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    After a viral photo outs Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov while they're still busy pretending their years-long situationship is mostly just sex, the fallout gets complicated fast. The world reacts badly. Their teams react worse. Ilya's future in North America starts to look alarmingly fragile, and Shane, who has never met a disaster he didn't try to control into submission, throws himself into fixing what can still be fixed.

    Ilya has spent his whole life being wanted for the wrong reasons and discarded for the right ones. Shane has spent his whole life believing that if he is careful enough, good enough, controlled enough, he can keep disaster from reaching the people he loves.

    A practical solution emerges, then a house, then rings.

    Somehow, by the time they say their vows, both of them are certain they are the only one who means them.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Ilya: Troy came out to the team a few days ago and then asked me for your number

    Shane: And you thought it would be a good idea to give it to him?

    Ilya: It’s been a boring few months.
    Ilya: Was he awkward? He is so awkward.
    Ilya: He is about as bad at being gay as you are.

    Shane: Fuck you.
    Shane: And YES. It was fucking awkward.

    Ilya: I knew it.
    Ilya: Tell me everything.

    Shane: He told me he was gay.
    Shane: Which WTF. Didn't see that coming.

    Ilya: Okay, yes. And?

    Shane: And then he asked me out on a date.

    Ilya: What.

    Shane: And now we’re going to dinner next week after the game.

    Ilya: WHAT.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    “This is a stupid dream,” Shane mutters, scrunching his eyes closed even harder to let in less light. “Why are you here?”

    Rozanov hesitated, almost sounding startled when he spoke. “Is not a dream. I am here because I love you.”

    Shane’s eyes do snap open at that. He can’t focus on Rozanov either, but he tries really hard. “What the fuck?” They did not have THAT kind of relationship. In fact, the last time he’d seen Rozanov, the man had fucked him silly then practically kicked him out of his hotel room without so much as a thank you or a kiss.

    What the fuck was this love shit?

    The man’s shoulders slump and he sits back in his chair. “Oh, Shane.” He sounds so disappointed. “The doctor said—I thought when you woke up again—”

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    They say most accidents happen at home. Shane has a catastrophic one in his parents' garage and loses 9 years of his memories. The last thing he can fully remember being in the elevator and almost sending several text messages after an evening with Rozanov in a hotel suite. All Shane knows is that Rozanov and his parents are in one place, and that's his biggest nightmare.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Of course Ilya wasn't going to choose him.

    And now, he stood in their kitchen like a stranger, having to pretend be okay with the fact that Ilya went out and hooked up with Svetlana on a night meant to celebrate hockey's greatest. A party he wasn't even invited to as a captain himself.

    He spent the entire day coming up with meticulous loopholes and justifications for something that was actually quite simple—nobody remembered. Shane was wholeheartedly forgotten and he was too proud, or maybe dense, to figure it out himself.

    Or, the one where Ilya forgets Shane’s birthday. Coping ensues.

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