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  1. Public Bookmark 45

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    There's a difference between being looked at and being seen.
    Ilya has spent his whole career being looked at. On the ice. In press conferences. Across the width of a rivalry that had never been only rivalry.
    This is the first time he felt seen.
    Part 5 of the In Every Sense series. Set after Not Like This
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    30 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 34

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    There was a plan. Front door code. A night that was supposed to be something.
    Then Marleau was already there and Shane turned a half-second too late and Ilya spent the night on a hotel room floor not knowing which hospital.
    Touch was their first language. He understands that now.

    Part 4 of the In Every Sense series. Set after Not Nothing
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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Uh,” he says, looking up from his screen and feeling his ears go hot, realizing for the first time that this habit of his hasn’t actually come up before until this exact moment.

    “What?” Rozanov asks, sounding more amused than anything else. “You are one of the people who does Instagram for food now?”

    “No,” Shane says, stalling between answering and finishing his Snap so he can send it to Melissa, “one sec.” He finishes typing out 'Tuna melt. Chips. Pickles. It smells really good. Swiss cheese, I think.' before he looks back to Rozanov, putting his phone facedown on the coffee table. “Just sending it to someone on the staff. She likes knowing what I’m eating.”

    He doesn’t know if Melissa likes knowing what he’s eating, per se, but she also seems pleased when he talks about enjoying food for things beyond how many grams of protein it has in it.

    “Ah,” Rozanov says, in a tone Shane can’t quite read. “You always send her your food then, this girl?”

    (shane has a habit of sending his team's dietician his meals for approval) (the problem with this habit? he forgets to tell ilya exactly what it is that melissa does) (how the tuna meltdown is AVERTED through the power of miscommunication)

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    30 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 15

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    A day filled with questions from Shane to Ilya... So. Many. Questions.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    The first note was recorded at 2:13 a.m. in a Boston kitchen, three nights after Las Vegas. Ilya told himself it was a one-time thing.
    He made a second one the next evening.
    This is the archive of everything Ilya Rozanov said to Shane Hollander in a language Shane doesn't speak, in files Shane was never supposed to hear... and what happens when one of them finally gets sent.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Such a great love story!!

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    Harris: Hi, Shane!
    Harris: This is Harris Drover.
    Harris: I got your number from Ilya.
    Harris: Sorry to bother you, but I had a question.
    Harris: I know you’re coming in to sign contracts tomorrow, and I had an idea for a social media thing to announce your signing, if you’d be up for it?

    Shane: Oh, yeah, okay.
    Shane: I’ll be there, so we can do whatever.
    Shane: Always happy to help the team with a little internet humiliation that’ll be around for decades.

    Harris: Perfect!
    Harris: I promise, I think you’ll really like this, though.
    Harris: No humiliation involved.
    Harris: The only caveat is, you can’t tell Ilya.

    Shane: Okay?
    Shane: Why?

    Harris: Well.
    Harris: Here’s what I’m thinking.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    In room 1410, Ilya Rozanov is ready to walk out the door after successfully getting his 19 year old hockey rival into bed. He knew how to make this moment happen and he knows what they have to be to each other now that it's over. But as he turns the doorknob to leave, he's stopped with questions he never expected. And giving Shane Hollander what he needs in that moment will change everything.

    I note which chapters are SFW vs NFSW, because many of you said knowing meant the difference between reading this on your lunch break or having to wait. (Thank you for wanting to read my work that much.)

    Covers the first two years of their rookie seasons (which is mostly skipped over in the show/books). Canon divergent from the first hookup seen in HR s01ep01. Most things are from the show but the timeline is a mix of both; Hunter and Marleau are aged up per the show instead of as young as they are in the books. (Also, Shane and Ilya don't wait *two years*, they stick to the book timeline. IYKYK.)

    Please note this will the first in a series; you can subscribe to the whole series as well so you don't miss anything :)

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t celebrate his birthday, and this one is no different. He’s spending it alone, with only a bottle of vodka and his spiralling mind for company; at least, until the doorbell rings. Expecting a teammate, or Yuna and David, Ilya reluctantly greets his surprise visitor, who ends up being exactly the person he needs.

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    Shane surprises Ilya by visiting him on his birthday, and unwittingly pulls him back from the precipice of a downward mental spiral.

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    29 Jun 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 86

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    What starts out as Shane and Ilya taking a BDSM Test for fun ends with them unearthing Ilya’s Daddy kink. After a lot of soul-searching, negotiations with Shane, and a conversation with his therapist, Ilya is eventually ready to explore this previously buried part of his psyche with the man he trusts more than anyone.

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    Ilya accidentally falls into an in-depth exploration of his psyche, his trauma, vulnerability and submission, and learns how to explore these things without them dismantling his identity as a Dominant Top.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s brain cycled rapidly through a half-dozen celebrities, porn actors, Grindr profiles, every attractive bartender who’d ever served him a beer, trying to find a comparison for this level of outrageously concentrated beauty in one person, but he was drawing a blank.

