house coat and slouching as he approached the awkward man.
“Look, I should have knocked.” Zero mumbled quietly.
Star looked up at Zero, his face reddening. “Oh, uh, n-no it’s quite alright, I er- well it’s okay. I should be somewhere more private-”
“That’s not really an option for you,” Zero kicked the floor. “We share a bathroom with Zash, and there isn’t really anywhere else in the apartment with the kids.” Zero awkwardly put a hand on Star’s shoulder. “Look-” he averted his eyes from the other man, “just don’t get too loud about it but I don’t care if you, you know, deal with things while I’m here.”
Star looked at the hand on his shoulder and then up at Zero. “Oh, er-”
Zero made an awkward laugh, “Johnny we used to share a studio apartment with one bed when you were a young man who thought he could be, well, discreet. I’m aware of your needs as an adult man. Look, I can turn my radio on and read my books and pretend I don’t notice. I’m… impressed I haven't walked in on you before this evening.”
“Well, ah…” Star made a small chuckle trying to break the awkwardness. “You’re a creature of habit, Zero, certainly habitual.”
Zero echoed the chuckle, his shoulder’s relaxing. “Don’t go making my habits your’s, Sailor, you know those kinds of things train your body.”
Zero finally backed away from Star, going for his own bed as he yawned.
“Uh, Ben.” Star chimed up as Zero got to his bed, he watched the other man carefully and methodically start his bed time routine. “Why didn’t you know, say anything back in the old days? I uh… didn’t know you-”
“Johnathan, some things are best left unanswered.” Zero said, getting in his bed after stripping off his housecoat and slippers.
Star looked at his lap as Zero clicked off his lamp and settled down to sleep.
“And I didn’t want to risk my only friend.” Zero commented bluntly as he closed his eyes.
Star made a small puff as he leaned over and turned off his own lamp.
Star was ready for quiet and wasn’t in the mood for anymore listening to the gossip of the 12 year old while the TV blasted much longer.
He opened the door to his and Zero’s room and closed it firmy behind himself.
He heard a loud shuffling and a panicked mewl.
He glanced over and saw Zero already in bed, lights of the room off, in a position not usual for the man.
Zero was looking up at Star, his breath heavy and his skin prickling with sweat as his bedding was awkwardly crumpled and pulled over his lap. His thighs were visibly pushed together with the rest of his legs more slack.
Star could assume what he had walked into.
He put his free hand up and averted his eyes as he walked to his own bed.
Star sat in his bed, turning on his lamp, and started to work on changing out of his day clothes.
Star intentionally sat facing away from Zero, trying to give the other privacy, but was increasingly aware of the lack of noise from the other man's side of the room, beyond the heavy, nervous breathing.
Star glanced briefly over his shoulder, noticing the other man’s increasingly awkward state as his face went red and he looked at his lap like it was a death sentence.
Star let out a breath, he opened his nightstand drawer and picked up two worn magazines.
Zero didn’t notice Star approaching his bed until a magazine landed on the bed in front of him.
Zero nearly jumped out of his skin reeling.
Zero looked up at Star, his body starting to shake.
“I got guy’s too.” Star held up the other magazine in his hand before tossing it down on top of the other. “Look, I killed the only stiff you’ve had in your life, I’m sorry.”
Zero just kept looking at Star, shaking like a leaf and looking scared.
“Oh don’t act like that.” Star snorted. “With the amount of time’s you’ve sat through me pulling it you ought to be able to get one in.”
Zero’s breathing started to hike as he looked up at the other man.
Star reeled back as Zero’s demeanor grew more and more scared.
“Can you please breathe before I have to call in your daughter, and I know you don’t want to have that conversation with her about why you are sitting here in a panic.” Star huffed.
Zero started to gasp and jitter, getting air into his chest awkwardly.
“Alright, Ben, what’s wrong.” Star snapped, sitting down on the edge of Zero’s bed.
Zero readjusted, trying to hide the shame in his lap more feverishly.
“Stop that, I know you have, or at least had, an erection, Ruben, you’re just drawing more attention to it.” Star huffed. “What has you so freaked out?”
Zero took an awkward seethe and looked at his lap, finally starting to calm down and relax slightly.
“I-I…” Zero shrunk up, his voice was soft, rattled and scared. “What am I supposed to do?”
Star felt the confusion come out in his expression and an audible exhale.
“Ben, you cannot be serious.”
Zero meekly glanced up at Star, his face going muddy. “I just want it to go away.” Zero squeaked. “And… nothing really causes them and I know touching myself feels physically good but there isn’t really anything behind it. What am I supposed to do?”
“I’m not following.”
Zero adjusted again, he looked at the magazines and nearly gagged. “I don’t…” he trailed off, mumbling.
“I can’t hear you when you don’t open your mouth.” Star huffed.
Zero glanced up at Star then back at his lap. “I don’t want your dirty magazines, they don’t work.”
