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    “Is it your wedding day?”
    Shane sputters. “Sorry?”
    “The tuxedo,” she points out. “You look like you just got married.”
    “Oh,” Shane says dumbly, glancing down at his rumpled suit. “No,” he adds.
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    Or the one where that one night in Vegas gets a little out of hand for Ilya and Shane and a marriage by accident could turn into one of convenience. And maybe, something more.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    They chose each other.

    In front of cameras. In front of the world.

    But choosing someone once doesn’t mean you know how to keep them.

    Shane is learning how to stay.
    Ilya is learning how to trust what he can’t remember.

    Love isn’t hidden anymore.

    That doesn’t make it easier.
    It just makes it real.

    This is a continuation of Always Only You that answers how we got from chapter 12 to 13. (You can read AOY in these series).

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    13 Jun 2026

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    On the poster, Ilya’s own face looked back at him through a Snapchat dog filter, the image clearly taken to show off his flexed torso. Ilya didn’t recognize the selfie. He could’ve sent it to any number of girls. Someone had put jail bars over the image and below it, in bold letters, was simple text:

    ILYA ROZANOV:
    THIS MAN IS A DOG!
    TEXT IRIS TO JOIN THE SUPPORT GROUP

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    Following the tuna melt diaster, Ilya goes out to a bar in Boston and sees a poster for an Ilya Rozanov support group. Posing as Lily, he joins a group chat of his past consquests and discovers that he's not nearly as hard to figure out as he thinks he is.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    09 Jun 2026