CoininAtHeart



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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “No, Ilya, stay.” The last word came out as a whine.

    “Why is he calling you Ilya?” Pike asked.

    "Why is he asking you to stay?” Hollander’s mom followed.

    Ilya shrugged. “How would I know?”

    Hollander lifted his arm out, as if reaching for Ilya. “Because I want him to stay.” It was said in a tone that seemed to say, 'obviously'.

    “Shane,” Hollander’s dad started. “Um- what’s going on? I thought we hated Rozanov.” He seemed to realise what he’d said and glanced at Ilya. “Sorry.”

    “Is fine.”

    "No, I don't hate him. I love him."

    Cliff's jaw was firmly hanging open, and he didn't think it was going to move anytime today. He felt as if he'd been punched in the stomach, all the air ripped away from his lungs.

    "Am I dreaming?" Cliff muttered to himself.

    Pike let out a strained laugh. "I think someone spiked my coffee this morning."

    (cliff, ilya, hayden & shane's parents visit shane in hospital after the incident. a very drugged up shane cannot hide his feelings for ilya)

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Birthday boy Hayden put vodka in a Brita pitcher. Shane drank way too much, and his fingers are clumsily typing confessions to Ilya, who lies in his Montreal hotel room, absolutely confused and a little annoyed about the shitty vodka, Shane's typos, and whatever might or might not be going on with Rose Landry.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    It was sex. It was simple.

    The thing was, Ilya wasn’t entirely sure he believed it was just sex to Hollander. Maybe at first. But not now. And not for a long time.

    The way ‘Ilya’ slipped out of Hollander’s mouth, like a singular drop of water breaking the dam, echoed inside him. It had burrowed deep inside Ilya and was reluctant to leave. And if it really was just sex between them…

     

    Or, Ilya's emotional breakdown after the tuna melt debacle

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    24 Jun 2026

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    ILYA:
    No one is allowed to question the bride on her wedding day!! You just do what I say!!

    TROY:
    How is that different from literally every other day?

    Or: it's Hollanov wedding day!

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    18 Jun 2026