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Three months into filming her Bridgerton season, Hannah Dodd had stopped feeling like she was visiting someone else’s world.
The sets that had once seemed too beautiful to touch had become familiar in the way only a workplace could. She knew which floorboards creaked, which corners were always too cold, which crew members carried extra snacks in their pockets, and which gowns made it nearly impossible to sit down without assistance. The magic of it had not worn off exactly, it had simply settled into something quieter and more real.
They were close to the halfway point of the season now, and everyone seemed relieved by how well it was going. The days were long, the costumes were unforgiving, and some scenes asked for an embarrassing amount of emotion before anyone had properly finished their coffee, but the work felt good. Alive in a way Hannah had hoped for but had not wanted to expect.
A lot of that had to do with her co-star Masali Baduza.
Their friendship had blossomed years ago with ease, almost without either of them noticing the moment it became important. At first, they had simply gotten along. They laughed between takes, checked in on each other during heavy scenes, sent each other stupid photos from their trailers, and complained about the weather like two people who had known each other far longer than they had.
Somewhere along the way into filming the previous season together, Masali had become the person Hannah looked for first when she walked onto set.
There was nothing complicated about it back then. At least, Hannah had never allowed it to become complicated.
Masali currently had a boyfriend she was happy with, and Hannah was happy for her. She liked hearing Masali talk about him in the casual, comfortable way people talked about someone who fit neatly into their life. Hannah was content being Masali’s friend. More than content, really. She admired her talent, her discipline, the way she could be completely professional one moment and then make Hannah laugh so hard five seconds later that both of them got shushed by the assistant director.
Masali seemed just as happy with what they had. Hannah made the long days easier for her, softened the edges of the job without ever making it feel less serious. She brought warmth into rooms that had gone stiff from pressure, and Masali had come to rely on that more than she cared to admit.
They were good friends, best friends, maybe, in the strange accelerated way people became close on set, where twelve-hour days made months feel like years and everyone quietly pretended it would be simple to return to normal once filming ended.
Hannah stood at the little sink in her set trailer, one hand braced on the counter, staring at her reflection like it might eventually look back at her with some useful advice.
Her hair was pinned halfway up for the fittings, loose bits falling around her face the way they always did before wardrobe came to finish the job. An oversized robe hung open over her set clothing, pulling her posture straighter than her nerves felt.
She almost looked entirely like Francesca. There was always this odd split right before they started shooting, half of her still in trainers and yesterday's coffee, the other half trying to become a woman who'd lost too much and didn't have the words for what was left.
Today the split felt wider than usual... Because today was the kiss.
She had already brushed her teeth three times in preparation, and she knew exactly how stupid that was.
She let out a breath and immediately regretted how loud it had been in the quiet trailer.
"It's literally just a kiss," she told herself.
Her reflection looked skeptical.
It wasn't just a kiss, though. It was the kiss, the one the whole set had been circling for weeks on end. The scene where Francesca finally stopped calling her feelings grief and Michaela stopped pretending distance was enough. Hannah had run the lines until they felt like they belonged in her mouth. She knew every beat, every pause, every place the breath was supposed to catch.
And she knew exactly when she was going to have to kiss Masali.
Masali, who was her friend. The one who sent her voice notes at stupid hours that made her laugh out loud in public. The one who showed up to set with her script marked up like she was going into battle, only to crack some ridiculous joke five minutes later that left Hannah bent over wheezing. The one whose smile could feel private even when there were forty people and three boom mics around them.
Hannah's fingers drifted up to her mouth without her meaning to. She caught herself and dropped her hand like she'd touched something hot.
A knock sounded at the trailer door and her heart gave one hard, stupid jolt.
"Come in," she called, trying for normal and landing somewhere near strangled.
The door opened, and Masali stepped inside with her script tucked beneath one arm and a coffee in her hand. Her curls had already been styled, glossy and soft around her face, though the pins were not all in place yet.
