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The hospital always smelled the same.
Not clean, not dirty—something in between. A sharp blend of disinfectant, plastic gloves, and something faintly metallic that Dazai had stopped trying to identify years ago. It wasn’t important. Nothing in a hospital stayed important for long unless it was bleeding, failing, or about to stop functioning entirely.
He adjusted the file in his hand as he stood outside Room 214. The door was slightly ajar. A nurse passed by him quickly, whispering something to another staff member, their footsteps fading too fast to matter. Dazai knocked once. Not because it was necessary. Because it was expected.
Then he stepped inside.
There was relief in the voice. Not dramatic, not loud. Just quiet relief, like someone seeing a lifeline they didn’t realize they were waiting for. Dazai closed the door behind him with his foot. “You’re still dizzy?”
“A little,” the patient admitted, shifting slightly in bed. “But it’s better than yesterday.”
Dazai flipped a page in the file. His eyes scanned without lingering. “You’re responding normally to treatment. The dizziness should decrease over the next few days.” The man let out a breath, shoulders loosening. “That’s good, right?”
A pause.
Dazai looked up at him then. Not sharply. Just… directly. “Yes,” he said. “It’s good.”
Something about the way he said it made the man visibly relax further, like he’d been waiting for permission to believe it.
Dazai noticed that reaction. He always did. Experienced doctors, am I right? Except... Dazai was no experienced doctor. He was just a 22 year old doctor and was new to his work yet all patients liked him in a weird way. Comforting yet always this strange aura around him. People didn’t just want answers. They wanted 'certainty packaged as a person'. He gave neither more than necessary.
“Try not to move too suddenly,” Dazai added, glancing at the monitor. “You’ll recover faster if you stop testing your own limits.”
The patient gave a weak laugh. “That sounds like you’re telling me off.”
“It is.”
That made the man pause. Then, unexpectedly, he smiled.
“Doctors usually sugarcoat things.”
Dazai tilted his head slightly. “And you prefer lies?”
“No,” the man admitted quickly. “Just… softer truth, I guess.”
There was a beat of silence. Dazai set the file down at the edge of the bed. “Softer truth is still the same truth,” he said. “It just takes longer to accept.”
The man didn’t respond to that immediately. He looked at the ceiling for a moment, thinking. “…You always talk like that?” he asked eventually.
“Like what?”
“Like you already know how things end.”
Dazai’s expression didn’t change. “I usually do.”
The patient looked at him again, slightly unsettled now. Dazai noticed that too. He turns towards the door. “You’ll be fine,” he said, hand already on the handle. “Try not to make my prediction incorrect.” And then he left.
The hallway outside was louder than the room had been. It always worked like that. Quiet inside problems, noise outside them. A stretcher rolled past him quickly, nurses moving with practiced urgency. Someone called a name down the corridor. A phone rang and was ignored.
Dazai walked through it without adjusting his pace. His mind didn’t linger on any of it. Not because he was indifferent. Because lingering required something to hold onto. And there wasn’t anything solid enough for that here. By the time his shift ended, his shoulders felt heavier than they had in the morning. Not exhaustion exactly. More like accumulation. Hours stacking into something that refused to become rest. The hospital doors slid open with a soft mechanical sigh.
Outside, the air was cooler and certainly not as much as suffocating as a patient's room. Dazai stopped just beyond the entrance, letting the noise of the hospital fade behind him. It didn’t disappear completely—it never did—but it loosened its grip enough to feel like a different world.
People passed him on the sidewalk. A couple laughing. A man checking his phone too intensely. A child tugging at a sleeve. Life, continuing without permission. Dazai watched it without participating. Then he started walking.
***
The café was still there like it always was. Not because it was special, but because it refused to become anything else. No flashy sign, no loud colors, no attempt to pretend it was more important than it was. Just warm light behind glass. Dazai pushed the door open. A small bell chimed.
“Welcome back.”
The voice came immediately, like it had been waiting.
Dazai didn’t look surprised. “You say that too easily.”
