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Huh? What? No, I'm worthless. Of course I am! Everybody says so. It must be true. Nothing I have is worthy of having worth. I don't have you.
What do you mean? I don't have you. I've never had you. You're perfect. I don't deserve to have that kind of stuff. I give away anything I think has any value, because my powerless hands can't hold onto them. I can't hold onto you. You can't hold onto me. I'll break.
I guess I'm selfish in a way, then. I don't take other peoples' compliments, but I give them out selflessly. Because compliments are something of worth. Not only that, compliments towards me are all false or forced. Because I'm worthless. Aren't I?
My mom tells me that I'm not enough. My dad tells me that I'm not enough. My sister tells me that I'm not enough. My teacher tells me I'm not enough. The convenience store worker thinks that I'm not enough, either. Which makes sense. I am not enough. No matter how hard I try, I won't be enough.
You're speaking nonsense. I'm not lowering my limit. My limit has always been low. I can't be better than other people. I'm worthless. I'm doomed to fail. It's my fate, isn't it? I just work that way.
You're speaking nonsense. Others' expectations are not high. I just can't reach them. Because I'm worthless and I'm never enough.
One day, all of this will end, but only when my parents let me. Maybe then I'll be enough, after I reach absolute nil.
I don't think I deserve to be near you. I love you, don't I? This is love, isn't it? What else can I bleed for you? I can drain myself completely for your content, unless your content is my own, and in that case, I'll have to say goodbye because I don't deserve to have you. And I don't have you. Because I'm worthless.