Her costume was hidden under a black puffer coat that swallowed half of her Regency silhouette, which made the whole effect strangely perfect. Modern women from the neck up, Michaela Stirling hiding underneath.
She took one look at Hannah and narrowed her eyes. "You definitely brushed your teeth way too much."
Hannah's mouth fell open. "How could you possibly know that?"
"Because you look guilty and minty."
"I do not look minty."
"You do. It's a very specific look."
Hannah pressed her lips together, which only made Masali's smile widen.
"I brushed a normal amount."
"Did you really?"
"Yes. Only twice," Hannah lied.
Masali stepped farther inside and shut the door behind her with her hip. "I'm gonna guess that means three times."
Hannah looked away.
Masali laughed softly, and the sound did something unbearable to the morning. It loosened Hannah's nerves and sharpened them at the same time.
"You're nervous," Masali said.
"So are you."
"I never said I wasn't."
That made Hannah look back at her.
Masali's teasing softened, settling into something kinder. She crossed the trailer and placed her coffee on the small counter. "I am nervous," she admitted. "Not in a bad way. More in a... there are many people watching us have a very important emotional breakdown and then put our mouths together sort of way."
Hannah laughed, properly this time, relief breaking through her chest. "That is exactly the way."
"Yes. Technical term."
"The intimacy coordinator would be proud."
"She might actually resign."
Hannah smiled down at her script, which sat open on the little table, though she had not been reading it so much as staring at the same line for fifteen minutes. Masali noticed, of course.
"Do you want to run it?" Masali asked.
Hannah nodded too quickly. "Yes. Please. Before I start inventing new problems."
"You? Invent problems?"
"Shocking, I know."
Masali slipped out of her coat and laid it across the chair. Underneath, she wore the deep green gown for the ball scene, only partly finished, the bodice still loose where wardrobe had not made final adjustments. Even without the full costume, she carried Michaela in her posture; shoulders back, chin slightly lifted, that practiced composure that always looked one second away from shattering when Francesca was near.
Hannah had told her once that she thought Masali became Michaela differently than anyone else became a character by letting some sharper part of herself step forward. Masali had laughed it off at the time and said, "That is a very generous way of saying I look stressed."
But Hannah had meant it.
Now Masali took the opposite side of the small trailer, script in hand, and glanced down at the page.
"We're starting from Francesca entering?" Masali asked.
"Yeah. Unless you want to start at the part where you emotionally ruin me."
Masali looked up. "That narrows it down very little."
Hannah's laugh came out lighter than she felt. "From the door."
They began.
At first, it was easy because it was work. Work Hannah understood. The scene lived inside her by now.
Francesca entering Michaela's room after the ball, still flushed with panic and confusion, still trying to tell herself she had come only to demand an explanation. Michaela trying to stand still beneath the weight of what she wanted.
The words were formal, restrained, painfully careful in the way all the best scenes were when the characters were anything but.
Further into the scene, Hannah's voice changed at the same time Masali's did and the trailer disappeared by small degrees.
"You should not have followed me," Masali said, the line low and controlled.
"I did not know where else to go."
"You have an entire household full of people eager to comfort you."
"And yet none of them are you."
Masali's eyes lifted from the page, and something in the small space between them altered before either of them could pretend it had not.
It was a quiet shift, no more dramatic than the pause between one line and the next, but Hannah felt it all the same. She knew the words she was meant to say. She knew them so well by now that they lived somewhere beyond memory, ready to rise without effort, shaped already by Francesca's restraint and longing. Yet when Masali looked at her, the line seemed to catch behind her ribs instead of finding her mouth.
For one uncertain moment, Hannah only swallowed.
Masali's gaze dropped, briefly, to Hannah's lips. It was so quick that anyone else might have missed it. It could have been nothing more than an actress checking the angle of a scene, or a friend losing focus for less than a second. It could have been nothing at all.
To Hannah, it felt like the room had leaned closer.
