LillyVanilly
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Captain and Starlight are perfect for each other. Hongjoong and Seonghwa? Not so much.
For two years, Captain has been Seonghwa’s refuge, his online friend, the one that makes the world feel lighter. Captain is soft, patient, and a rock when Seonghwa needs comfort, teasing when he needs a push. Their chats have always been a little flirty, but lately they’ve been drifting somewhere else. Somewhere Captain craves control and Seonghwa just want to let go.
And yet, when morning comes, Seonghwa’s reality is nothing like that. Next door to his newly opened flower shop is Kim Hongjoong: tattooed, cocky and with an infuriatingly hot tongue piercing and words sharp enough to cut deep. They clash every time they cross paths and Seonghwa just wants Hongjoong to leave him alone.
What Seonghwa doesn’t realize is that the asshole he can’t stand might bring more than just cigarette smoke and hurtful words into his life.
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Bookmarked by LillyVanilly
03 May 2026
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this is not enough (i am not enough) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.
Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”
“Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.
Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.
He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.
OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.
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- Part 2 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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Bookmarked by LillyVanilly
13 Mar 2026
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The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.
So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?
Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.
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Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.
And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.
Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.
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- Part 1 of Woe like velvet, tears like jewels
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Bookmarked by LillyVanilly
09 Mar 2026
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Harry agreed to have sex with Draco once a month in order to keep him alive, what he didn’t agree to was Draco popping up all over the place and disrupting his life in more ways than one.
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Bookmarked by LillyVanilly
09 Feb 2026
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His mother had had six months after his father had died. But it was expected; they had prepared and were already rather distanced. Draco hadn’t been ready, and Merlin, he had been so in love. He knew he was counting down in weeks, not months.
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Bookmarked by LillyVanilly
08 Feb 2026