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    🌹"No questions. No feelings. Just because we want to."🌹

    Shane Hollander is a PhD student who knows how to stay invisible.
    Ilya Rozanov is Montreal’s most arrogant hockey star—brilliant, reckless, and incapable of following rules he didn't make himself.

    It should be easy to walk away.

    Instead, it becomes something quiet and hidden—late nights, closed doors, and a version of Ilya no one else gets to see. Shane carries his secrets inked beneath the roses winding across his skin, a constant reminder that some things survive only as long as they remain sub rosa.

    Ilya doesn’t do feelings.
    Shane was never meant for something like this.

    But he stays. And he falls anyway, caught between stolen moments and borrowed time.

    And when it finally falls apart, Ilya might realize too late what it means when there’s nothing left to hold onto—and that this time, love might not be enough to bring Shane back.

    (fake dating • secrecy • loving someone who was never going to choose you • happy ending, I promise 💔➡️❤️ • 🔥🔥🔥)

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya ignored the request from the NHL twice. The first time they asked through his agent, the second time the director of marketing called his personal number directly. He never got along with the league as a player, and he certainly didn't need to make them happy now.

    The next attempt to reach him was harder to ignore. A phone call from an unknown number. A voicemail that made his blood run cold.

    "Hi Ilya. This is Rose Landry. We've never met, but Shane speaks so highly of you. I think the NHL has been trying to get in touch. Shane said you probably wouldn't talk to them. But...think about it, ok? I know it would mean a lot to him."

    The final request crumbled his resolve. The caller ID blinked "Jane," and Ilya stared at it.

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    Canon divergence, Shane and Ilya are estranged for a decade. Shane finally reaches out to Ilya when he retires.

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    25 May 2026

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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    13 Feb 2026