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Mara sent the first AURORA7 text at 7:03 in the morning, which was rude for three reasons. One, I had not had coffee. Two, she knew I had not had coffee. Three, nobody needed to use the phrase “Doyun vocal devastation” before sunrise.
Technically, the concert had been on my calendar for three months, ever since Mara survived the presale bloodbath with two tickets, a bruised credit card, and the kind of religious certainty usually reserved for prophets and women who believed their bias had personally saved their lives. I was going because she was my best friend, not because I was a HALO, not because I owned a Crownlight, and definitely not because I understood why a man singing one bridge in Korean could make half the internet threaten to walk into traffic.
I was beta. We were supposed to be the reasonable designation, the steady middle ground between alpha drama and omega biology, but nobody ever mentioned how much emotional labor came with being friends with a woman who treated concert day like a holy war.
My phone buzzed again on the nightstand, hard enough to rattle against the glass of water I had forgotten to drink before bed.
MARA: Tonight is sacred.
MARA: Wear comfortable shoes.
MARA: Do not call the Crownlight a glowy stick in public.
MARA: Actually do not call it that in private either.
MARA: Nora.
MARA: I know you’re awake.
I was not awake in any meaningful sense. I was conscious, which was different and much less useful. My apartment was still gray with early light, my coffee had not happened yet, and the blanket I had kicked off sometime around three in the morning was twisted around my legs like it had legal rights to my body.
Not a nest. Just a bed with commitment issues.
I reached for my phone, squinted at the screen, and typed with one eye closed.
ME: If you say Doyun vocal devastation before I brush my teeth, I’m blocking you.
Her reply came so fast it felt premeditated.
MARA: You can’t block fate.
I stared at that for a second, then dropped the phone facedown on my chest. “Watch me,” I muttered, though there was no heat in it. Mara had been my best friend since college, which meant I had spent years being lovingly bullied into caring about things I had never asked to understand. AURORA7 was only the most recent, most elaborate, most expensive example.
My apartment smelled like clean laundry, old coffee grounds, and the vanilla candle I kept forgetting not to buy. It was small, second floor, bad water pressure, good windows, with too many blankets folded over the couch and a stack of library books on the end table I kept pretending I was going to return on time. Mara called it cozy. My mother called it cluttered. I called it mine, which was the only description that mattered.
There was a soft gray throw over the back of the couch, a heavier cream one tucked into the corner of the armchair, and two more folded in the basket beside the TV. I had stopped defending the blanket situation sometime around the fifth one. Betas were allowed to enjoy texture. Not everything soft was an omega thing, no matter what the internet thought, and if anyone tried to diagnose me based on my couch accessories, I would bite them in a strictly nonbonding, legally insignificant way.
The thought made me snort as I shoved the blankets off my legs and sat up. Bond bites were not casual. Everybody knew that. There were laws, forms, counseling recommendations, cooling-off periods, horror stories, romance novels, and at least one documentary my mother had made me watch when I was seventeen because she believed fear was a valid teaching tool. Alphas and omegas could get poetic about it all they wanted, but teeth in skin meant something. A real claim meant consent, witnesses if you were smart, and paperwork if you didn’t want your relatives making the next six months unbearable.
None of which had anything to do with me.
I had been marked beta at sixteen after two blood tests, one scent panel, and a humiliating questionnaire about cycle symptoms I did not have. No heats. No rut sensitivity beyond the usual public-transit misery. No scent spikes, no nesting drive that couldn’t be explained by liking a soft blanket, no biological reason for anyone to get dramatic near my neck. Beta was simple. Beta was stable. Beta meant I could mostly ignore the messier parts of designation politics, aside from occasionally breathing through my mouth when an alpha decided the train car needed to know he owned cologne.
My phone buzzed again.
MARA: Also I sent you a video.
MARA: Watch it before work.
MARA: It’s educational.
I groaned, dragged myself out of bed, and padded barefoot toward the kitchen. “Educational,” from Mara, meant either a ten-second clip of Doyun singing like his heart had been professionally broken, or a three-minute fan edit proving Riven was, in her words, “not scary, just emotionally complicated.”