She forced herself back into the script because that was what professionals did, and because if she did not, she feared she might stand there staring at Masali until the silence betrayed her. They continued, though the rhythm between them had changed. Every pause felt fuller than it had before, every breath more noticeable, and Masali was near enough now that Hannah could see the faint shimmer of gloss on her lower lip when the trailer light caught it.
When they reached the kiss on the page, they both stopped.
Masali watched in silence as Hannah glanced down at the script as though it might help her.
Eventually, Hannah exhaled a laugh and said, "This is so awkward."
Masali's laugh came almost at once, low and grateful, as though Hannah had opened a window. "Surprisingly so considering we're professionals at this shit."
"Well, that's debatable."
Masali lifted her script and swatted it at Hannah with a warning sort of dignity. "Do not insult my employment before lunch."
Hannah grinned despite herself, and the tension loosened just enough for her to breathe around it. "Right. Sorry. Your employment is very serious and very glamorous."
"Thank you. Finally, some respect."
They tried again, this time setting the dialogue aside and moving only through the mechanics of the moment. Hannah stepped closer, careful not to crowd her, and lifted one hand toward Masali's face. Her thumb found the place the intimacy coordinator had shown her, light along the edge of Masali's jaw, gentle enough to be nothing more than a guide.
Masali tilted her chin up to meet her.
The difference in their height made the moment feel more tender than Hannah was prepared for. She had to lean down slightly, and Masali had to rise into the space between them, it was enough that Hannah became suddenly aware of how carefully they were both choosing to move.
"Okay," Hannah said, though the word came out softer than she intended.
Masali's eyes flicked over her face. "Okay."
Hannah leaned in and kissed her, moving her thumbs up to press between their lips.
It was, without question, the most cautious kiss of her life.
It could hardly be called a kiss at all. It was more like a question placed politely against Masali's mouth, careful to the point of comedy, with Hannah's thumbs blocking their lips from touching and her shoulders held so stiffly that she could feel the effort of not feeling anything. Which, naturally, made feeling the only thing she could do.
The first mistake Hannah made was noticing how warm Masali's lips were under the pads of her thumbs. Her second was noticing the soft trace of some floral perfume Masali wore often enough that Hannah had begun, without meaning to, to associate it with early call times, shared jokes in makeup, and the peculiar intimacy of standing beside someone while strangers fussed over both their faces.
Masali pulled away first, laughter already touching her mouth.
Hannah went still. "What?"
"Sorry," Masali said, pressing her fingers lightly to her lips, though she was very obviously not sorry at all. "I just wasn't expecting that honestly."
Hannah dropped her hand, mortified and laughing despite herself. "I didn't know if I was supposed to actually kiss you."
Masali tilted her head, fond and disbelieving. "Hannah."
"What?"
"We are filming a kiss."
"Yes, but not here."
"This is rehearsal for it though."
"Yes, exactly, which is why I didn't know if I should, you know..." Hannah made a vague motion between them and immediately regretted it. "Properly."
The word seemed to hang there longer than it had any right to.
Masali's smile softened, though her big eyes gazing upward had become more intent in a way Hannah felt almost physically, like the warm press of a hand at the center of her chest.
"I will," Hannah added quickly. "If you want to practice it properly. Just so it's not weird when we do it on camera. I mean, it will be weird, obviously, because there'll be cameras and people holding giant sticks above our heads, but less weird... Maybe?"
Masali watched her for a beat before her humor returned like a curtain drawn open.
"I think," she said, "we should do it on camera first."
Hannah blinked. "You do?"
"Yes." Masali stepped back, script against her chest. "I have every faith in us."
Hannah gave her a look. "You say that like one of us did not just kiss the other like an HR seminar."
Masali laughed again, brighter this time. "Fine. I have almost every faith in us."
"Much better."
"Besides," Masali said, reaching for her coffee, "the first real one should belong to the scene."
Hannah's smile remained, but something underneath it went still.