    The man—Ilya Rozanov, Facilities Attendant, his badge read—gestured around the supply closet. “I help you find something?”

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    Canon-divergent AU set during the 2017-18 MLH season. Shane Hollander doesn’t have a single Cup to his name when he meets a very hot and very annoying janitor who works at the Metros stadium.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    If Ilya Rozanov was set to be branded for life in the space above his butt crack, he was damn well going to pay a premium for it.

    Booking with one of the most exclusive tattoo studios in North America was the easy bit.

    Having his brain melted into oblivion by Shane Hollander’s steady hands and even steadier voice was decidedly not part of the plan.

    Or, the one where tattoo artist Shane is very good at giving instructions.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “Say something.” Ilya asks “in Russian. For me.”

    Then softly, carefully, he does. “Я всё ещё скучный.“ I’m still boring. He tried to add humour to it. But he doesn’t know if it reached.

    Still, Ilya's breath catches.“Oh.” He says like he’s just been handed something precious. “You’re perfect.”

    Or, Shane had been learning Russian the whole time.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “Shane you have…you have felt like you just did before in the past, da?” Ilya says softly. Shane hums, looping one of his arms around Ilya’s neck. Ilya takes his free hand, grazing a thumb across the back of it like Shane is something precious. “Shane?”

    “Yeah,” Shane finally says, his voice grating out of his throat like it hurts him to say it. “Yeah, I’ve felt like that before.”

    Ilya immediately feels bad for asking at all, let alone pushing Shane after he’d already given a non-answer. Shane had said it like he was confessing to one of things he’s the most embarrassed about, something that’d made him feel his lowest and most pathetic, and Ilya knows that it’s because that is what this is. It makes him ache.

     

    --or, Ilya sees up close and personal just how much Vegas had affected Shane during his first summer at the cottage, they acknowledge that Vegas was fucked and take steps to prevent it from happening again

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    27 Jun 2026

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    “I am sorry,” he says. “I am not trying to fight. I just don’t like the idea of you not being okay and me not knowing, even when I am in the same place as you.”

    That Shane can understand. He wouldn’t like it if their positions were reversed, after all, if he thought Ilya was potentially in danger and he was in the next room over drinking champagne and making smalltalk. He sees Ilya go somewhere in his head sometimes, sees him retreat inwards, sees him check out even if his body is still there, going so deep inside that he doesn’t even catch Shane’s eye for a bit even when something funny happens, too far away for Shane to reach him.

    But it’s also not like he can just go up and grab Ilya by the arm and pull him away from the party, not without inviting speculation and a whisper storm. He doesn’t have that right, doesn’t have that privilege, to potentially need Ilya or be needed by Ilya and be able to just pull him away.

    It’s moments like these that Shane feels the weight of their secret like a physical thing.

    (5 times shane and ilya couldn't be openly together and 1 time they could)

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    27 Jun 2026

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    They’re both the best of the best- future draft picks with the world watching.

    One comes from love, support, and certainty. The other comes from pressure, fear, and a family he’s been trying to escape.

    When they meet, neither expects the quiet, careful connection that grows between them. But love has a way of finding its way in, even when it’s dangerous. Especially then.

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    27 Jun 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 50

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    After fleeing Russia, Ilya Rozanov is forced to confront something even more terrifying than his father:

    a future.

    As Shane and the Hollanders slowly make space for him in their lives, Ilya navigates grief, healing, asylum claims, and the unfamiliar feeling of belonging somewhere.

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    27 Jun 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 33

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    Follow up to Single Parent, will help if you've read that one

    “I didn’t realize that we had to start planning a theme park visit two months out,” Ilya said, mildly, as he stirred some sugar into his coffee and took a sip.

    Shane looked at him incredulously over the top of his glasses. He was so handsome, even when he was exasperated, that it made Ilya’s heart leap. “Are you serious?” Shane asked. “We’re late already. I should have booked the hotel before Christmas according to Barb.”

    “Who’s Barb?" They didn’t have any friends named Barb.

    “This YouTube person who tells you how to win Disney..."

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov boards a plane putting more distance between him and his father and the pressure of life in Russia.

    Shane Hollander boards the same plane with a carefully planned routine and excitement over a break from his sometimes overbearing, but always loving Mother.

    Somewhere between Toronto and Vancouver they discover they have a lot in common and become friends.

    They were supposed to be rivals. They were not supposed to fall for each other. Too bad nobody told them that.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya gets his bell rung while playing for Ottawa against Montreal

    He forgets how to speak English and can only speak Russian

    Luckily, Shane Hollander, the light of his life, has learned Russian

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    27 Jun 2026

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