Behind the counter, Sakunosuke Oda glanced up from what he was doing. “You keep arriving at the same time.”
“That’s called habit.”
“That’s called returning.”
Dazai exhaled through his nose, something almost like amusement, and moved toward his usual seat.
The café was quiet in a way that felt deliberate. Not empty. Just… unpressured. No one rushed. No one spoke louder than necessary. Even the air seemed slower here, like it had decided not to compete with anything.
Dazai sat down.
Oda placed a cup in front of him without asking.
Dazai glanced at it. “You’re confident I won’t change my order.”
“You won’t.”
“That sounds like control.”
“It’s observation.”
Dazai took a sip anyway.
It was exactly right. He hated that it was exactly right.
Oda leaned slightly against the counter. “Long shift?”
Dazai stared at the cup for a moment before answering. “They’re all long.”
“That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the only one that matters.”
Oda didn’t push further, but his eyes stayed on Dazai a little longer than usual. Not intrusive. Just aware. Dazai noticed that too, and didn’t comment.
A few minutes passed.
The café remained still except for the occasional sound of cups shifting or footsteps in the back. Dazai looked out the window. The street outside was dimmer than usual, headlights stretching across the glass in passing streaks.
“Do you ever get tired of repetition?” he asked suddenly.
Oda didn’t answer immediately. It wasn’t a question that needed urgency. It had weight, but no pressure.
“I don’t think repetition is the problem,” Oda said finally.
Dazai glanced at him slightly. “Then what is?”
“When you stop noticing it.”
That made Dazai pause for a fraction longer than usual.
“…That sounds worse,” he said.
“It can be,” Oda admitted.
A faint pause. Then Dazai gave a small, almost careless shrug. “I stopped noticing a lot of things a long time ago.”
Oda’s expression didn’t change. “That’s not surprising.”
“That’s not comforting.”
“It wasn’t meant to be.”
That made something in Dazai’s expression flicker—not emotion exactly, but recognition of something accurate. He took another sip. The door chimed again. This time, it was louder. Not because the door was different. Because the air shifted. Dazai didn’t look immediately. He noticed first—the interruption in stillness, the way the café seemed to acknowledge a new presence before anyone spoke. Then he turned.
A man stood near the entrance. Not particularly remarkable at first glance. But something about him didn’t match the room. Like he had walked in from a faster place and forgotten to slow down.
His gaze moved briefly across the café. Then landed on Oda.
“…This place serve anything that doesn’t taste like disappointment?” he asked.
Oda didn’t react strongly. “Depends on what you order.”
The man clicked his tongue. “Bad start.”
Dazai watched quietly from his seat.
The man walked toward the counter, hands in his pockets, posture loose in a way that suggested he didn’t think much about consequences. There was a bandage wrapped around his hand. Dazai noticed immediately. Of course.
“Don’t tell me,” Oda said calmly, “you did that yourself.”
“It’s nothing,” the man replied.
Dazai let out a quiet breath through his nose.
The man’s eyes snapped toward him instantly.
“What’s funny?”
Dazai met his gaze without moving. “You’re standing in a café with an injury you’re pretending doesn’t exist. It’s not funny. It’s predictable.”
The man frowned. “You’re a doctor?”
“Unfortunately.”
“That explains the tone.”
Dazai tilted his head slightly. “And what tone would you prefer?”
“Less judgmental.”
“That would require less stupidity on your part.”
A beat. Then the man smirked.
“You’re annoying.”
“I’ve been informed.”
Oda quietly placed a cup on the counter for the man. He took it without looking away from Dazai for a second. Something about the exchange didn’t feel important. Not yet. Just… present like a line had been drawn somewhere in the background of a drawing no one was paying attention to yet.
Dazai turned slightly back toward the window.
The café returned to quiet. But not quite the same quiet as before. For now.... nothing had changed. The normal routine followed. It never has an end, does it?
At least, nothing that could be named.
But routine had a way of remembering things people didn’t.
And sometimes? It waited.