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The silence that ensued was eating Monty up from the inside. "Jasper, please don't hate me." He had begun sobbing and couldn't stop - it felt like a regular occurrence.
"Let me in." Jasper stated, there was a hint of concern in his voice.
"No, I can't." Monty was shaking his head, he could barely put his feelings into words, his fears overriding him.
"Yes you can. Let me in."
How was he so damn convincing even at a time like this? Maybe if Monty had any sort of persuasion skills he could convince himself that he hadn't just done something awful. He slowly pulled himself away from the door, dragging himself to his feet and opening the door. Jasper was stood there in front of him an image of beauty despite the tear tracks running down his face. Before Monty could say anything he was pulled into a hug. "I'm so sorry." Was the only thing he could think to muffle into Jasper's shirt.
"Why are you apologising?" Jasper sounded genuinely confused or maybe Monty just wanted him to sound like that. "Monty you've done nothing wrong. I...When you kissed me I thought you were taking the piss. That it was a joke. I thought...I thought you were just messing around with my feelings, that they were just entertainment. But I realised that you would never do that. You're so much better than that."
That only caused his tears to worsen but they were happy ones now. "What does this mean?"
Jasper pulled away carefully, nervously searching Monty's eyes. Monty thinks he found what he wanted. "Let's do this. It's not one-sided on your part." A grin was slowly spreading on Monty's face. This new found information hadn't yet sunk in; it was simmering on the surface taking its time but it was glorious. "I have no dating experience with guys and I don't know if it’s any different and I don't know how this'll work or how things between us will change and oh my god I'm nervous. Monty stop looking at me." Jasper had gotten redder and redder as he rambled on, it was adorable. "Say something. Please."
"Sorry, to say I'm shocked would be an understatement. I always thought there would never be a chance. Are you sure about this?"
"Are you trying to talk me out of it?" Jasper smirked.
"Definitely not, I couldn't be happier." Monty was still smiling, he couldn't shake it away it was physically impossible.
"Who knew Monty Green had a cheesy side to him?" Jasper remarked. "You've been crying." Concern and anguish flooded Jasper's profile.
"So have you." Monty hated himself a little for making Jasper cry, it was cruel.
"That was my fault for thinking that you would do something like that." There was a pause as jasper grabbed his sleeve and wiped away the drying tears from Monty's face. He glanced at the clock on Monty's wall, 4:25am, and groaned. "Can I stay?"
"Yeah. I'll prepare the sofa." Jasper's hand flung out catching Monty's arm before he could walk away.
"Or we could just both sleep in your bed. I'm not saying that we should...I mean it’s nowhere near time for that...I don't want to make you uncomfortable...I just want to hold you." Jasper always rambled and stumbled over his words when he was nervous. It was one of the many things Monty loved about him. He took Jasper's hand cautiously and led him further into the room to the bed. "You okay with this?"
Monty loved it when Jasper acted sheepish, it made him want to monopolise him. "Jasper you have no idea how long I've waited for this. Of course its fine." The blush that furnished Jasper's face was cute. Monty wanted to kiss him again but had lost any bravery or spontaneity long ago.
Instead he let go of Jasper's hand and walked to the other side of the room, he could feel Jasper's eyes following him. It was making him nervous. He had been alone with Jasper a hundred times but things had altered now. He wasn't sure how big the change would be. That alone was scary but he was too happy to let it bother him. Monty pulled open his drawers grabbing a t-shirt for Jasper to wear. "Here." He said handing it over to him, the tips of his fingers brushing lightly over Jasper's hand.
"Thank you." Jasper smiled. Monty knew he could never tire of it.
Monty nervously fumbled with the zip on his trousers before shaking them off, he heard jasper do the same. He took off his shirt and replaced it with a new one turning around he caught Jasper shirtless and let out a shallow breath. Due to hockey Jasper's muscles had become more defined. His skin was smooth and clear apart from the scars that were scattered across his chest and back.
Jasper had got them in an accident a while back and still blamed himself. Monty remembered the long days and nights at his bedside in the hospital and the sheer relief that flooded him when Jasper finally woke up. Now he was fully recovered and perfectly healthy again. Thank goodness.
Monty pulled the cover back on his bed and climbed in underneath sitting against his headboard whilst he waited for Jasper. Jasper turned, he was still smiling. "Just gonna go to the toilet."
"Okay." Monty smiled back and grabbed his phone off his side table; it was dead. Monty leaned over the side of his bed and grabbed his charger plugging his phone in. By the time Monty had finished fiddling with the wires Jasper had returned and was taking his place in the bed. Monty shuffled down so he was lying down like Jasper. He reached to turn off his lamp and the room went dark, it was quiet - peaceful. "Goodnight Jas."
Monty had just closed his eyes when he felt the warmth next to him grow stronger. Jasper leaned over cupping the side of Monty's face and placed his lips to Monty's, it was gentle, tender and short and undeniably sweet. "Wanted to do that again since the first time. Goodnight Monty." Jasper curled himself into Monty's side wrapping his arm around Monty's slender waist. Monty snuggled closer to Jasper despite the fact it was virtually impossible to be any closer. Monty could soon feel Jasper's breathing settle into a steady rhythm, it was calming enough for Monty's own eyes to droop. He fell asleep with a small smile planted on his face.