“What do you mean they don’t work?” Star sneered, he picked up one of the magazines and opened it indiscriminately. “Look at her.”
Zero stammered, looking mortified. “Oh dear….”
“What?” Star looked at the page. “More of a blond guy?” Star flipped through the pages pointedly searching as Zero averted his eyes from him.
Star held up another spread, Zero gasped this time, putting a hand to his chest and looking pale.
“John, I don't want to look at women anymore.” Zero said frantically.
Star put his magazine down, going for the other. “Okay, men then, here-”
Zero grabbed Star’s wrist. “No, I don’t want to look at any men either.”
“You are being mighty picky.” Star snorted, a grin cracking through.
“Johnny, they don’t work because I don't know what’s wrong with me!” Zero snipped, tensing up and sounding upset. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with a woman, or a man, or a whatever! What’s the point of looking at images that make me uncomfortable? What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to feel? I don’t understand!”
Star shrugged. “I don’t understand, do you think you use the pages to rub it out? I guess some people are into that-”
“No, Johnny! I mean I can’t look at a woman and see myself ravishing her! And the only man I ever thought one day I could muster the courage to be touched by and enjoy it killed off any feelings I had for him that way a hundred years ago!” Zero made a pained gasp as his voice faltered and his eyes started to ache. “Something’s broken in me and I know it! What am I supposed to enjoy about touching myself when I can’t find any reason to do it besides making the nagging stinging need to do it stop?”
Star reeled back, then shushed the other man. “Keep your voice down, we can talk through this.”
Zero hiccuped, and nodded as he took a deep breath.
“Ben, do you really not feel, you know, hot and bothered?” Star asked quietly.
Zero looked at his lap. “I feel hot because my erection makes me feel hot, and it bothers me a lot when it happens.”
Star nodded and rubbed his beard, thinking. “I… think I understand how you feel.”
“You do?” Zero’s voice was fragile and creaking like glass.
Star looked at his hands, he started to pick the skin between his fingers.
Star was quiet for a moment. “You know… my father did some nasty things to me. Sometimes…” he trailed off, watching his fingers twitch. “I think about things he did to me when I’m trying to enjoy myself. There are things I wish I could enjoy, but they just feel numb and empty. They physically feel stimulating, but the emotions behind them are lacking or even frightening.”
“I’m sorry…” Zero said, an ache creeping into his voice. “I shouldn’t be wallowing about an errection when you’ve been raped and have lost the joy in it.”
“Hey, that’s not why I told you that.” Star put a hand on Zero’s knee. “I told you because I understand the emptyness you feel. I havent lost joy in my sexuality, or sex, I just have to live a little haunted by what he did.” Star tried to give Zero a smile.
“Don’t lessen your pain, Johnny.” Zero said gently. “I was born missing something that a person can live without. You had something beautiful taken away from you.” Zero’s voice started to turn to creaking and breaking glass again, his eyes misting.
“Don’t cry, please.” Star’s voice started going weak. “Please don’t cry for my sake. I don’t want any more pity, please. Pity won’t fix me.”
Zero took a shaky deep breath, full of hitches and squeaks, as he looked at Star, the mist in his eyes starting to burn. “Johnnycake, I’m crying because you where raped by your father as a child and it's upsetting, I am not crying out of pity, I’m crying because I wish it never happened and I wish I could help you.”
Star picked the skin between his fingers for a moment more. “My therapist told me of some ways to cope with it… but his ideas seem like someone might get hurt. I’d have to really trust the person helping.”
Zero rubbed one of his eyes and stared at the other man. “What’d they recommend.”
Star was quiet for a moment, pausing his picking. “Well… sometimes when I’m getting anal, I’m suddenly back there… it makes me freak out and I’ve thrown punches before…” Star adjusted his sitting position, “the Therapist says maybe… maybe I should set up a situation that emulates one of the times my father raped me, and then work through what happened with that. Pretend like my father is the one who’s taking me and then process the emotions.”
Zero nodded mutely, shifting awkwardly. “Well… I can see the reasoning.”
Star rubbed his arm, and let out a sigh.
“I… I hit Zinc.” He admitted quietly.
Zero perked up, a range of emotions cycling in his face, but he stopped himself a moment and unsteadily thought. He put a gentle hand on Star’s arm.
“Johnny…” Zero gulped hard, “Johnny it's not your fault.”
“I thought I could handle him topping me, we’d been having flings long enough you know… but the second I hit him something felt like it broke in me. I was disgusted with myself. I… it's why I broke it off with him.”
Zero rubbed Star’s arm softly, quiet lingered between the two.
“Zinc took the hit like a champ,” Star tried to lighten the mood. “He's a smart ship, and a mature one too. I don't know what he sees in that Ribbons tug. Or me.”
Star hung his head and buried his face in his hands.
