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    Ilya has never been the jealous type. Not with Svetlana, or Sasha, or the women he's met on his pilgrimage around the MLH circuit in Canada, or the States. Not the ones in clubs under the streets of Moscow, St. Petersburg, anywhere else Sveta could drag his aching soul.

    No, Ilya has never been the jealous type.

    Well. Other than with Shane.

     

    Or: five times Ilya gets jealous (and one time Shane does, too).

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    04 Jul 2026

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    He still didn't know if this was normal - asking your friends about how good they were at sucking dick. Maybe this was how friendship worked for other people, if you weren't both hockey players, if one of you wasn't married, if your friendship didn't depend so much on knowing as little about each other as possible. If you knew the other person liked sucking dick.

    Maybe he just likes it when Rose looks at him like that, awestruck, like he's scored a hattrick. He doesn't know anyone else who would be this impressed by his knowledge of having sex with men, which is unfair, seeing how long he's worked to build it.

    Maybe that's why he ends up where he does, one arm extended to stick two fingers in Rose's mouth, her pink lipgloss sticky, smearing around his fingers, three of her fingers pressed as far as they can go into his, both of them drooling and stifling little snorts of laughter.

    Rose asks a lot of questions.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    When Shane Hollander was drafted, he thought he would retire in Montreal with a C on his chest. A decade later, he understands that dream was never possible. This is the story of everything that happens in between.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    “Fuck you,” Shane bites back, but there’s a tug at his lips because this feels less scary. Familiar.

    Ilya nods. “Yes, maybe. We will see.”

    “Ilya—“

    “Name is okay now?”

    “Can you stop?” Shane demands, ripping his hand through his hair in frustration. “I said I was sorry—“

    “Stop what?” Ilya snaps back. “I try and you leave. I don’t, you give me sad eyes. What do you want?”

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    Or, after Shane walks out on him, Ilya decides Shane isn't great at making decisions anymore.

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    03 Jul 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 89

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    They’d had an argument once, on the bus to Toronto. After they’d both showered, Shane had informed him, in a clipped tone, that he’d booked a separate hotel room, and that the space a night before a game might be what’s best for the team. Ilya, equally mad about something he can’t even remember now, had agreed.

    Shane had ended up at his door again twenty minutes later, with his mouth curled into a snarl, eyes glassy. “Were you really going to just let me go?”

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    03 Jul 2026