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    It’s been almost five years since Kevin graduated from PSU. Five years that he's played Exy professionally. Five years since he’s learned to live on his own. Five years after discovering he’s in love with his best friends, former USC Trojans Jeremy Knox and Jean Moreau.

    Five years since he’s figured out, they will never love him back.

    So, when Jeremy and Jean invite him to their house for Christmas this year, he knows this is it. It’s the finale. The last hurrah. The swan song. The final act. It’s time he lets them go, lets this foolish, one-sided love go, once and for all.

    But he might find this is harder than he ever expected.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Aaron Minyard never was taken back by his mother. Instead he drifts through foster care, separated from his twin since they were two. Yet when someone reaches out, offering to take both of them, why would Aaron say no?

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    24 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 17

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    The problem, naturally, was Neil Josten.

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    Or, Neil always gets the cherry fruit pop, Andrew is enjoying himself, and Aaron is a hopeless hypocrite.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “Are you hungry?” Neil thinks about it and seesaws his hand midair, meaning so-so. “I’ll get you something to eat. Don’t follow me. Can you wait a while?”

    Neil shrugs and nods. Aaron follows the movement of his shoulder and trails his eyes to Neil’s collarbone, where the zip-up he’s wearing reveals the beginning of a design on a bright yellow shirt. The zip-up has twin white stripes on each side of the zipper that match the ones running down its sleeves. It sits loosely on Neil, though not uncomfortably, but it’s obviously not his, and very possibly Kevin’s, and there’s something about that that Aaron finds irritating.

    Neil vigorously gestures at the box in front of him, meaning he’s occupied, then flaps his hand towards Aaron, meaning go away. Aaron rolls his eyes and goes.

    “Don’t be too long,” Neil calls after him. “You know I get bored without you.”

    Aaron does take too long, so Neil can't be held responsible for what happens next, can he?

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Canon divergent Neil x Aaron.

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    Neil Josten. A shock of red hair and ocean blue eyes. Pretty faced, but nothing special.

    Except he makes a throwaway comment about Andrew being off his meds and it’s like everyone in the room forgets to breathe. Even Aaron, his body still and tense with surprise that he can tell them apart.

    Without even having met Aaron, he knew Andrew wasn’t him.

    That shouldn’t mean anything.

    Aaron rubs his sweaty palms on his skinny jeans and tells himself it doesn’t, it doesn’t, it doesn’t.

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    24 Jun 2026