Mara was a Doyun bias with a Riven bias-wrecker problem, which sounded like a sentence generated by a malfunctioning algorithm until you spent enough time with her. Unfortunately, I had spent enough time with her. I knew Doyun was the main vocal, part of TrackFlare and VoxFlare, and apparently capable of causing “legal damages” with a bridge. I knew Riven was the rapper-producer with cheekbones Mara described as hostile architecture. I knew Jae was the leader, Seven was the dancer, Hajoon was the sunshine one Mara didn’t trust because “no man that pretty smiles that innocently without hiding something,” Taeho was the weird one, and Yul was the youngest but I was not supposed to call him baby unless I wanted the internet to materialize in my walls.
I knew enough to survive a car ride with Mara.
That was not nothing.
*****
My coffee maker had two settings: reluctant and judgmental. It sputtered through the last few inches of brew while I stood in the kitchen, barefoot and squinting, with my phone propped against the sugar canister and Mara’s “educational” video paused on Doyun’s face.
He was very pretty, which was inconvenient because Mara was already smug enough.
The clip was from some live performance in Tokyo, according to the caption. Doyun stood under blue-white light with one hand wrapped around a mic, dark hair falling into his eyes, mouth parted around a note that probably had its own dedicated fan account by now. Behind him, the rest of AURORA7 moved through the shadows like they had been built for stages and slow-motion edits. Riven crossed behind him for half a second, black jacket open at the throat, jaw sharp enough to violate zoning laws.
I watched the full ten seconds, because I was a good friend and also because Mara would know if I lied.
ME: Fine. Vocal devastation acknowledged.
MARA: THANK YOU.
MARA: Wasn’t the bridge insane?
ME: I was distracted by Riven looking like he sells haunted real estate.
MARA: That is the bias wrecker effect.
ME: Is there medication for that?
MARA: Merch.
I laughed into my coffee and burned my tongue, which felt like an appropriate punishment for encouraging her.
The apartment was too quiet after I set the phone down. Outside, morning traffic hissed against damp pavement, tires dragging through the last of last night’s rain. Chicago spring had a talent for making every day feel like it had been left in the sink too long, all gray light and wet sidewalks and wind that found the gap between your collar and your skin like it had a personal grudge.
I took my coffee to the bathroom and started the process of becoming a person.
The mirror over the sink was old enough to be unkind. It caught every crease from my pillow, every shadow under my eyes, every strand of hair that had decided overnight to seek independence. I pulled my hair back, then let it down, then pulled it back again because I worked at an animal clinic and vanity had limits when there was a real possibility of being sneezed on by a Labrador before noon.
My work clothes were exactly as glamorous as my life: black scrub pants, a soft gray long-sleeve shirt, and sneakers that had seen things. I added a cardigan because the front desk was either freezing or aggressively warm depending on which part of the building the ancient HVAC system had chosen to punish that day.
The scent blocker stick was in the top drawer beside my hair ties and a lip balm I had bought three times because I kept losing it. I hesitated before grabbing it.
Not because scent blockers were unusual. They were normal enough, especially in crowded cities. Alphas wore them when they needed to keep from overwhelming a room. Omegas wore them when they wanted privacy or were between suppressants. Betas wore them when they had to spend any length of time on public transit with people who believed personal scent was a personality.
I used them more than most betas I knew.
That did not mean anything.
Some people were sensitive to noise. Some people hated fluorescent lights. I got headaches from cheap alpha cologne and omega perfume that smelled like someone had drowned a bakery in flowers. It was not a designation crisis. It was having a nose and opinions.
I swiped the blocker lightly under my jaw and at my wrists, just enough to blunt the city. For the concert later, I would need more. Arena air was going to be a nightmare: sweat, perfume, blockers, adrenaline, stage fog, beer, nachos, bodies packed too close together, and Mara vibrating beside me with religious purpose.
My stomach gave a small, unhappy twist.
“Don’t start,” I told it.
My reflection did not look convinced.
I tossed the blocker into my bag with my wallet, keys, phone charger, and the emergency granola bar that had been living there long enough to qualify as a dependent. Then I stood in the middle of my bedroom, staring at the pile of clothes on the chair, because tonight required an outfit and my brain had decided that was a separate problem from going to work.
