Holyjosh



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  1. Public Bookmark 18

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    “We really need to stop doing this.”

    “I know.”

    Luke says he won’t do this again.

    They both agree they won’t do this again when they’re dressed, in Luke’s living room and not his bedroom, when Calum’s about to leave to see his other friends and Luke’s going to the studio to write.

    It’s easy to agree not to do it again when Calum’s not touching him.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Calum’s breath hits his cheek. Luke’s brain is white noise now. Calum’s never touched him like this before. His mouth, his face. Not the stupid space at the corner of his lips that Luke didn’t even know was sensitive until right this second. And it’s not just the thumb on his lip that’s doing it. It’s his eyes, the way they linger, pinning him down more effectively than any dream-Calum ever did.

    “What happens in these dreams, Luke?”

    The thumb leaves his lip, slides down to his chin, coaxing. Like he’s trying to pull the truth right out of him. Luke swallows hard. His voice doesn’t want to exist. Calum’s eyes don’t move, don’t blink. They’re heavy on him, dark, focused, expectant.

    Luke hasn’t confessed anything, not really. But the way Calum’s looking at him now makes him feel stripped bare. Like the truth is already written across his forehead in Sharpie and Calum’s just waiting for him to read it out loud.

    Luke exhales, shaky. “I think you already know.”

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    17 Jun 2026

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    It still catches him off guard sometimes, how big the feeling is. Calum has spent the better part of his life loving Luke in the margins. In passing glances, in shared rooms, in the blurred spaces between shows and flights and being too tired to think straight. He’s spent just as long missing him too, in breaks and holidays and quarantines and stretches where life pulled them to different coasts, learning how to live with the hollow space in his gut.

    But this is different. It’s missing him with the full awareness of what they are now. It’s missing him as more.

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    17 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 18

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    The desire to kiss Luke is overwhelming. Calum knows he looks ridiculous right now, but Luke’s right there, face inches away, smiling fondly at Calum’s stupid face caught between his careful palms. His eyes are different too. He’s not looking at Calum like he wants to fuck him. He’s looking at Calum like he wants to gently cradle Calum in his giant hands like a baby chick. Somehow, that’s even worse.

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    On tour, Calum starts developing romantic feelings for Luke and he thinks Luke might feel the same way. Once they get home, things get a little strange.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Tomorrow, Luke is determined to have a brand new attitude because Calum really is his best friend and it’s obviously better to support him and not let his own dumb crush get in the way of a friendship that is so deeply important to him.

    That absolutely does not end up happening. And if Michael was still around to witness it, he would tear Luke to shreds because, honestly, what the fuck was he thinking?

    Luke doesn’t have an answer to that.

    Quite frankly, he’s too high to care.

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    03 Jun 2026