“I just want to be able to rest easy… not be scared of a man long dead, I never want to see fear in my partner's eyes ever again. I felt like that bastard, like I was him looking at me, or Del, or our mother, absolutely crushed with fear at his hands… I don't trust myself to not hurt my partner.”
Zero moved his hand, scooting along the side of the bed and rubbing Stars back as he sat next to him.
“Then you need to find someone you would be okay hurting to… therapy with.”
The two men were quiet as Zero contorted Star.
The silence broke when Zero swallowed dryly.
“Johnathan… do you want me to help you with the therapy?”
Stars eyes went wide, he snapped a look at Zero nearly whiplashing himself as he sputtered. “Ben, you don't even want sex.”
“I just thought…” Zero adjusted his sitting position on the side of the bed. “Well… if you hurt me, you wouldn't be upset would you?”
Star paused, then looked down at his lap. “I’ll be honest, I think if I hurt you I would be so happy it'd break the fear.”
“Exactly… and I-” Zero coughed into the back of his wrist curtly. “Intercourse is something that, well no I've never done, I wouldn't say no too if it was useful. It's a good way to get rid of this blasted erection and be productive about it. Besides, I have reservations about intercourse where one party is invested where I am not, this is different, it's for a reason other than attraction.”
Star nodded mutely. “Yeah, I guess that's all correct.”
“But.”
“But?”
“But.” Zero took a sharp breath. “I won't have intercourse without a few ground rules. Like I will be wearing a condom.”
“Naturally, you priss.”
“And I won't intentionally injure you rectally. If part of this is me roughing you up or hitting you that would be okay to me, but I will be using lubricant. I don't need you in the hospital because you are injured from a lack of it.”
“Okay, that makes sense.”
Zero thought for a moment. “You can talk to your therapist or doctors about this, but you will not be telling anyone else, do you understand, no one.”
“Not a soul.”
“Good, lastly, if you start to panic, am I allowed to calm you down or restrain you by any means I see fit?”
“Yes.”
Zero nodded, shifting awkwardly. “Then I think… I think you should tell me how your father would rape you. And do you have condoms and crisco?”
“Oh you know that we use crisco, but you've never had sex before.” Star smirked at Zero. Zero gave the man a light shove.
“Have you met my ships?” Zero snorted, “in your night stand?”
“Yes, top drawer, and put my magazines away too.” Star huffed, then snorted. “And what more details do you need?”
“Well… positions, violence level, that sort of thing.”
Star sighed, his shoulders stiffening up.
“He would… he would always start by touching himself until he was ready, snarling at me about what he would do to my mother, saying he was telling me so that I understood what real men wanted.” Star gulped, knitting his fingers together. “Then he would talk about how if I was sick and wanted to turn men into women, that he'd lay me like a woman. He’d hold me down by any means necessary and insert himself. Then he’d do his business inside of me… and get up, tell me to clean myself and then lay in bed with him overnight so he could make sure I didn't please myself. If I came, he would beat me, sometimes he’d touch me and make sure I did cum, just to beat me for it.”
Zero approached, looking somber as he sat back down next to Star with a jar and a condom packet in hand.
“Johnny, I know you don't want to hear it but… I'm so sorry you had to endure that as a child.”
“So, are we going to start?” Star glanced at Zero.
Zero gulped and stood, coughing into his hand. “I won't degrade your mother for this…” Zero awkwardly took a deep breath, before grabbing his waist band and letting his pants drop to the floor.
Star gulped hard and looked up at Zero, glancing at the man's already hard dick. “Well?”
“But, you know, uhm, I guess if I were to bed a woman, the first thing first, I would have to undress her.”
Star made a puff, and started to take his shirt off. “He was more descriptive than that.”
“What?” Zero awkwardly grabbed his cock, giving it an awkward and trembling tug. “Did he talk about putting his penis in her vagina? Straight men like that right? Having a penis inside of a vagina in a woman, they uh, lay their seed too, in the woman.”
Star started to go a bit pale, nodding as he looked at the floor. “Yeah….”
“And I like doing that, obviously, because I’m a real man. I put my semen in women, my hypothetical woman, so that I can have children. Hopefully one day they won't be as sad as you.”
Star gulped, his fingers tightening in the bed sheets. “Yes father.”
Zero made a small noise as he opened his mouth, but closed back up mutely for a moment.
He gulped, then kicked Star lightly in the leg. “Finish un dressing, Johna-erm, Johanna, if you want to use boys for your sick fantasy’s then I’ll do it to you.”
Star cringed up, “I-I didn’t touch h-”
“Clothes, Johan.” And Zero kicked Star’s leg again.
Star nodded, standing with a fumble and finishing undressing himself.
Zero pushed Star back onto the bed.
Star looked up at Zero.
“H-he took his shirt off too…” Star mumbled.
“I want to keep my shirt on.” Zero said, gripping into his shirt with one hand.
“That’s alright, then.” Star nodded.
“Good, then stop talking back.” Zero snapped, he shoved Star onto his back.