Mara had sent me three options the night before, all of them black, cute, and completely unsuitable for standing in line outside an arena in spring wind. I had compromised by setting out dark jeans, ankle boots, and a black top that made me look like I had tried without implying I had entered a competition. There was a jacket too, because I was not dying of hypothermia for AURORA7.
My phone buzzed again while I was moving the concert clothes from the chair to the bed.
MARA: Reminder that doors are at 6:30.
MARA: Merch opens before that.
MARA: If we want Face Card packs, we need to be there early.
ME: I have a job.
MARA: Capitalism ruins everything.
ME: Says the woman buying idol trading cards.
MARA: Those are investments.
ME: In what?
MARA: Joy. Also possibly Doyun fox cards.
I glanced at the time and swore under my breath. If I did not leave in the next ten minutes, I would hit the school traffic near the clinic and spend twenty minutes trapped behind SUVs with stick-figure families on their back windows and alphas leaning on horns like volume was a leadership style.
The kitchen still smelled like coffee when I went back for my travel mug. I added too much oat milk, screwed the lid on crooked, fixed it before it betrayed me, and checked the apartment the way I always did before leaving. Stove off. Window locked. Bathroom light off. Phone in bag. Keys in hand. Scent blocker packed. Concert clothes waiting like a dare.
My gaze caught on the couch on the way to the door.
The blankets were a mess from the night before, one gray, one cream, one deep blue half-sliding onto the floor. I had the sudden urge to go straighten them, fold them properly, tuck the blue one back into the corner where it belonged. It hit sharp and stupid, a little hook under my ribs.
I was going to be late.
I still crossed the room and fixed them.
Not because it mattered. Not because the arrangement soothed something in me the second the corners lined up and the softest one sat within reach of the armrest. It was just nicer to come home to a clean couch. That was normal. That was adult. That was not nesting.
I grabbed my bag before my brain could start an argument with itself and locked the door behind me. The hallway smelled like old carpet, someone’s burnt toast, and the sharp, citrusy blocker Mrs. Alvarez downstairs used whenever her son came home from college in full alpha swagger. I wrinkled my nose and took the stairs instead of waiting for the elevator, because the elevator always smelled like wet coats and other people’s mornings.
Outside, the air was cold enough to bite but not cold enough to justify complaining, which meant everyone would complain anyway. I tucked my chin into my scarf and headed for my car, stepping around a puddle that reflected the pale sky in broken pieces.
My phone buzzed once more before I made it out of the parking lot.
MARA: Are you excited?
ME: For work? Never.
MARA: For tonight, gremlin.
ME: I am excited for you to be excited.
MARA: Acceptable. Barely.
MARA: Tonight you become HALO-adjacent.
ME: Put that on my tombstone.
I slid into the driver’s seat, set my coffee in the cup holder, and turned the key. The engine coughed once before catching, because even my car liked to make sure I knew it was doing me a favor.
The clinic was twenty-three minutes away on a good day and forty on a day when the universe had opinions. I pulled out of the lot, merged into traffic, and let Mara’s AURORA7 playlist start automatically from where she had left it the last time she stole my Bluetooth. A bassline filled the car, low and dark, followed by a voice I recognized despite myself.
Doyun.
Of course.
He sang something in Korean I did not understand, then an English line slid through the melody, soft and devastating enough that I hated Mara a little for being right.
Stay where the light can find you.
My fingers tightened around the steering wheel for no reason I could name.
“Pretty,” I admitted to the empty car.
Then Riven came in underneath him, voice low, rougher, threaded with something that felt like smoke curling under a closed door. The song changed shape around him, turning darker without getting louder.
I sighed.
Mara was going to be unbearable.
*****
By the time I pulled into the clinic lot, the song had ended, Mara had sent me two more messages I refused to answer while driving, and the coffee had started doing the only job it had ever truly been qualified for.
The sign over the front door read RIVERBEND ANIMAL CARE, though the “B” had been flickering for six months, so half the time it looked like I worked at RIVER END, which felt ominous for a place that mostly handled ear infections, vaccines, and the occasional dachshund with too much confidence. I parked beside Kenzie’s dented blue hatchback, grabbed my bag, and braced myself before opening the door.