Masali seemed to realize what she had said only after saying it. She looked down at her coffee, took a sip, and made a face. "Cold as fuck already."
Hannah seized the change in subject like a rope. "That's what you get for insulting my kissing."
"I did no such thing. It was only constructive criticism."
"More like workplace bullying."
Masali pointed at the script again. "Lets run it back one more time."
They went back to rehearsing, and for a while Hannah managed to pretend everything was normal.
That evening, the set felt different.
The room built for Michaela's lodgings glowed with candlelight, though most of it came from carefully hidden rigs and soft golden lamps placed just out of shot. The walls were papered in a muted floral pattern, darkened by shadows, with a dressing screen near one corner and a low fire flickering false warmth in the grate. A bed stood against the far wall, not meant to be used in the scene but impossible to ignore because every object in the room seemed designed to hold tension.
Outside the set, crew moved in practiced silence. Camera's adjusted while hair and makeup made final touches. Wardrobe swept in and out like ghosts, smoothing skirts, checking jewelry, tugging gently at fabric until the past looked effortless.
Hannah stood near the doorway in Francesca's pale gown, one hand wrapped around the small tin of mints she had carried all day like a talisman.
Masali stood a few feet away, rolling her shoulders once beneath the structure of Michaela's gown. She looked calm, as always. Hannah had grown used to the sight by now.
"You want one?" Hannah asked, holding out the tin.
Masali looked at it, then at her. "Do I need one?"
"No."
"That was too fast."
"What was?"
"You answered too fast. Now I think I need one."
"You don't."
"Mmm, be honest. Does my breath stink?"
Hannah pulled the tin back. "Forget it. I'm taking back my generosity."
"You cannot offer someone a mint before a kissing scene and then act innocent."
"I was being polite."
"So you were politely implying things then?"
Hannah's laugh slipped out before she could stop it. She opened the tin and put another mint in her own mouth, even though one was already tucked against her cheek.
Masali stared at her. "How many do you have in there?"
"None of your business."
"You are going to vibrate."
"I like to be prepared."
Masali held out her palm. "Give me one."
Hannah made a show of considering it.
Masali lifted her brows.
"Oh, fine." Hannah tipped a mint into her hand. "For the record, your breath is lovely."
Masali's mouth twitched. "Lovely?"
"I panicked."
"That was the word you found?"
"It was either lovely or historical."
"Historical breath?"
"You see now why I chose lovely."
Masali laughed, and the sound eased Hannah's chest again. The nerves, instead of disappearing, became shared, which somehow made them less frightening.
A production assistant called for quiet as the director moved closer to the monitors. The intimacy coordinator gave them both a final look, checking if they were all set. They both nodded.
They took their places. Hannah stood just outside Michaela's door, one hand lifted as though she had knocked and regretted it. Masali waited inside the room, half turned away, posture rigid. The slate clapped.
"And... action."
Hannah entered as Francesca.
It happened so completely that the nerves fell behind her. The room was no longer a set. It was too warm, too quiet, too full of everything Francesca had refused to admit to herself. The ball still lived in her body; the music, the eyes upon her, the sudden terror when she realized she had been searching the room for Michaela instead. She had come here to demand an explanation for how Michaela could look at her as though she was starving and still choose distance.
Masali turned and now wore Michaela's face entirely. She was composed, but her eyes were already ruined.
"What are you doing here, Francesca?" Michaela asked.
Francesca's throat tightened. "I could ask you the same."
"This is my room."
"And yet you fled to it as though pursued."
"I was pursued."
The line should have had bite, Masali gave it exhaustion instead.
Hannah felt tears gather before the script asked for them.
The scene unfolded as they circled one another with words, careful and cruel by degrees. Francesca accused without saying accusation. Michaela defended herself without defending anything that mattered. They spoke of grief because grief was safer. They spoke of John because his name gave them both somewhere to hide. They spoke of propriety because propriety had never felt more useless than it did with their bodies angled toward each other and every silence saying what the dialogue would not.