Star yelped, cringing up and looking up at Zero as the man picked up the condom, fear rising visibly as Zero fumbled with it.
Managing to get it open, Zero looked at the condom as he slid it out of its package.
Star cracked a smile as Zero inspected it carefully.
Finally, with his shoulders falling, Zero relented from his condom inspection.
“Johnnycake, how do I do this?”
Star chuckled as he leaned up onto his elbows, “alright, you see how it's all rolled up?”
Zero nodded, still inspecting the condom.
“Alright, the right way up will be the side where it's a bit slippery and the edge is tucked under. You see that?”
Zero nodded again, fiddling with the condom more.
“Okay, when you put it on you gotta pinch the nub, then put it on and unroll it. It might be a little big on you but that's okay.”
Zero flipped the condom in his fingers a few more times, before grabbing the nub on the top awkwardly and starting to unroll it with his fingers. Star sat up quickly and grabbed Zero's wrist before he could mess up any further.
“Alright, Ben, here, let me just show you.” Star looked up at Zero who looked absolutely puzzled.
“I ought to learn, I've two boys to teach this.” Zero tried to laugh but nothing more than a hiss of uncomfortable air came out.
Star gently took the condom.
“Alright, Ben, you got it open and inspected it, now you find the right way up.”
Star flipped the condom in his hands, “you want to make sure that the condom is the right way up before you put it on, if you try to put it on upside-down you have to throw it away.”
“That's wasteful.” Zero chastised.
“If I were a woman and you smear precum on the outside of it and then flip it and put it on what do you think will happen?”
“And what if I have a disease and I get it on there…” Zero gasped.
“That's using your noodle, Ben.” Star chuckled as he punched the nub of the condom. “Alright, you pinch the tip of the condom to make sure no air is in there, okay?”
Zero nodded, “so there isn't extra friction?”
“Exactly,” Star moved forwards, touching the condom to the tip of the other man's cock.
Zero nearly leapt out of his skin, gasping as his cock twitched and he took a step back from Star.
“Your hands are warm.” Zero said with a clear shock.
Star blinked for a second, then started to laugh. “First time getting your dick touched, obviously, am I supposed to give you a Mazel Tov?”
“It is not,” Zero suddenly huffed, “I’ll have you know Zorran touched it first.” And then the man started to turn pale as he realized what he said.
Star started to laugh deeply, snorting as he doubled over.
“It's not funny!” Zero hissed, “he wanted to have sex in his engine room! I almost didn't stop him because I was scared!”
“I'm sorry, I know it was probably traumatic because you are the way you are, but the way you said it,” Star gasped, “give me a moment, but that's priceless.”
Zero steamed for a moment, then broke, sighing as his shoulders fell.
“I don't know what it says about either of us if I’m supposed to be your father and you are sitting here laughing until you cry.” Zero broke a small smirk and stepped back forwards, “we’re getting nowhere with my erection and your therapy, Johnnycake, come on.”
Star kept giggling to himself as he readjusted, going to put the condom on Zero again, who twitched but didn't jump away.
“Okay, you put it on your dick with the tip pinched, then unroll it like this.”
Zero watched as Star got the condom on him with little effort, nodding. “That's… convenient.”
Star nodded back. “Lube is a little less tactful in its use, you won't need me to spread it on you?”
Star smirked back at Zero, raising an eyebrow and chortling.
Zero sighed, then with a sharp and strong movement slammed Star into the bed.
“Can't resist being a pervert, can you Johanna?” Zero snapped, venom on his tongue.
Star looked up at Zero, squeaking as he took a deep breath and shook, fear starting to tremble onto his features.
“B-but I was h-helping-”
Zero grabbed Star by the shoulders, digging in his nails and strangled him onto the bed fully as the other man squirmed.
Zero pinned Star down, sitting on the other man's legs as he held him by the arms.
“You just wanted an excuse to touch a real man's penis, didn't you?”
“I-”
With a sharp crack, Zero smacked Star. “Didn't you, Johan!”
Star started to tremble harder, eyes perking with tears. “No Father, please I was just doing a favour I-”
With another crack Star yelped as Zero struck him.
“That is ‘Yes father' you cretin.”
Star started to sniffle as Zero sat up, picking up the crisco jar and cracking it open.
“Please, Please don't-”
“You know you deserve this, you filthy pervert.”
Zero put a glob of crisco on his cock. Star attempted to sit up but Zero shoved him back down.
“You need to learn your place, Johan.”
“I didn't hurt him!”
Zero pressed his forearm into Star’s throat, glaring at the man tightly.
“You are a filthy liar, Johanna,” Zero snarreled as he adjusted Star's legs. “You are a terrible, disgusting child, you want to ruin boys into girls, then you can be mine, got it?”
“I-I didn't touch him!” Star hiccupped, tears starting to flow down his face.
With only a short moment of fiddling, Zero pushed himself into Star sharply.