The clinic always smelled like disinfectant first. Under that came dog breath, cat fear, clean towels, kibble, wet fur, and the faint metallic edge of medical tools. Some days it was too much before eight in the morning. Today, with blocker under my jaw and coffee in my blood, it was manageable.
Mostly.
“Nora,” Kenzie called from behind the front desk before I had fully stepped inside. “Tell me you brought caffeine and a will to live.”
“I brought caffeine,” I said, shrugging out of my coat. “Let’s not get greedy.”
She leaned around the computer monitor and made a face at me. Kenzie was an omega, twenty-three, aggressively competent, and currently wearing a scrub top covered in cartoon raccoons. She had the kind of sweet scent that would have filled a room if she did not keep it locked down under blocker at work, all honeyed warmth and soft edges. Even dulled, it clung to her when she was stressed, which meant I knew before she said anything that the morning had already turned feral.
“Dr. Patel is running fifteen minutes behind, Mr. Callahan is here with Bruno and an attitude, and someone threw up in exam two,” she said.
“Animal or human?”
“Animal, thank God, but Mrs. Weathers saw it happen and gagged so dramatically that we almost had both.”
I hung my bag on the hook under the counter and logged into the front desk computer. “Beautiful. Love a strong start.”
Kenzie slid a clipboard toward me. “Also, Mara called.”
I paused with my hand on the mouse. “Called the clinic?”
“She said you weren’t answering your phone.”
“I was driving.”
“I told her that. She said tonight was sacred and asked me to remind you not to forget your ‘glowy stick.’”
I closed my eyes. “She did not.”
“She did. Then she corrected herself and said Crownlight like she was afraid the walls were listening.”
“They might be. HALO seems organized.”
Kenzie grinned and leaned her hip against the counter. “Is tonight the idol concert?”
“Unfortunately.”
“You say that like you weren’t humming in the parking lot.”
“I was not humming.”
“You were. It was pretty.”
“That was cultural osmosis,” I said, clicking through the appointment schedule. “It happens when your best friend plays the same seven men at you for two years.”
Kenzie’s grin turned sly. “Are any of them hot?”
“No,” I said automatically, because it was important not to reward her.
“Nora.”
I sighed. “Statistically, probably.”
Before she could press, the front door swung open and the waiting room shifted around the scent of irritated alpha.
Mr. Callahan entered with Bruno, his ninety-pound German shepherd, who had the emotional range of a thunderstorm and the leash manners of a runaway shopping cart. Mr. Callahan was built like a retired linebacker and scented like cedar, black pepper, and too much confidence. Even through his blocker, his alpha presence pushed at the room, not aggressive exactly, but careless, the way some alphas forgot other people had nervous systems.
Bruno felt it too.
His hackles rose before the door shut behind them.
“Morning,” Mr. Callahan said, hauling Bruno toward the desk. “We’ve been waiting outside for ten minutes.”
“We open at eight,” Kenzie said brightly.
“It’s eight-oh-two.”
“Then you timed it beautifully.”
I bit the inside of my cheek and came around the desk before Kenzie got herself murdered by customer service. Bruno’s ears were pinned, his pupils too wide, his body stiff with all the signals people loved to ignore right before they got bitten. Mr. Callahan kept the leash wrapped tight around his fist, which only made the dog brace harder.
“Hey, Bruno,” I said softly, stopping several feet away and turning my body sideways.
His eyes cut to me.
I did not reach for him. I did not crouch too fast. I did not make direct eye contact. I let my shoulders drop, breathed slow, and softened my voice until it barely brushed the air between us.
“Rough morning, buddy?”
Mr. Callahan huffed. “He’s fine. Just dramatic.”
Bruno’s lip twitched.
“He’s telling us he’s overwhelmed,” I said, still watching the dog, not the man. “Can you loosen the leash a little?”
“He’ll lunge.”
“He might if he keeps feeling trapped.”
There was a beat where Mr. Callahan’s alpha pride bristled hard enough that even my blocker could not save me from it. The pepper-sharp edge of him scraped down my nerves. My skin prickled under my sleeves.