Masali's voice cracked on a line she had never cracked on before. "You believe I wanted to leave you?"
Hannah felt the words strike somewhere below the ribs.
"I believe," Hannah said, as Francesca, "that you did."
Masali stared at her.
The tear fell before Hannah expected it. She let it trail down her cheek slowly.
The set was silent around them.
"You do not know what it cost me," Michaela whispered.
"Then tell me."
"I cannot."
"Cannot, or will not?"
Michaela stepped closer. "Do not ask me that."
"Why?"
"Because I will answer you."
Hannah knew the next line. She knew she was supposed to say, Then answer me, and Masali was supposed to turn away. There were two more lines before the kiss. A breath, a reach, the slow giving in. But Masali's face was so open in that moment, so unbearably close to breaking, that Hannah forgot the order of things.
She stepped forward and kissed her.
Masali went still for half a heartbeat, surprised beneath Hannah's mouth, and then she kissed her back with such sudden feeling that Hannah's hand found her waist without thinking. The kiss was meant to come later, meant to be framed and earned and hit the mark where the camera waited. It did none of those things... It was too early, too hungry, and far too real in the wrong place.
"Cut!"
The kiss lingered for a second beyond permission, maybe two. Hannah could feel Masali's breath catch against her mouth. Then Masali pulled back, laughter breaking through her composure as she dipped her head.
"Hannah," she whispered.
Hannah laughed too, awkward and breathless, heat flooding her face. "I skipped the line."
"You skipped several emotional landmarks."
"I'm sorry."
Masali looked up at her, eyes bright with amusement and something Hannah refused to name. "Francesca was impatient."
"Just a little."
The director approached with the gentleness of someone trying not to laugh. "Beautiful energy. Wrong beat."
Hannah covered her face with one hand. "I know. My fault. I'm sorry."
"It's all right," the director said. "Let's go again from Michaela's 'Do not ask me that.' Same intensity. Just let the script get there first."
Masali nodded, professional again at once, though Hannah could see the smile she was biting back.
They reset.
The second take began well, until Masali missed her line.
Hannah watched the exact moment Masali realized it. Her eyes flicked, her mouth opened around the wrong word, and then she stopped.
"Cut."
Masali closed her eyes. "That was me this time."
Hannah immediately pointed at her. "Emotional landmarks. Remember?"
Masali laughed despite herself. "Shut up."
The crew began to move around them. Someone adjusted a candle. Makeup swept in to dab Hannah's cheeks. Masali stood still while a stylist fixed one curl near her temple, but she kept looking at Hannah from the corner of her eye, and every time Hannah caught her, they both nearly started laughing again.
The third take held, everything aligned. This time, Hannah said the line. Masali turned away when she was supposed to. Hannah followed her, forcing them to be face to face again.
The silence stretched exactly as written, filled with the kind of ache that made the cameras feel irrelevant.
"Then answer me," Francesca whispered.
The kiss came on the correct beat and because it came where it belonged, it was worse... Or better? Neither of them could truly tell.
Masali rose into it, one hand catching lightly at Hannah's side as Hannah bent toward her. At first, it was the scene. Francesca breaking and Michaela surrendering. The months of restraint, the years of denial, the grief folded into desire until neither could be separated from the other.
Then Masali's hand grazed the line the script allowed, against Hannah's chest, intimate only because the scene had made it so, and Hannah felt it everywhere.
She knew the marks and boundaries. She knew where Masali's hands were scripted to go and where her own were permitted to answer. It all flew out the window when she felt the pressure against her chest, and her lips began claiming Masali’s with sudden, devouring intent.
Her tongue swept forward, coaxing Masali’s mouth open on a gasp she could not contain. Teeth followed; a sharp, deliberate nip to Masali’s lower lip that sent lightning straight down her spine.