Star reached up, grabbing Zero's shirt as he yelped in uncomfortable painful fear.
Zero paused, his body flinching and starting to tremble instantly as the warm pressure built up around his cock, he bit his lip sharply and groaned. After a hard breath he looked down at himself.
Zero grabbed Star's hands and tore them off his shirt.
“Don't touch me, sissy, you don't get to touch me.” Zero snarled. He put his hands on the bed on either side of Star’s head and adjusted his hips against Star's body, grinding his dick into the sobbing and hiccuping man.
“Please, stop, father please.”
“Be quiet,” and Zero struck Star harshly.
Star quieted for a moment, only hiccuping and crying.
Zero thrust once, having to stop again as the feeling overwhelmed him.
Star remained quiet, eyes wide and body trembling as he quietly sobbed and hiccupped.
After the brief moment, Zero adjusted his body, giving Star another thrust at a new angle.
This time, as Zero bottomed out in him, Star tensed up hard.
He looked directly at Zero and swung, clocking him in the jaw harshly.
Star kept sobbing as he started to fight harder, swinging and bucking to get free.
Zero recovered from the first swing quickly, and then pulled himself out of the other man.
As Star kept fighting against Zero, Zero pulled Star into a tight grip, hugging him tightly and resting the other man's head into his chest.
“Shh, Johnny, it's okay. It's okay I'm not going to hurt you anymore, shh.”
Star started to break out of the panic he was in as Zero held him and hushed him.
“Johnnycake, you're okay.” Zero rubbed Star's scalp, keeping the man's ear pressed against his chest.
Zero wracked his brain, thinking hard before shakily and coarsely attempting to sing something softly. “Herr Mannelig Herr Mannelig trolofven I mig.”
He repeated the line quietly as Star started to tremble, no longer fighting him as Zero gently swayed him and held him.
Clearer and gently, as Zero finished a repeat of the phrase, Star murmured a continuation to himself as Zero let him, keeping the man securely held.
Star trailed off after a few lines, breathing hard.
“I heard you sing that you Del once.” Zero said softly.
“You’re awful at Swedish." Star mumbled, letting the other man keep swaying him. “Your heart beats fast.”
“I'm a little anxious,” Zero said quietly. “You hit pretty hard with that weak arm.”
Star sighed, “I still feel bad, you were helping me.”
“I think I hit your prostate.” Zero was blunt, “It was pretty quick, it must be a trigger for you.”
Star nodded, taking a deep breath. “I’ll talk to my shrink about that.”
Zero hummed, petting Stars hair for a moment. “I've never had my prostate touched in any manner but clinical but it's still rather intense, I can't imagine.”
Star chuckled mildly, “really? You’ve never experimented?"
“It always made me scared I’d get hurt.” Zero admitted. “Or sick.”
Star pushed away from Zero and smirked at him. “You priss. You princess.”
Zero sighed, giving the man a tired look.
Star glanced down.
“You didn't even get to deal with your hard on.” Star commented.
“I…” Zero glanced down. “It was so intense feeling. And you started swinging fast.”
“Hmm,” Star rubbed his neck, “I should thank you.”
Zero sighed, “John, it's nothing really-”
“No,” Star said firmly, “no, it's not. You lost your virginity inside of me and didn't get to enjoy it, or at the very least you didn't get rid of that erection.”
Zero went to speak, but stopped and closed his mouth, mulling on the other man's words.
“I feel bad,” Star continued, “you gave up yourself for me, I want to… no I need to return the favour.”
Zero took a shaky breath. “It's like onah, I assume?”
“What?”
“A mitzvah,” Zero thought for a moment. “I gave you something sexually that's changed me. You are compelled to owe it back.”
Star considered for a moment, then nodded.
Zero sighed, letting fully go of Star and standing, he grumbled to himself mildly as he walked to the other man's nightstand again, digging through the drawer before returning with multiple condoms.
Zero sat on the bed, throwing the condoms between them, and averting his eyes from Star.
“Deal with it how you see fit.” Zero said quietly. “I… can't say I have any reservations.”
Star gave a mild chuckle, “first I need this.”
Star reached down, pulling the condom off of Zero with a firm tug, dragging his fingers down the other man's cock.
Zero tensed, a small squeak leaving his lips.
“Ruben,” Star said firmly, he put his hands on Zero's chest, and pulled him by the shirt. He pushed him down, with his head on the pillow of his bed. “Ruben, you have to communicate if you want something to stop.”
Zero made a weak gulp, but nodded, “of course.”
“You also have to tell me if you like something.” Star added, adjusting himself to be sitting between Zero's legs. He leaned forwards, pressing his body into Zero's. Zero let out a wilted and small moan as the other man ran his hands from his thighs up, holding Zero's sides under his shirt. “See, it's easy to say you like something.”
Zero gave Star a flat look. “Johnnycake I-”
Star cut Zero off by running his hands roughly further up to his chest.