I held my smile anyway.
Beta did not mean immune. It just meant people expected you to be reasonable about everyone else’s nonsense.
Mr. Callahan loosened the leash by half an inch. It was not enough, but Bruno felt the difference. His weight shifted. His ears lifted a fraction.
“Good boy,” I murmured.
Bruno’s nose worked, drawing in the room. Disinfectant. Kibble. Kenzie’s honey-soft blocker. Mr. Callahan’s cedar-pepper irritation. Me, probably smelling like coffee, laundry, and the faint unscented wax of my own blocker.
His stare fixed on my wrist.
I went still.
Animals did that to me sometimes. Not every animal, not always, but enough that my coworkers joked about it. Nervous dogs leaned toward me. Feral cats blinked first. Rabbits stopped trying to launch themselves into the afterlife when I held them. I had always assumed it was patience. Animals liked patience.
Bruno took one careful step forward.
Mr. Callahan blinked. “Huh.”
“Can I?” I asked, holding out the back of my hand but not moving it into Bruno’s space.
Bruno sniffed once, then pressed his nose to my knuckles and exhaled warm against my skin. The tension eased out of him so suddenly that his whole body seemed to drop an inch.
Kenzie watched from the desk, eyebrows high.
“Look at that,” she said. “Animal whisperer beta nonsense strikes again.”
“Professional skill,” I said.
“Sure.”
Mr. Callahan gave a short laugh, some of the alpha bluster leaving him now that his dog was no longer preparing to make legal history. “He doesn’t usually warm up that fast.”
“Sometimes they just need a second,” I said.
Bruno leaned his shoulder against my thigh like we had made an agreement. I scratched the base of his ear, and he closed his eyes.
For one strange second, the waiting room quieted around me.
Not actually. Phones rang. A terrier barked from the back. Mrs. Weathers coughed in the corner while her ancient Persian glared from a carrier like a cursed monarch. Kenzie typed. Mr. Callahan breathed. The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead.
But under it all, I felt Bruno’s heartbeat slow beneath my fingers. I felt the shape of his fear recede, not in words, not in anything mystical, just an awareness so intimate it almost made me pull my hand back.
Then the clinic phone rang, and the moment snapped.
“Riverbend Animal Care,” Kenzie said, grabbing the receiver. “This is Kenzie. How can I help?”
I stepped away from Bruno, suddenly self-conscious.
Mr. Callahan cleared his throat. “Thanks.”
“No problem.” I took the leash gently when he offered it. “I’ll get him checked in.”
The rest of the morning unfolded with the usual controlled chaos. Bruno went into exam one and only barked once. Mrs. Weathers’ Persian tried to remove Dr. Patel’s thumb from her body. A beagle named Toast ate half a silicone cupcake liner and looked deeply proud of himself. Someone’s newly presented alpha teenager came in with the family golden retriever and accidentally flooded the waiting room with nervous, spicy pheromones until his mother hissed at him to use his blocker like the rest of civilized society.
By eleven, my head had started to ache behind my eyes.
Not badly. Just enough.
I took my break in the supply room because the staff lounge was occupied by a vet tech crying over a breakup and an alpha pharmaceutical rep whose scent had somehow gotten through three layers of blocker and a closed door. The supply room was narrow, cool, and smelled mostly like paper towels and antiseptic wipes. I sat on an overturned box of puppy pads, unwrapped my granola bar, and checked my phone.
Sixteen messages from Mara.
Of course.
MARA: Merch line update from Chicago HALO group: already forming.
MARA: People are camping.
MARA: Not camping camping. Just emotionally camping.
MARA: I need you to understand the stakes.
MARA: Face Cards are randomized.
MARA: If I pull Doyun fox, I may ascend.
MARA: If I pull Riven panther, I may also ascend but in a different outfit.
MARA: Do you think it’s embarrassing to bring card sleeves?
MARA: Don’t answer that. I’m bringing them.
There were also three images.
The first was a photo of Mara’s Crownlight laid out on her bed beside spare batteries, a portable charger, a clear bag, and what looked like enough lip gloss to hydrate a small nation.