Masali answered with equal ferocity. Her hands, meant only to cradle, instead gripped. One palm flattened against the small of Hannah’s back and pulled, hard. The other rose to tangle in the pearls at Hannah’s nape, anchoring her closer. Their tongues met again, slower this time, a deep, sliding exploration that tasted of want long denied. Masali felt the world tilt, lights, crew, script all blurring into irrelevance. Heat bloomed low in her belly, liquid and insistent. She could feel the corresponding tightening of her own nipples against the stiff boning of her costume, the subtle throb between her thighs that had nothing to do with performance and everything to do with the woman currently biting her lip like she wanted to devour the sound Masali made in response.
“Cut.”
The word arrived from very far away.
They kept kissing.
Masali walked Hannah backward in a slow, inexorable dance until the set wall met Hannah's spine. The impact drew a soft, startled moan from her throat that Masali swallowed greedily. Masali's thigh pressed between Hannah's skirts, not quite indecent but close enough that the pressure sent fresh sparks racing through Hannah's core.
Hannah's hands were at Masali's shoulders, then higher, around the back of her neck, fingers brushing curls and pins. Masali pressed closer, still shorter, still looking up into the kiss even as she took control of it.
"Cut."
Someone laughed nervously.
At this point, they both knew they should pull away but Masali kissed her once more, sharp and breathless, and Hannah answered like she had been waiting all her life for it.
The final, "cut!" was spoken a bit louder, finally doing its job.
Masali broke first, laughing into Hannah's shoulder. The sound saved them from most of the embarrassment.
Hannah wrapped her arms around Masali's neck because they were already there, because letting go too quickly would feel stranger, because her legs did not feel entirely trustworthy. Her breathing came hard. Masali's forehead rested for a moment against the curve between her shoulder and throat, the laughter warm against her skin.
Hannah giggled too, helplessly. It was the kind of laughter that came when something had gone terribly wrong but no one was angry, or when something had gone terribly right and no one knew what to call it.
Masali lifted her head, still smiling, but her eyes were darker now.
Hannah looked down at her and forgot, for one clean second, that anyone else existed.
Then the director clapped once. "Okay. Wow."
The room exhaled around them.
Hannah released Masali quickly, though not so quickly it looked like panic. Masali stepped back and smoothed her gown with both hands, all professionalism returning in a rush. Hannah copied her, touching her hair, though she had no idea what state it was in.
The director came forward, eyes lit with excitement. "That was incredible. Truly. The emotional build was exactly what we need. The take is electric."
Hannah tried to smile. "Great."
"But," the director added, with a careful glance toward the intimacy coordinator, "it did become a little more intense than scripted. Not bad. Just more. I want to do another, starting from the kiss, and keep that same feeling with slightly more control. We may use pieces of what you just did, but let's get a cleaner version."
"Of course," Masali said at once.
Hannah nodded. "Yeah. Absolutely."
Masali glanced at her as they reset, and this time her smile was small enough that it felt hidden.
When they stood close again, she leaned in just enough to murmur quietly, "Keep your tongue in your mouth this time."
Hannah's eyes widened, a laugh nearly escaped her. "Excuse me?"
"You heard me."
"That sounded personal."
Masali's mouth curved. "Then take it personally."
Hannah stared at her for half a second too long.
The slate clapped.
Action.
Hannah ignored her entirely. The kiss started where they had been told to begin, and Hannah slipped her tongue in, straight past caution. Masali made a sound that might have been surprise before laughing into the kiss, her shoulders shaking as she broke.
"Cut."
Hannah pulled back, laughing too. "Oops."
Masali squinted her eyes. "You know damn well-"
"You said take it personally."
"I did not mean as a challenge."
"You should know me better by now."
"I do. That was my mistake."
The director, trying valiantly to look stern, rubbed a hand over their face. "Again. Please. And maybe let's not make each other laugh this time."
"Yes," Hannah said solemnly.
"Very serious," Masali added.
They weren't serious until the third try began. Masali kissed her first. It was part of the adjustment, technically. Michaela taking the breath, Francesca following. But Masali did it with such control that Hannah forgot to be mischievous.