Zero moaned as Star kneaded his fingers into his chest.
Then, Star removed his hands, pulling them out of the man's shirt to start unbuttoning it.
Zero grabbed one of Star's wrists. “I want to keep my shirt on.”
“I wasn't taking it off.” Star said quickly, “I just need some access, is that okay?”
Zero nodded mutely as Star continued, undoing half of his buttons.
“I need you to relax, Ben, relax.”
Star pushed Zero's shirt, revealing one of his pecks.
Star gently ran his thumb over Zero's already hard nipple, the man in question gasping as Star kneaded his thumb into his chest.
Gently, Star leaned forwards, pressing his tongue against the other man, before taking his full nipple into his mouth.
Star suckled on the man, rubbing his nipple with his tongue and holding it in place with his teeth as he sucked on it.
Zero grabbed the back of Star's head, starting to moan and writhe as he dug his fingers into the man's hair.
Star crept his other hand up under Zero’s shirt, starting to gently squeeze and rub his other nipple between his fingers.
Star removed his mouth from Zero momentarily, “relax, Ben, let yourself relax,” he said gently before he went back to sucking the man's nipple.
As he kept working on the man’s chest, he gently started to grind his hips against Zero’s, rubbing his semi-hard cock against Zero’s erection gently.
Zero started to writhe, his breathing shallow as his stomach tensed and untensed with every movement of Star’s hips.
Star pulled away from Zero’s chest again.
“Ben, you have to relax.” Star’s voice was low. “Let all your tension go, or you won't enjoy this.”
Zero’s breath hitched for a moment, his abdomen tensing up.
“I… I’m trying. I can’t.” Zero mumbled, his face turning a muddy colour as patches of paleness broke through his deep flush. “I… I can’t breathe without tensing up.”
Star sighed, and he thought hard for a moment.
“Let me know when you need to breathe,” Star’s voice was gentle, “we can take breaks, but I can’t move in you with you tensed up.”
“I-” Zero made a few hard gulps, his stomach rippling, “I already feel winded, your pushing on my chest, I-”
“Shh,” Star gently adjusted himself onto his hands and knees, hovering over the smaller man, he took a large, deep breath and lowered himself down, pushing his mouth against Zero’s. He took his hand off Zero’s chest and carefully pinched his nose shut, before exhaling into Zero’s mouth.
Zero’s chest inflated, and the tension started to leave his body as Star backed away from him.
“Do you need another breath?” Star’s voice remained soft as Zero stared at him, his lower lip starting to tremble.
“N-not just yet.” Zero said, his voice smooth as his chest deflated only a little with each word. “Johnnycake… what c-can I say….”
“Hey, I’m thanking you here.” Star gave Zero a smirk as he gave a short, quiet laugh. “I can’t just let you croak.”
Zero brought up his hands, gently caressing Star’s face.
“Can…” Zero trailed off, averting his eyes from Star as he made a weak breath on his own.
Star laughed gently, “I think I know what you want.”
Star leaned down again, pressing a gentle kiss onto Zero’s lips.
Zero whined, reaching up again to hold the man kissing him closer.
Star lowered himself gently onto Zero, placing a hand on his chest and squeezing one of his nipples.
As Zero moaned, Star took the opportunity to sink his tongue into the other's mouth.
Zero moaned louder as Star explored his mouth, grinding his hips up into Star's as he ventured into meeting the man's tongue with his own.
Star backed off, drawing a small, needy whine from Zero.
Smirking, Star squeezed Zero's nipple again. “I didn't know you were a kisser, Ben.”
Zero glanced away from Star. “Well… I uh… I did know that already.”
Star chuckled, grinding against Zero and teasing his nipple. “You did?”
Zero puffed, not looking back at Star. “I… have had a few brief encounters.”
Star sighed, he leaned down and pressed another brief kiss into Zero's lips.
“Maybe I could've figured that,” Star kissed Zero's jaw. “I remember years and years ago you were on a case.” Star planted a kiss farther down Zero's jaw. “We did have a pretty little flapper squirming between us until you chickened out.”
Star pressed a kiss into the soft skin under Zero's ear, eliciting another moan.
“You bastard,” Zero hissed breathlessly. “I nearly forgot about that.”
“Well, now I have you squirming under me.” Star smirked against Zero's skin, making the man shiver. “I enjoy this more.”
Zero huffed, snorting indignantly as his face burned even hotter red.
“You are so easy to tease,” Star chuckled, he pressed another kiss under Zero's ear. “You are very fun.”
Star gently pressed his lips against Zero's again, pinching the other's nose and giving him a breath.
Star sat up, fumbling for a condom and quickly getting it on.
“You know, it's more fun without one.” Star gave Zero a smirk. “I’m clean.”
“No.” Zero said finally.
Star rolled his eyes as he picked up the Crisco jar, getting a reasonable glob onto his fingers.
“Ben, relax.”