The second was a screenshot of the FEVER CROWN teaser rumors, though nothing official had dropped yet. HALO had apparently decided the next era was going to be dark, sexy, and emotionally damaging based on half a second of red lighting in a tour VCR.
The third was a merch preview: seven small animal charms designed to hang from Crownlights.
Black wolf. Red fox. Black panther. Snow leopard. Golden retriever. Raven. White tiger.
They were stupidly cute.
I hated that I thought so.
ME: The fox is cute.
MARA: THE FOX IS DOYUN.
ME: Yes, I gathered from the twelve fox emojis.
MARA: It’s his animal rep. Keep up.
ME: Why is Riven a panther?
MARA: Because he looks like he would judge you from a velvet couch.
ME: That is not zoology.
MARA: It is fandom science.
I zoomed in on the charms despite myself. The wolf had a tiny silver crown. The fox had a little notebook. The panther wore headphones. The snow leopard had a ribbon curved around one paw. The golden retriever had a sun charm. The raven had a glitchy little screen. The white tiger had a star collar.
“They really will put faces on anything,” I murmured.
The supply room door opened before I could put my phone away.
Dr. Patel leaned in, dark hair twisted into a clip, stethoscope still around her neck. She was beta too, which was one of the reasons I liked working for her. She had the calm, no-nonsense energy of someone who had built an entire career out of telling alphas to stop arguing with medical professionals.
“There you are,” she said. “You okay?”
“Fine.” I held up my granola bar. “Living the dream.”
She studied me for half a second too long. “Headache?”
“A little. Waiting room was loud."
“And scented,” she said dryly.
“Also that.”
“I can cover the desk if you need five more.”
I shook my head. “I’m good.”
Dr. Patel’s gaze dropped to my phone, where the animal charms still filled the screen. “Concert tonight?”
“Mara’s concert,” I corrected.
“Ah. The idol group.”
“The idol group,” I agreed.
“My niece likes them. She has a poster of the one with the fox.”
“Doyun.”
“Of course you know his name.”
“I know all their names against my will.”
Dr. Patel smiled, then nodded toward the clinic. “Finish your bar. Then I need your magic with Toast. He’s decided the treatment room floor is lava.”
“Professional skill,” I said again.
“Sure,” she said, exactly like Kenzie had.
When she left, I looked back down at the merch preview one more time.
The tiny white tiger stared up from the screen, cartoon eyes bright and harmless.
A ridiculous little charm. A piece of plastic and paint. Something fans would clip to their Crowns, photograph in coffee shops, trade in parking lots, and scream about online.
I had no idea why looking at it made the back of my neck prickle.
I rubbed the spot with two fingers, annoyed with myself, then shoved the last bite of granola bar into my mouth and stood.
“Concert nerves,” I told the paper towels.
They did not argue.
****
By the end of my shift, I smelled like antiseptic, dog fur, and the vague emotional defeat that came from explaining to a grown adult why his cat could not survive on rotisserie chicken and spite.
My headache had faded, then returned around four when a nervous omega brought in a shaking spaniel and apologized six times for the strength of her scent. She had nothing to apologize for. She was scared, the dog was scared, and the waiting room was full of people pretending not to notice. I checked them in, found them the quiet corner near the brochure rack, and gave the spaniel a towel from the warmer because sometimes comfort was not complicated.
By five-thirty, comfort sounded like my couch, the blue blanket, takeout, and absolutely no arena full of screaming people.
Kenzie caught me staring at the clock while I wiped down the front counter. "You're going to bail, aren't you?"
"I am considering becoming mysterious and unreachable."
"On Mara?"
I winced. "No."
"Good, because she called again."
I turned slowly. "Kenzie."
"She asked if you had eaten."
"That's not concert-related. That's friendship."
"She also asked if I thought you would try to wear your work sneakers."
I looked down at my shoes.
Kenzie's mouth twitched. "She knows you."
"She weaponizes history."
"She sounded excited," Kenzie said, softer this time. "Like, really excited."
That was the problem. Mara's excitement was ridiculous and loud and impossible to ignore, but underneath all of it, she had wanted me there. Not any warm body with a ticket. Me.
