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    Ilya had told Shane to leave because they needed space - they needed some room to catch their breath so they could talk about things properly. So they could say sorry and fix the mess they had made. But one day apart stretched into two, into three, into a week, and suddenly Shane was on the other end of the phone, saying, ”Maybe this isn’t going to work, Ilya.”

    At least Ilya is good at that part; he’s an expert in being left behind.

     

    (Or, Ilya and Shane breakup. Then the Centaurs’ plane almost crashes.)

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    20 Jun 2026

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    After Rose and Shane’s first time together, Shane can’t sleep.

    Or: The breakup, sooner. The club scene, entirely different. Marlow, very confused.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    “Hey,” Hollander’s voice changes to something low and soft. He moves quickly, and Ilya realizes suddenly that Hollander is sitting right fucking next to him on the ground.

    “Rozanov, it’s okay. It’s okay.”

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov met at the Prospect Cup when they were seventeen. Ilya doesn't play in North America, he plays in Moscow. Five years later, Shane and Ilya reunite at the Sochi Olympics. Ilya is not doing well.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    19 Jun 2026