Zero made a small puff. “Trying.”
Star gently pressed his fingers against Zero's ass, while gently touching Zero's stomach.
“Just let your tension melt away.” Star’s voice was low and soft as he gently pushed against Zero's hole.
Zero made a small whimper as Star rubbed his stomach with one hand and pushed his fingers into Zero.
“That's good, Ben, just relax.”
Zero’s breathing hitched as Star's fingers hilted inside of him.
“Don't tense, just relax.” Star’s voice was quiet and soft. “I'm not going to let you suffocate, I won't hurt you.”
Zero weakly nodded, his body trembling with nerves.
Star slowly started to thrust his fingers, causing Zero to almost instantly tense up and gasp.
“Shh, sh sh.” Star stopped as soon as Zero tensed, “just breathe for a moment then relax.”
Zero made a hard gasp, before his body started to soften up again.
“I'm going to move again, okay?”
Zero made a shallow nod in return.
“Relax, just relax.”
Star started to thrust his fingers again, taking care to move slowly.
Zero started to writhe as Star pushed his fingers back into Zero, letting out a small series of breathy squeaks as the man pressed his fingers firmly into the wall of his ass.
Suddenly, as Star hilted his fingers again, Zero let out a low, strangled moan as the man's fingers pushed against his prostate.
“You like that?” Star asked, keeping up the mild pressure.
Zero nodded, unable to get out anything but harsh breaths and small moans.
Star smirked, and gently started to knead his fingers against the bundle of nerves inside of the other man. Zero moaned louder, his hips twitching as Star kept up rubbing his fingers into the other.
Zero started to whimper as he moaned, and as Star kneaded, his body twitched and pulsed back against the man's fingers.
Star gently slowed down, holding his fingers against Zeros prostate and letting the man stimulate himself as Star chuckled.
“Are you ready for more?” Star asked softly.
To which Zero replied by moaning, “Johnny,” and squirming.
Star pulled his fingers out of Zero's ass, giving an amused hum as the other man whimpered and gasped.
Star picked up the jar of Crisco again, taking a gob and pushing it against Zero's ass before taking another and gripping his cock, stroking it a few times to spread the lube evenly.
The man leaned forwards again, pressing his lips into Zero's and pinching his nose shut again with his clean hand, giving Zero another breath.
“Just relax for me, Ben.” Star said softly, pushing the tip of his cock against Zero's hole.
The man under him whined at the pressure.
“Take me, Johnny,” Zero mumbled, rocking his hips to push against Star's cock.
Star pushed his cock into Zero slowly.
The man being penetrated started to whine, moan, and squirm as Star’s cock slid into him, filling his ass completely.
As Star hilted himself in the other, he leaned forwards and pushed his lips against Zero's again.
Zero's hips twitched, his mouth opened in an instant and he ground himself into Star, digging one hand into the others hair and the other grasping the man's back to pull him closer.
Star moaned back into Zero's mouth, grinding his hips into Zero as he pushed his tongue back into the man's mouth.
Zero came undone under Star's touches, whimpering and pressing against the man taking him.
Star backed away, he smirked at Zero. “To think, I haven't even started fucking you yet.”
Zero glanced up at the man, his voice small. “Move in me,” the man gasped, his hands grasping tightly, “move in me, leave yourself in me, please.”
“Oh? You want me to cum in you?” Star's smirk grew. “Does the well spoken pretty boy want me to come in his ass? Full him with semen? You're going to have to be more clear than that, Ben.”
Zero writhed, moaning as his body adjusted around Star's cock.
“Johnmycake,” Zero moaned as the man twitched his hips. “Johnnycake, fuck your baby into me.”
“Oh that's more like it, Ben.” Star chuckled, grinding into Zero. “I want to hear you be crass and dirty. I want you to tell me what to do to you.”
“Fill me,” Zero warbled, “fuck me.”
Star grunted, his smirk growing. “As you wish.”
And as commanded, Star started to slowly thrust.
Zero's back arched and he moaned as Star started to pump his cock into his ass.
Zero's voice grew thin, moans and whines overtaking his ability to speak anything but whimpers of the other man's name.
“You're so tight, Ruben, you feel so good.” Star growled, his pace picking up. “You’ve relaxed so well for me, but you're still so tight and unused.”
Zero’s ability to speak was nearly gone as he dug his nails into Star's back.
He whimpered the man taking him’s name on repeat, begging for him.
Star grunted, leaning forwards and pinning Zero's cock between their bodies.
Slowing, Star pressed his lips into Zeros, plugging the man's nose and delivering a large breath to the man.
Star backed off, smirking as he ground himself into Zero and rubbed Zero's cock with his stomach.
Zero looked up at him with pure ecstacy in his eyes and a soft tiredness on his face.
His voice was breathless and soft as he whimpered, “Johnnycake… I don't know how much more I can take….”
“You want me to bring it home?” Star chuckled, keeping up his grinding. “Tell me what you want, Ben.”