My phone buzzed as if summoned.
MARA: I know this isn't really your thing.
MARA: But I'm really glad you're coming with me.
MARA: Also please don't wear the work sneakers.
I stared at the screen for a second, feeling my resistance fold in on itself like wet cardboard.
Unfair. Deeply unfair.
ME: I was not going to wear the work sneakers.
MARA: You looked down before answering, didn't you?
ME: I hate you.
MARA: Love you too. Doors at 6:30.
I clocked out, grabbed my bag, and tried not to think too hard about the small, bright twist of nerves under my ribs. Concerts were a lot. Crowds were a lot. Tonight would be loud and scented and overstimulating, full of alphas trying to smell expensive, omegas layered in blockers and perfume, betas pretending we were above the chaos while participating in it anyway.
But Mara would be there with her Crownlight and her card sleeves and her ridiculous, whole-hearted joy.
So I went home.
The apartment was exactly as I had left it, which should not have felt like relief and did anyway. The blankets were still folded on the couch. The air still smelled like vanilla, laundry, and me. I stood in the doorway for a second longer than necessary, letting the quiet settle over my skin.
Then my phone buzzed again.
MARA: Outfit check in twenty.
ME: Absolutely not.
MARA: That was not a request.
I laughed despite myself and headed for the bedroom.
The jeans were on the bed where I had left them, dark and comfortable enough to survive public transportation. The black top was softer than it looked, with a neckline that made me feel like I had tried without committing to discomfort as a lifestyle. I swapped my scrubs for the concert clothes, brushed out my hair, added mascara, then stood in front of the mirror trying to decide if I looked like someone going to a concert or someone's tired aunt pretending to understand youth culture.
Close enough.
I packed my bag with the seriousness of a woman preparing for battle: wallet, keys, phone, portable charger, scent blocker, gum, emergency granola bar, and the little packet of pain reliever I carried everywhere because bodies were unreliable. I hesitated over the scent blocker, then added a second one. Arena air was going to be brutal. That was not anxiety. That was planning.
The couch caught my eye again on the way out.
One corner of the blue blanket had slipped loose.
I stared at it.
"No," I told myself.
The blanket continued existing incorrectly.
I crossed the room, fixed it, and immediately felt better, which was annoying.
Not nesting. Just standards.
At 6:02, a horn honked outside, quick and impatient.
Mara.
I grabbed my jacket, locked the door, checked twice for my keys, then made it halfway down the stairs before my phone buzzed one more time.
MARA: Crowns up, beta girl. Tonight we touch greatness.
I rolled my eyes so hard it almost became a medical event.
ME: Tonight we sit in assigned seats and you scream responsibly.
MARA: I make no promises.
Outside, Mara's car idled at the curb, music already pulsing faintly through the closed windows. When I opened the passenger door, Doyun's voice spilled out into the cold evening air, smooth and aching over a bassline that made something low in my stomach tighten.
Mara leaned across the console, grinning like the world had been built specifically to bring her to this moment. Her Crownlight sat in the cup holder, the ring catching the dashboard glow.
"You ready?" she asked.
No, obviously.
But she was glowing with happiness, and I loved her, and one concert could not possibly change anything important.
"Sure," I said, sliding into the passenger seat. "Let's go see your vocal devastation."
Mara shrieked so loudly I almost got back out of the car.
For the record, that was the last normal thought I had for a very long time.
*****
The shriek was quickly followed by a five-minute lecture on how to correctly hold the Crownlight, which I did not own and had no intention of purchasing. Mara was borrowing a spare for me from a fellow HALO, and she treated the loaner as if it were a fragile historical artifact instead of a plastic stick with a Bluetooth chip.
“You have to have it, Nora. It syncs to the stage,” she explained, maneuvering her small car through the dense evening traffic. “And when the wave happens, you need to be part of the wave.”
“I’ll hold it respectfully,” I promised, tapping the steering wheel to the rhythm of the high-energy song blasting from the speakers.
“Respectfully is not enough. You need to radiate spiritual alignment,” she countered, then paused. “Don’t radiate anything, actually. Your blocker is working, right? We’re going to be shoulder-to-shoulder with thousands of alphas.”