The kiss was slower, less frantic, coaxing rather than consuming. Masali's hand settled at Hannah's hip, grounding her. Hannah softened into it, letting Francesca's surrender guide the shape of her mouth, the tremble in her hand, the little broken breath she could not quite hold back.
Then Masali deepened the kiss, causing Hannah to make a sound into her mouth before she could stop it.
Masali's fingers tightened at Hannah's hips, and the kiss became something else again, something that moved through Hannah so quickly her knees weakened. Masali caught the shift and held her, pulling her closer with a steadiness that should have belonged to Michaela but felt dangerously like Masali herself.
Hannah did not know where the character ended... She did not know if she wanted to.
They broke for air exactly as scripted, foreheads coming together, breath mingling in the small space between them. Hannah's eyes remained closed as Masali's thumb moved once against her waist, so slight that no camera would notice unless it was looking for secrets.
Hannah exhaled and before the moment could end, she leaned forward and kissed Masali one more time.
It was unscripted, but softer. A final pull of feeling, a confession too quiet for dialogue.
The director let it continue, the room remaining quiet around them.
Masali answered the kiss, slower this time, and then pulled back only far enough to whisper, "Francesca."
The name passed through Hannah like cold water.
Francesca.
The realization opened inside her so quickly that for a moment she could not breathe.
She had not only been kissing the woman in the script who loved and suffered and ran. She had been kissing Masali. The friend who remembered how she liked her coffee and made jokes when Hannah was nervous. Masali, who looked up at her now with Michaela's tears still in her eyes and hand still warm at her waist.
Hannah had forgotten she was acting.
"Cut."
This time, they both heard it loud and clear.
The set broke into motion. Someone spoke near the monitors. The director said something pleased and relieved. Crew shifted and a stylist appeared at the edge of Hannah's vision, then paused, giving them a second.
Hannah inhaled, noticing how Masali's gaze dropped to her mouth.
There was moisture just beneath Hannah's lower lip, at the curve of her chin. Before Hannah could move, Masali lifted her thumb and wiped it away. The touch was gentle, casual enough to be friendly, intimate enough to undo her.
"You were amazing," Masali said softly.
Hannah's stomach tightened so hard she nearly forgot to answer.
Masali's thumb lowered.
Hannah knew how to put on a smile in response. She had been doing it professionally for years. Smile when the lights turned toward you. Smile when you needed a second. Smile when something inside you had shifted and no one else was supposed to see.
"So were you," she said.
She was grateful for how normal it sounded.
Masali held her eyes a moment longer, and Hannah wondered if she knew. If she could see the panic blooming beneath the compliment. If she felt even a fraction of the same terrible warmth still moving through Hannah's body.
Then Masali smiled, bright and easy, and turned toward the monitors. "I want to see it."
Of course she did, Masali always wanted to watch playback. Masali watched to learn, to adjust, to perfect. Hannah usually went with her, usually stood close enough that their shoulders touched while they analyzed expressions and angles and which take had the truest breath.
Today, Hannah followed two steps and stopped.
The monitor glowed ahead of them.
Masali leaned in beside the director, already focused, already back inside the work. The scene began to play and Hannah could hear herself, Francesca's voice trembling through speakers. She could hear Masali answer.
She could not watch the kiss. Not with everyone around them smiling like they had captured something brilliant, when Hannah was afraid the camera had captured something true.
"I'm just going to run to the restroom real quick," she said, to no one in particular.
A production assistant nodded and stepped aside.
Hannah kept her pace even as she left the set. She moved through the narrow passage between false walls and coiled cables, past the place where the candlelight ended and the industrial brightness of the studio returned.
Only when the set door closed behind her did she stop.
Her hand rose to her mouth, she could still feel Masali there.
Hannah shut her eyes, breath unsteady, and for the first time all day she did not try to joke herself out of what she felt.
She was in trouble.
Not Francesca.
Her.