“Come in me,” Zero whined, “make a mess in me.”
Star laughed mildly. “Do you want me to take the condom off?”
Zero tensed up, “no.”
Star nodded, “understood. Just wanted to check.”
Zero suddenly shifted mood, growing worried. “Sorry I-”
“You said no, that's good.” Star grunted, he smirked and started to roll his hips, giving long, deep thrusts to the man under him. “I’ll just have to do my best to make a mess of you despite it.”
Zero moaned, his hips twitching and rolling involuntarily, pressing down and against the other man with his movements to force him deeper and create more friction in his ass and on his cock sandwiched between the two.
“Johnny, please…” Zero took the sides of Star's head, grabbing his hair tightly.
“You want to cum?” Star purred, “then we’ll make you cum.”
Star untangled one of Zero's hands from his hair, he pinned it to the bed and knit his fingers into the others.
He started to pick up speed, thrusting hard and deep as he kept Zero's cock pinned between the two. Finally, he leaned forwards and pressed his lips into Zeros, strangling the man's moans into a passionate kiss.
Star kept up his pace, fucking the man under him as thoroughly as he could as he started to fall apart.
Star’s thrusts grew erratic and heavy, he started to moan into the kiss and grind down more feverishly into Zero.
Zero's body tensed, twitching and buckling as he let out a heavy strangled moan back into Star's mouth. His cock, still pinned between the two, throbbed and twitched for a moment before his entire body released, his ass starting to pulse against Star's cock hungrily, and his semen coating him and Star's stomachs with a pent up and relieving load.
Not letting up, Star started to make quick, shallow thrusts, whimpering into Zeros mouth and tightening his grip on the man's hand as he pushed himself towards the edge, fucking the other man through his orgasm.
With a feverish, grinding thrust, Star yelped into Zero's mouth, grasping the man's hand tightly and cumming hard.
Giving a few more grinds, Star's cock throbbed and pulsed, dumping cum into the condom and warming Zero's ass.
Zero moaned louder, his mouth fervently trying to kiss Star deeper still as he squeezed the man's hand back.
Star relaxed, laying atop the man and continuing to engage with the kiss as his cock softened and started to slip out of the other.
Zero turned his head, gasping harshly as he broke off the kiss.
“Johnnycake, we’re a mess.” He gasped, his finger loosening from the other's hand. “I have-”
“You need to sit and catch your breath.” Star said softly, “I'll be right back, you understand?”
Zero gave a curt nod, and Star stood, removing himself fully from the man.
Holding the wall, he walked to the bathroom keeping a glancing eye on Zero until he knocked and entered the bathroom quickly.
Quickly cleaning himself up, Star wet a cloth and returned to the bedroom.
Zero was breathing rhythmicly, laying on his back with his hands on his stomach, looking at the ceiling.
Star watched him for a moment, before he continued to approach.
“You're a mess, Ben.” Star chuckled, “lets clean your big mess up.”
Zero looked up at Star, his face going muddy. “I should-”
“Ah ah,” Star knelt down on the side of the bed, gently raising Zero's shirt and starting to wipe away the semen on his stomach. “You need to keep air in those lungs, besides,” Star made a smooth chuckle, he collected a smear of cum on the side of his finger, then brought it to his mouth, giving a smirk as he tasted it.
Zero went deep red as he watched the other man taste him thoughtfully.
“not bad, not bad at all.” Star commented, going back to cleaning the other man carefully, moving to wipe the cum from his dick. “Infact, quite good. You eat a lot better than a lot of men.”
Zero stammered, Star just continued to chuckle to himself.
He circled the bed, putting the cloth down on Zero's night stand. “One last thing you need to know,” Star sat down on the edge of the bed, starting to carefully undo the harness on his leg.
“W-what’s that?” Zero sat up into his elbows, eyeing Star. “Did you hurt yourself? Is your leg damaged?” he considered options for a moment. “Johnathan Star do you have a disease!”
“No, no, none of that, Ben.” Star broke the seal on his leg, carefully setting it on the floor next to the bed.
He turned, gently wrapping his arms around the other man and pulled him back to laying down.
Star snuggled into Zero's back, holding the man close.
“We both need to calm down, and we both need a bit of human contact while we do it. This is probably the most important part of sex. The after bit.” Star said, adjusting himself to fully press up against the others back. “Thank you, Ben.”
Zero stammered as he settled into the other man's hold.
“Dont thank me I needed to deal with uh, the erection and-”
“Shh…” Star adjusted his hold on Zero, dragging his hand down the man's side before putting a hand on the man's lower abdomen.“You did more good than you know, Ben. You're a good man. You're a good friend.”
Zero was quiet for a moment, before he sighed, “thanks, Johnnycake. I wouldn't do anything less for a friend like you.”
“Get some sleep,” Star whispered softly, “you need your strength.”
“Good night, John.”
“Good night.”