I reached up and touched the back of my neck. “Double application. I’m fine.”
The car ride was a blur of fan theories, a deep dive into the significance of Riven’s new undercut, and a careful analysis of the choreography for a song I barely knew the chorus of. Mara was vibrating with anticipation, her scent—usually a mild, warm hazelnut—tasting sharp and sweet around the edges of her blocker. She was a woman completely in her element, and it was hard not to catch a faint echo of her mood.
When we finally reached the arena, the city had been swallowed by HALO. The sheer volume of people was staggering: rivers of dark clothing and glowing Crownlights flowing toward the entrance, making the concrete plaza look like a digital ocean. The air hit me immediately, a chaotic wash of hundreds of layered perfumes, blockers fighting each other, street food, and the sharp, electric tang of mass excitement.
I gripped my jacket tighter, grateful for the physical barrier, and reached a hand to my neck to double-check the blocker again. It was doing its job, but the city’s usual ambient noise and scent had been turned into a physical pressure.
“Okay, plan: security line, bathrooms, then straight to our seats,” Mara said, her voice tight with focus. She pulled her hair up into a messy bun and checked her reflection in the side mirror one last time. “We don’t need merch, we don’t need drinks, we need to breathe the atmosphere.”
“I need to not get trampled,” I muttered, stepping onto the curb and immediately being swept into the flow of bodies.
We spent twenty minutes inching through the security line. The crowd was a study in designation demographics: clusters of loud, imposing alphas with their territorial scents barely muffled; quiet groups of omegas holding their partners’ hands; and a large, sensible, and slightly annoyed mass of betas, navigating the chaos like seasoned commuters.
I kept my head down, focusing on the back of Mara’s black jacket, letting her drag me along. My beta designation was a shield in a place like this, unremarkable enough to be invisible. I was just part of the background, a silent observer in a world built for extremes.
Inside, the arena was vast and deafening. The concourse was a sensory overload of flashing screens, booming music, and the collective noise of twenty thousand conversations. The air was warmer here, thick with adrenaline and expectation.
“Floor B!” Mara yelled over the music, grabbing my arm. “Come on, we’re close!”
Close turned out to be an understatement. We followed the aisle down, and down, and down, until the stage stopped looking enormous in the abstract and started looking close enough to touch. The extended catwalk cut out into the crowd just a few rows ahead of us, glossy black under the lights, with stage tape marking the edges and security already posted along the barricade.
“Mara,” I said, staring at our seats. “These are insane.”
“I know.” She sounded smug enough to levitate.
“How did you even get these?”
She shoved me into the aisle seat, then slid into the one beside me with the confidence of a woman who had fought Ticketmaster and lived to tell the tale. “Ticket karma.”
“That is not a real thing.”
“It is when you suffer enough in presale.”
The space around us was already filling up, mostly women, mostly young, all armed with their Crownlights and the kind of excitement that made the air feel charged. Mara tucked her bag under her seat, checked the stage, then checked the catwalk, then looked at me with wide, shining eyes.
“Perfect,” she said. “I need room to flail.”
“I’m going to need room to meditate,” I said, settling my bag at my feet.
Mara ignored me, pulling the borrowed Crownlight from her clear bag and shoving it into my hand. “Hold this. You don’t have to turn it on yet, but feel the weight of destiny.”
It was heavy, solid, and completely ridiculous. I set it on my lap, a plastic anchor in a sea of anticipation.
Then Mara looked at me, her eyes wide and shining in the dim arena light. “I’m so glad you’re here, Nora. This is going to change your life.”
“It’s a Tuesday night concert, Mara,” I said, but the sound of my own voice was thin and small against the rising roar of the crowd.
She didn't argue. She just smiled—a wide, whole-hearted, terrifyingly happy smile—and turned toward the stage, her own Crownlight already glowing faintly in her hand. The lights dimmed, the first swell of the opening VCR music hit the speakers, and the entire arena screamed.
And for the first time, despite my headache, despite the crowds, and despite my absolute refusal to care about pop idols, I felt a tremor of something new: a small, reluctant awareness that maybe, just maybe, I was in the exact place I was supposed to be.